for Rebecca, Tsabel, Daniel and Levi the new generation
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Chapter 1
alerie heard the small cough in the plane's engine and turned from her view of the forest three thousand feet below to look at Carlton, beside her in the pilot's seat. He was scowling. "Did you hear diat?"
"What?" He glanced at her, his scowl deepening. "Hear what?" "The engine coughed."
"I didn't hear it. Could be some condensation in the gas line." He flicked switches on the instrument panel to turn on the fuel pumps, then withdrew again into his own thoughts. "Are you sure? It didn't sound like it."
"Since when are you a pilot?" he said impatiently. "Everything's fine. The plane checked out when we flew up here and that was only four days ago."
"Well, if it's not the plane, what is it? What's wrong, Carl? You've barely said a word since we left: this morning; you rushed us out to fly home, three days before we planned to, and you won't tell me why."
"I said you and the others could stay; you didn't have to come with me. I didn't even want you."
"I know," she said wryly. **Why do you diink I insisted on coming? Are you running off to some mysterious woman I should know about?"
He muttered something she could not make out above the engine noise.
'Well, whafs a litde silence between friends?" she murmured and turned away from him. Behind her, their friends Alex and Betsy Tarrant were talking together, occasionally trying to draw out the third passenger, a young woman named Lilith Grace, who seemed lost in her own world, gazing out the window or sitting perfectly still, with her eyes closed. Left to herself, Valerie looked at her faint reflection in the cockpit window against the dull gray sky. Her heavy tawny hair and hazel eyes beneath dark brows were like a transparent picture through which she saw the hilis and valleys of the Adirondack forest, its dense, dark-green pines mounded with snow. She looked at herself critically. Not bad for thirty-three. Too good to sit back and smile agreeably while her husband fooled around with— The engine coughed again. And then it stopped. One wing dipped toward the earth.
They were all thrown sideways against their seat belts. Betsy Tarrant screamed.
Carlton was hunched forward. "Hold on—" he said, but at that moment the other engine went out. The noise stopped as if a knife had cut across it. In the sudden awftil silence, the plane began to lose altitude. "Christ... both of—"
"Carl!" shouted Alex Tarrant. Betsy was screeching.
"... can't be fuel... had plenty..."
Valerie gripped her hands, watching him.
He leaned down, turning the fiiel selectors to switch tanks, then straightened up and tried to restart the engines. When nothing happened, a look of incredulity flashed across his face. "What the ftick..."
"Help!" Betsy was screaming. "Do something!"
Carlton leaned forward again, his hands shaking, and trimmed the plane for a glide. The only sound was the rush of the wind past their wings as the plane swept over the forest, dropping five hundred feet a minute. Once in the glide, he tried again to start the engines. "Start,
you mothers... come on, come on Fucking son of a bitch
Start.'' He tried again, his body straining forward as if he could push the engines to life. "Shit!" he exploded after a few minutes. "Must have flooded the bastards; how the hell they'll start in time now..."
Valerie saw panic in his eyes. Betsy was screaming; Alex cursed in a
low shaking voice. Lilith Grace had not made a sound.
"Radio," Carlton muttered. "No, no time. Later—on the ground...
"Listen," he shouted, 'Sve're going to land it. There's a lake up ahead..." His voice shook. "Put your heads down, arms over your heads... .Everybody do it!" He was turning off the hiel and electrical systems, except for the battery, which would give them full flaps for landing.
"There's a road!" Valerie cried, but it swept away beneath them. They dropped lower, the treetops racing past. Half a minute later the trees gave way and they were over the snow-covered expanse of a frozen lake. "This is it!" Carlton shouted. "Hold on!"
Valerie hunched her body as the plane plowed into the deep snow. She had braced for a crash, but instead there was an eerie silence. The light plane skimmed through the powdery snow with a steady hiss, making its own blizzard. Inside, no one made a sound; they were rigid with fear. It seemed they would go on that way forever, a terrifying skid into the eternity of that white blizzard, but then the plane reached the far bank. It plowed into the pine forest, shearing off the wing and fuselage beside Carlton, and at last came to a shuddering stop. The sound of the crash reverberated in the still forest and slowly faded away. Silence enveloped them.
"Alex?" Betsy whimpered. "Valerie.> Carl.? I hurt. My head hurts..." "Wait," Alex said. "I can't do anything..." There was no sound from Lilith Grace.
Valerie flexed her arms and legs. Her neck ached and her muscles felt wrenched, but she could move. I'm all right, she thought, and felt a rush of wild exhilaration. Fm dive; I made it; Fm all ri^ht. "Hey, pilot," she said, turning to Carlton. "That was a terrific—" Her words ended in a scream. "Carl!"
He was slumped forward and lying half out of the plane, held by his seat belt over the jagged opening where the metal had been torn away. "Oh, God, no, no," she breathed. She tore open her seat belt and leaned over him. His head was covered with blood; blood ran over his closed eyes. "Carl!" she cried. "Carl!" She smelled smoke.
"Fire!" Alex shouted. "Christ, I can't move— Val, help me!" "Valerie!" He and Betsy were shouting at her. Their voices rang through the white silence. Smoke came from the engine on the plane's remaining wing.
Out. Get out. Get everyone out. She shivered in the icy air that filled
the plane. "Just a minute, Alex." She fought her way down the narrow aisle. The plane was tilted to the left, where the wing had sheared off, and she struggled to get past the twisted seats and over Betsy's legs, slipping on sections of the Sunday newspaper and debris that had flown about the cabin. She glanced at Lilith Grace, who lay pale and deathlike in her seat, her eyes closed. In a minute; not yet. She reached past her to the coats and jackets they had piled there before taking off, and pulled on her ftill-length sable coat and the ftir-lined leather gloves she found in the pocket. / need help with Carl; I don't know if I can get him out alone. Alex. Have to get Alex out, and then...
She squeezed through the narrow aisle to Alex, sitting behind Carl, and frantically tugged at the bent metal that pinned him in. It tore her gloves and she clenched her teeth as blood oozed through the rips, but she went on; Alex was helping her with his good hand, and in a minute he shouted, "Okay!" and pulled his legs free.
"Me!" cried Betsy, in the seat across the aisle from him. "What about me?"
"First Carl," Valerie said. "Alex, I need your help."
"If I can Christ, Val, I can't move my arm..."
"Get to the ground," she said. "I'll push him out to you."
"Right." He went to the door at the back. "Can't get to it; she's in the way," he said. "Get her out..."
"Damn it!" Valerie went to Alex, who was pushing Lilith's slumped form away so he could unlatch the door. The tilt of the plane brought the door almost to ground level and he stepped out while Valerie unfastened the girl's seat belt. "I'm going to push her out," she said. Alex held out his good arm as they eased Lilith through the door. She fell the last few inches, landing face down in the snow.
"She's okay," Alex said as he turned her over. He wiped snow from her face. "Go on, get Carl." He dragged Lilith a few feet with his one arm, then walked along the outside of the plane as Valerie moved up the aisle to Carlton. She released his seat belt, and when Alex stood on the other side of the gaping hole in the cockpit she threw her sable coat over
the jagged edge and swung Carlton's legs over it. Slowly she rolled his body to Alex, but he could not hold him with one arm and they both fell. Valerie cried out and threw herself from the plane to help them. In the trampled snow, churned-up pine needles were slippery, and she staggered as she helped Alex to his feet.
"Can't carry him," Alex said. "PuU him..."
"Come on." Taking Carlton by the hands, they dragged him through hip-deep snow, stumbling beneath his dead weight, slipping
and getting up, to a tree a good distance from the plane. Valerie held him while Alex packed down a wide circle in the snow, and they leaned him, half sitting, against the trunk.
"Help me!" screamed Betsy. On the far side of the plane, the engine had burst into flames. Flames engulfed the wing and the ground below where fuel had spilled. Valerie ran back, Alex just behind her, dodging the ripped trees that lay at crazy angles, and the small pieces of luggage that had been thrown from the storage bins in the wings and torn open by the impact; their clothes were flung everywhere. Slipping in the snow, her wool pants soaked and clinging to her legs, Valerie reached the plane and began to climb in.
She's £fone. The empty space beside the plane registered in her mind and she looked down. Lilith Grace was gone. Valerie stared at the trampled snow. "Where did she go?" she asked Alex. "Did you see her.>"
"Hurry up!" Betsy cried. "The wing's on fire!" With one more bewildered look at the empty space in the snow, Valerie climbed all the way into the plane. Alex followed and they began to pull at a twisted seat back that pinned Betsy down.
"Hurry up!" Betsy shrilled. "We're going to blow up! Valerie, do something! I can't move my leg! And Alex can't carry me and you're not strong enough!"
"Then I'll just have to scare the hell out of you." Valerie leaned against one of the bent seats, taking ragged breaths. "Fm sick of you thinking only about you. Fll help you if you shut up and move your ass, otherwise you're on your own and you can burn with the plane for all I care. Come on, we're in a hurry."
Betsy was staring at her. "You're crazy. Help me!" She began to push the seat clamping her down.
Valerie and Alex bent over her and in a short time had her free. Valerie's hands were freezing, sticky with blood inside her leather gloves, and she could barely work her fingers. "You'll have to make it back on your own," she said to them, so tired she sounded indifferent "FU be right there."
She grabbed the suitcases and coats in the back of the plane and threw them out, then collected the sections of the Sunday newspaper and a first-aid kit from the cockpit, and carried them to the small group under the trees. They were silent, lying or sitting in the space of packed-down, bloody snow. Valerie knelt beside Carlton. "He's alive," Alex said. "But unconscious." "Alive," Valerie breathed. His head wound was still bleeding and
she pressed her scarf against it, to stop the flow. At that minute the plane exploded.
A huge whoosh, like the leading edge of a tornado, burst to the skies and they felt a rush of hot wind. "My God!" said Alex, awed by the spectacle. The sound rocked the forest, echoing in the trees. Bits of burning debris fell around them, and frantically they stamped them out. "Your coat!" Betsy cried, grabbing a flaming ember from Valerie's sable as Valerie snatched another from Betsy's hair. The noise faded. Awed, they watched the burning pyre. "We just made it," Alex said. "Barely made it..."
In that moment, Valerie became terrified. Wi^re£[oin0 to die here.
Carlton groaned. Betsy was crying.
I can't think about dyin£f; I don't have time. She took a disinfectant-soaked cloth from the first-aid kit and cleaned Carlton's face, and the skin around the ugly wound in his head. It was still bleeding and she wrapped it tighdy with gauze. The bandage would not lie properly and she looked at Betsy. "I don't know anything about this. Do you?"
"No." Betsy was suddenly subdued; her voice shook. "We always hired nurses or..."
The story of my life, Valerie thought. When I needed something, I bought it. In a lifetime of luxury, she had never learned first aid. She kept wrapping the gauze, desperate to stop the bleeding, and soon the crimson spot that had soaked through the first layers was no longer visible. Still, Valerie kept winding. How thick should a bandage be? Thick enough to make me feel good, she thought, and a small wild laugh trembled on her lips. She pressed them together. "Alex, we've got to look for Lily Grace."
"I should have broken a leg," he said ruefully.
"Betsy, I brought paper for a fire. You get us some firewood."
"I won't. My leg won't move and my head hurts. I can't do anything."
"You can crawl. Pull dead twigs and branches off the trees; they're all around. We'll use whatever you get."
"We need more than paper," Alex said. "We need kindling. Whatever Betsy finds will be wet."
"Dead branches," Valerie said. "And if they're not enough.. ."She picked up some of the clothes scattered about. 'We'll bum blouses and shirts. Keep the sweaters and socks and jackets; we can wear layers to keep warm."
'We won't be here that long!" Betsy cried. "Someone will come!"
Valerie's terror returned, making her breathless. 'We have to
look..." She struggled through her terror to form words. ". for Lily..."
Alex led the way into the forest. "Look for footprints," he said. "We won't be here long, you know. Anyone flying overhead will see the plane burning."
"I hope so. How many people fly over the Adirondacks on a Monday in January?"
"God knows. Did Carl file a flight plan?"
"I don't know. He usually doesn't when we fly back during the day It's less than three hours to Middleburg..." Her voice trailed away It used to he less than three hours; now ifs forever.
"Val?" Alex was looking worriedly at her.
"I'm sorry."
They walked in the gray light that filtered through the trees. "Lily'" Alex caUed. "Lily! Lily!"
Aflier half an hour, exhausted, they turned back, guiding themselves by the burning plane and the small fire burning now beneath the tree. And when they reached the group sitting around it, Lily Grace was there, beside Carlton, her hand on his forehead. "I'm sorry you had so much trouble because of me," she said.
Her voice was high and cool, like a pure stream, and her face was luminous. There was something compelling about her, and the others seemed mesmerized. Betsy was sitting so close she was almost leaning against her. Her eyes, Valerie thought: ecstatic, but somehow sad. My God, she thought immediately, what a ridiculous idea; the cold must be getting to me. No one looks like that. But Lily Grace did, and Valerie knew she had not been fanciful. Pale, with white-blond hair and dark-blue eyes, and young—she could have been fourteen or twenty-four—she sat in that dull winter landscape and seemed untouched by it. As she was untouched by the crash. There was not a mark on Lily Grace.
Valerie remembered that she had been introduced as a minister when she arrived at their vacation house only two days before. "My friend. Reverend Lilith Grace," Sybille had said, introducing her. "She has a television ministry." They had all been amused. Well, who knows? Valerie thought. Maybe she knows something I don't know.
"Val!" Carlton was trying to lifl: his head. "Val!"
"Here," Valerie said. She sat beside Carlton and kissed his cold lips. "I'm here, Carl." Lily seemed to melt away.
"Listen." He opened his eyes, trying to focus them on her. "Couldn't do it." His voice was urgent, but the words were mumbled
and Valerie leaned over him. "Sorry, Val. Mean it: sorry! Never meant to hurt you. Tried to keep it. Now you'll know I— Shit, lost control, lost ...bst it!''
"Carl, don't, don't blame yourself," she said. "You did your best, you were wonderful. You brought us down and we're alive. And you shouldn't talk; you should rest until we can get you out of here."
He went on as if she had not spoken. "Never meant to get you into this. Said I'd... take care of you. Remember? Christ... thought I'd fix it... get started again. Too late. Sorry, Val, sorry, sorry..."
H
is voice faded, his eyes closed and he began to roll his head slowly from side to side. "Don't know how the hell... Acted like water in the
tanks But—both tanks? Never had any before." A long groan tore
from him. "Didn't check. Too much hurry to take off. Stupid fucking mechanic should've reminded me. Can't trust..." Suddenly his face tightened in a deep frown. His eyes flew open and he raised his head, looking about wildly. "Not my fault! No accident! Listen! Couldn't be... both tanks! Flew up here... fine! Right, Val? Right? Water in both tanks! Fuck it, should have thought she might..."
His head fell back against the tree. "Should have thought of that... sorry." His eyes closed again. His breathing was harsh and slow.
Valerie bent over him and touched his face. "He's so cold," she said. She turned to the others. "Do you know what he was talking about?"
They shook their heads. "I couldn't understand him," Alex said. A spasm of pain crossed his face. "Any painkillers in your handy little kit?"
"Oh, yes, of course. And we'll make you a sling." She opened the first-aid kit and they helped each other, cleaning cuts and scratches, fashioning a sling for Alex's arm, winding Ace bandages around Betsy's hugely swollen leg. Valerie watched her own busy hands, clumsy but getting more skilled with each turn of the bandage, and wondered how she could be doing this. She had no idea. Since the plane crashed, she had not thought about any of it; she moved and planned one step at a time, never asking how she knew what to do next, or how she was able to do it. A new Valerie. What a pity if I die before I £fet to know her.
She sat beside Carlton, watching his resdess sleep, while Alex and Lily Grace kept the fire going, sending sparks shooting to the treetops each time they added more wood. They all helped each other to put on extra clothes. They waited for a plane to fly overhead. The hours passed.
By afternoon, with the sun lower in the sky, the air grew colder.
Carlton's breathing was raspy, and so slow Valerie found herself holding her own breath, waiting for him to take another one. She looked at the others, sitting in a kind of stupor, except for Lily Grace, who was deep in some sort of meditation. "I'm going for help," Valerie said. She heard herself say it without surprise, though she had not planned it. "Carl will die if we don't get him to a hospital. There's a road not too far from here; I saw it when we were coming down; it shouldn't take me long to find someone."
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