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"Not to mention subjugating those Aiel," Miyasi said, reaching for a handful of nuts.
Egwene caught her with a sharp gaze. "Nobody subjugates the Aiel. Rand gained their respect. I was with him at the time. "
Miyasi froze, hand partway to the bowl of nutmeats. She shook herself, breaking Egwenes gaze, grabbing the bowl and retreating back to her chair. A cool breeze blew across the balcony, rustling the vines, which Ferane had complained were not greening this spring like they should. Egwene returned to shelling walnuts.
"It seems," Ferane said, "that you would simply let him sow chaos as he saw fit. "
"Rand alThor is like a river," Egwene said. "Calm and placid when not agitated, but a furious and deadly current when squeezed too tightly. What Elaida did to him was the equivalent of trying to force the Manetherendrelle through a canyon only two feet wide. Waiting to discover a mans temperament is not foolish, nor is it a sign of weakness. Acting without information is lunacy, and the White Tower deserved the tempest it riled up. "
"Perhaps," Ferane said. "But you have still not told me how you would deal with the situation, once your information was collected and the time for waiting had passed. " Ferane was known for her temper, but at the moment her voice held the coldness common among Whites. It was the coldness of one who spoke without emotion, thinking about logic without tolerating outside influences.
It was not the best way to approach problems. People were much more complex than a set of rules or numbers. There was a time for logic, true, but there was also a time for emotion.
Rand was a problem she hadnt allowed herself to dwell on—she needed to deal with one problem at a time. But there was also much to be said for planning ahead. If she didnt consider how to deal with the Dragon Reborn, shed eventually find herself in as bad a situation as Elaida.
He had changed from the man she had known. And yet the seeds of personality within him must be the same. Shed seen his rage during their months traveling together into the Aiel Waste. That hadnt often come out during his childhood, but she could see now that it must have been lurking. It wasnt that he had suddenly developed a temper; it was simply that nothing in the Two Rivers had upset him.
During the months shed traveled with him, hed seemed to harden with each step. He was under extraordinary pressures. How did one deal with such a man? She frankly had no idea.
But this conversation wasnt about what to do with Rand, not really. It was about Ferane trying to determine what kind of woman Egwene was.
"Rand alThor sees himself as an emperor," Egwene said. "And I suppose he is one, now. He will react poorly if he thinks he is being pushed or shoved in any particular direction. If I were to deal with him, I would send a delegation to honor him. "
"A lavish procession?" Ferane asked.
"No," Egwene said. "But not a threadbare one either. A group of three Aes Sedai, led by a Gray, accompanied by a Green and a Blue. He views the Blue favorably because of past associations, and Greens are often perceived as the opposites to Reds, a subtle indication that we are willing to work with him rather than gentle him. A Gray because it would be expected, but also because if a Gray is sent, then it means negotiations, not armies, will follow. "
"Good logic," Tesan said, nodding.
Ferane was not so easily convinced. "Delegations like this one have failed in the past. I believe that Elaidas own delegation was led by a Gray. "
"Yes, but Elaidas delegation was fundamentally flawed," Egwene said.
"And why is that?"
"Why, because it was sent by a Red, of course," Egwene said, cracking a nut. "I have trouble seeing the logic in raising a member of the Red Ajah to Amyrlin during the days of the Dragon Reborn. Doesnt that seem destined to create animosity between him and the Tower?"
"One might say," Ferane countered, "that a Red is needed during these troubled times, for the Red are the most experienced at dealing with men who can channel. "
" Dealing with is different from working with," Egwene said. "The Dragon Reborn should not have been left to run free, but since when has the White Tower been in the business of kidnapping and forcing people to our will? Are we not known as the most subtle and careful of all people? Do we not pride ourselves on being able to make others do as they should, all the while letting them think it was their idea? When in the past have we locked kings in boxes and beaten them for disobedience? Why now— of all the times under the Light—have we forsaken our fine practice and become simple footpads instead?"
Ferane selected a walnut. The other two Whites were sharing an unsettled look. "There is sense in what you say," the Sitter finally admitted.
Egwene set aside the nutcracker. "Rand alThor is a good man, in his heart, but he needs guidance. These days are when we should have been at our most subtle. He should have been led to trust Aes Sedai above all others, to rely on our counsel. He should have been shown the wisdom in listening. Instead, he has been shown that we will treat him like an unruly child. If he is one, he cannot be allowed to think we regard him in such a way. Because of our bungling, he has taken some Aes Sedai captive, and has allowed still others to be bonded to those Ashaman of his. "
Ferane sat up stiffly. "Best not to mention that atrocity. "
"What is this?" Tesan said, shocked, hand raised to her breast. Some Whites never seemed to pay attention to the world around them. "Ferane? Did you know of this?"
Ferane didnt respond.
"Ive . . . heard this rumor," said stout Miyasi. "If it is true, then something must be done. "
"Yes," Egwene said. "Unfortunately, we cannot focus on alThor right now. "
"He is the greatest problem facing the world," pinch-faced Tesan said, leaning forward. "We must deal with him first. "
"No," Egwene said. "There are other issues. "
Miyasi frowned. "With the Last Battle impending, I cant see any other issues of importance. "
Egwene shook her head. "In dealing with Rand now, wed be like a farmer, looking at his wagon and worrying that there arent any goods in the bed for him to sell—but ignoring the fact that his axle is cracked. Fill the bed before it is time, and youll just break the wagon and be worse off than when you started. "
"And what, exactly, are you implying?" Tesan demanded.
Egwene looked back at Ferane.
"I see," Ferane said. "You are referring to the division in the White Tower. "
"Can a cracked stone be a good foundation for a building?" Egwene asked. "Can a frayed rope hold a panicky horse? How can we, in our current state, hope to manage the Dragon Reborn himself?"
Ferane said, "Why, then, do you continue to enforce the division by insisting that you are the Amyrlin Seat? You defy your own logic. "
"And renouncing my claim on the Amyrlin Seat would mend the Tower?" Egwene asked.
"It would help. "
Egwene raised an eyebrow. "Let us assume, for a moment, that by renouncing my claim, I could persuade the rebel faction to rejoin the White Tower and accept Elaidas leadership. " She raised the eyebrow further, indicating how likely she thought that was. "Would the divisions be healed?"
"You just said they would be," Tesan said, frowning.
"Oh?" Egwene said. "Would sisters stop scurrying through the hallways, frightened to be alone? Would groups of women from different Ajahs stop regarding each other with hostility when they pass in the hallways? With all due respect, would we no longer feel the need to wear our shawls at all times to reinforce who we are and where our allegiance is?"
Ferane glanced down, briefly, at her white-fringed shawl.
Egwene leaned forward, continuing. "Surely you, of all women in the White Tower, can see the importance of the Ajahs working together. We need women with different skills and interests to gather into Ajahs. But does it make sense for us to refuse to work together?"
"The White has not caused this . . . regrettab
le tension," Miyasi said with a little snort. "The others acting with such abundance of emotion have created it. "
"The present leadership has caused it," Egwene said, "a leadership which teaches that its all right to still fellow sisters in secret, to execute Warders before their Aes Sedai are even brought to trial. That theres nothing wrong with removing a sisters shawl and reducing her to an Accepted, that theres nothing wrong with disbanding an entire Ajah. And what of acting without the counsel of the Hall in something as dangerous as kidnapping and imprisoning the Dragon Reborn? Is it unexpected that the sisters would be so frightened and worried? Is it not all completely logical, what has happened to us?"
The three Whites were quiet.
"I will not submit," Egwene said. "Not while doing so leaves us fractured. I will continue to assert that Elaida is not the Amyrlin. Her actions have proven it. You want to help battle the Dark One? Well, your first step is not to deal with the Dragon Reborn. Your first step should be to reach out to sisters of the other Ajahs. "
"Why us?" Tesan said. "The actions of others are not our responsibility. "
"And you are not to blame at all?" Egwene asked, letting a little of her anger seep through. Would none of her sisters accept a modicum of responsibility? "You, of the White, should have seen where this road would lead. Yes, Siuan and the Blue were not without their flaws—but you should have seen the flaw in pulling her down, then allowing Elaida to disband the Blue. Besides, I believe that several members of your own Ajah were integral to the act of setting up Elaida as Amyrlin. "
Miyasi recoiled slightly. The Whites did not like to be reminded of Alviarin and her failure as Elaidas Keeper. Instead of turning against Elaida for ousting the White, they seemed to have turned against their own member for the shame she had caused them.
"I still think that this is work for the Grays," Tesan said, but she sounded less convinced than she had just moments before. "You should speak with them. "
"I have," Egwene said. Her patience was beginning to fray. "Some will not speak with me and continue to send me to penance. Others say these rifts are not their fault, but with some coaxing have agreed to do what they can. The Yellows have been very reasonable, and I think theyre beginning to see the problems in the Tower as a wound to be healed. Im still working with several Brown sisters—they seem more fascinated by the problems than worried about them. Ive sent several of them looking through the histories for examples of division, hoping theyll run across the story of Renala Merlon. The connection should be easy to make, and perhaps they will begin to see that our problems here can be solved.
"The Greens have, ironically, been the most stubborn. They can be very like Reds in many ways, which is infuriating as they really should be willing to accept me as one who would have been among them. That only leaves the Blue, who have been banished, and the Red. I doubt that sisters of that last Ajah are going to be very receptive to my suggestions. "
Ferane sat back, thoughtful, and Tesan sat with three forgotten walnuts in her hand, staring at Egwene. Miyasi scratched at her iron-gray hair, eyes wide with surprise.
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