Passion.
The archangel was awake.
As he turned toward the shower, he had a fast, indistinct glimpse of the wings inked into his back.
Holly felt a lightness in her chest. She’d had maybe an hour of sleep, but physical exhaustion was no match for the swelling hope that filled all her dark corners.
Her immediate future was no longer a mere play at survival, awaiting the moment her family caught up to her. For the first time ever, she could think about her future as hers.
Michael had done that for her. Simply by promising, he’d changed the course of her whole life.
She had no idea how to thank him for that.
“Holly, table six is yours,” Vanessa said as Holly passed her coming out of the kitchen. There was a deliberate coldness to her voice. She refused to make eye contact. She, along with the other girls, continued to blame Holly for Carly’s death.
Holly felt a fast stab of grief, regret, guilt. “Okay.” Her voice dimmed in her throat.
But then she was out on the floor of the bar, amid the din of chattering lunch patrons, and she reminded herself that it was only a few short hours until dinnertime, and Michael’s appearance.
The guilt wasn’t going anywhere, but it could live in one of her mental storerooms, alongside her countless other regrets.
There was a familiar, slender dark-haired silhouette at table six by the window, Ava Lécuyer managing, as usual, to make jogging pants and a shapeless sweater look elegant.
Her mother sat beside her. The beautiful biker queen with the golden mane: Maggie Teague.
And across from them, a woman in office clothes with a sleek red bob that Holly had seen a time or two, one of the other old ladies.
Holly took a fortifying breath and approached their table with a bright hello.
Ava glanced over, gave her a bare smile of recognition.
Maggie said, “Hi,” as she flipped through her menu, one eye on the redhead, pretty features tight with concern. “We’re going to have Chardonnay” – she gestured between herself and the redhead – “and–”
“Ginger ale?” Holly guessed, looking at Ava.
Another small smile, this one surprised. “Yeah, that’d be good.” She turned to her mother. “Merc and I are in here a lot,” she explained.
“Oh, bless you,” Maggie said to Holly. “He must drink y’all out of Johnnie Walker.”
Not expecting a friendly overture, Holly smiled. “We keep an extra case on hand.”
“Smart.”
A thought struck her. A fast flare of nostalgia, the kind she felt for something she’d never had, and probably never would. What would it be like, she wondered, to be one of these Lean Dogs old ladies? There were women in Knoxville who looked down their noses at the biker wives, but even among those snobs, there was a certain amount of awe and respect. Maybe even fear. These three women at this table, they could strike fear in people, thanks to their connections. What must that feel like, Holly wondered, desperately, to be a woman capable of making others afraid?
She guessed she’d never know. Michael wasn’t offering to tattoo his name on her, after all, just utilize his professional skillset.
Regroup.
“I’ll be right back with your drinks…”
Her breath caught in her throat. On the sidewalk outside, beyond the deeply-tinted window, stood her husband.
“An engine is like a woman.”
“I’m dying to see where this goes,” Mercy said.
On the other side of the picnic table, Aidan gestured for him to be quiet, his attention still on his young pupil. Carter Michaels had never done one thing mechanical in his life, but Aidan was convinced he could make a mechanic out of their newest, youngest prospect.
“An engine is like a woman,” he repeated, “because you have to know what you’re doing. You make the right diagnosis, the right adjustments, and it’ll start right up.”
“Wait, I’m confused,” Mercy said. “You diagnose all those poor women you sleep with?” He bit down hard on his grin when Aidan shot him a dark look.
Beside Mercy, Tango reached for another onion ring from the communal pile in the middle of the table and said, “Nah. The diagnosing comes after. When the burning sensation starts.”
Mercy couldn’t contain his sharp, punching laughter.
Tango chuckled.
Carter turned a thin smile into a throat-clearing.
Aidan said, “Alright, how’s an engine like a woman?”
“Hey, man, this is your analogy. I’m just making fun of it.”
Aidan made a face.
“God, you’re a cry baby these days,” Mercy said with a dramatic sigh, earning a scowl. Aidan had been seriously on edge for the last few weeks, and he for one was tired of it.
Gracefully, Carter stepped in. “No, I think I know what he means,” he said, defending his sponsor. “Engines are touchy. You’ve gotta put some work into them, to get them running right.” Then he frowned, disappointed in his own explanation.
Mercy reached for his soda. “An engine is like a woman in that you have to love it,” he said, relenting. “You learn. You make understanding its strengths your top priority, and you help doctor it through its weaknesses. You become an expert, on that engine, and then you stand back and marvel at its power.”
Tango whistled. “Cajun biker poet,” he said, appreciatively.
“I don’t guess anybody has to wonder which woman you were comparing it to,” Aidan grumbled.
“Nope.” Mercy grinned at him. “You can suit yourself, brother, but I like a quality engine.”
Again, Carter tried to hide a smile.
Growing serious, Mercy said, “You’ve just got to study up, kid,” to Carter. “Being a mechanic’s a trade like anything else. Some people take to it more naturally than others, and some have to work a little hard. Same as any job.”
Carter nodded and sighed, his shoulders sagging. “Yeah, I know.” In the afternoon sunlight, his hair was brilliant gold, his young face dotted with faint freckles.
It was lunch time, and despite the forty-two degree temp and the tugging wind, the day had turned out sunny, and all of them were too restless to be cooped up any longer. Their hands were tight and chapped from the cold, joints stiff from working on unhappy bikes just as resentful of winter as they were. When the pavement gained the faintest trace of warmth from the sun, they sent Carter out for Burger King, and were now eating it on the picnic table out in front of the bike shop.
“Ghost’s got other stuff you could do,” Mercy went on between bites of burger, “but you’ll need to be able to work on your own bike. You gotta learn this stuff anyway.”
Carter’s shoulders slumped further at the mention of “bike.” He was having trouble with the idea of trading his red Mustang for a Harley.
“Yeah,” he mumbled, staring at his food.
“You could get something decent, with the money you get from the trade-in,” Tango encouraged. “Better than what I had.” He snorted. “You guys remember that old Indian I had?”
“I remember the sound of it backfiring every fifteen seconds,” Mercy said.
“We shoulda had it bronzed,” Aidan said. “Proof it even existed.”
There was the sound of a throat clearing behind Mercy, and it startled all four of them.
Aidan’s eyes tightened, narrowing a fraction, signaling a threat.
When Mercy turned, he was prepared to see something he didn’t like, and there was Michael, hands on his hips, watching them from behind his sunglasses with his expressionless semblance of a face locked in its usual positions.
“Can I talk to you?” he asked.
Mercy was beyond done with this asshole’s failure to be a human being. He feigned searching the table. “You’re talking to me?” Hand on his chest, overly dramatic.
Michael’s face compressed the smallest bit in a frown. “Yeah.”
Mercy turned his back to him. “I’m eating lunch.”
> “I want to talk to you,” Michael persisted in his toneless voice. “For a second.” A beat, then, the faintest trace of some emotion: “Please.”
Clearly, the man was suffering a major catastrophe if he was almost having emotions and saying please. It would serve him right, Mercy thought for one dark moment, to make him wait some more. But the Lean Dog part of him, that didn’t want to cause even more club drama than he already had, sighed and turned around. “What about?”
Michael motioned with his head toward the parking lot and walked that way. So this was a private talk, then.
With a grimace as his knee pulled, Mercy stood. “Don’t eat my fries.” And followed his least favorite brother.
Michael came to a halt in front of a customer’s waiting bike and turned suddenly, bringing Mercy up short. His hands went back on his hips. He held his head at an angle that projected deference. There was some sort of eagerness in him, a stress Mercy had never noticed before.
Without lifting his shaded eyes to make contact, Michael said, “How did the meeting with Abraham Jessup go this morning?”
Mercy shrugged. “It went. Why?”
“Did Ghost make a deal with him?” His voice was taking on a tight, clipped sound; not his normal, businesslike quality, but one less stable.
Christ. Michael McCall was feeling things.
“Yeah,” Mercy said. “He’s gonna give him that northeast territory that Junior abandoned. He’s got decent coke to sell.”
“Shit,” Michael said to himself. Then his head tipped back, gaze fixed to Mercy’s face, the shapes of his eyes just visible through the lenses of the glasses. “What do you make of him?”
Mercy was shocked. “You want to know if I like him or not?”
“That’s what I asked, isn’t it?” Impatience. Anxiety. Veiled, but there, under the granite surface.
Mercy studied him a moment, the way his knuckles looked white where his fingers were digging into his hipbones. A vein stood out in his throat, a muscle in his jaw throwing a thin, straight shadow where it was raised. The man was riled. Given his normal state, he could have been on a rampage, for all Mercy knew.
“Ghost is letting the guy deal,” he said, carefully, not knowing what Michael’s stake in all this was. “And all our dealers are shitheads; comes with the territory. But–”
Michael inhaled.
“ – this one makes my skin crawl. I don’t know anything about him, but no, I don’t like him. Guy gives me a bad feeling.”
Michael nodded. He swallowed and his throat worked. He glanced away, out across the vast Dartmoor lot that spread off to his right toward the nursery. “You met the son-in-law?”
“Weird as hell.”
Michael nodded again. “Thanks.” He turned to walk away.
“Hey,” Mercy said, staying him a moment. “Why do you care?” he asked, curious, but not unkind.
Michael hesitated. “They’re very bad people.”
“Well…so are we, most of the time.”
He shook his head, brows drawing together in an obvious scowl. “Not like this.” He glanced at Mercy, briefly, before he left. “Not even you.”
Ghost was in the trucking offices, because that was where the most incompetent managers always seemed to be. The newest secretary, a mousy, nervous thing, stood off to the side, hands clasped together in front of her, while Ghost pawed through the paperwork nightmare on the desk.
Michael hesitated in the doorway. It had always been a priority of his to keep anything personal or dramatic away from the club. He never wanted to cause his president any worry.
But he was too full of pulsing energy to let that stop him now. It might have been the hangover, but it felt like an awakening of sorts. Like someone had doused him with cold water. He had something to do. Something personal, even dramatic. And he felt, after all he’d done, that the least his president could do was grant him the time he’d promised.
“Ghost?” he asked, stepping into the office.
He startled the secretary, and she shied hard, bumping into the wall.
Ghost glanced up with surprise, but as a rule, the man never startled. “Yeah?”
Michael braced himself inwardly. Here went nothing. “I think I want to take you up on your offer. You’re right; I need a little time off.”
Ghost nodded and went back to his paperwork. “Good. Fine. Whatever you need.”
Was it really that easy? He’d never tried it, so he hadn’t known. Ghost had been the one to suggest a break to begin with, but so often, people went back on their word.
“You’re sure?”
Ghost spared him a curious look. “Yeah. Go visit your uncle. Get laid. Something. You’re too wired.”
Michael searched his mind for a secret disappointment. Had Ghost told him no, then he would have had a valid reason for backing out on Holly. If he’d wanted it. Turned out, he only felt relief. He didn’t want out of his commitment to Holly. In fact, now that he was free, all he really wanted was to get to her.
“I’ll have my cell, if you need to reach me.”
“Sure.” Ghost gave him an absent wave. To the secretary, he said, “Is this your handwriting here?”
“Y-yes, sir,” she stammered, taking a tentative step toward him.
Michael turned and stepped out into the bright afternoon sunshine, feeling like a great weight had slid off his shoulders.
He might be nervous, later, when he had to lie to his club, pretend he had no idea what had happened to Abraham, Jacob and Dewey Jessup. But for now, all he felt was a sweeping exuberance. Like the wings down his shoulders might actually lift, and carry him the distance to the demons that needed slaying.
Ten
Dewey lingered out in the street for hours, long after the Lean Dogs’ old ladies were gone, long after night had fallen, and he was nothing but a slinking shadow against the backdrop of lit windows across the way.
Holly had progressed from a point of mindless shaking to a semi-stable state of deep-breathing and stiff-smiling her way through her shift. Dewey wasn’t as dangerous as the other two. Dewey was the informer, the squealer, the watcher. They’d figured out, somehow, that she must work here, and now they were setting up a vigil, waiting on her. Carly had been a stupid mistake. They would be more careful now.
When Michael came in, she released an audible sigh of relief. The sight of him crossing the boards was like watching the sun come up. He illuminated her world, pushed the darkness back, made it possible to breathe properly.
Holly went to him right away, empty-handed. There was no need for pretense anymore.
As she slid into the booth, his eyes came to her face and she watched him detect the panic in her, the way his expression became grim, his jaw tight. To anyone else, the changes in his face would have been impossible to notice; she knew its little movements so well by now that she recognized the strong reaction in him. He sensed the fear in her, and it brought a radiant, animal light to his hazel eyes that left her shivering.
“What?” he asked, elbows propping on the table, head thrusting toward her beneath the lamp. He was at complete attention.
Holly had to wet her lips before she could speak. Her mouth had become cardboard during her afternoon of constant stress. “Dewey,” she whispered. “He’s been outside on the sidewalk all day. Waiting.”
Michael tossed a fast, feral glance over his shoulder, toward the door. “Dark hair? Big ears?”
She nodded.
His lips pressed together, turning white. His eyes shifted away from her and across the bar, over the tables and patrons and beer-sign bedecked walls.
“I don’t think he can see through the windows,” she said. “They’re so dark. And I think, if he’d caught sight of me…”
“He’d have come in here,” Michael finished in a tight voice. He sent her a sudden, pointed look. “Or called for backup.”
“Yeah.” Her throat tightened and it was hard to swallow. “He was never very useful for anything. Abraham and
Jacob must have dumped him off, so he could keep watch.”
Michael took a deep breath and seemed to collect himself, closing off the visible emotions so he seemed like his normal, closely-guarded self. “Okay, so here’s what we’ll do…”
A sharp gust of frigid air passed across her bare legs. It rustled paper napkins to the floor and drew startled, unhappy exclamations from the female patrons.
Someone had opened the door.
Holly looked toward the entrance and heard the panicked, strangled sound that tried to leave her throat.
Dewey was standing just inside the air lock, shivering and chafing at his arms through the sleeves of his thin canvas jacket. He looked so out of place: too thin inside his ill-fitting clothes, his feet turned at awkward duck angles, his ears casting shadows down onto his shoulders, like extendable side mirrors on a big truck.
Michael didn’t have to turn. “He came inside,” he said, voice sharp-edged.
“Yes.”
He spoke quickly, words clipped. “What will he do if he sees you?”
“Probably try to talk to me. He was always the one who tried to…reason with me.” She gulped down the bile that pressed at the back of her tongue.
“What if he sees you, and you walk away?”
“He’ll come after me.”
“Good. Get up, go in back, and let him follow you. Lead him somewhere out of the way, and keep him there.”
She gripped the edge of the table and felt the tendons leaping in her wrists. Her gaze was fixed on the man who’d pledged to be her husband just before her hands were bound to the bedposts. She’d known dread back then, as his clammy hands had stroked her naked skin and he’d professed that his rape was something divine and loving. But now, after she’d been part of the world beyond that farmhouse, dread wasn’t a strong enough word anymore.
“I can’t go back,” she whispered. “Michael, I can’t go back, I can’t!”
“Holly.” He thumped his fist down onto the table, drawing her attention. “Do what I said. Go in back, lead him away from here. I can’t do anything in the middle of all these people.”
She stared at the tightness of the bones in his face, at his pale skin like quartz in the lamplight, the fire in his eyes. He looked evil and awful. And beautiful. As beautiful as St. Michael as he’d stood above Lucifer.
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