“You were sick last night,” Sierra realized aloud. “That’s why you were so quiet at supper.”
“I was quiet at supper because I figured Tobias would be there when I went upstairs.”
“Were you scared?”
Liam flung her a scornful look. “No,” he said. And then his cheeks puffed out, and he made a strangling sound.
Sierra pulled to the side of the road, got out of the SUV and barely got around to open the door before he deco rated her shoes again.
This is your real life, she thought pragmatically.
Not the two million dollars.
Not great sex in a cowboy’s bed.
It’s a seven-year-old boy, barfing on your shoes.
The reflections were strangely comforting, given the cir cum stances.
When Liam was through, she wiped off her boots with handfuls of snow, got back into the Blazer and drove to the nearest gas station, where she bought him a bottle of Gatorade so he could rinse out his mouth, spit gloriously onto the pavement, and hope fully retain enough electrolytes to keep from dehydrating.
Twilight was already gathering by the time she pulled into the garage at the ranch house, having noticed, in spite of herself, that Travis was back from wherever he’d gone, and the lights were glowing golden in the windows of his trailer.
Not that it mattered.
In fact, she wasn’t the least bit relieved when he walked into the garage before she could shut the door or even turn off the engine.
Liam unsnapped his seat belt and lowered his window. “I horked all over the school house,” he told Travis glee fully. “People will probably talk about it for years.”
“Excellent,” Travis said with admiration. His eyes danced under the brim of his hat as he looked at Sierra over Liam’s head, then returned his full attention to the little boy. “Need some help getting inside? One cowpoke to another?”
“Sure,” Liam replied staunchly. “Not that I couldn’t make it on my own or anything.”
Travis chuckled. “Maybe you ought to carry me, then.” His gaze snagged Sierra’s again. “It happens that I’m feeling a little weak in the knees myself.”
Sierra’s face heated. She switched off the ignition.
Liam giggled, and the sound was restorative. “You’re too big to carry, Travis,” he said, with such affection that Sierra’s throat tightened again, and she honestly thought she’d cry.
Fortunately, Travis wasn’t looking at her. He gathered Liam into his arms, blankets and all, and carried him inside. Sierra followed with her son’s things, scrambling to get her emotions under control.
“It’s arctic in here,” Liam said.
“You’re right,” Travis agreed easily. He set Liam in the chair where Sierra had sat writing in the diary of a woman who was probably buried some where among all those bronze statues in the family cemetery, and approached the old stove. “Nothing like a good wood fire to warm a place up.”
“Drink your Gatorade,” Sierra told Liam, because she felt she had to say something, and that was all that came to mind.
“Can we sleep down here again?” Liam asked. “Like we did when the blizzard came and the furnace went out?”
“No,” Sierra answered, much too quickly.
Travis gave her a sidelong glance and a grin, then stuffed some crumpled newspaper and kindling into the belly of the wood stove, and lit the fire. Sierra shivered, hugging herself, while he adjusted the damper.
“Is something wrong with the furnace again?” she asked.
“Probably,” Travis answered.
She was oddly grateful that he hadn’t called her on asking a stupid question. But then, he wouldn’t. Not in front of her son. She knew that much about Travis Reid, at least. Along with the fact that he was one hell of a lover.
Don’t even think about that, Sierra scolded herself. But it was like deciding not to imagine a pink elephant skating on a pond and wearing a tutu.
“I think we should all sleep right here,” Liam persisted.
Travis chuckled, more, Sierra suspected, at her discomfort than at Liam’s campaign for another kitchen campout. “If a man’s got a bed,” Travis said, “he ought to use it.”
Sierra’s cheeks stung. “Was that necessary?” she whispered furiously, after approaching the wood box to grab up a few chunks of pine. If she was going to live in this house for a year, she’d better learn to work the stove.
“No,” Travis whispered back, “but it was fun.”
“Will you stop?”
Another grin. He seemed to have an infinite supply of those, and all of them were saucy. “Nope.”
“What are you guys whispering about?” Liam asked suspiciously. “Are you keeping secrets?”
Travis took the wood from Sierra’s hands, stuffed it into the stove. She tried to look away but she couldn’t. “No secrets,” he said.
Sierra bit her lower lip.
The kitchen began to warm up, but she couldn’t be certain it was because of the fire in the cookstove.
Travis left them to go down stairs and attend to the furnace.
“I wish he was my dad,” Liam said.
Sierra blinked back more tears. Lifted her chin. “Well, he’s not, sweetie,” she said gently, and with a slight quaver in her voice. “Best let it go at that, okay?”
Liam looked so sad that Sierra wanted to take him on to her lap and rock him the way she had when he was younger and a lot more amenable to motherly affection. “Okay,” he agreed.
She crossed to him, ruffled his hair, which was already mussed. “Think you could eat something?” she asked. “Maybe some chicken noodle soup?”
“Yuck,” he answered. “And I still think we should sleep in the kitchen, because it’s cold and I’m sick and I might catch pneumonia or something up there in my room.”
The mention of Liam’s room made Sierra think of Hannah again and Tobias. She went to the china cabinet, opened the drawer, raised the cover on the photo album. The journal was still there, and she looked inside.
Hannah’s words.
Her words.
Nothing more.
Did she expect an answer? More lines of faded ink, entered beneath her own ball point scrawl?
A tingle of anticipation went through her as she closed the journal, then the album, then the drawer, and straightened.
Yes.
Oh, yes.
She did expect an answer.
The furnace made that familiar whooshing sound.
Liam muttered something that might have been a swear word.
Sierra pretended not to notice.
Travis came back up the basement stairs, dusting his hands together. Another job well done.
“It’s still going to be really cold upstairs,” Liam asserted.
“You’re probably right,” Travis agreed.
Sierra gave him an eloquent look.
Travis was undaunted. He just grinned another in sufferable, three-alarm grin. “I’ll make you a bed on the floor,” he said, and though he was looking at Sierra, he was talking to Liam. Hope fully. “Just until it gets warm upstairs.”
Liam yelped with delighted triumph, punching the air with one fist. Then, just as quickly, he sobered. “What about you and Mom?”
“I reckon we’ll just tough it out,” Travis drawled. With that, he went about carrying in a couple of sofa cushions to lay on the floor, not too close to the stove but close enough for warmth.
Sierra fetched a pillow and fresh blankets.
Liam stretched out on the make shift bed like an Egyptian king traveling by barge. Sighed happily.
“Are you staying for supper, Travis?” he asked.
“Am I invited?” Travis asked, looking at Sierra.
She sighed. “Yes,” she said.
Liam let out another yippee.
Sierra made grilled cheese sandwiches and heated canned spaghetti, but by the time she served the feast, Liam was sound asleep.
Travis, seated on the bench, hi
s sleeves still rolled up from washing in the bathroom down the hall, nodded toward him.
“If I were you,” he said, “I’d start checking out law schools. That kid is probably going to be on the Supreme Court before he’s thirty.”
CHAPTER FIFTEEN
1919
HANNAH’S HANDS TREMBLED slightly as she raised the cover of the family album and reached for the remembrance book tucked inside. She held her breath as she opened it.
Only her own words were there, alone and stark.
She was a practical woman, and she knew she should not have expected anything else. Spirits, if there was such a thing, did not take up pens and write in remembrance books. And yet she was stricken with a profound disappointment, the likes of which she’d never experienced before. She’d suffered plenty in her life, seeing three sisters perish as a girl and, as a woman grown, losing Gabe, knowing none of the brave dreams they’d talked about with such hope and faith would ever come true.
No more stolen kisses.
No more secret laughter.
No more cattle grazing on a thousand hills.
And certainly no more babies, born squalling in their room upstairs.
Hannah told herself, I will not cry, I have cried enough. I have emptied myself of tears.
So why do they keep coming?
“Hannah?”
She started, looked up to see Doss standing at the foot of the stairs. He’d been working in the barn, the last she knew, doing the morning chores. Chopping extra wood because there was another storm coming. It bothered her that she hadn’t heard him come in.
“Tobias is worse,” he said.
Alarm swelled into Hannah’s throat, cutting off her wind.
She started for the stairs, but when she would have passed Doss, he stopped her.
“I’m going to town for the doc,” he told her.
“I’ll just wrap Tobias up warm and we’ll—”
Doss’s grip tightened on her shoulders. Only then did she realize he hadn’t merely stepped into her path, he was touching her. “No, Hannah,” he said. “The boy’s too sick for that.”
“Suppose the doctor won’t come?”
“He’ll come,” Doss said. “You go to Tobias. Don’t let the fire go out, no matter what. I’ll be back as soon as I can.”
Hannah nodded, bursting to get to her son, but somehow wanting to cling to Doss, too. Tell him not to go, that they’d manage some way but he oughtn’t to leave, because something truly terrible might happen if he did.
“Go to him,” Doss told her, letting go of her shoulders.
She felt as though he’d been holding her up. Swayed a little to catch her balance. Then, on impulse, she stood on tiptoe and kissed him right on the mouth. “You be careful, Doss McKettrick,” she said. “You come back to us, safe and sound.”
He looked deeply into her eyes for a moment, as though he could see secrets she kept even from herself, then nodded and made for the door. The last Hannah saw of him, just be fore she dashed up the rear stairs, he was putting on his coat and hat.
Tobias lay fitful in his bed, his night shirt soaked with perspiration, like the sheets. His teeth chattered, and his lips were blue, but his flesh burned to the touch.
Hannah could not afford to let panic prevail.
She had mothering to do, and however in adequate and fearful she felt, there was no one but her to do it.
She pushed up her sleeves, added more pins to her hair so it wouldn’t tumble down and get in her way, and headed down stairs to heat water.
Heedful of Doss’s warning not to let the fire die, she added wood from the generous supply he’d brought in earlier without her noticing. She pumped water into every bucket and kettle she owned, and put them on the stove to heat. Then she dragged the bathtub out of the pantry and set it in the middle of the floor.
The instructions seemed to come from some where inside her. She didn’t plan what to do, or take the time to debate one intuition against another. It was as if some stronger, smarter, better Hannah had stepped to the fore, and pushed the timid and uncertain one aside.
This Hannah knew what to do. The regular one stood in the back ground, wringing her hands and counseling hysteria.
Tobias was practically delirious when Hannah roused him from his bed, an hour later when the tub was full of hot water, and half carried, half led him down stairs.
In the kitchen she stripped him and put him into the bath. Scrubbed him down, all the while talking quietly, confidently, without ever stopping to think up the words she’d say next.
“You’ll be fine, Tobias. Come spring, you’ll be able to ride your pony through the fields and swim in the pond. We’ll get you that dog you’ve been wanting—you can pick him out yourself—and he can sleep right in your room, too. On the foot of your bed, if you want. You can call your uncle Doss ‘Pa’ from now on, and there’ll be a brand-new baby in this house at harvest time—think of it, Tobias. A little brother or sister. You can choose the name—”
Tobias shuddered, chilled even in water that would be too hot to stand any other time.
Hannah dried him with towels, put him in a clean night-shirt, got him back upstairs again. Settled him into her own bed while she hastened to put fresh sheets and blankets on his.
All that morning, and all that afternoon, she tended her boy, touching a cold cloth to his forehead. Holding his hands. Telling him that his pa had gone to town for the doctor, and he needn’t worry because he was going to be just fine.
They were all going to be just fine.
Tobias had occasional moments of lucidity. “Liam’s sick, too,” he said once. “I want to be with Liam.”
Another time, he asked, “Where’s Pa? Is Pa all right?”
Hannah had bitten her lower lip and reassured him gently. “Yes, sweet heart, your pa’s just fine.”
The day wore on, into evening.
And Doss hadn’t returned.
Hannah put more wood on the fire, donned Gabe’s coat and made her way out to the barn, through ever-deepening snow, to feed the live stock, because there was no one else to do it.
The wind bit through to Hannah’s bones as she worked. Made them ache, then go numb.
Where was Doss?
The other Hannah, the fretful one pushed into the background, kept calling out that question, as if from the bottom of a well.
Where…where…where?
It was completely dark by the time she’d finished, and as she left the barn, she heard the faint rumble of thunder. Rare in a snow storm, like lightning, but Hannah had seen that, too, there in the high country of Arizona, and in Montana, as well. A staggering sense of foreboding descended upon her, and it had nothing to do with Tobias being sick.
Hannah returned to the house, switched on the kitchen bulb before even taking off Gabe’s coat, thinking somehow the light might draw Doss back to her and Tobias, through the storm. Even in daylight, and even for a man as tough and as skilled as Doss, navigating the most familiar trails would be difficult in weather like that, if not impossible. In the dark, it was plain treacherous.
“Ma?” Tobias called. “Ma, are you down there?”
It heartened her, the strength she heard in his voice, but her joy was tempered by worry. Doss should have been home by then. Unless—please, God, let it be so—he’d decided to stay in town.
“Yes,” she called back, as cheer fully as she could. “I’m here, and I’m about to fix you some supper.”
“Come up, Ma. Right now. That boy’s here.”
In the process of shedding the coat she’d worn to feed the live stock and the chickens and milk the cow, Hannah let the garment drop, forgotten, to the floor. She took the stairs two at a time and burst into Tobias’s room.
With no lamp burning, it was stone dark. She made out the outline of Tobias’s bed and him lying there.
“He’s here, Ma,” Tobias said, in a delighted whisper, as though speaking too loudly might cause his in visible friend to disappear
. “Liam’s here.”
Hannah hurried to the bedside.
“I don’t see him,” she said.
Just then the sky itself seemed to part, with a great, tearing roar so horrendous Hannah put her hands to her ears. The floor trembled beneath her feet, and the window panes rattled. Light quivered in the room—she knew it was snow lightning, but it was other worldly, just the same—and for one single, incredulous moment, she saw not Tobias lying in that bed, but another little boy. And she saw the woman standing on the other side of the bed, too. Staring at her. Looking every bit as surprised as Hannah herself.
Within half a heart beat, the whole incident was over.
“Did you see them?” Tobias asked desperately, grasping at her hand. Clinging. “Ma, did you see them?”
“Yes,” Hannah whispered. She dropped to her knees next to Tobias’s bed, unable to stand for another instant. Tobias had said “them.” He’d seen the woman, too, then, as well as the boy. “Dear God, yes.”
“She was wearing trousers, Ma,” Tobias marveled.
Hannah raised herself from the floor to perch tremulously on the side of Tobias’s bed. Fumbled for the matches and lit the lamp on the stand.
“Tell me what else you saw, Tobias,” she said. Her hands were shaking so badly that the lamp chimney rattled when she set it back in place.
“She had short hair. Brown, I think. And she saw us, Ma, just as sure as we saw her!”
Hannah nodded numbly.
“What does it mean, Ma?” Tobias asked.
“I wish I knew,” Hannah said.
Present Day
Sierra stood still at Liam’s bedside, hugging herself and trembling, trying to understand what she’d just seen.
What the hell had she just seen?
Lightning.
A woman in an old-fashioned dress, standing on the opposite side of Liam’s bed.
Hannah?
“What’s wrong, Mom?” Liam asked sleepily. He’d protested a little, when she’d roused him from his slumbers in the kitchen and brought him up here to sleep in his own bed. Then he’d fallen into natural oblivion.
She couldn’t catch her breath.
“Mom?” Liam prompted, sounding more awake now.
“We’ll…we’ll talk about it in the morning.”
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