I needed to make a call anyway. Kara was waiting, and I put it off long enough.
“Hyde?”
“We have them Kara.”
“Where are you Kara?”
“Nowhere.”
“Where the fuck are you Kara? What did you do?”
“What needed to be done. Look after her Hyde please.”
“Fuck!”
“Goodbye Hyde.”
“No! Do you fucking hear me Kara…”?
The line went dead, and[RP267] my stomach churned. She gave herself over to him, and[RP268] now I needed to tell my brother. Once[RP269] again, the woman he loved was gone.
Chapter 18
Mouse
We were free, but I felt like I was still there, trapped in a cage waiting to be sold like the others. Emilia’s dark eyes cloud[RP270]ed over with the memories.
I knew what she was felt. I was[RP271] there and it was horrible.
“I’m going to ask Hyde to look for Alissa’s family.” I didn’t ask why she didn’t want to ask Beau. I[RP272] had a feeling she didn’t want to open that can of beans.
“Have you talked about it yet?”
I shook my head. Talking[RP273] about it meant people would know.
“Hyde?”
“We knew each other as kids.”
I was evasive to the only person I knew would understand.
“I love him.”
There[RP274], I said the three words that had been a constant since I laid eyes on him.
“Oh.”
She was shocked, and I[RP275] didn’t blame her.
“I know it’s crazy and it’s been years since I’ve seen him.”
“No, it’s not crazy Lucy.”
She understood to a point, and[RP276] that had some of the tension, which was suffocating[RP277] my body. I know I needed to open up and it would set me free or, so the saying goes.
“I can’t get them out of my mind.”
“I know[RP278], I still feel their touch.”
I watched her shudder as she admitted that. It was a big thing to admit something I feared saying out loud.
“I know. What about the others?”
“The boys are bringing them home as they locate the families.”
Relief. It was something I haven’t felt in a long time. It was a foreign thing.
“Have you told Beau?”
“Some[RP279], but not all.”
She was braver than me. I nod[RP280]ded. It was the only thing I could do.
“You should talk to someone.”
“I will.”
I chanted those words in my head. Encouraging myself. I can do this. Hyde slowly opened the door, and[RP281] Emilia gave me a small smile.
She walked around him making sure to keep a good distance. I understood the idea of someone other than the one I loved touching me. It sent[RP282] ice through my veins.
When the door closed[RP283], Hyde turned all of his attention on me. It was a heady feeling.
“I’m here for you.”
“I know.”
“I promise not to judge you for anything.”
I knew that too, but hearing him tell me made it a little easier to breathe. “I’ve seen things.”
He slowly lowered himself onto the bed as if he feared any sudden movement would have me screaming and running for the hills.
Who knew, maybe it would.
“They did things[RP284], horrible things, and[RP285] made me watch.”
Swallowing I look at my hands. Tugging on my fingers hard enough to elicit pain and keep me grounded.
“Alissa died before you got there.”
He didn’t say anything, and[RP286] for that I was grateful.
“We were taken together, I traded one captor for the next in a blink of an eye. She was pinned to the ground, and[RP287] I so badly wanted to help her.”
Tears welled and started to spill as I remembered that day in the alley. The[RP288] day hell came for me.
“They took us to a place. The place you found us. Alissa wasn’t as lucky as I was.”
And I was lucky. They did things to those women I was spared the same fate. I would rather have been beaten and whipped.
“I was forced to watch. I had more value than her.”
I didn’t understand that. How could you put a price on a person? These horrible creatures did. They weren’t human.
“Mouse.”
He paused, and I looked up at him not hiding the tears as they poured like a river down my face. I was not worthy of his care.
“Where were you before?”
“I was taken by a man who was looking for Kara.” Oh god[RP289], I forgot about her.
“Hyde, we have to find her she’s running…”
“He has her Mouse.”
He was being brutally honest with me. I wasn’t a fragile china doll waiting to be broken.
I shook my head, and fought back the hot fear burning its way through my skin. It felt like a hot poker.
“I need you to think. Can you remember anything?”
Shaking my head, the only memories I had right now were of the cages and all the things I was forced to endure.
His hands cup my face, and[RP290] his lips press against my forehead. So caring, so loving it tore my heart in two.
“Please don’t leave me.”
I latched on to his muscular forearms and held on for dear life. It was the first time I wanted to touch or be touched in so long.
I’ve shared things with him, and[RP291] he still hasn’t turned away from me.
“Would you ever share, your woman Hyde?”
It was something I’ve seen them do to Alissa. Three[RP292] men took her at once and it[RP293] was a horrific sight. I watch[RP294]ed as his eyes turn[RP295]ed near black in anger.
“I could never share you Mouse.”
Something warmed deep in my chest. He just admitted I was his. I grabbed his face in my hands, I lean[RP296]ed forward and press my lips to his.
It was a beautiful moment. The air was sucked from my lungs as my world tilted[RP297] to its side. I never felt anything like this.
Before I could remember to breathe again, I was lifted into his arms. My legs wrapped around his waist. Something hard pressed against my pussy.
Sparks shot through me as panic tried to set in.
“Look at me Mouse.”
I didn’t even realize I had closed my eyes.
“It’s me, okay? If[RP298] you want to stop, we will.”
I didn’t want to stop. I’ve drempt of[RP299] this moment since I was a teen and I realized what that warm feeling I got around him was.
I’ve always wanted him. Now, I needed him. I needed the memories extinguished. I needed freedom from the chains holding my body in that dark place.
Words failed me, so I grabbed his ears and forced his lips to mine. His tongue slipped between my lips and I found his.
Soon they were dancing in my mouth. My hips rocked against his. My eyes stayed locked on him. I couldn’t let them win.
I wouldn’t let the memories and the terror take this moment from me. Reaching down I start to undo his pants.
I needed this to be faster. As much as I wanted to savor it, I[RP300] needed him inside me.
“Please Hyde.”
“Fuck darlin, let me take you there slowly.”
Shaking my head, I fought[RP301] the tears that threatened to ruin this.
“I need you now… I don’t want them to take this from me.”
I feared that my mind would change, and the memories would squash me. His eyes His eyes darkened and became more intense. It was almost freighting and at the same time flattering.
I expected him to tell me no that he wanted to go slow but instead[RP302], my back met the bed and his shirt that covered my body was ripped in half.
The boxers quickly followed I watch in wide eye[RP303]d amazement as his clothes were ripped from his body in his aggressive need to be with me.
I thought
fear would sink in now, but it stayed at bay. My eyes locked with his as he climbed onto the bed and then on top of me.
His hips forced their way between my knees, and[RP304] soon his cock was resting against my pussy. Tingles shot through me like fireworks on the fourth of July.
Large, long moans spilled from my lips, and[RP305] I was helpless to pull them back. His fingers found my left nipple and then they were rolling it between his fingers giving a little tug here and there.
My back bowed off the bed as pleasure danced along my body. My eyes still locked with him and widen[RP306] as he lowered his head and took my nipple between his lips and started suckling.
My hips rocked against his as my pussy moistened and slowly coated his cock. It would have been embarrassing if I wasn’t so locked in pleasure.
“Please[RP307], I can’t wait anymore.”
His eyes closed slightly and before I could beg for more he was slamming into me. My eyes widened as pain shot through me like a bullet from a gun.
He just ripped me in two. His cock was massive, and[RP308] I’m sure I will never walk again.
“Fuck Mouse why didn’t you tell me?”
I didn’t think I needed to tell him. Didn’t he know how much I loved him, even all those years ago? His lips found my cheeks, and[RP309] slowly he kissed away the tears.
My pussy fought to accommodate him. Hyde was not even moving a muscle as his fingers slowly rose up my thigh.
The moment they touched my clit my head flung back. The pain was a dull throb as his fingers rubbed against me.
It was the most beautiful thing I’ve ever felt. Then his hips slowly retreated, then moved back to mine mine. Slowly, he thrusted just a little. Soon turning into longer and harder thrusts.
“Faster.”
I moaned the words. Then his hips were slamming into mine hard and fast over and over. I was sliding up the bed.
The moment my[RP310] head met the headboard I was pinned between his cock, the mattress, and the headboard.
Each thrust became harder, and[RP311] I was stuck as he was going deeper. His hips became flushed with mine and his right hand wrapped around my throat just resting there.
Another thing keeping me in place for his rough[RP312], hard thrusts. His cock was tunneling in and out of me at a speed that had my orgasm washing over me in a blinding intensity.
My pussy clamped down on his cock massaging it as he continued to relentlessly take me. Screams of pleasure ripped from my throat as I tumbled over and over into the sky.
“Fuck kitten.”
I heard the words and my pussy tightened further. Another orgasm washed over me as his fingers tightened slightly on my throat. I ignored it[RP313]
“Love this tight pussy. My fucking pussy.”
His words kept me there in the never-ending bliss of orgasm. His left hand found my clit and his fingers pinched it gently giving it a little tug.
Another scream escaped me as[RP314] my pussy gushed all over his cock. His right hand twisted in my hair as he slammed into me with one last hard thrust.
I could feel his cock jerk deep inside me and warmth followed. His lips once again found mine and he kissed me with a hunger I thought would be well sated. His cock was still hard inside me.
“I would take you again, but you need to rest.”
My eyes became as big as saucers. He could go again so soon? He rolled over taking me with him.
Still lodged deep inside me.
My pussy pulsed as an ache made its self-known. Ignoring it, I close my eyes. Hyde’s hand was gently rubbing up and down my spine. He wasn’t talking. I expected him to ask why I stayed a virgin. I wasn’t going to lie. I loved him, and I always wanted it to be him.
Before I let sleep, drag me under I reminded myself that there were no promises between Hyde and myself. This could be just what it was a good fuck.
I wanted more, but I wasn’t so sure he could ever give me what I needed. He may never be able to look past all the scars covering my body.
In a way[RP315], I felt unworthy of him. I felt like the ugly duckling, but[RP316] instead of becoming beautiful I would forever be covered in reminders of the horrors this world has to offer.
Chapter 19
Mouse
Two weeks later….
The walls in this room once a haven was now closing in on me. I wanted freedom. I also knew I wasn’t a prisoner here.
Hyde has been here for me every chance he got. Sometimes when he was gone, he would come back covered in blood.
He was out there killing people, and[RP317] I didn’t care. I knew one day he would. This was something I knew even as a kid. I needed more freedom from the chains holding me in the past.
Those monsters still had a hold on me, and[RP318] I couldn’t let it go. Standing I started to pace[RP319] the room. There were things I needed, and I couldn’t ask Hyde to get them for me[RP320].
Originally it was menstrual stuff, then I realized it should have happened by now. So now it was a test one I hope I don’t fail.
I feel horrible thinking that. But the idea of having a child[RP321], someone to love me no matter what was a heady feeling.
I know one-day Hyde will find another woman one less fractured on the inside and out. She would be beautiful too.
I just know it. He deserved that special someone.
Someone not tainted like me. I would have a child. One that was just like him.
My small piece of the one I could never keep.
“Kitten?”
Turning I look at Hyde as he rushed through the door.
“I’m fine. I’m sorry to worry you I just need out of
here and I didn’t want to lose the determination to
do it.”
His eyes sparked with relief and then laughter. Those, of course[RP322], didn’t show on his face. Smart man that he was I might have… thrown a pillow at him.
“Come on darlin.”
He was holding out his hand like a lifeline, and[RP323] I took it like my life depended on it. In a way it did. I needed to take this step.
Walking out of our, I mean his[RP324] room was the first step. I haven’t been willing to do that, not after I tried and ran into some guy who thought I was the entertainment.
Jackal saved me, and[RP325] we both promised not to tell Hyde. I felt a little guilty about that, but I knew Hyde would have killed the man.
My feet wanted to drag behind me like useless appendages. Hyde’s fingers tightened on mine, giving me the strength to pick up my pace and not slow down.[RP326] Not even when I came across the door. I didn’t hesitate I just walked through it and out into the sunlight.
I was free and no longer a child. That’s how monumental this felt. How important it really was. I wanted this freedom.
“Come on darlin.”
Slowly my feet moved, and[RP327] before long I was shuffling behind him. The air outside was intoxicating. The sun hit the pavement just right it looked like little stars that glimmered like diamonds.
A heady combination of the[RP328] night below me and the day above me. It was like looking into my soul. The darkness that wanted to suck me in and the bright light that was Hyde.
His bike loomed before me. I watch[RP329]ed as Hyde climbed[RP330] on and then heldout his hand with a[RP331] helmet dangling from his outstretched fingers. I grasped it, I put it over my head and climb[RP332]ed on behind him.
“Hold on kitten.”
Wrapping my arms around him[RP333], I squeal[RP334]ed when the bike jumped forward. I wanted to feel the wind in my hair and the cold air on my cheeks, but I knew Hyde would stop the moment I took off this helmet.
For the first time in years[RP335], I was free. Free to be.
Chapter 20
Hyde
I watch[RP336]ed as her red hair shined in the sunlight. The different shades and more[RP337] prominent.
“Hyde?”
I smile as she whispered my name.
“Mouse.”
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��Stop calling me that I’m not a little kid anymore.” Her smile was big as she said those words. It was cute. I wasn’t going to stop, not[RP338] by a long shot. I didn’t need to look to know my brothers were following me.
I wouldn’t take her out if I wasn’t fucking positive she would be well fucking guarded. The coffee shop was coming up, something I knew would delight her.
Parking the bike, I slowly help[RP339]ed her off it. I watched[RP340] as she removed[RP341] the helmet and took[RP342] a deep breath. She was fucking perfect.
Her eyes close[RP343]d as the smell of baked goods and coffee reach[RP344]ed her senses. Reaching for her hand, I link[RP345]ed our fingers and lead her inside.
I know we should be looking for Kara, but Mouse needed me as well she needed us.
Chapter 21
Mouse
The ride was exhilarating. I felt both freedom and peace for the first time. The smell of fresh baked bread, cookies, muffins, and[RP346] coffee coated the air, and[RP347] I felt bliss.
I haven’t had anything like this in what felt like years, even if it’s only been months. Excitement had me wanting to skip.
Hyde was smiling as I tugged on our joined hands. He wasn’t moving fast enough. I needed to get some of that deliciousness.
Opening the door, I walk[RP348]ed in. I didn’t[RP349] wait for Hyde to follow me. I released him and[RP350] walked in like I was a normal person.
Like someone[RP351] who hasn’t seen what darkness was.
Fingers wrapped around my wrist grabbing it painfully and pulling me to a halt. I couldn’t believe Hyde would be so cruel.
Tears stung my eyes. I felt like nothing happened. That I hadn’t been held captive twice. Hyde just stole something precious from me with that hard-painful hold.
He took me back to the here and now wiping away any peace I felt since leaving the clubhouse. I turned,[RP352] and gasped in surprise.
I didn’t understand what I was seeing. I had come face to face with someone I didn’t know. His smile was lewd. My skin crawled as his thumb rubbed my skin.
“Take your fucking hands off her.”
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