by Yancey, Rick
The rain had departed, but the scudding clouds remained; the day would die a premature death. The mountains loomed before us, their serrated teeth draped in mist and shadow, and the earth beneath our feet was broken and crumbling, like the bones in the Dakhma’s ossuary. Huge boulders littered the way, hurled down in ages past by angry gods long since dead. Deep, shadowed-filled fissures, some only inches across, others spanning six feet or more, fanned out from the mountains’ feet like the tentacles of an enormous beast reaching for us. The ground rose and dipped in a frozen undulation, each hill a little higher, each valley a little shallower, and the wind dove down to test the monstrumologist’s will. It barreled across the plain, a wall of wind against which Warthrop pushed us without pause. It snatched the breath from our lungs, trammeled our words to the ground, spat dust into our eyes, and still he strove against it, bending forward lest he be driven backward or knocked off his feet entirely, moving like a man wading in waist-deep water, each step forward a victory hardly won.
I tried to stay by his side, but little by little the wind wore me down, and I fell farther and farther behind. The doctor did not notice—or did not care—and kept walking, but Awaale came back for me, hollering to Warthrop that I needed to rest. The monstrumologist did not hear him—or did not care.
“Here, I will carry you, walaalo,” Awaale shouted over the wind.
I shook my head. I would be no one’s burden.
We did not halt until we’d reached the mountains’ rock-strewn base. We threw down our packs and collapsed against an outcropping, while the wind whined and whistled through the rocks and the setting sun broke through the clouds, painting the plain below us golden, a breathtaking, starkly beautiful sight.
You’ll swear the sun has fallen into the sea, for every tree on that island is a golden tree, and every leaf a golden leaf, and the leaves shine with a radiance all their own, so even in the darkest night the island seems to burn like a lighthouse beacon.
“Night is coming,” Awaale said. “We must find some shelter.”
The doctor did not argue with him. He may have been thinking, like I was, of iris-less eyes. Awaale rose, shouldered his rifle, and hiked farther up the trail, disappearing between two boulders that stood like mute sentries on either side of a narrow pass—the gateway to the lair of the magnificum.
“It’s the most beautiful thing I have ever seen,” the monstrumologist said, looking down upon the golden plain. “And I have seen many beautiful things. Did you ever dream of anything so lovely, Will Henry?”
I see it, Father! The Isle of Bliss. It burns like the sun in the black water.
“No, sir.”
He looked at me, and I looked back at him, and his face shone in the golden light.
“Did I show you the telegram I received before we left Aden? I don’t think I did.” He pulled the crumpled form from his pocket and pressed it into my hand.
TERRIBLE NEWS. FOOLS GOT IT
WRONG. WERE LOOKING FOR TWO
BALD MEN, ONE SHORT AND FAT
THE OTHER TALL AND THIN. JUST
NOW LEARNED. STAND GUARD,
MIHOS. MENTHU
He watched my expression carefully. I was careful too. I said, “Rurick and Plešec?”
He nodded. “Apparently they slipped through Fadil’s net.”
He pulled out his revolver and held it loosely in his lap. The barrel glistened in the kiss of the dying sun.
“There are two bullets in this chamber. By my count, Will Henry, there should be five. Three missing bullets. Two missing Russians.”
“I didn’t have a choice, sir.”
“Oh, Will Henry,” he said. “Will Henry! Why didn’t you tell me?”
“I don’t know—”
“Stop that.”
“I didn’t know how—”
“Stop that.”
“I didn’t want you to be… disappointed in me.”
“Disappointed in you? I don’t understand.”
“I was afraid you’d leave me behind again.”
“Why? Because you defended yourself against two soulless brutes who would have killed us both without batting an eye?”
“No, sir,” I answered. “Because I killed them without batting an eye.”
He nodded; he understood.
“Do you want to know how it happened?” I asked.
He shook his head. “The place may vary and the names may be different, but the crime is the same, Will Henry.”
He scrubbed his hand across his whiskered chin, picked up a stick lying by his foot, and began drawing in the soft ground.
“Born under the same roof,” he said pensively. “Perhaps it is like the mark of Cain.” He lifted his face to the setting sun, tapping the end of the stick against the dirt. “Do you remember when you first came to live with me—how we would keep a bucket beside the necropsy table in the event you became ill? And you always became ill—in the beginning. I can’t remember the last time the work made you sick.”
He tossed the stick away; it tumbled down the decline toward the golden plain and was lost.
“It is a dark and dirty business, Will Henry. And you are well on your way.” He patted my knee, not to congratulate, I think, but to console. His tone was sad and bitter. “You are well on your way.”
Awaale returned and reported he’d found a suitable spot to spend the night. We shouldered our packs and followed him up the narrow trail, a steep, serpentine corridor that wound between two sheer rock walls. A lid of low, gray clouds spun restlessly overhead; and a river of wind funneled through the pass. After traversing a hundred yards or so, we came to a cleft in the cliff face, six feet across at the bottom and about that high, narrowing to a point at the top, a deep gash in the stone that could not be properly called a cave, but it would offer some protection from the elements. The shadows inside the cleft were deep, and the doctor peered anxiously inside.
“It is safe,” Awaale assured him. “A scorpion or two, but I took care of them.” His smile was bright. He was proud of his accomplishment.
Exhausted, I threw myself upon the ground and refused to get up, though Awaale tried to entice me with some food. I rolled up my poncho to make a pillow and closed my eyes. Their voices floated over me—some discussion about who would take the first watch. Outside, the clouds sent down the wind and the wind blew out the light, and darkness lighted upon the trail like a great black bird of prey. Someone lay down next to me, and a warm hand pressed briefly upon my brow—Awaale.
I fell into the lightest of dozes, and then light shot into the space, and I sat up—Awaale, too, and then we stood up.
“Dhaktar?” Awaale called softly. “You said no light!”
We could see him standing just outside the opening, holding the lantern in one hand and the revolver in the other, peering off into the gloom.
“There is something out there, on the other side of those rocks,” he said. “Awaale.”
He motioned with the gun. Awaale picked up his rifle and stepped outside. The two men remained motionless for some time.
“There!” whispered Warthrop. “Did you hear it?”
Awaale slowly shook his head. “I hear the wind.”
“There it is again! Stay here.”
The doctor eased up the path, disappearing from view. I scooted forward; Awaale waved me back. He raised his rifle. The doctor’s light faded, and the dark washed over Awaale, swallowing him whole.
“Awaale,” I called to him quietly. “Do you see him?”
The light returned, throwing jittery shadows as it came, flowing over Awaale and then illuminating the entrance to the cleft. Awaale slung his rifle over his shoulder and accepted the lamp from the doctor, who needed both hands to keep his burden upright.
Leaning against the monstrumologist was a young woman, her clothes hanging in tatters, her long hair matted and encrusted with filth, her bare feet leaving bloody tattoos on the rock. He brought her inside, eased her down carefully, and motioned for Awaale to han
d me the lamp. I saw then the woman was not alone: She was clutching a sleeping baby to her breast.
She said something. The doctor shook his head; he did not understand. She repeated it, her eyes wide and frightened.
“What is she saying?” Warthrop asked Awaale.
“I don’t know.”
The doctor looked sharply at him. “What do you mean? You speak their language.”
“I speak Somali and English and a little French. I do not know the language on Socotra.”
“You don’t…” Warthrop was staring at him as if he’d just confessed to murder. “Captain Russell told me that you did.”
The woman pulled on Warthrop’s sleeve, pointed outside, and jabbered something hysterically. The doctor’s focus, however, was on poor Awaale.
“It was the only reason I allowed you to come with us! Why did you lie to me?”
“I didn’t lie to you. Captain Julius lied to you.”
“To what purpose?”
“So you would let me come? I don’t know. You should ask him.”
“And I will, if I live long enough!” He turned to me. “My instrument case, Will Henry.” He turned back to the woman. “I am doctor. Doctor. Do you understand?” He tried it in French. Awaale tried it in Somali. The monstrumolo-gist tested Arabic next. Nothing. He pulled the stethoscope from the case and held it up. “See? Doctor.”
She nodded emphatically and broke into a smile. Her teeth were dazzling white against the backdrop of her smudged face. She calmed down considerably, shaking her head with wonder at her good fortune—a doctor, here, of all places! She meekly submitted to the examination—heart, pulse, breathing, and last, her eyes, while I shone the light. The doctor sighed, and pointed at the child. “I will need to examine him. Yes?” He gently slid his hands beneath the slumbering infant, and her eyes hardened; she shook her head violently and tightened her grip. Warthrop held up his hands, smiling reassuringly, and said, “All right, good mother. You may hold him.” He pressed his fingers gently against the child’s wrist. Listened to his heart. Peeled up one eyelid and stared for a very long time at the exposed orb. He smiled again at her, nodding as if to say, He’s fine. He set down the lamp and backed out of the cleft, motioning for me to follow.
“She is in the early stages of exposure,” he said.
Awaale gasped. “And the child?”
“The child is not infected.”
Awaale wiped his hand across his mouth. He looked up and down the path, then back at the doctor.
“What must we do?”
“We must convince her somehow to give up the child,” whispered the monstrumologist.
“And then… what? Kill her?”
Warthrop said nothing. In his eyes was something I rarely saw—the agony of the impossible choice.
“That is what you’re thinking,” Awaale said. “We must kill her.”
“She is doomed,” my master said hoarsely. “She will die anyway, and not before infecting her he child.”
“So we must kill them both.”
“Is that what I said? Listen to me! She has hours. The child could have years, if we can get him away from her in time.”
“I will get him away,” Awaale said grimly. “I will save him, and then you do what you will do.” He stepped into the opening.
“No!” Warthrop grabbed his arm and pulled him back. “If you try to take him now, you risk her inadvertently infecting him—or yourself. It takes but the slightest scratch.”
“Then, what do you suggest?” snapped Awaale. He’d reached the end of his endurance.
“I don’t… I don’t know.” As if winded, the monstrumologist was struggling to catch his breath. “Probably… if I can get close enough, a quick shot to the head…”
“Your hands are shaking,” Awaale pointed out. And they were, badly. “I will do it.”
“You won’t be able to get close enough,” the doctor argued. “Besides, it’s me she trusts,” he added bitterly.
“I’ll do it, Dr. Warthrop.”
The men started. I think they’d forgotten I was standing there. Warthrop looked stunned at my offer, Awaale horrified. I held out my hand for the gun. Unlike the monstrumologist’s, my hands did not shake.
“It’s the only way to save him,” I said.
“No. No, I won’t allow it, Will Henry.”
“Why?”
“Because to shoot someone in self-defense is one thing. This is something entirely different.”
“How?” I demanded. “We can’t let her live. We can’t let him die. I’m just a boy; she won’t suspect anything.”
“I can do it,” the monstrumologist said, sounding more firm than he looked. “It should be me.” He laid his hand upon my shoulder. “Stay here with Awaale, Will Henry.”
He ducked inside the wound in the mountainside. Awaale turned away. I turned to watch.
In the lamplight she looked very young, still in her teens, I guessed, and despite being covered head to toe in dirt, she was beautiful, in the first full flush of womanhood. She smiled trustingly at the doctor as he knelt beside her. He touched her cheek, the heel of his left hand dangerously close to her mouth, while dropping his right hand into his pocket. He spoke softly to her, using his eyes and his tone to lull her. And the gun came out. He held it against his leg outside her range of vision. Now, I thought. Do it now.
I could not see his face. I do not know what she saw there, but she continued to smile and he continued to talk softly, stroking her cheek, and I wondered what he was saying. He could have been saying anything, anything at all, because she couldn’t understand him. He could be saying, “For your child, I must do this. For our child…” Or: “My name is ha-Mashchit, and the Lord God created me on the first day…”
His hand fell from her cheek. The other did not rise. Then he fell away entirely, scooting backward until he hit the opposite wall, and there he stayed, his back pressed against the rock, head bowed, arms hanging uselessly by his sides. I started toward him, and he held up his empty hand. Stay.
“What is he doing?” whispered Awaale over his shoulder. He refused to turn and see.
“He can’t do it,” I murmured in reply.
Awaale grunted. “Maybe he’s wrong. Maybe she isn’t sick.”
“No. Her eyes—I saw it.”
“You saw what in her eyes?”
“Oculus Dei, the eyes of God.”
“I do not understand, walaalo.
What are the eyes of God?” Within the cleft the monstrumologist raised his head. His dark eyes shone wetly in the lamplight. What are the eyes of God?
“I know,” whispered Awaale. “He waits for her to sleep. And when she falls asleep…”
“I don’t know what he’s waiting for,” I said. His hesitation in the necessity of the hour troubled me deeply. He’d never hesitated before. He hadn’t in Gishub. He hadn’t in the kitchen at Harrington Lane when he’d raised the butcher knife high over his head. The monstrumologist had always followed the dictates of his discipline. Jacob Torrance may have worn the Society’s motto on his finger, but Pellinore Warthrop had it engraved upon his heart. He was, as Fadil had named him, Mihos, the lion, the guardian of the horizon. What stayed him? Was he clinging to something—or had he let something go?
“I do not understand this man you serve,” Awaale said. “He seems to revel in death and fear it all at once. He chases after it like a rabid hound and then runs from it like a frightened rabbit. Why does a man like this hunt monsters?”
He plopped down beside the mouth of the crevice, holding his rifle upright between his knees, and leaned his head back against the rock.
“I am tired, walaalo,” he sighed.
“You can sleep if you like,” I said. “I’ll stay awake.”
“Ah, but you forget my bargain. I am the one who must watch over you.”
“I don’t need you to watch over me.”
“It is not you I must answer to one day, walaalo,” he returned gently.
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br /> I eased myself to the ground, facing Awaale so I could keep the doctor within my peripheral vision. He hadn’t moved; neither had the mother and child. Maybe the doctor besidewas wrong, I thought. Not about the woman but about the child. How could the mother be infected and the child not be? Better to end their suffering now. I did not raise this possibility to either of my companions, though. I sat with it, and thought, and waited, while the night grew deep around me and my companions nodded off. I watched the woman’s eyes grow heavy, watched her head fall forward and then snap back as she fought her exhaustion. I was wide awake. I could have stayed awake for a thousand nights, so tightly wound was the thing inside me, das Ungeheuer, the me/not-me, the thing that whispered, I AM, and the thing that strove within me—and strives within you—to be free.
And while Mihos slept, Ophois rose.
There was the sigh of the wind and the crunch of the earth’s shattered bones and the cold steel of the gun and the sleeping woman. There was the baby pressed against her naked breast and the soles of her bloody, rock-chewed feet and the top of her head pointed toward me as if in offering. I raised the gun. Brought it to within an inch of her scalp.
The world is not round. The horizon is the summit of the abyss; there is no crossing back.
My eyes dropped to the baby as I started to squeeze the trigger. Its eyes looked back at me. He was awake, and he was suckling on his mother’s breast. My heart slammed against my ribs in panic. I dropped the gun and yanked him from her arms.
She snapped awake with a sharp cry and lunged forward, but I’d already backed out and turned up the path. There was no light to speak of to guide my way, and I didn’t get very far before I tripped over a rock and pitched forward, spinning at the last second to protect the child. Her wraithlike shadow loomed over me for a long, awful instant, frozen in time, and in that space between the one second and the next, a shot rang out from above, and the mother fell dead at the feet of the one who had stolen all that mattered to her. I looked up, expecting to see the doctor or Awaale, and seeing neither, but the smiling face of the one who’d begun it, the reason I was in this place of blood and rock and shadow, holding a bawling infant in my arms, the face of John Kearns.