by Leah Wilde
Gage nodded, holding his beer suspended in midair between his waist and his mouth.
“Yeah, well, that’s not the problem here. Everything’s exactly the same,” Fiona said, gesturing to the clubhouse around her.
“Except you?” Gage suggested, raising one eyebrow quizzically.
“I guess,” Fiona said, lifting one shoulder and letting it fall limp in a pathetic excuse for a half-shrug. She didn’t really know why it was bothering her, but it did. Maybe because I haven’t changed either, Fiona said silently to herself, the thought making her heart seize up in her throat like she was choking on a bone. Maybe I’m the same broken, fucked-up girl I always was. Maybe I fit right in here.
“Well, not everything is the same. Shit changes in a year, even in the MC,” Gage said, tearing her away from her thoughts again. “Like, we’ve got a new cook now. Great guy, makes the best ribs you’ll ever have in your life. I’ll introduce you, come on.”
Fiona really didn’t care one way or another if the MC had a new cook, but she followed after Gage anyway, smiling politely at various bikers who remembered her on the way into the kitchen.
“Cash!” Gage called out, rapping his fists against one of the counters. For a second, the chef was nowhere to be found, but then, a moment later, his head popped up from the floor.
“Sorry, sorry, I spilled something. You know me. Slippery hands,” the chef said with a sheepish smile as he walked towards them. “Sorry, I don’t think we’ve met before. I’m Cash, Cash Malone.”
“Fiona Flanagan.” Fiona offered her hand forward for an introductory handshake, but Cash simply shook his head and lifted his hands, which were covered in flour or sugar or some other white cooking substance.
“Gage has told me about you,” Cash said, walking over to the counter to wipe his hands on some paper towel. “You’re like a lawyer, right?”
“Not exactly,” Fiona said, “but I deal with the law a lot. I help connect victims to the representation that they need.”
Cash nodded and smiled a little, but his eyes remained cold and distant. It was clear he didn’t really care about her job and was just being polite. Fiona immediately felt awkward, like she’d been dragged here as Gage’s accessory, a little finishing touch to his outfit rather than an autonomous person herself. She leaned back against the kitchen counter behind her, crossing her arms and ankles to feel more secure. She’d just let Gage do all the talking here. He was better at it than her anyway.
“What are you making for us tonight?” Gage asked, referring to the thick, heavy smell that hung over the whole kitchen.
“Same old, same old. Meat and potatoes, the midnight snack of champions,” Cash said with a laugh. “I am making some dessert for you guys, though, so stick around.”
“Will do,” Gage said, and then he put a hand on Fiona’s shoulder, attempting to steer her back out of the kitchen. For a second, Fiona’s body stayed immobile, rooted to the spot like she’d been frozen in time. She stared at Cash even as Gage applied more pressure to her shoulder and eventually, physically turned her around himself; Cash looked back at her, smiling without any light in his eyes.
Fiona felt a little chill go up her spine, traveling all the way up to the base of her skull. Knock it off, she berated herself, turning her head back to face the main room of the clubhouse where various MC members awaited her. You’re just being weird and twitchy because you’re stuck in the city. You’ll be back out in the country soon enough.
“How long has he been with the MC?” Fiona asked in a lowered voice, keenly aware that Gage’s hand lingered on her shoulder, possessively gripping her like she might fly away.
Gage shrugged. “Little less than a year. He’s really funny. Love that guy.”
Fiona nodded to herself, letting the words sink in. See? You’re just being paranoid. It’s a biker gang. There are bound to be weird, stilted people in here. Not everybody is suspicious. Not everybody is a creep.
But no matter how hard Fiona repeated those words to herself, she couldn’t quite shake the feeling that something was off. Something’s always off with me, Fiona thought to herself as she accepted another shot of whiskey from one of the MC members. Nothing will ever be normal for me again. Ever.
In her mind, she tried to argue with herself, even as she took the shot, feeling herself grow drunker and drunker as the minutes passed by. I’m not broken, she tried to think to herself. I’m not broken. I’m okay. I’m normal. I’m a normal woman.
But Fiona was never a very good liar.
Chapter Seven
Gage woke up early the next morning, stretching hard to pop the tension out of his worn-out muscles. He’d overdone it at the gym the morning before, putting in a last-ditch effort to get his abs in peak shape before Fiona got here. He knew it was stupid. Chances were, she wasn’t even going to see his bare chest and stomach while she stayed in the city. But he had to try.
Maybe I’ll make her see them, he thought as he slipped out of bed and put on a pair of sweatpants. He grinned mischievously to himself as he walked into his bathroom to brush his hair. He’d just walk around without a shirt on. That way, Fiona wouldn’t have a choice. She’d have to see how good he looked nowadays.
When he stepped out into the living room/kitchen area, however, Fiona was nowhere to be found. She must still be sleeping, Gage thought as he walked into the kitchen to prepare breakfast. But first, he pulled out his phone to check his e-mail. Sometimes he got frantic requests for his P.I. work overnight. But right at the top of his inbox was a message from Jack, who’d managed to get ahold of Tori’s text messages and call records within twelve hours.
Gage knew Fiona would want to see this right away, so he walked back over to the hallway to knock lightly on her door. “Fiona? I’ve got some good news,” he called out.
The door swung open, revealing an exhausted-looking Fiona, whose jaw fell open as soon as she got a good look at Gage in his shirtless state.
A second later, Fiona went pale, like she’d just seen a ghost. “Um, I…hi, good morning, hi,” she stuttered out, her eyes drifting up and down his body.
Gage struggled to suppress a self-satisfied smirk. She still wants me, he thought. Even if it’s just physically, she wants me. “Good morning to you, too,” he said, putting one hand up on the frame of the door to flex his abdominal muscles even more. “Tori’s phone records. We’ve got them.”
Fiona’s eyes widened, and she immediately stepped out of the room, shutting the door behind her. “Let me see them,” she demanded.
Gage wordlessly handed his phone over to her before he remembered that the screen automatically locked after a minute of inactivity. “The access code is…”
“I remember it,” Fiona said quickly, dragging her finger down the front of his phone screen to open up the right e-mail. “Let’s comb through these.”
“You start,” Gage said. “I’ll make breakfast.” He knew Fiona would have better insight into what was relevant and what wasn’t worth their time. After all, between the two of them, only Fiona had ever been a teenage girl.
Fiona didn’t answer him, already completely wrapped up in Tori’s virtual life. Gage set about scrambling some eggs and making a few slices of French toast for them. They worked in silence, Fiona studying up while Gage cooked, and Gage couldn’t help but feel…relieved at how comfortable it felt, how familiar. They used to do this all the time, back in the day. He’d cook while her thoughts stewed. He’d take care of her while she took care of the case. They were a great team. Gage had to swallow to clear the lump in this throat that popped up just thinking about it. He missed this. So much.
Once he finished fixing up breakfast, he brought two plates full of food to the table, where Fiona sat thumbing through the phone records with her brows furrowed and her eyes narrowed practically to slits. “Got anything yet?” Gage asked as he sat down across from Fiona.
“Not sure,” Fiona murmured, not looking up from the phone. “She…she had a flirtation or
a…short-lived relationship that didn’t appear in the diary. His name is Chad, Chad Doherty. She talks about how annoying he became, bothering her when she decided she didn’t want to date him anymore.”
“That’s suspicious,” Gage said, beginning to dig into his eggs. “Most women are killed or abused by intimate partners.” Fiona nodded in response, and then they fell into silence for several long moments before Fiona finally spoke again.
“It’s possible…it’s possible that she wasn’t even taken by The Knife, isn’t it?” Fiona asked, finally tearing her eyes away from Gage’s phone to look him in the eyes. “It could be a copycat, trying to misdirect the police’s attention so that they can get away with killing her.”
“Yeah, it’s possible,” Gage agreed. “My gut tells me otherwise, though.”
Fiona bit down on her bottom lip, nodding more to herself than to Gage. He couldn’t help but wonder what all was going through her beautiful head.
“You should eat,” Gage said, gesturing towards her full plate. “You’ll need your energy if we’re going to catch some scumbags.”
Fiona picked up her fork and stabbed at her eggs but didn’t actually bring any of the food to her mouth just yet. She returned to looking at the phone, but a few seconds later, she froze, her eyes rising again to meet Gage’s. This time, her eyes looked full and wide, like she’d just pieced together the final bit of a puzzle. “Her dad hit her,” she said lowly. “A week before she went missing. Look,” she said as she handed Gage his phone, pointing to a message that Tori wrote to one of her close friends.
Gage cleared his throat and began to read out loud, “My stupid fucking father wouldn’t let me go out yesterday. I yelled in his face, so he slapped me. Mom told me to stop being a baby about the whole thing. Such a bitch. Can you believe that?”
Fiona took the phone back, but she finally put it down next to her plate and began eating, chewing slowly, obviously still lost in thought. “Could be nothing…”
“Could be something, though,” Gage argued. “Sometimes small acts of violence snowball. That might not have been the first time he hit her. Or the last.”
“But why would they come to you, then?” Fiona asked in between swallows of French toast. “Are they really that arrogant to think that they could trick you into pinning the crime onto somebody else?”
“Yeah, it doesn’t make sense. Still, it’s worth looking into,” Gage said, even though he didn’t believe that the Greenwoods were responsible for Tori’s disappearance. They seemed too genuine, too sincerely heart-broken about what had happened to their daughter. Gage would be shocked if they were behind the whole thing.
“So we’ve got a working list of suspects here,” Gage said as he finished off the rest of his eggs. “The parents of the unnamed girl, the Greenwoods, the guy at the sunglasses hut, and the ex-boyfriend. That’s good to start with.”
But Fiona frowned and pushed her red hair out of her face, the way she always did when she was struggling to gather her thoughts. “But if it is The Knife…he could be anybody. I need to look at the crime scene photos again, get an idea of how his mind works.”
“Are you sure…” Gage trailed off, thinking about how the photographs seemed to trigger Fiona in a powerful way just the night before.
But Fiona nodded furiously, so fast that her head practically became a blur. “Yes, I’m sure. I need to do this.”
That’s my girl, Gage thought with pride as he got up to go to the evidence cabinet, pulling out the gruesome pictures from the crime scenes again.
Fiona stared at them a long time, tapping her feet anxiously under the table like she was itching to break into a run. Gage honestly wouldn’t blame her. After everything that she’d been through, it was amazing that she was able to confront stuff like this at all. Maybe I’m just torturing her, Gage thought, feeling the heavy sensation of guilt sink down through his stomach. Maybe I should have never bothered her. Maybe she just needs to rest, not get drawn back into this bullshit.
But Fiona sprung up from her chair a minute later, gripping one of the crime scene photos in her fist. “The spiral.”
“The thing he carved on that one girl’s knee?”
“Right,” Fiona said. “It means something. It’s not just a doodle. It’s Masonic imagery. There’s an eye in the center, see? You have to really squint to see it, but it’s there.”
“What do you mean? The killer’s a Freemason?”
Fiona shook her head. “More likely, someone who thinks the Masons were more mystical and powerful than they really were. So, judging by that, the killer’s a man, although that was already statistically likely from the outset. He’s probably older. It’s not likely that a teenager is obsessed with the Freemasons, although I suppose it’s still possible. And…” Fiona trailed off, rubbing her finger over the edge of the photograph. “He thinks he’s doing God’s work. He thinks it’s holy or sacred or important.”
“Shit,” Gage whispered. “Any other information you think we could use?”
“Um, he probably doesn’t have a criminal record. At least, not for physical violence, anyway,” Fiona said, blowing a few random strands of coppery hair out of her face.
“How do you figure that?” Gage asked.
“He wants our attention. Really bad,” Fiona said. “Otherwise, he wouldn’t go to all the trouble of mailing the hearts to the families. He feels like he hasn’t been recognized, like he hasn’t gotten his fair share. If he’d been convicted for hurting someone before now, he’d feel differently, maybe even a little scared to be caught again. But he’s never been caught.”
“Fuck, you’re smart,” Gage murmured, the words leaving his mouth without his permission. He saw Fiona blush a little, her pale cheeks going a deep pink as her eyes dropped to the floor bashfully.
“Thank you,” she muttered in response.
Gage could tell that Fiona’s skin was crawling. She was always uncomfortable when people looked at her for too long, even Gage. He quickly made up an excuse to leave her alone. “I’m gonna go get the mail. Be right back,” he said, walking past her to leave his apartment and go out to his mailbox.
When he reentered his apartment a minute later, he realized that Fiona still had his phone. He needed to e-mail Jack back to thank him for the favor, but Fiona was nowhere in sight. “Fiona?” he called out, scanning the living room and kitchen for any sign of her. But she wasn’t there.
A small little flash of fear went up Gage’s spine. Calm down, crazy, he said to himself silently. Nobody kidnapped Fiona. She’s fine. We’re fine. Everything’s fine.
Even still, he found himself walking into the spare bedroom, anxious to find Fiona and dispel the worry that had suddenly clogged up his throat. “Fiona?” he called out, but he couldn’t see her, even after walking through the bedroom’s doorway.
But then a second later, he heard something, a sweet, high noise, like the chirping of birds. Gage turned to find the source of the noise, cracking open the door of the bathroom to reveal Fiona in the shower, singing something above the noise of the water hitting her naked body.
Gage could see her silhouette even through the fogged-up glass door. Her long legs, her slim waist, her pert breasts—all of her gorgeous, beautiful, miraculous body was right there, right in front of him. Gage longed to lunge forward and crash through the shower door, press their bodies together and never let go. He wanted to be wet with her. He wanted their bodies to stick together like glue, never coming apart.
Fiona turned to face him, and for one long, glorious moment, Gage thought she was going to open the shower door and reveal herself, fully. But instead, her jaw dropped open and her hand flew up to cover her mouth in shock.
“Gage! What the hell are you doing?!” Fiona shouted, covering her breasts and vulva with her hands.
“I’m…sorry, sorry, I’m sorry,” Gage stuttered out, stumbling backwards until he left the bathroom entirely.
Fuck. What have I done?
Chapter Eigh
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Fiona stood there under the water, which turned from warm to cool to freezing above her. But she couldn’t move out of the way. She couldn’t budge a single fucking inch. What the hell had just happened?
Fiona shut her eyes and let the chilly water crash over her nude body, causing her to shiver and shake. But it was what she deserved. She had done something very bad.
When Gage first walked in, she heard him, felt his presence as he entered the room. But she didn’t freak out right away. She hadn’t immediately told him to go away. She waited, staring at the wall of the shower in front of her, her breathing going ragged as she waited for Gage to do something.
Bad thoughts had entered her brain. Terrible thoughts. Unforgivable thoughts.