Resist: Bad Boy Romantic Suspense

by Violet Paige

  “Don’t pretend you’re going to try honesty now.”

  His hands moved up my arms, folding over my shoulders. I tried not to react, but there was a whimper in my throat. I closed my eyes.

  “Fuck, Ell. I’m risking everything to be here.”

  “You’re risking everything? You?” I mocked him. “I’m now in a cozy relationship with Agent Kenneth from the bureau. I was this close to being charged with treason. You have violated everything. Everything.” I wanted him to let go of me. To take his hands off me. “You need to go. Leave, Vaughn. Get out of here.”

  The romantic notion that seeing him again would erase nearly a month of hell was drowned out by my anger. It was taking me under just like Vaughn had done—clinging to my ankles, dragging me below the surface of sanity. Below the level of good and right. Where justice and honesty floated. Beneath measure of where I used to live my life.

  “I’m not going anywhere yet.”

  A chill ran through me. “What?”

  He shook his head. “I was on a plane to Dubai. I’m not supposed to be here, but I got off the plane and I came here.”

  “Why? Do you think Greer has more contracts for you? Because you know she was let go. She’s now an administrative assistant with absolutely no security clearance. You need to choose a different mark. We’re not helpful to you anymore.”

  “I don’t care about Greer. I came here because of you.”

  My shoulders shook. “Stop lying.”

  “It’s not a lie.” His voice was dark and calm.

  “You had me. And you lost me.”

  “Don’t say that,” he coaxed. “Don’t ever say that.”

  I looked at him. One tear fell before another. “Is this what you needed to see? My tears. How you have drained me of every emotion. You have destroyed me. Did you need proof? Does this do something for you? Did you want to see the wreckage you left behind?”

  “Damn it, Ell. No. No.”

  His lips crushed mine with force and fury. I squirmed against him, but he held me against his body. The hard kiss blistered my lips. He breathed desperately and I reacted with instinct. With the memory of his scent, his touch. My hands clasped around his neck as his tongue twined against mine. His mouth moved with urgent strokes, sucking at the corners of my lips, biting until I moaned. The tears slid toward my chin. I gulped for air. I clung to him. I was starved for him. For his body. There was a thirst I craved that the wine hadn’t touched. There was a need for him that work couldn’t erase. There was a hollow hole that couldn’t be filled no matter how many miles I ran. None of it could do for me what that one kiss had. What one dangerous intoxicating kiss could restore.

  “I love you. I came back because I love you,” he whispered.

  I staggered backward, trying to catch my breath. Trying to break away from the kiss that was more dangerous than a gun. I shouldn’t have given in like that. I wiped my mouth with the back of my hand, but my skin was already seared with his mark.

  “What are you trying to do?” I stared at him. “You’ve played every angle you can with me. Just stop. The game is over.”

  “What? There is no angle. I came back for you.”

  My hands raked through my hair as I sank to the concrete. “I almost didn’t survive the first time you left. Is that what you need to hear? It wasn’t real for you, but it was real for me. I loved you when I shouldn’t have. I fell for you and that made it a lot easier for you to do your job. So I’m begging you.” I looked at him. The tears so heavy on my lids I could barely see. “If there is any humanity inside your soul, leave me. Because what happened can’t happen again. I can’t survive a second time.” I sniffed. “And I know how it sounds. It’s pathetic and stupid. But it’s the only way I’ll live. You have to know what you did to me.” My eyes lifted to his. “Get out.”

  He dropped to his knees. He cupped my cheek with the palms of his hands.

  “God, I’m sorry. I fucked up. It wasn’t supposed to happen. It never was supposed to happen like this.”

  “And how was it supposed to happen? Did I not fall into the plan like I was supposed to? What exactly did I ruin for you, Vaughn?” I laughed bitterly. “And that’s not even your name. I can’t even use your real name.”

  “It doesn’t matter what you call me. You can call me anything you want, Ell.”

  “Please go,” I begged. “Please. I can’t do this. I can’t be a part of whatever phase this is in your deranged reality.”

  “No.” He shook his head. “I can’t leave. I have to make it right. I have to fix this.”

  “There is no fixing it. You’re wanted by the government. Turn yourself in.”

  I didn’t expect the smirk. “That is also not going to happen.”

  “You don’t have a choice. They’re going to catch you.” I sniffed.

  “Sweetheart, I’ve been in this game a long time. I haven’t been caught yet.”

  I felt it. The dangerous flicker that wicked the first night we met. The glimpse into the layers Vaughn carried. The draw that I tried to deny.

  “What does that even mean?” I was mesmerized by him. By his audacity. By his presence. By the fact that he was here in the flesh, kissing me, touching me.

  “I’m not turning myself in.”

  He tipped my chin forward. My lips quivered.

  “Let me go. Just let me go before there’s nothing of me left,” I begged.

  “I’m not going to let go. I’m going to protect you. Take care of you. Save you when you need saving. Push you when you need it. Hold you. Kiss you. Get drunk on you.”

  I stopped crying. “You want a second chance?”

  “It’s not a second chance. I fucking love you, Elliot Charles. I never stopped. I left to spare you. And now I’m back for you.”

  I fell into his arms. The kiss turned to liquid fire, engulfing us in raging flames. He pulled me from the floor, lifting me into his arms.

  I stared into his eyes.

  The sliding door closed behind us and he carried me to my room. He lowered me to the bed, then turned to close the door and pushed a chair under the handle.

  “Just in case.” He winked.

  I didn’t care. I didn’t care about anything but him. He was back. Back for me. For us.

  Chapter Twenty-Eight

  There was a fraction of a second. A moment when Vaughn stepped from the chair blocking the door back to the bed. It was the time I could have backed out. The time I should have told myself I didn’t need him anymore.

  But he crawled toward me on the bed. I looked into the depths of his eyes. He brushed a kiss across my lips and I knew I would go up in smoke with him. I would give anything for this. For him.

  I raised my arms overhead as he pulled the sweater from my body. His mouth found mine and I kissed him like that first night on the street. Like there was mystery and magic between us. I couldn’t think about what would happen when this was over. All I could do was live in it. Too hold him close. To love him like I had never loved him before.

  His hands roamed my body, tugging, caressing until my clothes were a pile on the floor. He ran a finger over my breast, circling my nipple until it perked under his command. His teeth grazed over, biting harder with each gnash of his teeth. I ran my hands through his hair, pressing harder into him. I moaned when he sucked my breast between his lips.

  My legs parted and his fingers slid over my navel and dove between my folds. He flicked and rubbed my clit while he sucked my tit with commanding force.

  “Ohh,” I whimpered. My hips rocked and swayed, urging his fingers to slide deeper and farther until he finally pushed inside me.

  His lips broke free of my nipple as he pressed a rough kiss on my mouth. I yielded to his tongue. Hungry for his taste.

  “I missed you, Ell. I missed you so fucking much,” he growled, taking my face in his hands.

  I nodded in agreement. Was that the word? Did that describe the emptiness and loneliness that moved in when he left.

&n
bsp; “I’m going to show you.” He smiled. “Show you how much I need you. How much I have to have you in my life. In my bed. In my world.”

  My hands wrestled with the buckle on his jeans. I eagerly unzipped them and shoved them over his legs. He kicked them to the floor. I fisted the width of his shaft, letting it slide against my palm. He let out a groan.

  His eyes flickered. He planted a kiss on my lips. My feet tucked around his waist as he nudged his cock into my heat.

  I clawed at his back when he thrust inside me.

  “Fuck,” he growled in my ear.

  I whimpered remembering how our bodies fit together like this. I stretched around him, blinded by the beautiful pain. He rocked into me. I could tell he was eager to move deep. To push our boundary. Bind us together in a new way.

  He threaded his fingers through mine, taking my hands over my head. He pumped inside me again. I moaned.

  “Vaughn, it’s too much.” I tried to catch my breath.

  “It’s not enough,” he whispered. “I can never get enough of you.” He kissed my throat as my head reeled back with another of his powerful surges.

  He moved to his heels, pulling out of me. There was no time to protest or question him. I hated the sudden cold. I hated the immediate distance that was created when our bodies weren’t melted together. He flipped me on my stomach and began kissing my ankles. His lips moved to the back of my knees and up the sensitive lanes of my thighs. I held my breath when I felt the warmth of his lips press into the roundness of my ass. His hands coasted up to my hips. His fingers dug into my flesh.

  “So damn beautiful.” He sighed. “So sexy.” He drew a line down the center of my back with his finger. I shivered.

  He crawled over top of me, his body lowering to align against mine. I felt the solidness of his shaft against my thigh. I was aching for it. I shifted my hips, tipping toward him. His hands stretched over my arms until his fingers were locked in mine. He kissed my neck, my ear, my cheek. I rocked back and forth. Each time his cock moved closer. Each time he rubbed our bodies together. The slickness of sex creating a heated friction.

  “Oh, God, Vaughn,” I moaned. I had never wanted him so badly.

  His teeth clamped on my shoulder.

  I lifted my ass once again and he pushed inside me. We groaned at the contact. He slammed into me, ramming his thick shaft deep against my walls.

  I screamed his name, but he muffled my cries with his lips and his tongue. His rhythm picked up speed. His pumps intensified.

  “Fuck, Ell. Fuck it.”

  He sat back, bringing me off my stomach and onto my knees. I grabbed the headboard for leverage. I jutted back, sinking with all my force onto his cock.

  “Fuck,” he howled.

  I couldn’t stop. I needed him to feel it. To feel me. To experience the pleasure and the pain. To absorb it. To love it. To need it and crave it like I did. I kicked back again off the bed. His hands wrapped around my chest, pinching and pulling my nipples.

  “Shit,” I hissed.

  The pressure was intense. His cock too big. Our bodies were too explosive together. I bounced wildly, riding him higher and higher. I let go of the bed, scaling his body. Twisting and turning until we were face to face, my legs wrapped around him. We bucked up and down. Our mouths licked and sucked until our tongues twined with the same rhythm as our bodies. I held him in my arms. Clung to his neck. Breathed his breath. I was coated in his sweat. Covered in his scent. I was tangled in his arms.

  “I never want to stop fucking you. Never.” He kissed me.

  “Don’t. Please don’t.”

  The tears burst from my eyes.

  “Oh God.” He stared at me.

  “Don’t stop. Don’t stop,” I urged. I let the tears fall.

  He kissed the side of my cheek and then the other.

  The rush was instant. I knew the orgasm would knock both of us to the bed. It was violently taking over my body. The twinge was like white lightning shooting through my core, numbing my limbs, coating my veins with blackness.

  Vaughn pushed inside me. His body stiffened. I felt the spasm of his muscles as he released inside me.

  We held each other in that moment. Letting the glitter fall around us. The heat of a burning bed smolder under our bodies.

  I opened my eyes. My legs were locked around him. He held my lower back to keep me from falling back.

  He kissed me roughly.

  “I meant it, Ell. I love you. And I’m not leaving here without you.”

  “That wasn’t goodbye sex?” I whispered.

  He shook his head. “Hell no.”

  I was more shocked than if he had stood up and walked out of the room.

  “I-I don’t understand.”

  His thumb rubbed over my bottom lip.

  “I came back for you. I want you to come with me.” He brought his lips to mine. I touched my tongue to his thumb just as he sealed our mouths with a dizzying kiss.

  I seemed to forget what Vaughn had said. I let him love me again and again, until we both fell asleep. The first time I had slept in weeks.

  Chapter Twenty-Nine

  I sat forward. The panic ripped through me. It was morning. The bed was empty. And I was naked.

  I ran my hands over my sore body. Traces of him were everywhere. He had touched me. Kissed me. Fucked me into oblivion. I closed my eyes. And he was gone. I patted the vacant pillow next to me. There was still an indentation from where he had slept.

  I blinked when I heard a toilet flush.

  The bathroom door opened. He stood in the doorway. “Did I wake you?” he asked.

  I let out a breath I was holding.

  “You’re still here.”

  He crossed the room. He looked at me quizzically. “You thought I was gone?”

  I nodded.

  “Ell, my pants are right there.” He pointed to the pile of clothes we had assembled last night.

  “Right.” I tried to look relaxed. He had been missing for only a fraction of a second and I had already gone to the darkest of places.

  He sat in front of me. “I think it’s time to have that conversation we didn’t have last night.”

  I stared at his long lashes. They undid all my good intentions. I got lost in his eyes. In his voice.

  I nodded. “I think so.” I couldn’t pretend he wasn’t a fugitive. I couldn’t act as if everything were normal. There was no normal in our relationship.

  “Ask me anything you want. Ask it now. Everything.” He pressed my fingers to his lips, sucking and kissing the tips. “And even if I have to break my non-disclosure clause, I will tell you. We won’t leave this bed with secrets.”

  “Did Greer come home last night?” I looked over his shoulder.

  “Why?”

  “Because I want coffee. And I’m hiding a fugitive in my bedroom.” Putting those two things together was absurd. “I don’t want to be interrupted. These are the most important questions of my life.”

  He climbed from the bed. “I think you better check.”

  He moved the chair from under the door handle. I pulled a robe over my shoulders and tip-toed into the living room. The door was locked. The lights were off. Her bedroom door was open. It didn’t look as if she had slept here.

  I walked back to Vaughn. “No sign of her. I better send her a text to check.”

  “I don’t want to drag her into this. You know that?”

  I nodded, clutching my phone. “Let’s just see how much time we have.”

  Last night time didn’t matter. I was willing to steal whatever remnants I could pluck together. This morning, that felt reckless and irresponsible. Safety mattered now. Thinking through everything was an instant priority. I had abandoned all rationality once his lips touched mine. What if Agent Kenneth called or stopped by before my trip to New Bern? What if he thought there was some kind of break in the case? What if somehow he knew Vaughn was here?

  “You ok?” he looked at me.

  “Yes.” I nodde
d. I had to settle one issue at a time. I pulled out my phone to text Greer.

  Good date?

  I sent the message. She would kill me if she knew I had reunited with my ex in the same way she and Preston must have last night.

  The best.

  “What did she say?” Vaughn tried to look at the screen.

  “She stayed at Preston’s last night.”

  Are you coming home soon?

  Are you ok? I can if you need me.

  I chewed on my lip. She had no idea how much I needed her to stay away.

  No. I’m working on exams. Tell Pres I said hi.

  See you maybe tomorrow.

  I knew that bought us enough time to at least have a cup of coffee and go through this infamous list of questions Vaughn kept asking for.

  I turned toward him.

  “We’re set. We have some time. But I can’t promise she won’t be back tonight.”

  “I understand.” He walked into the kitchen and reached for the coffee pot and filled it with water. “It’s not a problem.”

  I didn’t know what that meant.

  “What are you doing?” I asked, watching him comfortably move through the kitchen.

  “Making you coffee. I think that was one of your stipulations.” He winked at me as he scooped the grounds into the filter.

  None of this made sense. His cavalier attitude. His unstoppable sex appeal. My undying love for a man who had broken me in too many places to count.

  I leaned against the bar. “I want to start asking questions now.”

  “Go for it.” He pushed the red button on the machine.

  I needed a damn notebook for this. I thought about the collection of notes Agent Kenneth had. Each time we met we covered a different topic. We had been talking for weeks. I was somehow supposed to put all of that into one conversation. And would it be enough? I didn’t know if Vaughn could answer all the questions I had. I expected them to be like an elixir full of healing serum.