by Margaret Way
Philip wasn't going to let her get away with that one. His eyes sparked with anger. "That's good, coming from someone who's let Shelley take the blame for-"
"Please, Philip," Shelley cut him off. "Let it drop. We've all had a fright."
"Is that your explanation, Phil?" Brock drawled. "You got a fright?"
Philip was direct in his answer. "I knew you could handle it. We grew up together, remember?"
"So there were no surprises," Brock said.
It was cool and rather dim in the homestead's first aid room, so Shelley switched on the light. Her heart was like a racing engine. Even her legs were quivering. Brock had that effect on her.
"You'd better take off your shirt," she said. "It's ruined, I'm afraid." It was difficult to damp down her feelings in the confined space. Brock really filled a room. So highpowered it was intimidating.
"Here-don't worry about me." Abruptly he started to strip off the soft blue denim shirt. "I can do it myself."
The sexual attraction between them was sparking around the room, charging the air. He didn't know what he'd do if she laid her hands on his bare flesh.
Shelley drew back a little, biting her lip. "As you wish. I'll just get things ready for you." She went to the wall of cabinets, assembling a box of cotton swabs, dressings, a bottle of antiseptic, finally a basin and a couple of clean hand towels. "This should do the trick."
She turned back to face him. That was when she was beset by excitement that verged on panic. Desire. Need. To be held against him!
He had a superb body-that came as no surprise-but naked to the waist his male beauty was sublime. It left her badly shaken. His darkly tanned skin was so polished it almost looked oiled, his wide shoulders tapering to a lean, narrow waist. His body displayed strength, power and perfect proportion. She wasn't even at a safe distance. She was right in the danger zone. So close she experienced thrill after thrill, primitive and steamy.
God, help me! Heat suffused her veins and panic welled up. She was acutely aware colour had washed up into her face, betraying her. She tensed, and with a great effort freed her eyes, turning to fill the basin with warm water, then pouring in a measure of antiseptic, watching the water cloud. Everything was in slow motion, but she was so agitated she wasn't aware of it. Normally she was swift and economical in her movements, but nothing was normal around Brock Tyson. He knew perfectly well how fiercely sexual she found him.
The silence was as taut as a highwire. Shelley couldn't take her eyes off him as he swabbed the long gash on his arm. He made no sound. Didn't even give the slightest flinch, though it must have stung.
"It doesn't need stitching?"
He shook his head. "I've had worse gashes than this, and I'm a good healer. There won't even be a scar."
"That's good. Your long sleeve saved you." Though he'd worn it rolled up to the elbow. "I don't think you're going to be able to manage your back." She had to breathe very quietly, so she gave no sign of how she was feeling, but she could see the answering strain in his face.
His gaze rested on her so intently he might have been trying to mesmerize her. "So you do it."
"Okay." She recovered her nerve. Cautiously, very gently, as though this man was a panther, she began to clean the long scratches.
She could feel the excitement rising with every passing second. The urge to slip her arms around him was enormous. She wanted to press her lips to his polished skin. She wanted to let her hands travel. His broad shoulders were shielding her face and her body from him, otherwise he would have been able to read her transparent expressions in the long wall mirror facing them.
When she was almost finished he reached around and suddenly grabbed her wrist, an action so surprising she gave a little gasp. "Come here to me."
She desperately wanted to. Feared to.
Something like an electric current shot through her body, the force of it astonishing. Brock knew exactly what he was doing. He had anticipated her response exactly. Shelley Logan, innocent virgin, a girl from the bush. Never in her life had she felt such a violent reaction. She might just as well have been an unbroken filly he was winding in.. .winding in.. .through the silence bouncing off the walls.
"I could love you, Shelley," he murmured, low-voiced, folding her unresistant body into his embrace.
She shook her red-gold head, catching a glimpse of the conflict and prowling turbulence that was in him. "There would be too many consequences to falling in love with you. We're not even taking it gradually," she warned.
"Maybe it's my nature. And yours." He drew her ever closer, mindless of his lacerations, the gentleness of his movements not matched by the intensity in his eyes. Slowly, so slowly she was flooded with longing, he brought his mouth down over hers, just barely kissing her, the tip of his silken tongue sliding backwards and forwards over her lips, tracing their contours as though he found them exquisite.
It was wickedly, wickedly seductive.
Her eyes filled with tears. In truth she was dazed at the changes that had come over her, the way she could respond with a passion she hadn't even known she possessed.
"Shelley, what is it?" He drew back, his face taut.
"Haven't you got enough to worry about?" she asked, edgy with emotion.
"I forget when I'm with you." His voice was unfamiliarly tender. "I don't start out to do this. I don't determine to kiss you every time I see you. I don't want to risk hurting you. I can see you think I will."
She stared back at him. "You told me you're in a state of deep confusion about your life. Is it possible you're casting about for someone to ease the pain?"
"And I've found you? Surely you don't think this is a flirtation?" He lifted her triangular face to his, staring into the emerald eyes that glittered with tears. "I'll stay away, if you're going to find it easier. But I'll never let you marry Philip."
"How could you stop me?" she flared.
"Very easily. I'd make you pregnant so you couldn't leave me."
His words shocked her, sending a great charge through her nerves. "You're still wild, aren't you, Brock Tyson?" she accused. "You shouldn't talk to me like that."
"I shouldn't. But things happen." He gave way to his driving need, taking up the soft openness of her mouth again. "How do you know I'm not deadly serious?" he muttered as they came up for breath.
"Heartbreaker." She felt the faint delicious rasp of his beard against the soft skin of her throat.
He held her, both hands at her waist. He could easily span it she was so slender. "Or is it simply that I care about you? Green-eyed Shelley Logan with hair like flame."
"But the timing's bad?" Shelley could almost hear Brock say the words to her.
"So now you know the risk you represent."
"Especially when you're a man not noted for your restraint."
"You'll pay for that," he growled, bringing them even closer together.
"Why have you never been passionately in love, Brock?"
"It hasn't been something I'd allow." He went back to kissing her throat.
"But surely it's not a question of what one allows`? Doesn't it just happen?"
"That's the problem," he said wryly. "It can happen in moments. Overnight. It can happen with the wrong person at the wrong time. Passion can destroy lives. Then again, it's a gift. Even if it doesn't last. Sex isn't passion. Passion doesn't happen as often as you might think. It takes a man and woman over, until they're knocked off their feet."
"So you know what it's like to want a woman very badly?"
His smile was a little twisted. "I've wanted many women very badly, Shelley. From time to time. Just like they've wanted me. But at heart I'm a gentleman. I won't destroy your life. I won't even take up your time if I'm going to make you uneasy or afraid."
"Afraid?"
He caught her chin. "It's written on your face."
"What else is written there?" She invited his answer.
He gave her a long, searching look. "A kind of dreaming, not untouched by
anguish. You're as powerfully attracted to me as I am to you. We've found that out. But at the same time you want to run away and hide your pretty head."
"I'm a lot stronger than that, Brock."
A smile lifted the corners of his mouth. "I guess you are. Actually, I want what's good for you. Philip isn't, even if your family are pushing for it. Emotional blackmail must he one hell of a strain."
"Since my parents lost Sean-" she began.
"And you didn't?" He fixed his eyes on her.
Her face took on a faraway expression. "I lost part of myself."
"Because you're a twin. But you haven't really lost Sean because he continues through you. He's somewhere around, I bet."
She swallowed, shaken by his sensitivity, the strong current of communication between them. "He's there every morning of my life." Her mouth quivered. "I'll grow old, but he's forever a little boy. My little brother. I didn't do any wrong, Brock. I'm sure of it. Only I can't remember."
"You couldn't have done anything wrong." He spoke roughly, out of compassion, taking her by the delicate shoulders that had been forced to carry too big a burden. "You were a young child. Six, for the love of God! What about Amanda?"
"I don't know. I don't remember that day. All I can recall is high-pitched screaming. I suppose that sound will always remain with me. When I was growing up I thought my father hated me because I'd survived, but maybe he just can't stand the agony of looking into my face."
Brock knew exactly what she was talking about. Hadn't his grandfather always turned away from his light eyes? His runaway father's eyes. "That's an appalling situation, Shelley. Yet he's let you step into the role of provider?"
"Oh, no." She shook her head vehemently. "Dad's the boss. I know Wybourne is run down, and the income my scheme brings in helps, but somewhere along the line Dad lost the will to keep things going. Maybe even the will to live. He would have continued to work hard for Sean, so he could pass Wybourne on to him. That's what it was all about. Providing for Sean. Now, probably sooner rather than later, Wybourne will have to be sold."
Brock had half known that already. "So having Philip for a son-in-law would be useful in your father's eyes?"
She flushed. "You can see their reasoning. It involves security. "
"But it's all wrong. I can't understand your willingness
to allow your family to use you, Shelley."
"You'd accept it more readily if you could see how my parents are," she answered, stung. "You're right, of course.
My parents are hiding behind closed doors. My once fine. upstanding father at this very moment is on a bender. Shocked? My mother, denied her husband's support, is locked away from the world. I simply can't bring myself to leave them."
"They might be better off," he said harshly. "At the very least you wouldn't have the life drained out of you."
"So there you are. We're both caught up in dilemmas, Brock. Both of us have walked hand and hand with tragedy."
"Are we that much alike?" It was said more in acceptance than question.
She had found him a clean white T-shirt of her father's to put on, disposing of the ruined denim shirt. She fully intended to replace it the next time she went in to Koomera Crossing and told him so, though he briskly dismissed the suggestion.
Amanda reappeared in a purple tank top over flower sprigged cotton jeans, thinking it was maybe time for some afternoon tea.
"That's very kind of you, Amanda," Philip said, knowing perfectly well Amanda wanted extra time to fascinate his cousin. "But we must get back to Mulgaree. We can't leave Grandfather for long."
Your mother either, Brock just stopped himself from saying. Had his uncle Aaron not been tragically killed, Frances would be getting ready right now to take over as mistress of Mulgaree Station. It was all she had ever cared about anyway.
Nothing in the world created as much trouble as money, Brock thought. Money and the quest for power. It could be very destructive in families. It had ruined his.
CHAPTER SIX
THE desire to be rich in her own right had had a big bearing on Frances Kingsley's life. Born of hard-working but struggling parents, she had insisted on a good education as a means of getting ahead. Both parents, secretly in awe of their strong-willed, ambitious only child, had juggled two jobs to send her on to university-where, she had informed them, she was most likely to meet a suitable husband.
Blessed with striking good looks and a flair for dressing, she had gone single-mindedly about her studies-graduating with a degree in Economics-always on the lookout for the scion of a wealthy family. Most scions had realized her objectives very early, having been well prepared for such eventualities by their parents. Aaron Kingsley, son of multimillionaire cattle king Rex Kingsley, reared in the bush had not.
Desperately in love, Aaron Kingsley-for the one and only time in his life-had defied his father. He'd married the young woman of his choice. It had taken him less than six months to decide he'd made a huge mistake. Their marriage had been a farce.
Astonishment had faded and disillusionment set in. Under his very nose his bright, supportive, good-natured, hungry for-sex girlfriend had turned into a different person. A person who wasn't in love with him at all-who in fact disliked having sex with him-who wasn't delighted by his little jokes, wasn't the least interested in anything that was troubling him. Like his rocky relationship with his domineering father. Who was cold.
Maybe if Aaron Kingsley, a decent young man, had married someone else he might have taken more care with his life. He might have been more ready when the rogue stem charged him.
Frances, the young widow, had made sure she'd fallen pregnant early on in the marriage to secure her position, and con timed to live in a very rich man's home. The house of her father-in-law. Rex Kingsley. He'd been prepared to keep her and, far more importantly, his grandson in the style which Frances had taken to like a duck to water. Nevertheless Frances had found it difficult, given Mulgaree's isolation and Rex Kingsley's eagle eye, to meet new men. She wasn't frigid, as poor Aaron had thought. It was simply that she'd married him on a cool, professional basis. He hadn't been the lover she'd wanted.
That was how her affair with Gerald Maitland had started.
Frances greeted him at the airstrip. "Gerald, dear, how are you?"
No one would have called Gerald Maitland handsome. He had a heavy face. He had lost a good deal of his hair. He had a full mouth and thick-set jaw. He was carrying too much weight, but he was a big man and there was something important-looking about him-only natural when he was senior partner in a top law firm. He had beautiful white even teeth that enhanced his smile when he was meeting personages. The Kingsleys qualified.
"Delighted to see you again, Frances, my dear." He bent to kiss her cheek, admiring how immaculately turned out she always was. "I've missed you. How's Rex?"
"Failing fast." Frances favoured him with a smile of her own. "But his nurse is the very best. I do so rely on her. Rex is in terrible pain."
"Ah, well!" Maitland, still reasonably fit in his midfifties, shrugged philosophically. "I'm sorry to hear that. Money can buy most things, but immunity from death isn't one of them."
"I'm terribly worried, Gerald," Frances confided, lifting her dark eyes to him and at the same time laying a hand on his arm. "I think Rex means to change his will."
"Perhaps add a codicil?" Maitland suggested with a frown.
"No." Frances shook her head. "I think he means to pass Mulgaree to Brock."
"Surely not," Maitland protested, running a snowy white handkerchief over his bald pate. God, it was hot! "Philip has always done his duty. He's been here. He's the elder grandson, not to mention Aaron's son."
"Rex on his deathbed is seeing things differently." Frances began to steer him towards the waiting four-wheel drive. "I think he's brought you here to make a new will. To change everything. Even for me. I can't bear the thought of that."
"It mightn't happen, Frances." Maitland sought to reassure her though
his own thoughts had been running parallel. He never had found out just what had happened to Catherine-beautiful, sad Catherine-and her high-spirited, high-powered son. There was a lot of animal passion in that young man. He made his cousin seem drab.
"You must let me know, Gerald," Frances was imploring him. "You're my friend. The best I have in the world. I don't think I ever knew peace or love until I met you."
Gerald Maitland, shrewd as he was, actually believed her.
Maitland had expected to see the old man soon after his arrival, but Rex Kingsley wasn't well enough to talk. He and Frances sat down to an excellent lunch served by the Kingsley housekeeper Eula, who had been with the family virtually since dinosaurs roamed the Outback.