Call Me Athena

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by Colby Cedar Smith


  donation box,

  she says with a grin.

  To entertain ourselves

  we turn on the wireless,

  and a crackled voice

  whines through the speakers.

  Wearing a white silk gown

  and white gloves,

  Earhart broke up a dinner at the White House

  by inviting the first lady

  on a flight to Baltimore

  and back.

  Earhart was at the controls

  of the plane

  most of the flight.

  Amelia Earhart

  and the first lady!

  Lara grabs my arm.

  A match

  made in heaven!

  I squeal.

  We lean in to listen

  as Eleanor Roosevelt’s voice

  floats over the airwaves.

  I’d love to do it myself.

  I make no bones about it.

  It does mark an epoch,

  doesn’t it,

  when a girl in an evening dress

  and slippers

  can pilot a plane

  at night. 21

  We both smile,

  eyes full of joy and light.

  A sunrise, a blessing,

  a wide open

  horizon.

  I spend the next few hours thinking

  about flying alone in a plane

  while digging my way

  through a pile

  of random junk.

  Some of it

  makes me smile.

  Some makes me

  gag.

  I find an itchy pair

  of woolen pants

  with a pair of soiled underwear

  still attached.

  A hat

  with an entire pheasant,

  its teal and rust

  wing

  stretched

  across the brim.

  Plastic waders

  for fishing in deep water.

  A brassiere

  with padded cups

  as large

  as two elephant feet.

  I hold it up to my body

  and dance.

  Lara starts giggling.

  She puts on

  a pair of Coke-bottle glasses

  and pretends to use

  a pair of dentures.

  The other girls go bananas.

  At the very end of the day

  I see something

  peeking out

  from a pile of gray.

  A swath

  of emerald green

  silk.

  I pull

  and pull and pull

  and it keeps coming

  like a silk scarf

  being pulled

  out of

  a magic hat.

  It’s an evening dress

  Sleeveless,

  bias-cut, and soft

  as the inside

  of a rabbit’s ear.

  It must have been

  worn once.

  It’s perfect

  except for a tear

  running

  all the way down

  the seam.

  I bring the dress to Clarabelle

  secretly

  hoping she’ll

  think it’s unfixable

  and throw it

  away.

  Instead she takes it,

  turns it inside out,

  and runs it through

  the sewing machine.

  The needle

  bobs efficiently along

  the silky fabric

  like she’s mending

  a muslin

  housedress.

  That’ll probably do.

  Now that I look at it,

  it’s about your size, Mary.

  Will you try it on

  so I can see if

  it needs any other mending?

  I try to contain my excitement

  as I duck

  behind a changing screen.

  Slip my legs through

  the glossy fabric.

  Come out

  and present myself.

  She looks at me

  with a pained expression.

  Oh, Mary.

  What’s wrong?

  It looks like it was meant for you.

  She lifts the zipper

  and turns me

  toward the mirror.

  All the other volunteers

  gather to look.

  I look at myself

  in the mirror,

  covered in soft green silk.

  The color

  bounces off my dark hair

  and light eyes.

  I’ve never felt

  so beautiful.

  You must take it home!

  One of the women says.

  What shoe size are you, Mary?

  Will these fit?

  Lara hands me

  a pair of

  silver T-strap high heels.

  I slip my heel

  into them

  and they fit.

  Ooooo! What about this?

  Yet another volunteer

  rummages

  through her piles

  and produces

  a silver and pearl hairpin

  in the shape of a star.

  And this!

  Another woman

  produces a silvery ribbon.

  Pins the star to it

  and strings it

  though my black, curly hair.

  I couldn’t possibly

  take all this.

  I’ve never worn

  anything this nice.

  I stare in the mirror.

  Could this really be me?

  Clarabelle hugs me tight

  around my shoulders.

  Consider it a thank-you

  for all your hard work.

  Then she pats herself on the chest

  and smiles.

  How do you think

  I got this fancy apron?

  Giorgos (Gio)

  Ellis Island, New York

  1917

  I feel the sting of the handcuffs

  as I stare through the gray fog

  at the Statue of Liberty.

  I am in the land of the free,

  but I am in chains.

  We wait and watch

  the mass

  of ticketed passengers

  disembark.

  The attendants sit at tables,

  take names,

  write them into ledgers,

  sort people

  into groups.

  After the crowd clears,

  an armed marshal

  barks orders at us.

  We line up.

  They march us off the boat.

  Directly

  into a jail cell.

  I lie to the guards

  I tell them that I am an orphan.

  I tell them I am seventeen.

  They can’t understand

  what I’m saying.

  They pull up

  eyelids

  with a buttonhook.

  They examine:

  mouths

  nails

  ears

  teeth.

  They pull a woman from the group,

  mark her with chalk.

  The letter H on
her sleeve.

  They take away one man

  with pink eyes.

  They sequester

  a sallow-skinned girl,

  who pinches

  her cheeks

  to make them appear

  rosy, healthy.

  The prisoners of Ellis Island

  are Italian, Russian, Slavic,

  Arabic, and German.

  We do not speak to each other.

  We do not want to be sent back. 22

  They slide porridge

  under the bars

  of the cell.

  It’s swimming

  with mealworms.

  One of the inmates gags

  and slides it back.

  I spend an hour

  picking the

  sleek, brown

  bodies

  out of the oats

  so that I can eat.

  I wake early in the morning

  There is a man in a uniform

  standing above me.

  They tell me you want to be

  a citizen of the United States

  of America.

  Is that right, boy?

  I don’t quite understand.

  I hear the words

  citizen of the United States

  of America.

  I nod yes.

  Well, I have

  a pretty good idea

  how we can make

  that happen

  for you.

  He leaves

  a pressed and folded

  U.S. Army uniform

  at the foot of my bed.

  They wait two weeks

  and then load me onto

  a ship.

  This time with a ticket

  to France.

  Jeanne

  Saint-Malo, France

  1917

  I teach Vera

  how to pry

  small, black mussels

  from the gray boulders

  next to the salty sea.

  Just like my father

  taught me.

  We search the sand

  for tiny bubbles

  rising from

  the razor clams

  buried deep

  within the silt.

  Vera looks out

  at the green water.

  I want to know

  what she knows,

  the world beyond

  this harbor.

  We fill our baskets

  with black and gray jewels.

  When they are full,

  we strap them to our backs,

  wade in the shallow water

  and splash each other.

  Mouths wide open

  with laughter.

  Our freckled faces

  kissed by the sun.

  At my mother’s house

  we rinse sand

  from the shells.

  Our maid, Anne,

  helps us

  mince garlic

  and shallots.

  We cook them in a large pot

  with white wine

  until the lovely smell

  of cooking garlic

  rises through the house,

  seeps out of the windows

  and onto the street.

  The people

  passing by

  stop to close their eyes

  and think about

  all the beautiful meals

  they have eaten

  throughout their lives

  and the friends

  who have sat at their

  tables

  after a perfect day

  at the beach.

  Mary

  Detroit, Michigan

  1933

  Letter #12

  November 1, 1918

  When did you know that you loved me?

  When you first heard my voice?

  When you first saw my face?

  When your lips touched mine?

  Come back.

  There are many more first things to experience.

  Forever yours,

  Petit Oiseau

  On Sunday

  we kiss things.

  The icons

  at the entrance

  of the nave.

  Theotokos,

  the Mother of God.

  We cross ourselves.

  The thumb

  and two fingertips

  pressed together

  for the Holy Trinity.

  We kiss

  the priest’s hand.

  We kiss

  each other

  before communion.

  Christ is in our midst.

  He is and shall be.

  We place the chalice

  to our lips, and we drink.

  Leave the church

  walking backward,

  bow and cross ourselves

  again.

  Grateful.

  The service is done.

  As usual

  after the liturgy,

  Dimitris

  is waiting for me.

  The women

  swirl

  as they fetch coffee

  and biscuits

  for their men.

  That coffee smells good.

  He motions to the table.

  Empty handed.

  I am expected

  to serve him.

  I walk up,

  pour a cup

  from a bronze urn.

  I turn toward him,

  hold my pinky up.

  Take a slow sip,

  not taking my eyes

  from his.

  You’re right, Dimitris.

  The coffee is good.

  I walk away

  to find my sister.

  My shy sibling

  is surrounded

  by old women.

  Her eyes say, Save me.

  I pull her away

  from the crowd.

  Thank goodness.

  Mrs. Manikas was talking

  about her gout.

  Let’s leave before anyone

  starts talking

  about needlepoint.

  Or lower-back pain.

  Or your

  future marriage

  to an eligible

  bachelor

  in the community.

  Let me grab my coat.

  On the walk

  I prepare myself.

  We stop walking

  in front of Sacred Heart.

  Will you tell Mama

  that I’m working

  at the clothing drive tonight?

  I thought

  we were walking home

  together.

  They need me.

  I’ll be back late.

  Don’t forget

  to tell Mama where I am.

  I open

  the heavy side door

  and slip inside

  before

  she can say

  another word.

  I lied to my sister.

  I lied

  to my best friend.

  For a boy.

  The last time I was here

  I stashed my dress

  in a paper sack

  hidden

  behind a heavy

  potted plant

 
in the ladies’ lavatory.

  I sneak

  through the dark corridors,

  barely breathing.

  The door creaks

  as I open it.

  It’s still there.

  I’ve always imagined

  what it would be like

  to act in a play.

  To wear a costume

  or a mask.

 

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