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by Carol Ann Duffy


  I want to say to my friends of thirty years ago

  And to daughters and a son that Belfast is our home,

  Prose a river still – the Liffey, the Lagan – and poetry

  A fountain that plays in an imaginary Front Square.

  When snow falls it is feathers from the wings of Icarus.

  MICHAEL LONGLEY

  Dreams of a Summer Night

  The girls are quiet now in the house upstairs.

  Still bright at ten with no need of music

  on local habitations, tile and brick,

  as the moon rises like a magic lamp

  hung in a thorn bush and the sun retires

  beyond the Bandon River; but I put on

  young Mozart’s Oboe Concerto, K.314,

  the opening bit, in search of a nice tune –

  and find it straight away, quick and exact,

  the broken silence of the creative act.

  Strangely, after the gold rush and the slump,

  what remains is a great sense of relief.

  Can we relax now and get on with life?

  Step out and take a deep breath of night air

  in peace, not always having to defer

  to market forces, to the great hegemony,

  the global hurricane, the rule of money?

  High over Innishannon a single star

  on the woods of this unthickly wooded shore.

  Can we turn now to the important things

  like visible scents, how even silence sings?

  How we grew frolicsome one sunny June

  some sixty years ago at Cushendun

  in our young lives of clover, clock and cloud,

  the first awakenings under a northern sky

  heartbreaking in its extremity? ‘One day

  the old grow young,’ as the old rock star said.

  The first movement – aperto, open, frank –

  declares its candour with a lively run

  of oboe riffs; adagio, and we think

  of the proactive soul in wind and wood

  before revisiting the original mood

  though more maturely, having lived meanwhile.

  It’s far from what Said meant by late style

  since it was written by a twenty-year-old;

  but I’m late listening, taking it all in

  like a dreamt ‘gentle concord’ in the world.

  Drilling for oil and war we seldom register

  the resilient silence strewn about our toes

  and under our very noses: thyme and sage,

  mushroom and violet, briony, briar rose

  and other elfin species. Soppy, I sniff

  inchoate presences in the dim, substantive

  trance of a summer night, its peace and quiet,

  remembering poetry is a real mirage

  in an unreal world of cash and babble,

  ringtone and car alarm, and remains ‘a point of

  departure not from reality but to it’ –

  wherein lies one function of the poet,

  to be instrumental in the soul’s increase.

  During the May rising they used to say

  «Prenez vos désirs pour la réalité;

  l’imagination au pouvoir!» These very reasonable

  demands are even more urgent for us today

  trying to save ourselves from corporate space,

  from virtuality with its image crime,

  and Mozart from the ubiquitous pop sound:

  fiddle and flute, soft oboe and clarinet,

  the next best thing to silence in the mind,

  that scarce but still renewable resource.

  The young produce the liveliest work of course

  but soon enough it’s Wild Strawberries time,

  age and experience, the lost summer house,

  girls on a jetty, ‘the old sunlit face’.

  There was a week of dreams for some reason,

  some Kafkaesque and some more seasonable:

  a concrete labyrinth with no obvious exit,

  a maze of corridors, little natural light,

  gruff notices prohibiting this and that,

  no eating, drinking, smoking, and don’t laugh,

  surly administrative and security staff.

  Alarms went off at intervals. Doors were shut

  and windows, where there were windows, unopenable;

  from secret offices a mysterious mumble

  qualifying the air-conditioned silence:

  Genetics, Human Resources, Behavioural Sciences.

  Someone had proved the soul doesn’t exist

  and wiped out any traces of the past;

  all were in danger but it faded fast

  at the last minute, only to be replaced

  by animations, eyes in a twitchy forest,

  oak limbs outgrabbing, knuckles whitening, rock

  speaking, Rackham púcas at face and neck.

  These vanished too; then an erotic bower

  snowed in by a warm leaf-and-petal shower

  around the long ears and the bristling back.

  She lay there in soft focus, her bright eye

  moist with provocation; but just as I …

  So many quiet shores ‘bleared, smeared with toil’,

  there’s nowhere for a sticky duck to hide

  from the unchecked invasion of crude oil

  dumped on the sand by a once friendly tide;

  and if they drill here what else do we gain

  but a bonanza for an acquisitive crowd

  of blow-hard types, determined, garish, loud?

  Would we ever get our old lives back again?

  Gossip is history, history is gossip –

  the locals talking in a hardware shop

  about Tom Barry, James II, Marlborough

  or that torpedo from a German sub,

  the opening wine bar and the closing pub,

  the pharmaceutical giant at Dunderrow,

  its ethics, working conditions and so on,

  a proposal to dig the whole town up again

  for fibre optics and more ‘information’

  now on the table at the Kinsale borough

  council and more than likely to go through.

  ‘All politics is local’, right where you are.

  Communities are the real vehicles of power

  not merely its last points of application

  or they should be, says Amit Chaudhuri;

  water and gas have first consideration

  as every pre-Socratic thinker knew.

  You hear a different music of the spheres

  depending where you sit in the concert space,

  so this is the centre of the whole creation:

  important or trivial, it all finishes here

  on your own starlit doorstep. It could be worse.

  A boreal sun, white nights of Petersburg!

  The never fading gleam of Tír na nÓg!

  But you can have too much of shiny things.

  The dark has its own wisdom, its own owl wings,

  for this is when the spirits come out to play

  and the grim ghosts we daren’t admit by day.

  Nacht und Träume: geese dreaming of maize,

  old Siggi’s youngest crying out for ‘stwawbewwies’

  the entrepreneur with his elaborate schemes,

  love dreams, exam dreams and anxiety dreams

  ‘over-interpreted as they need to be.

  I had a patient once …’ But even he

  granted the mystery of autonomous art,

  those strange impulses circuiting the brain,

  the plays of Shakespeare, symphonies of Mozart.

  Eleven and still light. No more music now

  except for night and silence round the place.

  Gazing into the past I hear once more

  fathers and uncles back from a won war

  and see ‘the ice-cream on the pier’, the rain

  and windy
picnics laid out under the brow

  of the Cave Hill, Belfast laid out below –

  then jump-cut to the dreams, vivid but short,

  scaring us as they did when we were ten:

  child murder in Macbeth, wolves at the door,

  the dizzying height and the obscure disgrace,

  indictments for a guilt we seldom face.

  Sometimes you’re hauled before a midnight court,

  women presiding, to face charges of

  failure in generosity, patience, love

  and finer feeling. Often the chief judge

  condemns you roundly to a change of heart

  and sends you down abruptly for an age

  of solitary. Read me the riot act again

  in the grave, measured tone you used to restrain

  my frantic idiocies. The least I can do

  is praise your qualities the one way I know

  now that I mourn, as here, your grace and poise,

  your pungent wit, the laughter in your eyes,

  the buoyant upbeat, the interior light

  and those odd melancholy moments when

  your head would close down with fastidious pain

  at a world too coarse and tragic to be borne.

  Aspiring spirit, late in finding rest

  and harmony, may you have peace at last.

  Today in a freak of thought I wondered if

  the conservation-of-energy law applies

  to souls and promises us eternal life.

  At times like this we let ourselves imagine

  some substance in the old claim of religion

  that we don’t die, not really. Don’t light residues

  commingle with the other starry dead

  when our cold ashes in the earth are laid

  or scattered on the waves at Port na Spaniagh

  and the mad particles begin to spin

  like sand grains in the night? Our contribution:

  a few good books and a few words of caution.

  You the unborn, the bright ones who come later,

  remember we too sparkled in the sun,

  burst on the shingle, perished underwater,

  revolved our secrets in the vast oceans

  of time, and live on in our transmigrations.

  And you, old friend, Brancusi’s ‘Sleeping Muse’,

  who saved me when I’d nothing left to lose,

  I can still wish for what you wish for too:

  ‘the amazing truth ’tis no witchcraft to see’,

  refreshed tradition, lateral thought, a new

  world politics and a disabused serenity.

  These summer mornings I get up at five,

  biro in hand, surprised to be still alive,

  grateful for all the clichés and beguiled

  by the first birdsong, the first light, the wild

  relationship of water and cloud kingdoms

  shaping our wishes and our waking dreams.

  It’s late, so lights out even as a last glow

  still lingers on the gardens, on roof and rock:

  mid-June now and it’s never completely dark

  but vague, ambrosial, metamorphic, slow

  as if some happy mischief is at work

  in the mist-pearly undergrowth below,

  transfiguring the earth from dusk to dawn.

  The moon floats from a cloud and two dogs bark;

  the anthropomorphic trees are trees again,

  the human forms recover their wood-grain

  and the prehensile skins of hand and groin

  revert, the limbs to branches, hair to leaves

  as they resume their old arboreal lives.

  The girls are fast asleep in the rooms above.

  Back here from dreamland with a dewy leaf

  to keep me right and ward off disbelief,

  I await the daylight we were born to love:

  birds at a window, boats on a rising wave,

  light dancing on dawn water, the lives we live.

  DEREK MAHON

  Extra Helpings

  In our primary school

  Set lunch was the rule

  Though in Scotland we call that meal ‘dinner’.

  We tucked in like starvelings,

  Inchinnan’s wee darlings,

  And it didn’t make thin children thinner.

  But what I liked best

  Was disliked by the rest,

  Rice pudding with raisins and bloated sultanas,

  Stewed fruit and dumplings

  In big extra helpings

  And hooray for first post-War bananas!

  It was very good scoff

  So I polished it off

  A very dab hand with a spoon,

  a spoon,

  A very dab hand with my spoon.

  Detested mashed turnip

  Gave most kids the pip

  While cabbage was much the same tale.

  No shortage of roots, and no hardship of greens –

  After mine I ate Harry’s, then Elspeth’s, then Jean’s,

  O a glutton for turnips and kail.

  It was very good scoff

  So I polished it off

  A very dab hand with a fork,

  a fork,

  A very dab hand with my fork.

  I used to be slim.

  I used to be slim!

  ‘Look!’ they say now. ‘There’s at least three of him!’

  To which I reply

  With a daggerly eye,

  ‘Well, that’s better than three-quarters you!’

  But my clothes don’t fit

  I’m fed up with it

  And the sylph in me’s guilty and blue.

  Semolina and sago with jam,

  with jam,

  Oh dear, what a pudding I am,

  I am,

  Oh dear, what a pudding I am.

  But I’m longing for lunch

  And something to munch

  Though I wish it was back in that school

  When the dinner-bell rings

  And all good things

  Await to be guzzled until I am happy and full.

  Dear God, I’d die

  For Shepherd’s Pie

  In 1949 or 1950

  When the dinner-bell rings

  And all good things

  Draw children on the sniff and make then nifty.

  It was very good scoff

  So I polished it off –

  Oh dear, what a pudding I am,

  I am,

  Oh dear, what a pudding I am,

  But a very dab hand with a spoon,

  a spoon,

  And a very dab hand with a fork.

  DOUGLAS DUNN

  Swineherd

  When all this is over, said the swineherd,

  I mean to retire, where

  Nobody will have heard about my special skills

  And conversation is mainly about the weather.

  I intend to learn how to make coffee, at least as well

  As the Portuguese lay-sister in the kitchen

  And polish the brass fenders every day.

  I want to lie awake at night

  Listening to cream crawling to the top of the jug

  And the water lying soft in the cistern.

  I want to see an orchard where the trees grow in straight lines

  And the yellow fox finds shelter between the navy-blue trunks,

  Where it gets dark early in summer

  And the apple-blossom is allowed to wither on the bough.

  EILÉAN NÍ CHUILLEANÁIN

  gaelic is alive

  in memoriam caitlín maude

  let’s put aside

  today’s work

  and dance to

  the wind’s port-à-beul

  ‘gaelic is alive’

  despite all arrows

  she climbs the hillside

  sapling of oak in her arms

  her defiant eyes

  reaching the far-
off horizon

  she aims for the far-off horizon

  a bright lasting star in her breast

  defend her from too bold a leap

  but be dancing be dancing

  it is work to be dancing

  AONGHAS MACNEACAIL

  translated by the author

  When I Grow Up

  When I grow up I want to have a bad leg.

  I want to limp down the street I live in

  without knowing where I am. I want the disease

  where you put your hand on your hip

  and lean forward slightly, groaning to yourself.

  If a little boy asks me the way

  I’ll try and touch him between the legs.

  What a dirty old man I’m going to be when I grow up!

  What shall we do with me?

  I promise I’ll be good

  if you let me fall over in the street

  and lie there calling like a baby bird. Please,

  nobody come. I’m perfectly all right. I like it here.

  I wonder would it be possible

  to get me into a National Health Hospice

  somewhere in Manchester?

  I’ll stand in the middle of my cubicle

  holding onto a piece of string for safety,

  shaking like a leaf at the thought of my suitcase.

  I’d certainly like to have a nervous tic

  so I can purse my lips up all the time

  like Cecil Beaton. Can I be completely bald, please?

  I love the smell of old pee.

  Why can’t I smell like that?

  When I grow up I want a thin piece of steel

  inserted into my penis for some reason.

  Nobody’s to tell me why it’s there. I want to guess!

  Tell me, is that a bottle of old Burgundy

  under my bed? I never can tell

  if I feel randy any more, can you?

  I think it’s only fair that I should be allowed

  to cough up a bit of blood when I feel like it.

  My daughter will bring me a special air cushion

  to hold me upright and I’ll watch

  in baffled admiration as she blows it up for me.

  Here’s my list: nappies, story books, munchies,

  something else. What was the other thing?

  I can’t remember exactly,

 

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