by Diana Palmer
“How did Jenna take the news?” Maud heard the pain in Jake’s low, deep tone. He was a man who hated showing any emotions, but they were plainly written all over him now. Some of it Maud attributed to their strong relationship. Jake could let his guard down around her, one of the few people in his life he did trust.
“She was disappointed but understood.” His black brows fell and he looked away. “She needs help. I don’t know what to do. That’s why I’m here.” He gave her a hopeful look. “You’re the go-to gal for ideas, Maud. I’m hopin’ you can come up with a fix.”
“I think I have one, Jake, but I don’t know how you will react to it. Here’s my plan. I talked to Steve last night and he’s in agreement with me. I hope you will be, too.” She straightened, resting her elbows on the desk, her hands clasped, her full attention on her foreman. “We both feel Jenna could be brought by ambulance to the ranch. The foreman’s house is two stories, has three bedrooms, three baths, and is large enough for you to take care of your mom as well as an in-house caregiver.” She saw his brows raise momentarily. “I know you’d rather live alone, but honestly, your cabin is the second largest on the ranch, next to where we live. It has plenty of room for you, your mom and a hired caregiver.”
She took a breath, watching his face go from hard and unreadable to something akin to discomfort, coupled with relief. Jake had a set of good parents, that she knew. And he’d been very close to both of them. As well, Jake had protective instincts toward women. His mother was no exception to that rule. Maud knew he wanted desperately to support and care for her, but he hadn’t thought outside the box on how to do it. That was her job.
“Now,” she said firmly, “before you say no, I talked to Dr. Taylor Douglas, our PA, physician’s assistant, in town. She said I needed to find someone with a medical background, preferably a registered nurse, who could take care of Jenna: help her walk, be there to assist her with the mandatory exercises, as well as cook and clean for you. Taylor put the word out in Wind River for such a person. I haven’t gotten any bites on this yet, but I’ll keep at it. Your mom and the caregiver could have the two bedrooms on the first floor. You have the master bedroom upstairs. If I find a caretaker for Jenna, would this work for you? It would be for a minimum of two months.”
Jake rolled his shoulders, scowling in thought. “Maybe. But I can’t afford to hire a caregiver for Jenna.”
“No worries,” Maud answered briskly. “Your mother is on Medicare and our umbrella insurance on the ranch will cover a full-time caregiver until she doesn’t need one anymore. I’ll pay for the caregiver because you’re so important to the daily work that goes on around here, Jake. I’d do it for any of our wranglers. We meant it when we said they were family, and that’s what you do for your family.” Opening her hands, she added, “We’re grateful to have made money and we aren’t taking it with us. Your mom will have the best of care and we’ll cover any additional expenses. How does that sound?”
“You’ve always been more than fair with us vets,” he said, his voice low with emotion. “And I appreciate it, Maud.”
“So? Is that a yes? Can we move ahead with this idea? Are you okay with it?”
Rubbing his stubbled jaw, Jake studied the fifty-five-year-old woman. “I don’t like takin’ handouts, Maud.”
“This isn’t a handout. Our insurance covers it. You’ve earned this, Jake.”
He made a low, growling sound and stared hard at her. “I’ve never been in a position like this before. I like living alone, but I want to help my mom, too. I guess my uneasiness with havin’ two women underfoot for two months or so isn’t gonna kill me.”
Giving him a half grin, Maud said, “No, it won’t. And you can always hide up on the second floor if you’re feeling overwhelmed with estrogen in your household.” She heard him chuckle and saw his shoulders drop, indicating he was relaxed at last. Jake wasn’t the kind of person she could trap and put in a corner. He had to come to this decision entirely on his own. And he was an honorable man, if nothing else. Jake would never knowingly hurt someone. At least, as a civilian. What he did as a recon Marine was different, and although he never talked about it, she knew enough to realize he’d been in harm’s way all the time. It wouldn’t surprise her that he’d killed the enemy either. She knew the burden of killing another human being through some of her other wranglers. It stayed with them the rest of their lives.
“I’ll probably make the second floor my home.”
“If I can find a caregiver, she’ll do the cooking for the three of you. That won’t be so bad, will it?”
“No, that sounds kinda good, to tell you the truth. And she’ll housekeep, instead of me doing it. I like that part of it, too.”
“I thought you might.” She allowed the humor to come through in her voice and Jake gave her a slight grin. “It’s only two months.”
“But they’re the busiest months of our year, Maud. I won’t be around that much.”
“And that’s why a caregiver is essential. You won’t have time to drive Jenna to her rehab exercises in Wind River, or to see an ortho doctor if necessary.”
“Well,” he said, straightening, “if you can find a caregiver, then we’re set?”
“Yes.” Maud looked at the bright red landline phone on her desk. “I’m calling Kassie and her husband, Travis. They’re plugged in with everyone in town. Maybe one of them can give me some leads.”
Rising, he said, “If there’s such a person around Wind River, Kassie will know. She’s gossip central at her café,” and he grinned a little.
“I’ll let you know,” Maud promised. “Once we hire someone, we can get Jenna out of the Casper hospital and over here to heal up.”
Walking to the hat rack, he gripped the edge of his Stetson. “That sounds like a good plan, Maud.” Settling it on his head, he turned, giving her a grateful smile. “I don’t think outside the box like you do.”
“Oh,” she laughed, standing and walking around the desk and heading toward where he stood, “yes, you do! Every day around here, I see you thinking of ways to do something that needs to be fixed.” She slid her hand on his shoulder, patting him in a motherly fashion. “All humans are good at something. Your skill set happens to be in ranching, Jake. Mine is about seeing patterns and putting dots together,” and she chuckled with him. Jake rarely smiled. When he did? She saw the kindness and sensitivity he held protectively away from the world. Allowing her hand to fall to her side, she walked him to the door. “I’ll be in touch by cell phone once I get something.”
He nodded. “Thanks, Maud. I honestly don’t know how I landed at your ranch, but I have to be the luckiest bastard in the world to have you as my boss.”
“Get outta here, Murdoch. You got a shitload of eighteen-wheelers on your plate with these leases trucking in the beef right now.”
He gave her a sour grin, opened the door and thunked down the wooden stairs.
Maud watched him climb into the white, dusty-looking Ford pickup with the name of their ranch in big red letters on each door. Turning, she felt lighter. Jake had never been in this kind of situation before, and she hadn’t been sure how he was going to react to it. His care and love for his mother was heartwarming. He was such a gruff person, hardly letting anyone near him or his vulnerability. Maud sensed Jake’s life was going to take a turn for the better. She didn’t know how, as she walked to her desk, sat down and dialed up Kassie’s Café, but she knew it was going to happen.
* * *
Lily Thompson was working in the no-kill animal shelter run by Maud and Steve Whitcomb, when Suzy, her boss, who manned the front desk, stuck her head around the door.
“Lily! Maud Whitcomb is on the line for you!”
“What?” She knew Maud was the owner of this large shelter, but in the two weeks since she was hired, she hadn’t met the woman personally. She closed the cage on a black Lab with a gray muzzle, after giving him a bowl of fresh water. “Hold on. . . .” and she hurried across the spotles
sly clean concrete floor, wrapping the hose she’d used and hanging it on the wall. Rubbing her hands down her jeans, she asked breathlessly, “What does she want?”
Suzy, who was in her early twenties, shrugged dramatically. “I don’t know.”
Squeezing out the door, they walked down the hall toward the reception area. “Does she always call her employees?” Lily wondered.
“No . . . not usually,” Suzy responded, giving her a concerned look.
“Oh, dear,” she muttered. “I wonder if I’ve done something wrong.”
“I doubt that! All the animals love you. Some of them love you to death!”
Wincing inwardly at the word, Lily nodded and picked up the phone. “Hello? This is Lily Thompson.” Her heart was pounding in her chest and she curled her fingers into her damp palm. Was she going to get fired? God, she hoped not.
“Lily, this is Maud. I just got done speaking to Kassie, and she mentioned you were an RN. Is that true?”
“Yes, ma’am, it is.” She gulped, unsure of where this was going.
“Suzy told me you have a part-time job there, fifteen hours a week?”
“Yes, ma’am, I do. I love it.” Inwardly, she was praying the owner wasn’t going to tell her to leave. It would devastate her in ways most people wouldn’t understand. This was the first real job she’d been able to find since receiving an honorable medical discharge from the Army due to her extreme PTSD symptoms.
“Are you looking for full-time work?”
“Well . . . uh . . . that would depend. I really love animals.” Because they give me peace. They accept me for who I am now. Not who I used to be, but she didn’t divulge that.
“Can you drive out to our ranch? I’d love to talk to you face-to-face about a job possibility. I assume you’re looking for full-time work?”
Was she ever! Licking her lower lip, Lily said, “Yes, ma’am, I am. But I can’t work in a hospital or anything like that.” Lily had to be honest about her skills and how much she’d been harmed by her time in Afghanistan.
“This is a job in a home, as a caregiver for a sixty-five-year-old woman who has broken her femur. You would cook three meals a day and do some light housework besides helping the woman with exercise and walking to strengthen herself once more. It should last around two months, full-time. Are you still interested?”
“Maybe,” she answered tentatively. “Could you tell me more?”
“Come out to the Wind River Ranch. We’ll talk. Can you make it at one p.m.?”
“Yes, ma’am. I’m done today at noon. I know where your ranch is located and can drive out there. I’ll be on time, I promise.”
“Great. Just come to the office. That’s where I’ll be.”
Lily hung up, her heart pounding even harder. A job. A real job. A caregiver. Well, she could do that.
Suzy glowed as Lily told her about the call. “You said you wanted another job, that this one wouldn’t pay your monthly bills.”
Lily smoothed out her jeans, some damp spots of water on them from watering all the cats and dogs in the shelter that morning. “I did.”
“Kassie’s a good go-to person to find a job. You must have told her you were looking for another one.”
“Yes, I’d love to find something full-time. I don’t want to leave the shelter,” she said, looking around the small but homey office. “I love the animals.”
“It’s only a two-month job, Lily.”
“It’s better than nothing. And it sounds like something I can manage. I always enjoy helping animals and people.”
Suzy sat down. “Hey, good luck on it. Maud’s a really nice person. You’ll instantly feel at ease with her. She has a heart of gold, so don’t sweat the interview. Okay?”
Easier said than done. Nodding, Lily picked up her jacket and pulled it on. It might be June 2, but it was only forty-five degrees outside despite the blue sky and sunshine. “I’ll see you tomorrow morning at six a.m.,” she promised Suzy, lifting her hand in farewell as she pushed the outer door open.
Outdoors, she halted and looked around. It was something she did without thinking about it. There were a lot of things she thought about since being in the Army, since that village was attacked . . . Resolutely, Lily compressed her lips and walked doggedly toward her dark blue pickup. Her parents had bought it for her when she returned home, wanting, in some way, to help her adjust to civilian life. It was used but in good condition, and as she climbed in, her heart warmed at their helping her after the Army released her.
To her right was the Wilson Range, rising out of the flat plain west of the one-hundred-mile, oblong-shaped Wind River Valley. It was covered with snow on its blue granite flanks, then surrounded with thick evergreens from ten thousand feet downward and flowing onto the flat of the valley. The shelter had been built on the southern end of the town. The parking lot was gravel, with a wooden corral around it except for the entrance and exit points. The tires made crunching sounds as she backed out and headed toward the ribbon of two-lane asphalt that went through the valley.
Since discovering this small town nestled between the Salt River Range to the east and the Wilson Range on the west, she’d found some level of peace. Her money was running out, although she knew her parents would give her more if she asked. They’d done so much already, trying to help her with her devastating PTSD symptoms.
Driving slowly through town, she parked at Kassie’s Café. Kassie had given her a back room in the large restaurant, free, until she could find a job. She, like Maud Whitcomb, was partial to military vets and had married one, Travis Grant.
Lily left the pickup and walked around to a side door. The little apartment had a bathroom with a tub, which she loved to soak in. Water always calmed her. The bedroom had a queen-size bed and a purple comforter that was cozy and warm for the freezing nights that occurred even in June around here. There was also a small kitchenette. She discovered either Kassie or one of her women vet waitresses had thoughtfully put a bowl of fresh fruit on the table for her. When she opened the fridge, she found three complete meals wrapped in Saran wrap.
Lily didn’t know how she’d managed to luck out, but Kassie and Travis had been saviors to her. She’d come here two weeks ago, low on money, low on morale and questioning whether she’d done the right thing by leaving her home in Blackfoot, Idaho. She was looking for a job that had low stress, something that would pay her a salary she could live on.
As a vet with PTSD, her career as an RN was pretty much over. She didn’t have the ability to stand the stress of working in a busy hospital. Or even a doctor’s office. Sometimes, crowds of people, noise and the combination of the two, made her mind blank out and she was paralyzed for moments, unable to think or react.
During her therapy, after breaking emotionally over what she’d witnessed in an Afghan village, her therapist gently told her she would never be the same person again. Lily found those words disheartening, but Major Ann Dawson had shown her the strength that was still within her, helped her to understand how she could call upon it to heal. That, too, was a part of her.
The first three months after her breakdown out in the field had been the hardest. They’d put her on medications that made her feel out of her body. Her mind didn’t work, and she was in some kind of cottony cocoon she couldn’t wrestle out of.
Only after the medication was slowly withdrawn and she started with therapy sessions with Major Dawson had she started to come alive once more. And as she recounted the horrific attack by the Taliban at dawn, the murdering of innocent men, women and children, she broke down and wept until she had no more tears to shed. But the pain, the anguish of watching people systematically beheaded with swords, stabbed with knives, shot in the head, still peppered her dreams nightly. Dawson had urged her to remember, not push away what she’d experienced. It had been so hard. It was still hard, but her emotional reaction to it had diminished in intensity. Her therapist said that with time, it would lose its grip on her, and Lily believed her. She jus
t wished it would hurry up and happen. Unfortunately, the therapist told her it would be many years before it slowly took place.
Lily went to the kitchen counter and made a pot of coffee. If she took certain antianxiety meds, she’d calm down. But they interfered so much with her ability to feel connected to life that she finally refused to take them anymore. Lily would rather suffer and feel alive than be anesthetized and slog through the day feeling robotically removed from everything. Truly, the meds had turned her into a zombie.
Because Kassie had given her this space to live until she could get back on her feet, Lily wanted to help where she could. The dishwasher room, where dirty plates and flatware were cleaned, was too loud and jarring to her sensitive nervous system. Noise could bring on a flashback of that dawn morning in the village. And getting a flashback made her curl into a knot, her head buried against her drawn-up knees, arms tightly wrapped around them, unable to do anything but remember to breathe in and out until it passed. It could take an hour, but then the rest of the day or a sleepless night followed.
She felt helpless. Alone. Broken. Too fragile to live in this rough-and-tumble world civilians easily dealt with day in and day out. At one time, she could do it, too. But no longer. Major Dawson had told her to find a low-stress job, doing something that made her look forward to working daily. The shelter in Wind River was perfect for her. Dogs barking didn’t bring on a nasty reaction within her. The dogs and cats loved her, and she wallowed in their unselfish adoration, lapping it up like the starving emotional being she’d become. These last two weeks had been heaven for her because she was the only human with all the animals. Things always went better when there wasn’t a crowd of people around her.