by Anne Gracie
“Did you grill a seven-year—”
“I didn’t precisely grill him, just…put things together. He spoke of his father in the past tense. You do, too, as a matter of fact.” He smiled. “And you’re a widow.”
“Yes, but I’m not that sort of widow!”
“What sort do you mean?” He sauntered toward her.
She took several steps back. “I am a widow, but I have no desire to change that state! I know what marriage entails and I want nothing to do with it ever again!”
“Who said anything about marriage?”
Her eyes widened. “I have principles!”
He shrugged and took another step forward. “Principles won’t keep you warm at night.”
Her eyes lit with a sudden gleam. “No, but thanks to you I know exactly what will.”
His smile widened. “Excellent, so—”
“A hot brick,” she said triumphantly and swept toward the kitchen door.
Her son was sitting in a tin bath, being ruthlessly scrubbed by Mrs. Barrow, while the urchin, Jim, watched gleefully. “’Orrible, ain’t it?” he was saying, but Nicky knew better than to open his mouth while there was soap in Mrs. Barrow’s hand.
“Wait till she cuts all your hair off.”
Callie opened her mouth to forbid it, but Mrs. Barrow got in first. “I won’t be needing to cut this boy’s hair—his hair has been brushed in the last six months, unlike others I could name! And if you keep sitting there making foolish remarks, you won’t be wanting any breakfast.”
Jim shut his mouth.
Callie hurried to help Mrs. Barrow rinse the suds from Nicky’s body. It had been years since she’d bathed her son. When Rupert had discovered how she bathed her baby herself, he’d forbidden it. The palace nursemaids did that sort of thing, not his son’s mother. Such a menial chore was improper for a princess.
Callie poured warm water through her son’s hair, smoothing it, enjoying the clean squeak of it, smiling at his screwed-up face, knowing perfectly well that Nicky was acting for the sake of the boy, Jim.
These moments of closeness with her son had been an unexpected consequence of this journey.
Nicky stepped from the bath to be dried. He stood stiffly, knowing his bad leg was visible to all in the room, making no sign that he cared.
Callie moved to shield him. She rubbed the small frame with rough towels, feeling defensive and angry, even though nobody had said a word. Just let them dare, that was all!
“Here y’are, lovie, he can wear these.” Mrs. Barrow passed her a set of clothes from a small tin trunk.
Gabriel eyed the trunk. “Does that contain what I think it does?”
Mrs. Barrow didn’t meet his eyes. “Just a few of Harry’s old clothes.”
“You’ve got a trunk full of Harry’s old clothes? Small enough to fit these boys? How long have you been keeping them?”
“They were too good to throw out!” she said defensively.
“You could have given them away.” He explained to Callie, “Harry’s as tall as me.”
“Well, I’m giving them away now,” Mrs. Barrow retorted. “Now that our Harry’s back, safe from the war—and if you want your coffee good and hot, you won’t be saying another word, Mr. Gabe!”
“Not a word,” he promised hastily.
Callie repressed a smile. It seemed Mrs. Barrow’s threats worked as well on grown men as they did on small boys.
“Oh, but our portmanteau is here now. I don’t know yet how much seawater got in—Nicky may have dry clothes of his own.” She looked around, but could not see the portmanteau.
“Barrow has taken it up to your bedchamber,” Mrs. Barrow told her. “Why not use Harry’s clothes for the moment?” She scooped up the muddy pile of clothes from the floor and headed for the scullery.
Callie nodded and dressed her son in the clean, worn clothes of another boy. Never in his life had Nicky worn such shabby clothes, but he seemed quite happy about it, and beggars could not be choosers.
“Lady, everything in that bag is wet,” the boy, Jim, said.
“How do you know?” she said, as she slipped a shirt over Nicky’s head.
“Jim, er, rescued the portmanteau for us, Mama,” Nicky said. His eyes met Jim’s. “He brought it all the way up from the beach. It was a very difficult and dangerous thing to do. The rain made mud slides over the path.”
“Thank you, Jim,” she said.
Jim scuffed his bare toes in embarrassment. “I didn’t exactly rescue—”
Nicky interrupted, with a fierce look at Jim. “He did, Mama. He’s very strong and clever.”
Callie finished dressing Nicky and gave him a kiss on the forehead. She had a very good idea what a boy like Jim would be doing with her portmanteau, but Nicky’s eyes were pleading with her to accept his new friend. He’d never had a friend. He had no relations his own age and his father hadn’t thought it proper for him to play with common children. Callie knew what that was like. She’d grown up lonely, too.
“Thank you, Jim.” On impulse she gave the fisher boy a kiss on the forehead as well. The boy squirmed and the tips of his sticking-out ears went red, but he tried not to grin. In Callie’s head Papa and Rupert roared with outrage. Callie smiled. She was her own woman now, subject to nobody’s rules.
There was a short silence, then the sound of a throat being noisily cleared from the doorway, where Gabriel had been lounging against the doorjamb, observing. “Don’t I get a kiss, too?” he said.
She raised her brows.
“I fetched the portmanteau from the cliffs,” he reminded her and puckered his lips suggestively.
“Thank you, Mr. Renfrew, but a good deed is its own reward,” she said sweetly. To Mrs. Barrow she said, “I shall go upstairs and discover the condition of the things in my portmanteau.”
“Won’t you be wanting any breakfast, ma’am?”
“Oh, yes, a cup of tea and some toast would be lovely, thank you.”
“And what about a nice bit o’ bacon, ma’am?”
Callie hesitated. Bacon. How long had it been since she’d eaten bacon? Rupert had forbidden it to her.
“Very well then, some bacon, thank you.” She paused. “Where shall I take it?”
“I’m having mine right here.” Gabriel crossed the room and swung a long leg over one of the chairs that surrounded the long kitchen table.
Callie stared. The master of the house eating in the kitchen? She’d never heard of such a thing. He must have read her mind, for he said, “I’ve been breaking my fast in Mrs. Barrow’s kitchen since I was Nicky’s age and younger. Best place in the world, I thought it was when I was his age, apart from the stables.” He glanced across at Jim. “I’ll wager Jim thinks so, too, now he’s tasted Mrs. Barrow’s cooking, eh, Jim?” The boy nodded fervently.
“I shall take my breakfast in the…” Callie wasn’t sure where. She only knew she wasn’t going to eat bacon in the kitchen with that man watching her. And with the taste of his kisses still on her mouth.
“The breakfast room, ma’am?” suggested Mrs. Barrow. “In about fifteen minutes?”
“Yes, if you will just tell me where it is,” Callie agreed gratefully.
Chair legs scraped on the stone-flagged floor. “I’ll escort you.” Gabriel held out his arm.
Unable to refuse, Callie took his arm and allowed him to lead her to the breakfast room. Sunshine streamed through long French windows. They opened on to a terrace that overlooked the garden at the side of the house. Small enough to be cozy without being poky, the room was decorated in pale green and white with rose upholstery and curtains. It was almost as if the garden had crept into the room.
“Oh, what a pretty room,” she exclaimed, forgetting she’d planned to crush him with dignified silence.
“I believe my great-aunt was fond of it. I never use it,” he said indifferently, pulling out a chair for her at an oval mahogany table.
She walked to the French windows and stepped out onto th
e terrace. “I never had a great-aunt,” she said. “Were you fond of yours?”
He followed her outside. “Yes. She was a terrifying old lady, but with a very kind heart. She used to give me a daily grilling on my lessons.” He quirked a rueful smile. “Boys were a variety of humanity she believed were in dire need of civilizing—which came in the form of discipline, exercise, and rewards.”
He saw her expression and laughed. “Great-aunt Gert was passionate about the training and breeding of dogs. She treated boys much the same way—not the breeding, of course. But don’t get the idea she was some mad old recluse—she also adored the social whirl and went up to London every season—to terrify the ton, Harry and I always thought. She always returned much refreshed.”
Callie smiled and strolled a few steps along the path. “She didn’t have any children of her own?”
“Lord, no! I doubt there was a man in England brave enough to marry her.”
“That’s sad,” Callie said. It was warm in the morning sun. Bees were already out and buzzing around the sweet Alice and the lavender. The pathway led to a circular bed containing a sundial. She walked toward it.
He followed her. “With sentiments like that, I’m surprised you don’t plan to marry again.”
“No, I won’t remarry,” Callie told him. “Not ever. Not to anyone. I want nothing further to do with men.”
He heaved a sigh. “That’s my hopes and dreams dashed forever, then.”
They walked on. It had been a good thing to set him straight, Callie thought. Best to get it clear and out in the open. No misunderstandings. He’d stop bothering her now. He’d leave her alone, and that would be a good thing.
She didn’t need to be…bothered.
He was a very…bothersome man.
She darted him a sidelong glance. He’d been silent for several moments now. She hoped he wasn’t too crushed by her announcement. Not that he should be—they’d only just met, for heaven’s sake.
He caught her looking. “So,” he said. “You’re absolutely sure. No plans to marry again?”
She gave a firm nod. “None.”
“You wouldn’t consider becoming my mistress?”
She stopped short, scandalized. She’d told him she had principles. She whirled to face him. His eyes were laughing at her. He was teasing her, she realized.
The way he laughed with his eyes, laughing and seeming to…caress…at the same time…it was most disconcerting.
“You are joking,” she told him.
“Am I indeed?”
“Yes, for you know perfectly well I am a respectable widow—”
“Oh, we needn’t tell anyone, if that’s what you’re worried about—”
She gave him a severe look. “I told you, I have no desire to put myself under the thumb of any man, ever again.”
“But it wasn’t my thumb I was thinking of.” He said it with such a wicked, laughing look she was hard put to know what to say. So she turned on her heel and walked off.
It took her several minutes of marching along as fast as her legs could carry her before she was able to think at all, let alone think of an appropriately crushing, yet dignified response. His words, along with that laughing smile in his eyes, were a pure invitation to sin. She snorted, remembering the session in the stables.
Nothing pure about it!
She could hear him coming up behind her on the path. She quickened her pace. His didn’t seem to alter, and yet he still gained on her. It wasn’t fair that he should have such long, strong legs and hers should be short and rounded. The only way to escape him would be to run, but she wouldn’t put it past him to run after her. The wretch probably would enjoy chasing her.
A small voice inside her suggested timidly that she might find it exciting, too. She ruthlessly squashed it.
She deliberately slowed her pace and stopped to stare earnestly at a flower. She had no idea what it was; she’d never been any good at botany, but he needn’t know that.
He stopped beside her and waited. She felt the warm wash of his gaze flow over her. And ignored it. She stared hard at the flower. He bent and peered at it over her shoulder.
“Fascinating,” she murmured, trying not to be aware of the proximity of his big, masculine body.
“Utterly,” he agreed fervently. “Something special, do you think?”
She frowned thoughtfully over the small, blue-flowered plant. “It could well be,” she said, hoping he was no botanist.
“It definitely could be,” he agreed. “If only creeping charley was not regarded as a weed in England.” He paused a moment, then added, “Shall I get someone to pull it out before it spreads, or would you rather paint it or press it in your Weeds of England scrapbook?”
She continued the walk in dignified silence. He strolled along beside her.
“This is nice, isn’t it?” he said chattily.
She didn’t respond.
“Getting to know each other like this,” he continued unabashed. “Breathing the morning air. Learning about your fascination with English weeds…and your fear of thumbs.”
“You know perfectly well what I meant by not wanting to be under the thumb. My entire life has been spent under the rule of two extremely autocratic men—first my father and then my husband. Now, I have had my first ever taste of freedom, and nothing—no man—could ever taste sweeter than that.”
“Is that a challenge?” he said softly.
“No! Do not be so frivolous.”
“I wasn’t,” he said in a meek voice, but his eyes were dancing.
It was the color, she thought irrelevantly. She’d never seen such blue, blue eyes. Like sunlight sparkling on the sea. Another thing that wasn’t fair. Men shouldn’t be allowed to have eyes like that.
They walked on and, as they turned a corner, the house came into view again. Thank goodness, Callie thought. She might have been walking on a firm graveled path, but it had felt as though she’d been negotiating a marsh, full of traps for the unwary.
He was a very dangerous man! She glanced at him and found him watching her.
“I’m so relieved,” he told her.
Callie could not imagine what he was talking about. “Relieved?”
“That you don’t dislike my thumbs. I think they’re quite nice thumbs—for thumbs, that is. Don’t you think?” He spread his hands out for her to inspect, and though it was clearly ridiculous, she couldn’t help glancing at his hands.
“What do you think?” he asked.
She gave them a second critical look and sniffed. “All I can see is that your thumbs are rather large,” she said in a quelling voice.
He gave her a slow smile. “Exactly.”
Callie had no idea why she should blush, but she did. “I think our breakfast will be ready now,” she said and marched briskly back to the breakfast room.
He strolled along beside her. “Yes, I’m ravenous.” The way he said it, he didn’t just mean for food.
Callie walked faster. She reentered the breakfast parlor. “Did your great-aunt live to a great age?” She was determined to stick to safe subjects.
“Yes, I believe she was eighty or more—she never would let on how old she was. Harry and I thought her a hundred, at least, when we were young. She died just after I left for the war, and for some reason, she left this house to me. I have no idea why. I certainly hadn’t expected it.”
Callie knew from Mrs. Barrow that Gabriel had spent almost eight years at war, yet the curtains looked new and the paintwork of the room seemed fresh, as if done quite recently. “So you kept her color scheme in memory of her. That’s lovely.”
“No, it isn’t. I had no say in the color scheme. When I sold out of the army, my eldest brother had this place cleaned up for me. I doubt he gave any orders about colors or fabric, so everything was simply renewed.”
“That was nice of him,” she offered.
“Hmm.” He made a noncommittal noise. “I expect he was relieved to have somewhere to put me.”
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“Put you?” He didn’t seem like the sort of man anyone put anywhere.
“I’m the youngest of three sons—legitimate ones, that is,” he explained. “Surplus to requirements, therefore. My older brother is the earl of Alverleigh, my second brother is in the diplomatic service, and I entered the army. But now that Boney is finally defeated I’m surplus to requirements there also. Ah, here is our breakfast.”
Mrs. Barrow entered, carrying a teapot, a coffeepot, and a jug, probably of milk, on a tray. She was followed by two small, ferociously clean boys, each one carefully carrying a tray containing silver chafing dishes. Callie stared. Her son had never carried a tray in his life.
The crown prince of Zindaria waiting at table. Papa and Rupert would have been utterly appalled.
Her Serene Highness, Princess Caroline of Zindaria, wanted to giggle.
The prince grinned at her, clearly enjoying himself, the mischief in his eyes conveying that he’d had much the same thought.
“That reminds me, Mr. Gabe,” Mrs. Barrow said, “I hired a few servants while I was visiting my mother.”
She set her tray down on the sideboard with a thump and fixed him with a contentious look. “You won’t have any objection to that, I’m sure. They’ll start tomorrow. Give us time to set everything to rights. Harry will be arriving any day now with Lord knows how many grooms and ostlers, and I’ll be run off me feet with just the cooking. Yes, Jim, put the hot dishes on those cork mats, otherwise they’ll ruin the varnish; careful now, don’t burn yourself. Good lad. Now off you go and start toasting that bread.”
She turned back to Gabriel, hands on hips and said, “There’s bacon and scrambled eggs and I did you some deviled kidneys, Mr. Gabe, knowing as you’re partial to them, so eat them while they’re hot. I got three maidservants for the cleaning, and two footmen, and a scullery maid, so the next time breakfast is served in here it’ll be by a footman or a maid. And Barrow reckons young Jim’s pa has been missing for some weeks, now, so I thought we could take him in and train him up for something. Can’t leave a boy to starve. Enjoy your breakfast, ma’am. I’ll send one o’them lads back in with toast in a trice.” And she swept out of the room.