by Mary Morris
Just the other day I rented the seashell house to a young couple from the Midwest who came highly recommended. They kept oohhing and aahhing and laughing over the accoutrements of the house—the mirror framed in cowrie shells, the shell-shaped sofa—and when I agreed with them that it was an eclectic place, they just started laughing again. Eclectic, they said, then started to laugh. Everything is funny when you are young and in love.
Afterward when I got home, things didn’t seem quite where I’d left them. A sweater I hadn’t remembered wearing was draped over a chair. A book I wasn’t reading was off the shelf. But more than these small things (for Jade could easily go rummaging through my things), the house felt as if someone had been there.
I needed to be outside. I took my usual walk along the dunes, the Poet’s Walk, I’ve come to call it (I’ve even made a little sign), the path he blazed with his grief, strolling among the ice plants, up and down the cliffs. I peered down at the hunchback tree that had inspired some of Francis Eagger’s poems, still struggling to grow on the bluff it had slipped down, that same bluff that would eventually erode its way to my house. But hopefully that was years or decades from now.
I was glad to be outside, collecting pine cones and shells. The air was fresh and I roamed for a long time. The roar of the surf was soothing and I followed the paths along the cliffs. I found a red feather, which I kept. I wandered until the sun began to set. Then a chill came into the air as the wind from the ocean picked up. I was starting to shiver and I had no choice but to turn around and go home.
When I got back, it was just after dusk and I couldn’t get warm. I sat up in an armchair in the living room near the hearth, though it had no fire. In a few months I’d rarely be alone in this house. Soon it would be filled with guests, strangers stopping on their way somewhere else. People with their own stories to tell about what has happened in their lives.
I was still cold so I grabbed the Winonah centennial blanket from the back of the chair and tossed it over my legs. The high school, “Home of the Winonah Wildcats,” and the train station rested across my lap. Here I was, once more, ensconced in the past. It was time, I thought, to put it away. I took the blanket, folded it, placed it on the top of the linen closet.
Someday I would take it down again, but for now I tucked the blanket in the back of the closet and grabbed a plain down comforter—one that cats had slept on and children had napped in. I wrapped it around my legs until the chill was gone.
Acknowledgments
I want to thank Caroline Leavitt and Larry O’Connor for their excellent critical advice. I also want to thank Julie and Ruediger Flik and Sarah Lawrence College for travel grants that enabled me to do research in California and Illinois, and Mary Jane Roberts and Jerry Evans, who shared their home and their knowledge of California insurance law. I want to thank the friends of my youth for all we’ve shared, Ellen Levine and Diana Finch for their invaluable input and support, and my editor, Diane Higgins at Picador, for her focused attention. And my daughter, Kate, who traveled the road with me.
About the Author
Mary Morris is the author of twelve books (including Acts of God, The Night Sky, and House Arrest), three collections of short stories, includingThe Lifeguard, and three travel memoirs, including Nothing to Declare: Memoirs of a Woman Traveling Alone and Angels & Aliens: A Journey West (all available from Picador). Her numerous short stories and travel essays have appeared in The Paris Review, The New York Times, andVogue. The recipient of the Rome Prize, Morris teaches writing at Sarah Lawrence College and lives in Brooklyn with her husband and daughter. You can sign up for email updates here.
Also by Mary Morris
FICTION
Vanishing Animals
The Bus of Dreams
The Waiting Room
The Night Sky
House Arrest
The Lifeguard
NONFICTION
Nothing to Declare: Memoirs of a Woman Traveling Alone
Wall to Wall: From Beijing to Berlin by Rail
Maiden Voyages: Writings of Women Travelers
Angels and Aliens: A Journey West
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Contents
Title Page
Copyright Notice
Dedication
Epigraph
Author’s Note
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Chapter 37
Chapter 38
Chapter 39
Chapter 40
Chapter 41
Chapter 42
Acknowledgments
About the Author
Also by Mary Morris
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