by Tracy Wolff
Aria wears her attitude like it’s armor, looks out for herself and anyone else she feels needs it. She knocks back a high roller like it’s easy, but falls into subspace even more easily. She doesn’t take anything she considers a handout—she accepted her job back because she deserved it, but didn’t touch one thing in the bag of toiletries I had sent up. Not one thing. And though she was lost and more than a little out of it when she came down from the sex, she wouldn’t let me help her through it. Hell, she barely let me touch her afterward.
Instead, she locked herself in the bathroom, then sashayed out of my office with a smile and a wave—like we hadn’t just taken each other apart. Oh, she was polite. Friendly, even. But it was the same sort of friendliness she shows the customers who aren’t trying to get in her little black lace panties. Since I’ve already been in them—and gotten her out of them—expecting just a little more than she gives them doesn’t seem like too much to ask for.
She’s a mass of contradictions—of unexpected actions and zero explanations—and I can’t get her out of my mind. I tell myself it’s because she’s a distraction, someone I found to keep my mind off the fact that my life has taken so many abrupt turns lately that it’s amazing I don’t have whiplash. Or casino carpet burn on my ass.
But even as I float that theory, there’s a part of me that knows it isn’t true. Knows that whatever interest I have in Aria, it isn’t nearly as superficial as I’d like to think it is. Not even as superficial as I want it to be, which—again, if I’m honest—isn’t very superficial at all.
I’ve been staring at the same bullshit numbers for the last ten minutes and I still have no idea what they say—besides the very obvious, “your father has been running this place into the ground” refrain that I hear pretty much any time I try to make headway on the finances.
It’s just that I don’t like that she’s so alone. I hadn’t liked it when I’d seen it on the casino floor—when everyone from the dealer to the security guy had turned his back on her. And I don’t like it now that I know she has no one to turn to in real life, either.
Maybe I’m overreacting. Blowing the whole thing out of proportion. There could be any number of reasons why she didn’t put down an emergency contact number. But in most situations, the most logical conclusion is the right one, and in this case, that conclusion is that she didn’t have anyone to put down.
It’s not a conclusion I’m happy about.
And as long as I’m listing things I’m not happy about, I really don’t like the way she’s pushing me away, like I’m an inconvenience that needs to be ignored until I just go away. That was the most mind-shattering sex I’ve ever had—and we didn’t even do one-tenth of the things I want to do to her. There’s no way I’m walking away this early in the game.
With that thought uppermost in my head, I shove back from my desk. It can’t hurt to make a run through the casino, just to check on how everything is going. Sure, I made one a few hours ago—before Aria ever came to my office—but in a ship this big, especially one that’s on the verge of sinking, it pays to be vigilant.
And if I just happen to run into Aria as I’m checking things out—well, then, I’ll be able to kill two birds with one stone.
Except when I get down to the high roller area—having taken the long way through reception, the kitchens, the late night restaurants and nearly every other area of the casino since I didn’t want to look too eager, even to myself—she looks dead on her feet. Like every step she takes is an agony.
She’s pale, her skin almost waxy in the harsh lights of the casino and she’s swaying on her feet. There are dark bruises under her eyes, and the hands she delivers drinks with are far from steady. Even worse, she doesn’t seem to have the energy to fend off the jerks the way I’ve seen her do twice now. Instead of delivering a quip or angling her body a certain way to shut them down—or even staring them down as I saw her do on the video last night—she’s just taking the abuse.
Taking the slide of a hand along her hip or the pat on her ass or—as I’m standing here watching—the squeeze of her breast. The bastard.
Fury is an ugly drumbeat in my veins when I step forward to rescue her, but I’m barely halfway there when Aria turns and stumbles away, much to the dismay of the asshole who was groping her. I look around, try to see if security or management is paying any attention to what’s happening here, try to figure out if my speech yesterday afternoon had any impact at all. But before I can call him on turning yet another blind eye, the newest security guy approaches the whale with grabby hands, says something to him.
Huh. Maybe my message got through, after all.
But the future job security of my other employees isn’t high on the list of things that are important to me right now, no matter that I came back to this damn place for just that reason. To ensure it doesn’t go under and leave all these people without jobs or pensions or savings to show for their years of service. No, right now all I care about is getting to Aria and getting her the hell out of here as fast as possible.
A glance at my watch tells me that, like an idiot, I’ve managed to do a pretty good job of wasting time getting down here. She’s set to get off in a little over an hour. But that’s not going to work, not in the state she’s in. She needs to leave now, before she ends up tripping in those ridiculous heels and getting hurt. Or before I end up ripping the face off some jerk who decides that now—when she’s obviously out of it—is the time to score with her.
I watch as another customer touches her, sliding his hand up and down the back of her leg. Aria jerks a little bit at the uninvited caress, but she doesn’t pull away. Doesn’t tell him off.
That’s it. I’m done watching this.
I cross the floor to her in three long strides, and then my hand is sliding across her lower back, wrapping around her hip as I pull her body into the shelter of mine. I shoot a dirty look at the bastard who was just groping her and he inclines his head in an I’ve-got-the-message kind of way. Good. I’d hate to have to break his arm—or his teeth—on what I’m pretty sure is his first night in my casino.
The fact that Aria doesn’t immediately shrug me off tells me everything I need to know about what kind of state she’s in.
I propel her over to the bar, and then into a little alcove behind it. It’s not much privacy, but it’s the best I’m going to get right now.
She still isn’t fighting me, still isn’t telling me that she has to get back to work. I’m the first to admit that I don’t know Aria very well yet, despite our very intimate exchange in my office a couple of hours ago, but I’m smart enough to know that isn’t her normal behavior. Which only makes me more concerned.
“Hey,” I say, pressing a hand under her chin and lifting her face toward mine. “You all right?”
Her eyes are dull, lifeless, with none of the spark I’ve come to associate with her in the three days I’ve known of her existence. “I’m fine.” Even her voice is nearly monotone.
She isn’t fine. Goddamn it, not even close. And as I look at her, I figure out what the problem is. And that it is one hundred percent my fault.
Subdrop. The word slams into me like a goddamn freight train. I may not have ever seen it up close before—never been responsible for it before as I normally work damn hard to take care of the women I’m with—but that doesn’t mean I don’t recognize it when it’s staring me in the face.
When it’s my own fucking fault.
I didn’t take care of her. The fact that I wanted to, that I tried and she wouldn’t let me, doesn’t matter. She went into subspace so easily today, let me take her under so quickly, that I should have known something like this would happen. Especially when she wouldn’t let me hold her, soothe her, afterward. Especially when she acted like she was completely fine. Like things were totally normal.
She isn’t fine and things aren’t normal and the last time I was this angry at myself for being an oblivious prick was almost ten years ago. It was completely different
circumstances then—completely awful circumstances—but I’m no less furious with myself now than I was then. Which says a hell of a lot about how badly I’ve screwed up. And how much I’m starting to feel for this woman in front of me. This woman who has the soul of a warrior and the heart of a submissive.
“I’m sorry,” I tell her, resting my forehead against hers. “I’m so sorry.”
She shakes her head, tries to pull away. “I don’t know what you’re apologizing for.” She glances over my shoulder, then starts to push me away. “I have to get back to work.”
“You’re done working for tonight.”
“No, I’m not. I need this job.” She walks away from me then, heads straight to the bar. “I need two Absolut and cranberries, a Nolet’s Reserve and soda, and two Diet Cokes,” she tells the bartender.
“On it,” he answers.
“After you deliver those, you’re done.”
“I’m done in an hour, when my shift ends.”
“Don’t fight me on this, Aria—”
“I just want to do my job, Sebastian. Let me do it.”
“Hey, Aria,” the bartender says as he sets the drinks on the bar in a steady stream, one after the other. “Is this guy bothering you?”
“No.” She looks right through me. “He’s not bothering me at all.”
I’m fuming as I watch her pick up the drinks and head off to deliver them. Partly at her but mostly at myself. I know better. I fucking know better. No matter what she’d told me, no matter how she’d acted as she was leaving my office, I should have known ending up here was a possibility.
I’ve got two choices at this point. I can force her to leave now or I can wait until her shift is over and care for her then. And while every instinct I have is screaming at me to get her the hell out of here, now, I’m smart enough to know that might not be the right move. Partly because David is already watching us suspiciously—and unlike the bartender, he knows exactly who I am. The last thing I want Aria to have to deal with right now is rumors about the two of us, especially since neither of us yet knows what “us” really entails.
Even more important, she told me that she wants to stay. Right now, with the way she’s crashing, the last thing I want to do is take this decision out of her hands. She doesn’t trust me as it is—forcing my will on her right now is probably the most unhealthy thing I can do to her. To us.
And so I wait. Impatiently. Silently seething every time she stumbles. Every time some dick with more balls than compassion lays a hand on her. I’d take care of it before it happens if I could, but the place is packed tonight and there’s no way to tell who is going to behave like a human being and who’s going to be a total jackass. At least not until after it happens, at which time I’m more than happy to make sure he understand the error in his ways.
But that’s not good enough. Not when Aria is so vulnerable. So lost. So fucking empty. And knowing that I did this to her—that I sent her spiraling into this state when all I wanted to do was give her pleasure—makes me crazy.
I’ve never been this careless before, and the fact that I made the mistake with her makes it ten times worse.
I try to talk to her a couple times, to run a soothing hand down her back or give her a squeeze on the shoulder, but when she just stares at me blankly I end up feeling like every other asshole who’s been trying to fuck with her while she’s doing her job.
It’s not a good feeling.
And so, finally, I settle myself onto a stool at the bar where I watch the second hand on my watch spin its way slowly, slowly, slowly around the numbers. Again and again and again. Sixty seconds—sixty minutes—never took so long.
The moment the clock reads two-thirty, I’m off the stool and across the room, my arm around Aria’s waist.
“I need to clock out,” she tells me.
I start to tell her to forget about it, that I’ll take care of it, but once again I stop myself. This whole thing was supposed to be about helping Aria gain control of her life, not about taking control away from her.
So I wait a little longer, watching as she strokes a few keys on the computer and logs out for the night.
When she’s done with everything she needs to do, when she’s logged out and gathered her things, I take her hand. Lace our fingers together. “Do you want to go upstairs?” I ask, putting the control firmly in her hands. “Or do you want me to take you home?”
She looks startled—a good sign, I think, considering it’s the first emotion she’s shown since she came, crying out my name. “I’m fine. I can get myself home.”
My good intentions go right out the window in the face of her stubbornness. “That wasn’t one of the options, Aria.”
“It should be.”
I incline my head, because she’s probably right. It probably should be. But she needs someone to take care of her tonight and leaving her alone isn’t a choice I can give her. Not right now when it’s taking every ounce of control I have not to sweep her into my arms and carry her through the damn casino. Not when I want nothing more than to take her up to my suite, to my bed, and keep her there for a week. Or forever. Whichever comes last.
“Choose,” I tell her when I finally have my shit together enough to speak. “Now. Because one way or another, you’re leaving this casino with me.”
Don’t miss this continuing series, five installments available now from Loveswept
Play Me #1: Play Me Wild
Play Me #2: Play Me Hot
Play Me #3: Play Me Hard
Play Me #4: Play Me Real
Play Me #5: Play Me Right
BY TRACY WOLFF
Play Me
Play Me Wild
Play Me Hot
Play Me Hard
Play Me Real
Play Me Right
Ethan Frost Novels
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Addicted
Exposed (coming soon)
Extreme Risk Series
Shredded
Shattered
Slashed (coming soon)
Other Books
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Tie Me Down
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New York Times and USA Today bestselling author TRACY WOLFF lives in Texas and teaches writing at her local community college. She is married and the mother of three young sons.
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The Editor’s Corner
I don’t know about you, but this is my favorite time of year. Sure, the month is crazy with holiday preparations, but before you know it, they’ve come and gone…which always makes me a little sad. Never fear—I’ve got some great romances to lift you out of those seasonal doldrums. Loveswept in December—guaranteed to keep you on that holiday high!
New this month is the latest tantalizing Rule Breakers novel, Want It, from Jennifer Chance, in which an irresistible alpha male follows his ex into a deadly standoff—and reignites a heated affair. A warm welcome to Wendy S. Marcus as she makes her Loveswept debut this month with Loving You Is Easy—she’s a survivor of the political front lines and he’s a wounded soldier returning home from the battlefield. Can they place their trust in the power of love? You bet! You’ll be thrilled to know that the conclusion of Ella Patton and Liam Stone’s story is here in Laura Marie Altom’s Possess—more of the contentious love affair that began in Control. Historical romance fans will adore His Saving Grace, by Sharon Cullen, a captivating novel that tells the deeply emotional tale of two devoted lovers facing the ravages of war.
And a little something special for you this month: Play Me, a serialization written by New York Times bestselling author Tracy Wolff. Five wonderful installments complete a full-size novel, and each section will tantalize you. Listen to this: Aria Winston lives the life of a loner, waitressing at a popular Las Vegas casino. Sebastian Caine is the hot son of the owner who manages the business while his father recovers from a series of mini-strokes. Th
ings heat up fast, and the glimpses of the man behind the façade disturb Aria but also make her want him more (contains BDSM elements).
Wishing you a happy, healthy, and safe holiday season—and just in case Santa doesn’t deliver on the goodies, remember: Loveswept has what you need this month in romance. Until next time…
~Happy Romance!
Gina Wachtel
Associate Publisher
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