#62 BEYOND THE SEA
Mia went upstairs alone. He didn't show up later. She was sure, he was somewhere around. He needed his time to calm down. In the bathroom, she saw a new toothbrush and she opened the box. While she was cleaning her teeth, she sat down at the closet and thought. She was quite concentrated.
Julian observed and followed her for the whole time like a dog follows its beloved owner. When she finished, she went slowly to the bedroom and laid carefully down on the bed. She covered herself with the blanket again and stared at the ceiling. As usual, she was lying on the left side of this bed and next to her was enough space for him. She left it with intention and hoped he’ll show up. But Mia didn't see his careful, slow moves in the room and thought he wasn't there. She waited and waited, minutes passed by and there was no change. Outside it was already dark and there was no burning candle. She was lying straight in this huge bed and gazed at the chair where he was mostly sitting. Finally, she was too tired to stay awake and fell asleep. Julian was relieved. He waited until she was sleeping very deeply and he repeated his action from the night before. The bedroom was filled with sapphire-like light. This time, he concentrated even more. He had to bring her back into shape and he should not exaggerate.
When she woke up again, it was still dark outside. Nevertheless, she felt like she slept for hours. Mia didn't see Julian in the room, and stared at the chair. She wished he would be here and that they would talk. She tried to visualize his body sitting in the chair and it was quite difficult. Of course, she could remember how he looked, but his eyes the most intense part of his body. They were magnificent. They were like a deep, wide sea to sail on.
Then she fell asleep again.
She dreamt she was on a yacht. She was alone and the boat was quite small. It was like the Optimist yachts, which have been used already by seamen for lonely travels. She looked around and nowhere was a land to see. Everywhere was deep blue water. The colour of the water was exactly like the colour of Julian’s eyes.
The sea was peaceful at the beginning, but the waves became higher and higher and turned into a tsunami, which could crush you down for a lifetime. Nevertheless, this major wave didn't let her ship fall down into the bottomless channels - deep like the Mid-Atlantic Ridge of the sea of Atlas. No, her boat was taken by this sea wave up to the highest point of this wave and it was like surfing. She saw the deepness below her boat; she was almost in heaven sailing amongst the clouds. She felt the sun shining on her face and she felt wind stroking her shoulders. She knew that she was safe. She felt endlessly happy and smiling. Then she felt a cold breeze and woke up. This airwave wasn't just her imagination; it had caused real goose pimples. She looked around with half opened eyes and didn't see anything that would have changed. It was still dark outside. However, in her heart it was spring. She felt so full of energy and powerful like she didn't feel for weeks.
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