“Hello Master!”
His steady magical lamp, a gift to his grandfather from the Elders nearly a century before, rested on the little table beside her. The light glinted softly in her hair, the loose brown curls over her shoulders limp with grease, as stubborn and unmovable as her.
There was a fire crackling in the grate. It’d give him more warmth than she would. But her face brightened even as she shivered, clasping her skinny arms. The embers between them refused to go out, resisting even the fiercest gales. It wasn’t just the reflection of the firelight that lit up her eyes, and he couldn’t help but stir at the ashes.
Maybe I will be tonight.
Everything was in its right place.
To hell with the Elder and her portents.
~~~
The door to the study slammed thunderously behind Lord Telyra, and he leaned lazily on the frame, greeting her softly in the silence that followed, water dripping into his unblinking eyes. There was a fog in them like the fog through the window—but he was trying to hide it.
"Hello slave."
Only he could wear the endowment of Talystasia’s miserable climate like it was a mantle of nobility, towering there like a river god in a storybook woodcut. His long scarlet dreadlocks clung to his body, dark with rain, rivulets of it trickling down his blue uniform tunic, pasting the fabric to his chest. A small puddle was forming on the hardwood at his feet.
"You'll catch cold,” she chided. “I'll get you some towels. Take off that wet cloak. What were you thinking, bein’ out so late in that downpour—"
Lord Telyra raised his mouth in a thin, sarcastic half-smile, and shook with silent laughter.
"Good observation, slave," he said. Then the smile fled his voice like the warmth from the room.
"So why ... are you ... still sitting there ...?"
Julia lurched to her feet.
"Wait."
His quiet command cut through her thoughts like the distant rumble of thunder. Perhaps she’d misread his mood. Not a fog, but a storm brewing.
"You dropped your rag," he said, grimacing at it, and her, like he would a dead thing.
"That thing—on my floor—disgusting."
Wordlessly, she bent and placed it on the table, carefully meeting his stare. "I'll get your towels now, Master."
"Slave—" he said as she reached the door, his voice hard and uneven.
"Master?"
He raised one arm over her head to grasp the doorframe.
"Milord?"
"I'll answer in my own time, slave," he remarked offhandedly, looking away from her toward the window. "Learn patience. Think you'd learn a damn bit of patience. If I speak to you, you answer. If I speak to you again, you answer. If I say nothing, you have no place to speak. I should throw you to the dogs."
"You wouldn't.”
"Of course not. I am much worse than the dogs. Loren's mangy ghetto dogs would rip you apart in minutes, so ... small you are ... weak.”
He reached for her, looking intently at her mouth as he passed a hand over one of her curls, his movement so soft it could have been a breeze from the window.
"Yes Master," she replied, and looked away, focusing blankly on the far wall. Yes … this was a dangerous mood.
"Look at me when you speak to me, slave." He grabbed her chin and twisted her neck sharply, his hand rough and cold.
She forced herself not to flinch, clenching her jaw and settling her gaze on the thin vertical scar that ran across his right eye. If she focused on the scar, she could ignore the blue iris fixed on her, stormy and dark. His hair was slowly drying against the circlet, the colour emerging. The vibrant red highlighted the rust-coloured stains that had discoloured the gold band over the ages: dried blood. Some spilled by Lord Telyra, some by his predecessors.
"You'd suffer for a few minutes—but then you'd be free; free to rest in blessed oblivion." He spat on the floor. "Never another day of your short, stunted pretend-game of a life. You’d like that, wouldn’t you? You lazy little shit. Clean that up."
"Yes Master," she agreed indifferently.
He tightened his grip on her chin, pressing till it hurt.
"It's a good thing that I like you, isn't it? Impertinent and impatient as you are. A foolish dreamer who shirks her work, who doesn't know her station in life. You are not even a part of life. You are sub-life. Just imagine if I were heartless." He let out a breath, releasing her. "… Like you.”
I said I was gonna get you some towels, you bastard.
She opened her mouth, almost daring to say it, but he grabbed her by the collar and jerked her head against the door.
“I’m sorry Master—” she choked.
… Weak. So pathetic.
Part of her, displaced in time, craved his belligerence—and that was the worst of it. Awakening her yearning was unintentional. Or perhaps it wasn’t, and it was done out of malice. Her back against the door, his hand clenched around her collar, his scarcely contained aggression—he’d defaced them by corrupting their essence, and this was an insult. There was nothing for it but to disown that part of herself, each and every time.
You’ve ruined everything.
“How did you waste my generosity today?"
"I cleaned all four rooms you assigned, plus the drawing room, and I finished off that pile of axes. Shiny and new."
“That didn’t take you all day. How did you amuse yourself?”
“Your new Atlas. And then I cleaned the study, just to get it done.”
Don’t appreciate it though—or the fact that I stayed up here waiting for you for an hour and a half, when I could’ve been downstairs, asleep.
"Did you learn anything?"
“Despite not being able to read, yeah, I did.”
"No." He smiled. "No, you can't. Such a pity."
“I’m so glad I have an Atlas to learn about the world. It’s so much better than the real thing. Just paging through it, I can see how little I’m missing out on cooped up in here.”
“… I was playing, slave. But now I’m not.”
“We don’t play,” she replied quietly.
“I had a hard day. Is this really the way you want things to go—?”
“… Why did you have a hard day?”
“Like hell you care,” he growled. “Go.”
She edged forward nervously, glancing at his arm above her head.
"Girl—" His face distorted.
"Gone," she stammered, and shoved at the oaken door, fumbling with the knob; the damn thing was jammed again. Finally, it pulled free and she got away.
~~~
Andreas chuckled lightly as he withdrew. "Run, little girl," he said softly to the empty room. "I'll catch you when I feel like it." Unhooking his scabbard, he flung his blade onto the cushions still sheathed, and slumped down wearily on the edge of the couch.
Enough. This day was damned enough as it was, and she was burning up in the same acid he was.
There were days it was all too much.
"I have your towels, Maste—"
She broke off, standing in the doorway, her face a guileless portrait of dismay. Something deeper than hate let her look at him like that. Even now.
Today, he would forgive her her shortcomings. Because someone in this wretched hellhole needed a damn bit of grace.
"Yes, slave? You were saying?"
"The sofa," she said pointedly, a shade off resignation.
He raised his hands from his knees and waved them at the cushions, favouring her with mock confusion. They were sopping wet, blue streaked with brown, covered in mud.
“Couldn’t you have waited for the towels?” she asked him dejectedly.
"Oh, well, snap"—and he snapped his fingers, his face blank. "That’s going to take you … what, an hour? I mean, really scrub them. I don’t want to see one speck of mud tomorrow morning.” He wiped the back of his hand on the next cushion over. “… Oh, I’m sorry. I meant two hours. You’ll be up till two in the morning.”
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bsp; He laughed, watching the dead weight settle behind her eyes—an automatic response—as easy to lift as it was to place.
"Unless I decide they can wait till tomorrow." He stared up at the ceiling, considering nonexistent possibilities.
"Which you won't," she replied matter-off-factly, even lightly, as though her time meant nothing to her—but she watched him with hungry eyes.
Pain never lost its potency—and neither did hope. But false hope was not his province.
"The door," he reminded her.
She closed it.
Rising heavily, he strode over to his desk.
"Anything here I haven't seen yet?"
"Just a few—those ones. Sorted by time."
He riffled through the papers, shoving aside a clutter of ink pots and pens, his eyes burning and bleary. The script blurred and ran together.
"You're dripping on it," she supplied. "You're making the ink run all over."
"I’m tired." He ignored her impudence. "They can write me another."
Furrowing her brow, she pushed oily hair from her eyes, and stepped cautiously toward him.
"Reports?" he stated abruptly, his voice cutting the air between them like a blade.
"What?" she asked, halting on cue.
"Did you bother to ask what they say?" he barked. “Or are you just going to stand there? Should I replace you with somebody literate? Are you going to make me read them?”
"One of them is about this skirmish—"
"Brawl."
"Was it a brawl?" Her wide eyes held no knowledge.
"You tell me. Who was involved? Surely you know ... something? The fuck do I keep you for?"
"Lieutenant Gulthor was looking for you.”
"Good. What’s this stack?"
"A research compilation from the library. Something about a cult. Umm, something about … Shadow—and Fire. Shadowfire?"
He waited, flipping through it disinterestedly.
"A page told me they want an audience with you."
"Uh-huh." He clumped the documents together, stood them on end, and used the desk to even the edges. "I'll be needing Gulthor.”
“He’s already on his way.”
“... And dinner.”
"Oh!" Panic flitted across her face. "I can't believe I forgot. It’s just, it got so late, and I thought—"
"Slave!" he called sharply, curtailing her excuses.
Freezing, she turned to look back.
"Master?”
He smiled—not unkindly. "Ask the kitchen to give you two portions. And thanks for the fire, Julia. Stop staring at me and go make yourself useful."
"Yes Master," she mouthed, and left the room.
He fingered the dossier, trying to force his brain in gear. But he felt like nothing more than slumping forward, pressing his forehead against the desk, and going to sleep. And if he couldn’t, there was always the drink.
Shadowfire. Between Talystasia East and West, there were probably a dozen religious orders amid a prevailing atmosphere of careless agnosticism. He couldn’t recall the name of this one.
“... little to nothing is known of the god to whom these crusaders pray. This is not a god of polytheistic ancient lore, handed down from Elder tales, but neither is it the monotheistic god of the Holy Star—a god of the future, a god of hope. No stories are told of this deity, no legends or moral tales of divinity. This is a god of the present, without a face and without a name, granted no gender, form or character.
“Why did this end up on my desk?” he muttered to no one.
"My Lord?"
Starting at the unsolicited reply, he sat up, then smiled warmly. "Ahh, Gulthor. How are you this damnable evening? Come in, come in."
"I am fine, Milord," Gulthor responded, stepping into the room fully, the firelight saturating the ruddiness of his face. Scratching his bushy beard, he peered curiously at the papers. His face really was redder than usual, as if he had rushed to get here.
Maybe it was only the cold of the night. Why look for doom in every sign?
"We need to talk about the skirmish,” he announced, still staring at the files.
"Please Gulthor—brawl. We aren't at war with anyone."
He snorted. "The war has never really stopped, Andreas. You know that better than I. And we both know it’s only a matter of time before everything blows back out into the open. Two of our men and two of theirs … And two civilians. It could be construed as a military incident. A man is dead, Andreas. One of Loren’s—a young officer. Warrant Officer Charles Danson."
"Civilians?"
"Both fine—perhaps a black eye or two."
"And you witnessed this when and where?"
Gulthor coughed a couple times, and Andreas waited patiently.
“Do you have a cold, Gulthor?”
Clearing his throat, flushed and bleary eyed, he shook his head and continued. "… Outside the south wall on the hillside, on enemy ground. It was four o’clock—right around when you headed out for the evening. Our men were off-duty, not even in uniform. They met Loren's soldiers on the road, in uniform, with two civilians—but also off-duty, so I gather.”
“By the stream, the one that joins the Ganea River?”
He blinked. “… Yes. By the source. Why?”
“Nevermind—Continue.”
“They paused, spoke a while—I didn't realize anything was amiss until one of them pulled a dirk and another threw a punch. They told me later the matter was political."
"Really," Andreas said.
"Aye sir; apparently … well, you have to understand, they thought it was a joke. At first. Then they changed their minds—or lost their tempers, more like.”
“What was a joke?”
“Loren’s soldiers. Said they was planning to jump you in the woods. Argument happened, fight ensued—"
"… Frivolous debate? Over my life …? Your men are the people I depend on, Gulthor. Don't try to reassure me by telling me it wasn’t serious. If it wasn’t, then what are you doing here? Wouldn’t you rather be home enjoying whatever Drucill’s concocted for supper? You're only clouding a confusing matter."
"They thought it was a joke,” Gulthor repeated adamantly. “Didn’t you hear me? And it probably was, to begin with. Altercations like this—they happen all the time. This time things got … heated. There’s some indication that two of the men knew each other—there was some history there. Personal. That probably had nothing to do with you whatsoever. If they’d all been out of uniform …”
“You know as well as I do that wouldn’t have spared us. How was Loren’s man killed?”
“Accident, from what I could tell. He tripped, hit his head on a rock. If we’d just seal our borders …”
"Dock their pay."
"What? Why ...? For protecting you?"
"For failing me.”
"But they didn't fail. Assuming there was ever a threat to your life.”
"They complicated my life. There’s a man who’s dead who shouldn’t be. There could be consequences—and should be. I just hope they are our consequences. You’re too sympathetic toward the men. Even if you did want more responsibility, it’d be reason enough not to promote you. I know you mean well … but it’s no way to run things.”
“You know how I feel about the open borders. It’s not the first close call. Things like this wouldn’t happen at all if—”
“Can you fault me for trying to make this a civilized area of the world?”
“I don’t fault you for trying. But Loren might.”
“Has he responded?”
“Garret Delvorak sent word.”
“And?”
“He didn’t seem inclined to make anything of it. Loren’s men reported the same thing ours did—accident. We lucked out there. But that was him—not Malek. Malek hasn’t said a damn thing. You see, that’s where I’m anxious … he should have responded by now—if he’s going to. The fact that he hasn’t … it could signify it’s unimportant to him, but …”
“Loren would be stupid to try to assassinate me, if that’s what you’re getting at.”
“… Two low-ranking officers and a couple of civilians? Probably not choice assassins. I’m inclined to agree. But that doesn’t mean—” He sputtered. “Joke or not, it doesn’t matter how it started. It matters how it ended. The death can be construed as—”
“Gulthor! He’d be mad to break truce. I've given him the most prosperity he's seen in decades. With my peace. I bet more of his citizens are eating now than have in centuries."
“Wars have been started over far lesser things than a dead soldier.”
That much was certainly true. The conflict at the root of this one, that had claimed his life, chained him to this inherited sentence? Lost to the mists of time. Speaking of the mists of time …
“… I saw a dryad, Gulthor. She held me up, on my way home.”
Gulthor’s pale eyes widened. “Was she hostile?”
“No.”
“How long has it been?”
“Five or six years? The Elders told me about this ‘skirmish,’ and they called it what you did. They told me the blood was poison. That there was power intrinsically linked to the event—power neither human nor Elder, and that it may be linked to the circlets as well. I’m inclined to believe them."
Logically, no matter how near the incident had occurred to the place where he’d paused on his way home tonight, there was no way the blood from a fractured skull wouldn’t have been diluted by the stream, instead of pooling against the rocks like tar. Blood might be thicker than water, but not that thick.
Gulthor blinked. "Are they going to become a problem?"
"I think they were trying to warn me of the one I already have." Helplessly, he shrugged. “Gulthor, I’m at a loss. I’m so tired. I know you have nothing to say about what I just said. But the rest of it … please make this go away. The part you can do something about. The human part.”
"I see, sir." He looked as frazzled—and now puzzled—as ever.
"Very well," Andreas said. "You may go. Wait … Gulthor—?”
“Yessir?”
“Does the name ‘Shadowfire’ have any meaning to you?”
He shrugged laconically.
"… Huh. Don't forget; cut those men’s pay—but don’t starve their families."
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