by Keith Laumer
"God-awful looking, shaved head, arm stuck out; him all right-"
I reached out to his mind and struck at random. The light fell, went out, and I heard the unconscious body slam to the ground like a poled steer.
It was easy-if I could only stay awake.
I gritted my teeth, pulled myself into the car, crawled to a dark corner behind a crate and slumped down. I tried to evoke a personality fraction to set as a guard, a part of my mind to stay awake and warn me of danger. It was too much trouble. I relaxed and let it all slide down into darkness.
***
The car swayed, click-clack, click-clack. I opened my eyes, saw yellow sunlight in a bar across the litter on the floor. The power truss creaked, pulling at my arm. My broken leg was throbbing its indignation at the treatment it had received-walking brace and all-and the burned arm was yelling aloud for more of that nice dope that had been keeping it from realizing how bad it was. All things considered, I felt like a badly embalmed mummy-except that I was hungry. I had been a fool not to fill my pockets when I left the escape capsule in the shallows off Key Largo, but things had been happening too fast.
I had barely made it to the fishing boat, whose owner I had coerced into rendezvousing with me before shells started dropping around us. If the gunners on the cruiser ten miles away had had any luck, they would have finished me-and the hapless fisherman-right then. We rode out a couple of near misses, before I put the cruiser's gunnery crew off the air.
At a fishing camp on the beach, I found a car-with driver. He dropped me at the railyard, and drove off under the impression he was in town for groceries. He'd never believe he'd seen me.
Now I'd had my sleep. I had to start getting ready for the next act of the farce.
I pressed the release on the power truss, gingerly unclamped it, then rigged a sling from a strip of shirt tail. I tied the arm to my side as inconspicuously as possible. I didn't disturb the bandages.
I needed new clothes-or at least different ones-and something to cover my shaved skull. I couldn't stay hidden forever. The yard cop had recognized me at a glance.
I lay back, waiting for the train to slow for a town. I wasn't unduly worried-at the moment. The watchman probably hadn't convinced anyone he'd actually seen me. Maybe he hadn't been too sure himself.
The click-clack slowed and the train shuddered to a stop. I crept to the door, peered through the crack. There were sunny fields, a few low buildings in the distance, the corner of a platform. I closed my eyes and let my awareness stretch out.
"-lousy job. What's the use? Little witch in the lunch room… up in the hills, squirrel hunting, bottle of whiskey…"
I settled into control gently, trying not to alarm the man. I saw through his eyes the dusty box car, the rust on the tracks, the listless weeds growing among cinders, and the weathered boards of the platform. I turned him, and saw the dingy glass of the telegraph window, a sagging screen door with a chipped enameled cola sign.
I walked the man to the door, and through it. Behind a linoleum-topped counter, a coarse-skinned teen-age girl with heavy breasts and wet patches under her arms looked up without interest as the door banged.
My host went on to the counter, gestured toward the waxed-paper-wrapped sandwiches under a glass cover. "I'll take 'em all. And candy bars, and cigarettes. And give me a big glass of water."
"Better git out there and look after yer train," the girl said carelessly. "When'd you git so all-fired hungry all of a sudden?"
"Put it in a bag. Quick."
"Look who's getting bossy-"
My host rounded the counter, picked up a used paper bag, began stuffing food in it. The girl stared at him, then pushed him back. "You git back around that counter!"
She filled the bag and rang up the tab. "Cash only."
My host took two dog-eared bills from his shirt pocket, dropped them on the counter and waited while the girl filled a glass. He picked it up and started out.
"Hey! Where you goin' with my glass?"
The trainman crossed the platform, headed for the box car. He slid the loose door back a few inches against the slack latch, pushed the bag inside, placed the glass of water beside it, then pulled off his grimy railroader's cap and pushed it through the opening. He turned. The girl watched from the platform. A rattle passed down the line and the train started up with a lurch. The man walked back toward the girl. I heard him say: "Friend o' mine in there-just passin' through."
I was discovering that it wasn't necessary to hold tight control over every move of a subject. Once given the impulse to act, he would rationalize his behavior, fill in the details-and never know that the original idea hadn't been his own.
I drank the water first, ate a sandwich, then lit a cigarette and lay back. So far so good. The crates in the car were marked "U.S. Naval Aerospace Station, Bayou Le Cochon." With any luck I'd reach New Orleans in another twelve hours. The first step of my plan included a raid on the Delta National labs; but that was tomorrow. That could wait.
***
It was a little before dawn when I crawled out of the car at a siding in the swampy country a few miles out of New Orleans. I wasn't feeling good, but I had a stake in staying on my feet. I still had a few miles in me. I had my supplies-a few candy bars and some cigarettes-stuffed in the pockets of the tattered issue coverall. Otherwise, I was unencumbered. Unless you wanted to count the walking brace on my right leg and the sling binding my arm.
I picked my way across mushy ground to a pot-holed black-top road, started limping toward a few car lights visible half a mile away. It was already hot. The swamp air was like warmed-over subway fumes. Through the drugs, I could feel my pulse throbbing in my various wounds. I reached out and touched the driver's mind; he was thinking about shrimps, a fish-hook wound on his left thumb and a girl with black hair. "Want a lift?" he called.
I thanked him and got in. He gave me a glance and I pinched off his budding twinge of curiosity. It was almost an effort now not to follow his thoughts. It was as though my mind, having learned the trick of communications with others, instinctively reached out toward them.
An hour later he dropped me on a street corner in a shabby marketing district of the city and drove off. I hoped he made out all right with the dark-haired girl. I spotted a used-clothing store and headed for it.
Twenty minutes later I was back on the sidewalk, dressed in a pinkish-gray suit that had been cut a long time ago by a Latin tailor-maybe to settle a grudge. The shirt that went with it was an unsuccessful violet. The black string tie lent a dubious air of distinction. I'd swapped the railroader's cap for a tarnished beret. The man who had supplied the outfit was still asleep. I figured I'd done him a favor by taking it. I couldn't hope to pass for a fisherman-I wasn't the type. Maybe I'd get by as a coffee-house derelict.
I walked past fly-covered fish stalls, racks of faded garments, grimy vegetables in bins, enough paint-flaked wrought iron to cage a herd of brontosauri, and fetched up at a cab stand. I picked a fat driver with a wart.
"How much to the Delta National Laboratories?"
He rolled an eye toward me, shifted his toothpick.
"What ya wanna go out there for? Nothing out there."
"I'm a tourist," I said. "They told me before I left home not to miss it."
He grunted, reached back and opened the door. I got in. He flipped his flag down, started up with a clash of gears and pulled out without looking.
"How far is it?" I asked him.
"It ain't far. Mile, mine and a quarter."
"Pretty big place, I guess."
He didn't answer.
We went through a warehousing district, swung left along the waterfront, bumped over railroad tracks, and pulled up at a nine-foot cyclone fence with a locked gate.
I looked out at the fence, a barren field, a distant group of low buildings. "What's this?"
"This is the place you ast for."
I touched his mind, planted a couple of false impressions and withdrew. He blin
ked, then started up, drove around the field, pulled up at an open gate with a blue-uniformed guard. He looked back at me.
"You want I should drive in, sir?"
"I'll get out here."
He jumped out, opened my door, helped me out with a hand under my good elbow. "I'll get your change, sir," he said, reaching for his hip.
"Keep it."
"Thank YOU." He hesitated. "Maybe I oughta stick around. You know."
"I'll be all right."
"I hope so," he said. "A man like you-you and me-" he winked. "After all, we ain't both wearing berets fer nothing."
"True," I said. "Consider your tip doubled. Now drive away into the sunrise and forget you ever saw me."
He got into the car, beaming, and left. I turned and sized up the Delta Labs.
There was nothing fancy about the place; it consisted of low brick and steel buildings, mud, a fence and a guard who was looking at me.
I sauntered over. "I'm from Iowa City," I said. "Now, the rest of the group didn't come-said they'd rather rest one day. But I like to see it all. After all, I paid-"
"Just a minute," the guard said, holding up a palm. "You must be lost, fella. This here ain't no tourist attraction. You can't come in here."
"This is the cameo works?" I said anxiously.
He shook his head. "Too bad you let your cab go. It's an hour yet till the bus comes."
A dun-painted staff car came into view, slowed and swung wide to turn in. I fingered the driver's mind. The car swerved, braked to a halt. A portly man in the back seat leaned forward, frowning. I touched him. He relaxed. The driver leaned across and opened the door. I went around and got in. The guard was watching, open-mouthed.
I gave him a two-finger salute, and the car pulled through the gate.
"Stop in front of the electronics section," I said. The car pulled up. I got out, went up the steps and pushed through the double glass doors. The car sat for a moment, then moved slowly off. The passenger would be wondering why the driver had stopped-but the driver wouldn't remember.
I was inside the building now; that was a start. I didn't like robbery in broad daylight, but it was a lot easier this way. I wasn't equal to climbing any walls or breaking down any locked doors-not until I'd had a transfusion, a skin graft and about three months' vacation on a warm beach somewhere.
A man in a white smock emerged from a door. He started past me, spun "I'm here about the garbage," I said. "Damn fools will put the cans in with the edible. Are you the one called?"
"How's that?"
"I ain't got all the morning!" I shrilled. "You scientist fellers are all alike. Which way is the watchamacallit-equipment lab?"
"Right along there." He pointed. I didn't bother to thank him. It wouldn't have been in character.
A thin man with a brush mustache eyed me sharply as I pushed through the door. I looked at him, nodding absently. "Carry on with your work," I said. "The audit will be carried out in such a way as to disturb you as little as possible. Just show me your voucher file, if you please."
He sighed and waved toward a filing cabinet. I went to it and pulled a drawer open, glancing about the room. Full shelves were visible through an inner door.
Twenty minutes later I left the building, carrying a sheet metal carton containing the electronic components I needed to build a matter transmitter-except for the parts I'd have to fabricate myself from raw materials. The load was heavy-too heavy for me to carry very far. I parked it at the door and waited until a pick-up truck came along.
It pulled over. The driver climbed out and came up the walk to me. "Are you-uh…?" He scratched his head.
"Right." I waved at my loot. "Put it in the back." He obliged. Together we rolled toward the gate. The guard held up his hand, came forward to check the truck. He looked surprised when he saw me.
"Just who are you, fella?" he said.
I didn't like tampering with people any more than I had to. It was a lot like stealing from a blind man: easy, but nothing to feel proud of. I gave him a light touch-just the suggestion that what I would say would be full of deep meaning.
"You know-the regular Wednesday shipment," I said darkly. "Keep it quiet. We're all relying on you."
"Sure thing," he said, stepping back. We gunned through the gate. I glanced back to see him looking after the truck, thinking about the Wednesday shipment on a Friday. He decided it was logical, nodded his head and forgot the whole thing.
5
I'd been riding high for a couple of hours, enjoying the success of the tricks I'd stolen from the Gool. Now I suddenly felt like something the student morticians had been practicing on. I guided my driver through a second-rate residential section, looking for an M.D. shingle on a front lawn.
The one I found didn't inspire much confidence-you could hardly see it for the weeds-but I didn't want to make a big splash. I had to have an assist from the driver to make it to the front door. He got me inside, parked my box beside me and went off to finish his rounds, under the impression that it had been a dull morning.
The doctor was a seedy, seventyish G.P. with a gross tremor of the hands that a good belt of Scotch would have helped. He looked at me as though I'd interrupted something that was either more fun or paid better than anything I was likely to come up with.
"I need my dressing changed, Doc," I said. "And maybe a shot to keep me going."
"I'm not a dope peddler," he snapped. "You've got the wrong place."
"Just a little medication-whatever's usual. It's a burn."
"Who told you to come here?"
I looked at him meaningfully. "The word gets around."
He glared at me, gnashed his plates, then gestured toward a black-varnished door. "Go right in there."
He gaped at my arm when the bandages were off. I took a quick glance and wished I hadn't.
"How did you do this?"
"Smoking in bed," I said. "Have you got… something that…"
He caught me before I hit the floor, got me into a chair. Then he had that Scotch he'd been wanting, gave me a shot as an afterthought, and looked at me narrowly.
"I suppose you fell out of that same bed and broke your leg," he said.
"Right. Hell of a dangerous bed."
"I'll be right back." He turned to the door. "Don't go away. I'll just… get some gauze."
"Better stay here, Doc. There's plenty of gauze right on that table."
"See here-"
"Skip it, Doc. I know all about you."
"What?"
"I said all about you."
He set to work then; a guilty conscience is a tough argument to answer.
He plastered my arm with something and rewrapped it, then looked the leg over and made a couple of adjustments to the brace. He clucked over the stitches in my scalp, dabbed something on them that hurt like hell, then shoved an old-fashioned stickpin needle into my good arm.
"That's all I can do for you," he said. He handed me a bottle of pills. "Here are some tablets to take in an emergency. Now get out."
"Call me a cab, Doc."
***
I listened while he called, then lit a cigarette and watched through the curtains. The doc stood by, worrying his upper plate and eyeing me. So far I hadn't had to tinker with his mind, but it would be a good idea to check. I felt my way delicately.
- oh God, why did I… long time ago… Mary ever knew… go to Arizona, start again, too old… I saw the nest of fears that gnawed at him, the frustration and the faint flicker of hope but not quite dead. I touched his mind, wiped away scars…
"Here's your car," he said. He opened the door, looking at me. I started past him.
"Are you sure you're all right?" he said.
"Sure, Pop. And don't worry. Everything's going to be okay."
The driver put my boxes on the back seat. I got in beside him and told him to take me to a men's clothing store. He waited while I changed my hand-me-downs for an off-the-hook suit, new shirt and underwear and a replacement beret.
It was the only kind of hat that didn't hurt. My issue shoes were still good, but I traded them in on a new pair, added a light raincoat, and threw in a sturdy suitcase for good measure. The clerk said something about money and I dropped an idea into his mind, paused long enough to add a memory of a fabulous night with a redhead. He hardly noticed me leaving.
I tried not to feel like a shoplifter. After all, it's not every day a man gets a chance to swap drygoods for dreams.
In the cab, I transferred my belongings to the new suitcase, then told the driver to pull up at an anonymous-looking hotel. A four-star admiral with frayed cuffs helped me inside with my luggage. The hackie headed for the bay to get rid of the box under the impression I was a heavy tipper.
I had a meal in my room, a hot bath, and treated myself to a three hour nap. I woke up feeling as though those student embalmers might graduate after all.
I thumbed through the phone book and dialed a number.
"I want a Cadillac or Lincoln," I said. "A new one-not the one you rent for funerals-and a driver who won't mind missing a couple nights' sleep. And put a bed pillow and a blanket in the car."
I went down to the coffee room then for a light meal. I had just finished a cigarette when the car arrived-a dark blue heavy-weight with a high polish and a low silhouette.
"We're going to Denver," I told the driver. "We'll make one stop tomorrow-I have a little shopping to do. I figure about twenty hours. Take a break every hundred miles, and hold it under seventy."
He nodded. I got in the back and sank down in the smell of expensive upholstery.
"I'll cross town and pick up U.S. 84 at-"
"I leave the details to you," I said. He pulled out into the traffic and I got the pillow settled under me and closed my eyes. I'd need all the rest I could get on this trip. I'd heard that compared with the Denver Records Center, Fort Knox was a cinch. I'd find out for sure when I got there.