I had been so lost, I had no idea I was moaning. At this point, I might have gotten my own name wrong if Jake had asked me.
He settled back between my legs, and his fingers suddenly found a spot inside me that they hadn’t yet touched.
Sensations flooded my whole body so intensely that I thought I might pass out.
This was heaven.
This was release.
This was what Jake did to me.
I breathed hard, looking up at Jake through lazy, fluttering eyes.
“Thank you.” I reached up and grabbed his head. We touched our foreheads together.
“God, you are just fucking adorable, aren’t you? You can’t help it.”
“Not the adjective I usually get.”
Jake was on his knees, leaning toward me, his hard cock dragging on my stomach.
“Do you have a condom?” Jake whispered.
I scrunched my face together and looked down at him. “You don’t have a condom?”
“No. I had to throw them out at jail…” He paused. “Shit.”
I was on the pill, but this was not something Jake needed to know. His eyes asked the question without either of us even having to say a thing. “No. God no. We can’t have sex without one.”
He took a deep breath. “You’re right. Fuck! It’s like three a.m. We’re screwed, aren’t we?”
I still had post-orgasm pleasure feelings running through me. “I wasn’t expecting this tonight.”
“It’s okay,” Jake said with a frustrated groan as he dropped down next to me. “Don’t be surprised if you wake up and I’ve had a wet dream though.”
I spun my body around and pressed my naked body into him. I felt a little bad about giving him blue balls, but if he was lucky—if we were lucky—this wouldn’t be the last time this happened.
Hell, it had better not be.
I drifted off to sleep with Jake’s giant arm wrapped around me.
Early Saturday morning, I stirred before Jake and thought about surprising him with a trip to the pharmacy to get some condoms, but then I thought how embarrassing that would be to actually have to face the store clerk when I was buying them.
Jake took deep but soft breaths as he slept. I rested a hand on him and felt his heart as his chest rose and fell. His upper body featured several tattoos. One was in Spanish, and another was in English. Both appeared to be mirror images, just like Amy had said. It was strange. I wanted to ask him why he had gotten them and what they meant.
But that nagging voice entered my head again, and I began to question my sanity about all of this.
Who the hell am I, considering a morning trip to the store for condoms?
I hadn’t slept with Grant when we were dating, and we had been together for almost a year. Yet here I was, considering sleeping with a man I’d known all of one week.
I felt so comfortable around Jake, and I wanted to open up to him even more. Despite his reputation, he had made it clear that he respected my boundaries, whatever I decided they were.
I was technically still a virgin, although I didn’t like to make a big deal out of it. The few people I had told had suddenly treated me like I was some sort of science experiment. They couldn’t believe it when I tried to explain that, although I’m sure my religious upbringing surely had something to do with it, I wasn’t saving myself for marriage or anything like that. I simply hadn’t found a guy who made me feel comfortable enough to do it.
Apparently my subconscious was now telling me that Jake was that guy.
My phone buzzed on the nightstand, and I rolled over to check who would be bugging me at this early hour.
My heart dropped when I saw that I had four missed calls from my mother.
I shot up in bed and pressed the call back button. She picked up after one ring.
“Mother?”
“Yes, Andrea, I’m here. I flew in this morning. Where are you? Why haven’t you been picking up your phone?”
“Wait,” I said, putting my feet on the ground. I opened my dresser and took out some underwear, a bra, and a dress in full panic mode. “You’re here?”
“Yes, here,” she said, sounding a tad annoyed. “Grant called me last night and told me what happened, and I came right away.”
“Grant called you?” The nerve, the absolute nerve.
“Well, to be fair, he texted me. I guess some thug hit him in the face and broke his jaw! Don’t you see what you’ve done to the man, Andrea? You’ve broken his heart!”
Ugh. Why was Grant still texting my mother? But I knew why: another way to control me. I slipped into my undergarments while holding the phone. Once again, I was regretting that I had never told my mother the whole story about how Grant and me broke up, but now was not the time to get into it.
“Mother, please, let’s not go there. I really can’t get into this right now.”
“Well, let’s go out to coffee and talk about it. I’m out in front of your building.”
If my heart hadn’t already exploded, now it had.
“You’re here here?”
“What on earth did you think I meant? Haven’t you heard your doorbell?”
“The buzzer’s broken.”
“Well let me up, for God’s sake.”
“I’ll buzz you up in a moment. Hang on.”
I hung up the phone, threw on my dress, and crouched next to Jake on the bed. I pressed one hand on his shoulder and another on his leg, shaking him with panic.
“What are you doing?” he groaned, his voice throaty.
“Jake, my mother’s here.”
“Well, you certainly move fast. Makeout-hookup-meet your mother. Hey, that’s fine though, I can deal.”
“Jake! This is serious! She will freak if she sees me in here with a boy.”
She had never known me with anyone who wasn’t Grant.
“I don’t see any boys in here,” he growled back with a slight smile. “Just a man.”
Looking over his naked body in bed, I had to agree.
“Figure of speech. This isn’t a drill, though. I seriously need you to—”
I heard a fist pounding on my third-floor door. “Drea! What on earth is taking so long? What are you hiding?”
I gasped. Someone must have let her in. “Get in the closet!” I whisper-yelled as he sprung to his feet and put his boxer briefs on.
“Are you kidding me? That thing is tiny!”
“If my mother sees you, I will never live this down!”
“Andrea Jane! You open up this instant!” my mother shouted through the door.
“You’re twenty-three, your mother will get over it!”
I swung my arm around in a motion similar to a windmill as I directed him to get into the closet. Finally, he agreed, and I pushed his head in and tried to close the door.
“What, no goodbye kiss?”
I rolled my eyes and finally closed the door, then went outside to get my mother.
“Sorry, Mother! These locks can be tricky.”
“Lockity schmokity,” she said as she walked in.
My mother and I were somewhat opposites in our looks. I was tall and dark-haired while she was short with lighter hair. I had her eyes, though. And had inherited her uptightness. She was in her favorite pair of black loafers and a paisley brown dress—conservative, practical, and safe. Her long hair was in a severe bun, and she wore no makeup or accessories. She was still a beautiful woman, but the divorce had made her even more uptight and rigid in her thinking.
She briefly hugged me before she breezed past me and into my apartment, dropping her bag in the process. She walked around like a dog sniffing about a new space before settling in, looking for anything that might be out of the ordinary. “If you lived in Sugar Tree, you wouldn’t need any gosh darn locks.”
As she was inspecting the kitchen, I looked to the left of the couch and saw Jake’s socks and shoes sitting out for the world to see. My heart began to thump fast and deep, like a tribal drum.
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sp; “I was just tidying up a bit when you got here,” I said, nonchalantly lunging into the living room and moving his footwear to the space between the couch and the wall before she could see.
She entered the room just as I hid them.
“Honey, I just don’t like it that the only reason I come down here is when your boyfriend has an emergency.”
“Ex-boyfriend,” I corrected her, rolling my eyes. For some reason, it had never completely registered with her that we had one-hundred-percent broken up.
“Oh, stop it,” she said as she ran her eyes around the couches and the walls of the living room, which were bare. Knowing that the internship was temporary, I hadn’t taken the time to truly make the space my own yet. “You really decorated the heck out of the place, didn’t you?”
She curved her lips upward in a smile that did not extend to her ears.
“Still have a little bit to finish off,” I defended.
“Well, don’t bother.” She put her hands on her hips and cocked her head at me. “Your room at home is still ready for you. And besides, Grant told me this morning that he wants you back.”
I let out a gasp, and she acted as though my surprise was a surprise to her. “You went and saw Grant?”
“Well, yes of course, honey. Of course I saw him,” she said, as though that was the only logical conclusion possible. “And he’s very sorry about how things went last year. He’s ready for you now.”
Suddenly, I felt dizzy. Grant was a two-faced sociopath, and it wasn’t surprising that he was able to charm my mother. To get my mom to fly in just to see him and then use her so shamelessly? That went too far. In the year Grant and I had dated, he’d done things that, at the time, I had simply considered to be extra nice. He would bring my mother flowers, insist that she come out to dinner with us a little more often than what seemed normal. In my naiveté, I had never once thought that maybe he was posturing for control over her. Now, thanks to my lack of communicating the truth, I was facing a mother who thought that I had broken up with Mr. Perfect. I hadn’t realized that she was having an even harder time registering the breakup than I ever had. With Grant, she saw me settling back in Sugar Tree, starting a family, having someone else to focus on, and pretty much running my life.
I just stared at her, beyond shocked. Ready…for me now. Seriously?! I wanted to explode, but I couldn’t. I was the peacekeeper of the family and her only daughter. “Mother, don’t you understand? He’s out of my life now. I don’t want Grant anymore.”
She frowned and walked toward my bedroom door, ignoring my comment. “Let’s have a look in your room, shall we?”
“Mother, no.” I walked briskly past her and put myself between her body and the door.
“Nonsense! I want to see how you’ve been living.” She frowned. “You’ll let me through this instant. Unless, of course, you’re hiding something?”
She arched an eyebrow, daring me not to let her in. It was like the woman had a sixth sense when I tried to hide something from her. It was incredible. If I caved and opened the door, I was down to my last line of defense: the closet. Dear God in heaven, please don’t let Jake screw this one up.
“Of course I’m not hiding anything,” I said as I opened the door to my room. The shame of my mother finding a half-naked man stowed away in my closet was something I could handle. I might lose a few years due to the embarrassment, but I’d make it through. “I was just worried that it’s a bit messy, and I know how you get when you see a mess.”
My mother, on the other hand, might just die of a heart attack if she found Jake, especially since she was clearly under the delusion that Grant and I would go back to being the same perfect All-American couple.
“Your bedsheets are a bit ruffled,” she said, fluffing my pillows.
“Yeah, the air conditioning was a little on-and-off last night, so I kind of had to adjust by using different layers of covers.”
She eyed me strangely as she continued slowly pacing the room. I tried to assume the least guilty pose I could think of with a gentle smile, standing between her and the closet. Perhaps I was subconsciously blocking her from getting at the space. If worse came to worst, I could physically stop her from opening up the closet door, couldn’t I?
“Let’s see the closet,” she said, slightly cocking her head in its direction.
“Oh Mother, please, I’d die of embarrassment if you saw how messy that was.”
She squinted at the closet, as if trying to use her x-ray vision on it.
“Open it.”
“No.”
She walked toward the closet and put her hand on the knob.
“What are you hiding in here, Andrea?”
“Nothing, Mother,” I said through teeth I tried not to grit.
She sighed and stepped back, away from the closet.
“Well then, I suppose this tour is over.”
I turned toward the door, and that second of hesitation was all it took for my mother.
She faked one step to the door, catching me off guard. Then she took two quick steps toward the closet, turned the doorknob, and whipped it open.
“Mother, I can explain!” I belted, my heart pounding.
Her jaw dropped as she reached an arm inside. I couldn’t see what she was looking at, but I wondered if Jake had at least managed to put a shirt on while he was hiding back there.
She pulled her arm back, holding a black-and-green cap with a J on it in her hand.
“Well, I should hope so! Grant plays for the New Jersey Bulldogs. Why do you have a Jaguars cap in here? Don’t you want to be loyal to his team?”
I was shocked. Did she not see Jake? She apparently had no clue that Jake was my client, either.
Finally, I walked around the open door so I could look in the closet.
Jake was gone.
After I’d left Andrea’s place on Saturday morning, I had to pack my bag for the flight out to Jacksonville with the team. Luckily, after some x-rays and a thorough examination, it was determined that my hand was fine, and the trainers weren’t worried about my overall health. But Don sure made it clear to me how disappointed he was. Me, Dwayne, Franco, and Buckner had all been given a stern talking-to from our manager before we’d boarded the bus for the airport, and it’d set the mood for our whole trip. But the guys had stuck up for me, hard, almost angrier about it than I was. But it didn’t matter. I was the instigator; it was my face all over the news.
Today—Sunday—was my first official day back on the job, my suspension over and done with. We had the double-header we’d just played today, plus another game on Monday before our series with the Firebirds was over with, and we’d fly back home Tuesday morning.
As if I hadn’t been through the ringer enough, my agent, Marissa, in her expensive new pantsuit and short pixie cut, sat next to me and kept giving me a look that said to behave. It was a look I knew all too well.
Mr. Yerac had called me into his makeshift office slash hotel room in Jacksonville. I was tired from a long day of playing. Not to mention that I’d extended my league-leading streak of thirty-seven scoreless innings pitched. But from Mr. Yerac’s angry face, that wasn’t what we were going to discuss. The fallout from Friday night had been pretty swift. He’d flown out from Chicago to speak with me in person.
When the busy billionaire boss wanted to speak with you specifically—and flew out to do it—that was never good.
As well as I was playing on the field, it felt like shit was being flung at me from all angles these days. I had as many haters as Kanye West screaming at me. But every time shit like this happened and things got blown out of proportion, I ignored it. Andrea had been on me, a lot of other people as well, but her emails and texts had bothered me the most. I was having trouble ignoring her, in general. I mean shit, I had climbed down from the outside window using a vine like fucking Tarzan to escape the clutches of Andrea’s mother, who apparently would not be cool with her daughter hooking up with a professional baseball player.
That was a first. Most girls wanted to show me off the moment they were even seen in public with me, let alone hooked up with me.
I snapped back to reality as Mr. Yerac paced back and forth in front of me as I sat in the hotel chair.
“You are goddamn lucky you have a golden arm, you know that?”
I didn’t care for his tone, but he did pay my salary. So I gave the guy a token nod of respect.
“Thank you. And sir, I know you think I’m a bad influence on the team. And that I’m giving the Jaguars a bad image. But, with all due respect, our clubhouse chemistry has never been better. We’re kicking ass on the field. This might not mean a lot, but our teammates have my back more than ever, and I have theirs on and off the field. What’s more—” I paused. The way Marissa cleared her throat, she was sensing what I was about to say was something I shouldn’t. However, this seemed like one of those situations where I needed to speak my mind, and it would probably come back and bite me in the ass. I ignored my hesitation and continued saying what I was about to say, as usual. “What’s more, that fucking guy had it coming. He was harassing the girl I was with and…”
“Goddamn it, Napleton, you still don’t get it! You need to see the bigger picture! It’s not about right and wrong. It’s not about whether Grant Newman was being a dick or not. It’s about the fact that you need to control yourself, no matter what. On and off the field. That’s what we agreed upon in your contract. My trade for you included you cleaning up your act. Your last team didn’t put up with it, and neither will I.”
Mr. Yerac believed all the bullshit about me, and that was on me, but I wasn’t going sit there and take it when he was being stubborn and refused to hear me out. This was why I had never bothered to explain myself. People had already decided. I stood up, so angry I could barely think straight.
“I have to control myself?” I said, my voice low and not hiding my anger. “What about Newman and his behavior? I’m telling you the truth—he was the one that wouldn’t walk away. You trust the dumb media over your own player?”
Mr. Yerac shook his head. “You’re constantly bringing negative attention to the team. It’s not a coincidence that a fog of trouble seems to follow you.” He took a deep breath, as if choosing his next words very carefully. “And if you don’t change this pattern, you’re fucking gone.”
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