As they scattered, muttering amongst themselves, Jerico watched Kaide’s face. Outwardly he showed little sign, but his eyes hardened, and his whole body turned rigid. At last he hugged the rider, then approached Jerico, who didn’t fail to notice the man’s hands balled into fists.
“What’s going—”
Kaide struck him in the mouth, then kicked the back of his sore knee. Jerico went down, screaming in pain. The bandit leader landed on top of him, an elbow crushing his throat.
“You bastard,” Kaide said, his voice quiet, cold. “You just couldn’t leave things be, could you? Always have to interfere.”
“I don’t understand,” Jerico said, his words cracking.
“You will. You’re coming with me to Stonahm. I’ll let you see what a fucking mess you’ve made.”
Word spread to the rest of the camp, but given how limited they were on horses, only one other could go with Kaide and Jerico, the short man, Barry.
“Is my family all right?” he asked Ned as they saddled up. “Tell me, is she all right?”
The rider refused to say, even when Barry grabbed him by the shoulders and screamed in his face.
“Look me in the eye!” he cried, shaking him. “Why won’t you look me in the damn eye?”
It’d taken two men to pull him off. Now he rode behind Jerico and Kaide, head down and refusing to say a word. The hours crawled, and when they stopped to let their horses rest, not a shred of conversation was spoken between the three. As they neared Stonahm, there was no denying the cloud of smoke in the sky, nor where it was rising from.
“She’s all right,” Ned said upon seeing the smoke. “I know it. She’s all right, and my boys, too.”
Kaide’s glare was cold enough to freeze the skin on Jerico’s neck.
Jerico felt some relief as they finally rode into the village. The smoke was only from a few homes, not all of them as he’d initially feared. People milled about, looking as if they’d just survived a battle. Seeing Kaide’s approach, they began to gather.
“Jess!” Barry screamed. “Where’s Jess!”
Two boys pushed through the crowd, and they leapt into Barry’s arms as he dismounted. Jerico remained on his horse, feeling lost. People were shouting and crying all at once, a mixture of anger and heartbreak. Kaide tried to soothe them, but soon gave up.
“Where’s Beth?” he asked repeatedly. “I said where’s Beth?”
“With the others,” said a farmer. “Kalgan’s looking over them.”
“Come on,” Kaide said. Jerico dismounted and followed, leading his horse behind him.
The wounded had been too many to fit into a single hut, so they lay spread out on blankets in the open air. Jerico feared to count how many. Kalgan walked among them, his clothes and hands coated with blood. When he saw their approach, he looked at them with dull, expressionless eyes. In the corner, Barry wept over the still body of his wife while his two boys clutched him tightly.
“Kaide,” Kalgan said, shaking his head. “I don’t know what to say.”
He pointed to where Beth sat on the blankets, staring into nowhere. Kaide called her name, and when she saw him, she burst into tears. Jerico stood, feeling the intruder, as the father ran to his daughter.
“Do you remember what I said?” Kalgan asked, trying futilely to wipe his hands on his robe. “Do you remember?”
“I do,” Jerico said, feeling a knot swell in his throat.
“Good. I hope you remember until the day you die.”
Kalgan went on his way. Jerico looked about. He saw at least seven dead, and thrice that wounded. On every street at least one building had been burned, and in the distance, he saw the torched remains of an entire field of crops. The lump in his throat swelled, and he had to struggle to keep his hands from shaking. After a horrific wait, Kaide finally kissed his daughter’s head and returned.
“You attacked one of Sebastian’s knights,” Kaide said, his glare full of fire. “You struck him, beat him down, and then sent him on his way. You damn fool, this is what you’ve done.”
“He was going to rape-”
“I don’t care!” Kaide shouted. “One woman? One rape? Do you know what they did here? A hundred knights came with swords and armor, burned their food, took every woman they pleased, and killed whoever resisted. One woman, you fucking paladin, all that to stop the rape of one woman? A hundred women can now blame you. A hundred women ...”
He choked up, and Jerico looked to Beth with newborn dread.
“Even her?” he asked.
There were tears in Kaide’s eyes when he looked back.
“Even her.”
10
They stayed in the homes of people that would take them. For Jerico, that meant he had none, so he slept in the hut that had been his during his injury. He lay inside, feeling drained beyond belief. He’d knelt and prayed with any who would accept it, but even those with severe injuries seemed hesitant. Normally he would have felt anger, but instead he felt only sadness. Shouting to them how he’d been in the right felt hollow, and selfish. No matter his healing touch, he could not bring back the dead, nor remove the painful memories they’d endured.
“I wasn’t wrong,” Jerico murmured, trying to sleep. Night had finally come, and no one had been happier to see the rise of the moon than him. Free of his armor, he tried to relax, and force his mind from the hundred horror stories he’d had confessed to him. He tried to forget Barry’s wail, forget that single look of betrayal Beth had given him when she’d turned his way. Unable to help it, Jerico felt tears slide down his face.
The door to his hut opened. For some reason, Jerico knew who would be there.
“Close the door,” he said. “I would hate for anyone to see you like this.”
Barry stood at the entrance. In one hand he held a bottle, in the other, a knife.
“I ain’t afraid of what they’ll say,” the man said, his speech slurred from the alcohol. “You think I care?”
He stepped further in, and the door shut behind him. Jerico sat up, glancing toward his mace and shield. If he acted quick, he could still retrieve them. But he didn’t.
“What are you here for, Barry?” he asked.
“You,” he said. He sniffed, and his red eyes were heavy with tears. “My Jess ... they say she ran. The others, the ones that didn’t fight it ... but no, Jess ran. Stupid woman, she ran, and now who’ll raise my boys? Me?”
He laughed, the bottle swinging loosely in his hand.
“I’m no good. Never been. Was lucky enough to get Jess. Why’d you do it, Jerico? Don’t you ever think? Every damn peasant boy knows you leave a lord’s knights well enough alone. Boys! But you ... you ...”
He waved the knife, and he took an uncertain step toward him. Jerico remained still, refusing to look away from that pained gaze.
“Are you here to kill me, Barry?”
Barry laughed.
“Maybe. Maybe not. Don’t think even the gods know what I’m gonna do, but I know what I want to do. I want to jam this knife so far down your throat you choke on my elbow. You were supposed to help us, Jerico. You were supposed to help us ...”
Jerico stood slowly to make sure Barry knew he posed no threat. From the corner of his eye he watched the unsteady knife. So far it wasn’t poised to stab. Not yet, but close.
“Tell me what you want,” he said. “Tell me, so I may grant it.”
Barry pointed the knife at him.
“I want you to know you was wrong. I want to hear it from you. I want a goddamn apology. Don’t you get it? This is all your fault, and I won’t let you say otherwise. I won’t let you!”
Jerico took a deep breath. He would not lie, not now, not ever. He doubted anything he could say would comfort him, so he spoke the truth and prayed it would be enough.
“I’m not sorry,” he said. “Not for saving that woman. Not for doing what we both know was right. The only thing I’m sorry for is that I wasn’t here to protect everyone. That I couldn’t h
ave died with my shield on my arm and my mace in my hand, standing against those knights, be they a hundred or a hundred thousand. I’m just one man, Barry. One man, foolish, weak, exhausted, and alone. Take my life if you want it. I won’t stop you.”
Barry flung his bottle to the ground, where it shattered.
“You think you can talk yourself outta this? You think I won’t do it? I will. I fucking will!”
“You won’t.”
Kaide stepped inside, his dirk drawn. He glanced at the broken bottle, then at Jerico.
“Go back to your boys, Barry,” Kaide said. “I’d hate for you to do something you’ll regret for the rest of your life.”
Barry wavered, and he looked like a mouse caught between two cats. The knife shook in his unsteady hand.
“He ain’t worth it,” he said, putting away the knife. His shoulder bumped into Kaide’s as he walked out of the hut. “I thought he was, but he ain’t.”
Kaide watched him go, then shut the door behind him.
“Thank you,” Jerico said.
“Forget it. He’s right, you know? You don’t tease a boar, then turn your back to it. You let this entire village suffer, and for what? So you could play the hero? Feel better about yourself? What you stopped happens every day in every single village across Dezrel. It’s shit, it’s wrong, but so’s a hundred other things. We close our eyes, clench our teeth, and endure until we have the strength to fight back.”
“You ask the impossible, Kaide. If I see an innocent suffering harm, I’ll stop it. I won’t keep my hands still because I fear the reactions of an evil world.”
Kaide rolled his eyes.
“Such prepared, proud words that don’t mean shit. We’re not you. What do you think would have happened if this village had fought back?”
“I have no delusions,” said Jerico. “I’ll die one day, probably soon, and it’ll be defending someone without the strength to defend themselves. Just because I die doesn’t mean it was wrong to do so. If your private war against Sebastian never succeeds, does that mean you were wrong to fight him? We must fight, and fight, so that this dark world knows hope. One day, maybe it will even know victory. I pray to Ashhur it does.”
Kaide crossed his arms and looked away. His voice softened.
“This is as much my fault as yours either way. If not for my rebellion, Sebastian might have ignored this, or only sent a few to find out who had struck at the knight.”
Jerico put a hand on Kaide’s shoulder.
“Blame the evil on those who committed it,” he said. “Not yourself. Not others. Sebastian sent the knights, and the knights themselves burned, looted, and raped. If you must feel wrath, then direct it at them.”
Kaide looked at him with an expression akin to wonder.
“Do you really feel no regret? No remorse? Are you not even human?”
Jerico chuckled, even though he felt ready to collapse from his exhaustion.
“I do. More keenly than you could know. I could have protected her, Kaide. Beth wanted to come with me, but I refused. I told her to remain here. When the knights came, when they ... she could have been safe. I was angry. Bitter. I should have said yes. I should have ... the way she looked at me, she knows it, too. I’m sorry, Kaide. I should have stayed. I could have given myself up, and spared the rest of the village.”
“And not fought?”
“I’ll die to protect others. If that is what it would have taken, then yes.”
The bandit leader walked to the door, and he rested his weight against it as he thought.
“You confuse me, paladin. But at least I know I can trust you. This is the last straw. Sebastian’s gone too far. Stories of this will spread throughout the North, and we must fan the flames of rebellion while we still can. Tomorrow morning, we ride. I have one ally, and he must be spurred into action. The time for secrecy and stealth is over.”
“And who is this ally?” Jerico asked.
Kaide glanced at him, a tired grin on his face.
“Arthur Hemman, Sebastian’s disgraced brother.”
*
Barry remained behind to oversee the rebuilding efforts, as well as bring in more men from the forest hideout. Food would be scarce, but Kaide had kept a small amount of gold from being distributed, and he told Barry to use all of it to prevent them from starving.
“No loved one of mine goes hungry,” he had said before they rode northwest. “Not now. Not ever again.”
They packed light, Kaide insisting they could fill their packs on the trip there.
“I’ve given nearly every village at least one satchel of gold,” he said as they rode. “If there’s a man more beloved in the North than I, I’d like to meet him.”
“Nothing says loyalty like stolen coin,” Jerico said. Kaide glared but let the matter drop. He was right about the supplies, Jerico soon found out. They stopped at three different villages, and the men and women warmed immediately to their presence when they heard Kaide’s name. After the third, they avoided the towns, for their packs overflowed with waterskins and salted meats, and Kaide wanted no more risk of Sebastian hearing of his ride.
“Where is it we go?” Jerico asked near the end of the first day as they stopped at a spring for their horses to rest and drink.
“They call it the Castle of Caves,” Kaide said. “Though it’s more a prison than anything. Arthur’s been holed up there for years, wary of guests and allowing in only those he approves. Always living in fear of his brother’s assassins, though I’ve heard only rumors of any actual attempts. Arthur’s never done anything outward to give Sebastian justification for open battle between them.”
“You said Arthur’s disgraced. How so?”
Kaide stroked the neck of his horse, who was still breathing heavily from the ride.
“Not sure. He’s the older brother, and should have inherited the Northlands instead of Sebastian. Something ill happened between Arthur and his father, right before he died. I don’t know what, and there’s plenty of rumors saying Sebastian’s actually to blame. The wealth and power passed over him. Arthur could have fought for it, but instead he retreated to his castle. It wasn’t until I came to him, revealing Sebastian’s dishonorable actions in Ashvale, that he agreed to help me in any way.”
“Will he do so now?”
Kaide chuckled.
“He wouldn’t even give us steel weapons for fear they could point back to him. He’s a careful man, but I feel there’s honor in him. I’m hoping you can instill a bit of fire into his heart, since you paladins seem talented at that. I don’t want secrecy any longer. I want a war.”
“You’re certain he should have been the rightful lord?”
“Without a doubt,” Kaide said.
Jerico nodded.
“Good enough for me. Let us hear what he has to say.”
They continued northwest, toward the great ocean that formed the western edge of all of Dezrel. The ride was long, two weeks of hills broken by intermittent forests. At least the road was well-cared for, and remained so by the many people they encountered on their way.
“Plenty of trade in the North,” Kaide had said at one point, after they’d sneaked off the path to remain unseen by a large caravan guarded by Sebastian’s men. “Our towns practically survive off it. Makes the winters particularly harsh.”
“Durham was the same,” said Jerico. “But we at least had the river.”
“No rivers here,” Kaide said, his knife hand twitching at the sight of the loaded wagon. “Just blood and gold.”
Twice more they had to shy off the path as they approached the Castle of Caves, through no fault of Sebastian’s. Men, either dark paladins or priests, rode with the standard of Karak upon their horses. Jerico kept off the road, watching them pass.
“I never heard reason for our hiding,” Kaide asked one night as they camped.
“All forces of Karak hunt for my kind,” Jerico said, the words foul on his tongue. “I fear I’m the last. The Citadel has falle
n, and with it went the vast bulk of my order. Whoever is left is like me, alone and in hiding.”
“You’re terrible at hiding, then.”
“I’m at the side of bandits. Who would look for a paladin there?”
Kaide laughed.
“Now I wonder ... how much of a reward could I get for turning you over? I’m a good barterer. Maybe I could fund an entire mercenary army with what they’d pay, especially if you’re the last.”
Jerico threw his bread at him.
“You’re not amusing.”
Kaide shot him a wink.
“If you say so.”
At a fork in the road, they traveled west instead of north. The path immediately grew wilder, much of it covered with a thin layer of dying grass. The land, which had evened out for a few miles, once more rose into many clusters of hills. Atop the tallest loomed a castle built of gray stone.
“That it?” Jerico asked, pointing.
“That’s it.”
Before they could reach the gate, a patrol rode out to meet them, four men on horseback. They appeared on edge, but kept their swords sheathed as they formed a circle about them. Their crimson armor bore the standard of the Hemman family, except the rose was violet instead of yellow.
“What brings you to the caves?” asked their leader.
“I’ve come for a stay in your dungeons,” Kaide said, all smiles. “Tell your lord the man from Ashvale comes, and has brought a guest.”
The gruff man seemed unimpressed.
“Keep your weapons at your sides,” he said. “If you want to see our dungeons, them come with me.”
Instead of leading them to the main gate, they veered off the path at a hurried pace. Jerico wondered what was going on, but then the horsemen pulled up.
“My thanks for the escort,” Kaide said, kneeling down in the grass. “Take care of our horses, will you?”
His hands searched, and then he lifted up a trap door hidden underneath a layer of dirt. Jerico looked around, realizing the men had them surrounded and hidden with the bodies of their horses.
“Tight fit with your armor,” Kaide said, sitting down and then sliding in feet first. “I trust you’ll manage.”
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