“Goodness child. I don’t know why I even say anything to you somehow it just makes it worse.” James muttered and I laughed.
I walked up to James and snuck a kiss to his cheek. “Its ok pookie bear I’ll give you some Nick love too. There is no reason for you to be jealous there is more than enough of me to go around.” He swatted me away shaking his head and went to make coffee.
I snatched a piece of bacon and went upstairs. I peeked my head into Lucy and Landon’s room and Dean was just lying there awake. I checked the time and saw it was too early for his feeding. I scooped him up and took him downstairs with me. I put down the floor mat and set him down and began playing with him. James joined me in there and Max came down with his crazy bed head about a half hour later. Erica was staying in his room so I’m sure they were up late last night watching movies or something. He immediately sat down on the floor and began playing with us.
Landon and Lucy made their way downstairs about an hour later. I took in Lucy’s flushed face and Landon’s messy hair and the fact he looked a little sweaty and I knew. I waggled my eyebrows at Lucy, “Morning princess, you look… flushed.”
Her face got red and James groaned. Landon rolled his eyes and swung at me as he passed but I dodged it. “Shut up Nick.” He growled. Lucy glared at me as she passed by to take a seat next to Landon.
I leaned down as if I were about to whisper to Dean, “Your parents are gross you know?” Dean made a baby sound that sounded like he was agreeing and everyone laughed.
“Give me my kid.” Landon demanded and I ignored him and kept Dean to myself. When he got annoyed about 15 minutes later he got up and took him from me.
“You know, you are stingy with your kid. You need to share him. Besides if it weren’t for me taking him this morning there wouldn’t have been any sexy time. You should let me have my fill. See if I’ll be helping you out tomorrow.” I pouted.
Lucy pinked again and she swatted at me. “Stop it Nick.” She whined and I cracked up laughing. She was too easy, especially with James around. I get it some things are considered inappropriate in front of parents but it’s not like he didn’t know they do naughty things. They share a bedroom for crying out loud. The cat has been out of the bag since her crazy ass mother caught them naked in bed together and tried to take her away. I’m not going to lie I was surprised as fuck to find them like that that morning. I knew they weren’t having sex, Mel had accidentally told me that Luce was still a virgin and I knew she wasn’t giving it up to Landon due to his ridiculous crankiness when she wasn’t around.
“Stop being a baby Lucy. It’s no secret here… hello Dean, we all know how babies are made.” I told her and she rolled her eyes.
Max piped up. “I don’t know how babies are made. How are they made Lucy?” he asked.
She laughed. “Oh no, you ask Nick. He brought it up.”
I cleared my throat, I totally had this. “Well Max, when two people love each other…” I trailed off while I gathered my thoughts. Shit, this wasn’t as easy as I thought it was going to be. I didn’t want to tell him some crazy story about storks and crap, that shit had me confused as hell when I first started learning the truth. “Ok, so you know how fruit plants grow right?” I asked him.
He nodded. “Yes you put it in dirt and sun and water and they grow into trees and things with grapes and oranges and apples.”
“Right but you have to put a seed into the dirt… So it’s the same thing. The daddy gives the mommy a special seed, and she has to grow it in her belly. When it’s all the way grown and ready then they take it out of the mommy.” I told him.
His eyes were wide and he nodded slowly. “Is that it?” he asked incredulously.
I thought about it and shook my head. “No, daddy has to guide the seed to the right place to grow.” That was the closest I could get to it without traumatizing the kid. He nodded then got up to get a juice. Lucy has him addicted to those damn caprisuns.
“Dude, that has to be the smartest thing you ever said.” Landon remarked.
I rolled my eyes. “Whatever man, that’s not true.”
“Seriously, no one ever gives an accurate description to kids on how babies are made. It’s usually some crazy ass tall tale. That wasn’t a lie but it wasn’t… graphic. I was a bit scared of you answering for a minute.” Lucy said.
I rolled my eyes. “Seriously? You guys have that little faith in me?” I put my hand over my heart and lay down on the floor. “That seriously hurts my heart.”
“And he’s back.” James said and we all laughed.
“I actually heard that, and I’m so proud of you Nicky. You’re growing up so fast.” I didn’t need to sit up to know that was Erica’s sarcastic ass.
I flipped her off. “And this is how much I love you back E.” I heard her roll her eyes. I know her that well. I got up and started walking to the kitchen, “SAM! I’M HUNGRY WHAT THE HELL IS TAKING SO LONG WOMAN?” I screamed.
“Nick, shut up before I don’t feed you. And don’t you dare scream at me boy, I will put you over my knee.” She said.
“Please will you Sam? I’ll be your submissive if that’s what you’re into.”
“Oh dear lord, I think we need to have you evaluated.” She said with a laugh.
“You can evaluate as much of me as you like sexy Sam. All of this is all for you, I don’t know how many times I got to tell you this. Now, why is breakfast taking so long?” I asked. I was seriously hungry. I looked at the counter and my mouth instantly watered. I wiped the side of my mouth to make sure there wasn’t any drool. She made home fries, ham, bacon, sausage, French toast, pancakes, and eggs. She had also taken out some bagels, English muffins, cream cheese, butter, and jelly. Dude it was the works. “You planning on feeding an army today? Why so much?” I asked.
She shrugged. “I was just in the mood to cook, is that alright with you?” she asked planting a hand on her hip.
I put my hands up in defeat. “You win, I am not arguing with you. I’ll just sit down and eat when the food is ready, I promise.” She nodded and I took a seat at the breakfast bar.
I was playing on my phone when I heard her voice. “It smells so good in here, good morning Sam.”
I looked up and took her in. she was wearing some sleep shorts and a loose t-shirt. She still looked sexy as fuck and I immediately had an image of her asleep in bed in nothing but my t-shirt. I shook my head because that wasn’t the right line of thinking and returned my attention to my phone. I heard her leave the room towards the family room and released the breath I’ve been holding.
“What was that about?” I looked up and Sam was standing by my side. She wasn’t speaking in a loud voice to make sure that no one else heard.
“What you talking about?” I asked.
She arched an eyebrow. “You want to play stupid with me? I remember a time I couldn’t remove you from her now it’s like she’s not even in the room… what gives?”
I sighed. “She broke up with me so now we’re just acquaintances.” I told her with a shrug.
She frowned in disbelief. “So just like that it’s like nothing ever happened?” she asked.
I nodded. “Just like that.” I confirmed.
She scoffed and began walking back to the stove. “Yea ok. You kids and your drama…. You say that now but I’ve been around the block a few times.” Then she began muttering under her breath and I don’t think it was intended for me to hear but I heard her say, “That isn’t the end of it mark my words.” I rolled my eyes and decided to ignore her.
Sam called everyone in for breakfast and we gathered around the table. Landon set Dean down in his swing on the floor on the left side of him. As soon as all the food was on the table I dug in. I loaded some of everything on my plate, I feel like I haven’t eaten in weeks. “Sam, next time can you keep breakfast simple so that I’m not on the verge of starving to death?” I asked her with my mouthful.
“You’re still complaining Nick? It is not my fault that you wer
e born the size of a full grown man. You’re about to be 20 in what a week, and you eat enough for an entire football team. I’m sorry to break it to you honey but your appetite is not normal you’re always hungry. But hey, if it keeps that body of yours intact with that tight ass then I suggest you keep it up. But stop bitching at me before I kick your ass.” She said with a smile.
I gave her a smug smile and blew her a kiss. “I love it when you talk dirty to me.” I heard snickers around the table. I looked up and Mel was sitting on the other side of the table next to Lucy. Her head was down and I saw her shoulders moving. She was trying to contain a smile but she couldn’t help herself. I forgot how much she enjoyed my little crush on Sam. I continued to watch her out of the corner of my eye as she cut off a piece of pancake and ate it with a strawberry. Her eyes rolled back and she let out a moan and I felt my dick instantly start to harden. I fidgeted in my seat as I tried to get myself under control but it wasn’t working and I let out a sigh and took a sip of orange juice.
“This is so good Sam. I miss this type of food when I’m at school I’m telling you. Ramen noodles have nothing on you.” She said and she had that sexy voice she uses when she’s pleased like after she comes down from an orgasm. I felt like a preteen with his first erection and confused about what’s happening to his body. I just got laid yesterday yet my cock was starting to hurt from need. I couldn’t take it anymore and I pushed back my chair and stood. I grabbed my plate and orange juice and started to leave the table.
“Where are you going?” Lucy asked.
“I’m going to finish eating in my room, I don’t feel too well.” I told her which was true. I wasn’t feeling good, but it wasn’t from sickness. I started to walk away and I caught a glimpse of Mel. She was looking at me and when our eyes met her shoulders slumped then she hung her head but I still caught the hurt look in her eyes. She knows she’s the reason I’m leaving, but it’s not for the reasons she’s thinking. I couldn’t continue to be around her when she’s turning me on, I’ll end up cuming in my pants at the table. I walked to my room with a heavy chest I will need to avoid her as best I can. At least until my body can catch up with my damn brain and act like it’s supposed to. I got to my room and no matter what I thought about my cock wouldn’t go down and it was painful as all hell. I couldn’t even finish my food before I had to jump in the shower and take care of it with images of Mel in my head.
Mel
“Are you going to tell me what’s going on with you and Nick?” Lucy asked me as we packed up my stuff.
I sighed. After breakfast I didn’t see Nick again the rest of the time I’ve been here, he was good at avoidance apparently. “Nothing worth talking about, you know we broke up that’s all there is to it.” Lucy is my best friend and she loves us both, I refuse to put her in the middle of… well I don’t know. According to Nick there is nothing to get in between, but my heart says otherwise.
She shook her head, “one of these days either you or Nick is going to have to talk to us you know that right?” she asked.
I stopped folding my shirt and looked at her. “Hopefully there will be nothing to talk about.” I gave her a small smile that was forced and I’m hoping that she doesn’t notice it. The frown that graced her face tells me that she does, of course she does. Knowing someone really well does have its downfalls.
She walked to me and gave me a tight hug. “Just know I’m here for you when and if you do want to talk. Do you want a minute?” She asked. And this is one of the times that knowing someone so well is one of the best things ever. I nodded and she gave me a genuine knowing smile before she left the room.
When the door closed I sighed and collapsed onto the bed. I let my head fall into my hands and a stray tear that I wasn’t expecting escaped. I had been so sad at school all the time missing him and wishing that I only had to wait until after class or after a practice to see him. In the beginning it wasn’t so bad because we would talk to each other on facetime frequently. Every time I saw his face my heart skipped a beat. I liked him since the beginning, I remember being nervous to tell Lucy about it since he was cousins with Landon and that was at a time when he was a complete and total douche to her. I felt like I was betraying her but there was something about him that had me captivated. God, I was so nervous about it all I honestly didn’t think I would stand a chance. Then I was convinced he was totally into Lucy that first day when I met him and he was all over her and actually stood up for her. It’s crazy because that is what made me like him for real. I loved how he was his own person and even when I told him about the schools dynamic and how they felt about her he didn’t cave or change his mind about being her friend. I’m not going to lie I was a little confused and jealous, I mean I thought Landon had a thing for Lucy and that’s why he did everything in his power so she wouldn’t be asked out, but at the same time I thought he hated her like hell because that’s the only reason you would do the things he did and I was right on both accounts. Nick had begun flirting with me before the party and I tried not to show how much I liked him. Ugh, it seemed like such a good decision for us to break up, but I didn’t want to lose him altogether. Honestly I thought he would agree and maybe be happy.
I met Roger in school and we became good friends fast. Initially I didn’t even look twice at him, he was just someone I studied with and went with me to explore around campus. I didn’t know it was because he liked me until he asked me out. I had turned him down at first because I was with Nick and the idea was preposterous. As time went on and we really got into school Nick and I began speaking less and less. I won’t lie and say that sometimes I wondered if it was because he was over the long distance relationship or if he was indulging in woman out here. At the same time I knew he wouldn’t cheat on me. It was so confusing, exhausting, and depressing. The few friends I had made at school began to notice how sad and mopey I was and I don’t want to spend the next couple of years of my life like that. I felt it yea, but I didn’t know it was that obvious. I started considering that Nick and I take a break while in school and then when we graduate we would be back together like we never left and we could live anywhere and do anything together. We just needed to get through school and we could have it all. I was just so scared to say anything, and then I gave Roger a look. Like a good look and he was cute, sure he wasn’t Nick all sexy abs and swag but who really was? Nick wasn’t your typical teen anyway; he and Landon have some crazy fucking genetics that make them look like gods. I’m telling you I’ve seen grown woman sway over them it’s insane and I had him all to myself. Somewhere inside of me I feel like he will always be mine but I know that’s not true it’s just wishful thinking. I wanted to talk to him and give it one more try. I was a proud ass person for sure but he was worth setting aside my pride. The only thing wrong is that I don’t think I could take anything else he has to say. He already told me he’s been sleeping around, he blames me for his hurt which is probably true, but he also said he didn’t love me. Somewhere deep inside of me, I feel like he just has to love me as much as I love him and I needed to be sure.
It was after 1am and I heard Nick get home about two hours ago. I stayed in the room pacing trying to build up the courage to just talk to him. I puffed up my chest and started walking for the door when it opened. I took a step back and my eyes darted to the floor. They took in bare feet and then the bottom of black pajama pants they continued their ascent up strong legs and thighs. My gaze briefly skirted over his crotch and I felt the heat beginning to rise to my cheeks. The top of the pajamas were riding low on his hips and they were met by a perfect V and a nicely defined six pack. Instinctively I licked my lips and I heard a growl. My eyes kept going up to broad shoulders. My eyes stopped there and I swallowed, I could feel his heated stare and I knew he was waiting for my eyes, he liked to look into my eyes. At some point this somehow became our way of letting each other know that what we were saying was real.
He entered the room fully and grabbed me by my upper arm. “Come on.” Wa
s all he said before he was tugging me out of the room. He led me downstairs and to his bedroom and as soon as he closed the door silently behind us, he spoke. “You’re leaving tomorrow.”
I nodded. “Yes.” I whispered.
“Mel what aren’t you telling me?” he asked and I could hear a hint of desperation in his voice.
“I told you everything Nick. I told you I didn’t want to lose you and that I want you in my life but it’s not what you want. I can’t force your hand but I wish I could on this.”
He sighed and ran a hand through his hair. “If there was a way then I would but I can’t. I really can’t torture myself that way it will probably end up making us both worse than we already are.” He dropped down to the edge of the bed and wiped a hand down his face.
My eyes stung with unshed tears and I sighed. I walked over to him hesitantly and grabbed his hands and removed them from his face. He looked up at me and his eyes were red and brimming with tears, the sight broke my heart. I couldn’t contain my own and they began to fall freely. I let out a sob and I couldn’t control myself, I needed comfort and he was the only one who could really do it. I climbed into his lap and wrapped my arms around his neck while I laid my head on his chest. He had gone still as a statue and I sobbed a little harder at the thought that he didn’t even want to touch me. I clung to him tighter and climbed up higher onto his lap if I went any further I’d be sitting on his stomach. He let out a shaky breath and his arms came up and wrapped around me. He buried his face into my hair and I pushed my face into the crook of his neck. I felt his breathing stutter and I picked up my head. I drew my head back so I could see his face and there was a tear running down his right cheek. I cupped his face in my hands and pulled his face down so I could kiss his tear away.
“Don’t cry.” I whispered. He ran a hand through my hair and pulled me back down and buried his face in my hair. I sighed as I breathed him in. “This is really it isn’t it?” I asked. I felt him nod and I clung onto him for support. He used unscented soap and he didn’t have on any cologne his smell was all him. I needed our connection our spark, I didn’t want the end to be only sadness and regrets. With that thought in mind I moved my head back and turned. His eyes met mine in question but I didn’t respond. Instead I brought his head back down and I kissed him. He tried to pull back but I followed him and I lost my balance. His arm wrapped around me to try to grab me and all my weight collapsed on top of him and he fell back. I never broke the kiss, and bit his lip demanding entrance. When he didn’t respond I bit his lip again hard and his mouth opened in a pained gasp. I slipped my tongue inside his mouth and moaned. He didn’t move and I growled in frustration. This time when he tried to break the kiss I let him.
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