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Egwene raised an eyebrow. Shed been raised in "some backward village," and theyd had enough sense to look for more than rumors in convicting someone, no matter what the crime. But she said nothing.
"Proving that accusation is difficult by Tower standards," Seaine said. "And so I suspect that she will not try to prove it in trial—partially because doing so would require her to let you speak for yourself, and I suspect that shell want to keep you hidden. "
"Yes," Egwene said, eyeing the Reds lounging nearby. "You are probably right. But if she cant prove Im a Darkfriend and she couldnt stop this from going to trial . . . "
"It is not an offense worthy of deposing her," Seaine said. "The maximum punishment is formal censure from the Hall and penance for a month. She would retain the shawl. "
But would lose a great deal of credibility, Egwene thought. It was encouraging. But how to make certain that Elaida didnt just hide her away? She had to keep the pressure on Elaida—Light-cursed difficult while locked away in her tiny cell each day! It had been only a short time so far, but already the lost opportunities grated on her.
"You will attend the trial?" Egwene asked.
"Of course," Seaine said, even-tempered, as Egwene had come to expect from the White. Some Whites were all coolness and logic. Seaine was much warmer than that, but was still very reserved. "I am a Sitter, Egwene. "
"I assume that youre still seeing the effects of the Dark Ones stirring?" Egwene shivered and glanced at her cell floor, remembering what had happened to Leane. Her own cell was far more austere than Leanes, perhaps because of the accusations of her being a Darkfriend.
"Yes. " Seaines voice grew softer. "They seem to be getting worse. Servants dying. Food spoiling. Entire sections of the Tower rearranging at random. The second kitchen moved to the sixth level last night, moving an entire section of the Yellow Ajah quarters into the basement. Its like what happened with the Browns earlier, and that one still hasnt been worked out. "
Egwene nodded. With the way the rooms had shifted, those few novices whose rooms hadnt moved suddenly now had assigned accommodations on the twenty-first and twenty-second levels, where Brown Ajah quarters had been. The Browns were, reluctantly, all moving down to the wing. Would it be a permanent change? Always before, the sisters had lived in the Tower proper, the novices and Accepted living in the wing.
"You have to bring these things up, Seaine," Egwene said softly. "Keep reminding the sisters that the Dark One stirs and that the Last Battle approaches. Keep their attention on working together, not dividing. "
Behind Seaine, one of the Red sisters checked the candle on the table. The time allotted for Egwene to receive visitors was ending. Shed soon be locked away again; she could smell the dusty, unchanged straw behind her.
"You must work hard, Seaine," Egwene said, rising as the Reds approached. "Do what I cannot. Ask the others to do so as well. "
"I will try," Seaine said. She stood and watched as the Reds took Egwenes stool, then gestured her back into the cell. The ceiling was too low for her to stand without stooping.
Egwene moved reluctantly, bending down. "The Last Battle comes, Seaine. Remember. "
The White nodded, and the door shut, locking Egwene into darkness. Egwene sat down. She felt so blind! What would happen at the trial? Even if Elaida was punished, what would be done with Egwene?
Elaida would try to have her executed. And she still had grounds,
as Egwene had—by the White Towers definition—impersonated the Amyrlin Seat.
/ must stay firm, Egwene told herself in the darkness. I warmed this pot myself, and now I must boil in it, if that is what will protect the Tower. They knew she continued to resist. That was all she could give them.
CHAPTER 26
A Crack in the Stone
Aviendha surveyed the manor grounds, swarming with people preparing to depart. Basheres men and women were well trained for wetlanders, and they worked efficiently to stow their tents and prepare their gear. However, compared to the Aiel, the other wetlanders—those who werent actual soldiers—were a mess. Camp women skittered this way and that, as if sure they would leave some task undone or some item unpacked. The messenger boys ran with their friends, trying to look busy so that they wouldnt have to do anything. The civilians tents and equipment were only slowly being packed and stowed, and they would need horses, wagons and teams of drivers to get them all where they needed to go.
Aviendha shook her head. The Aiel brought only what they could carry, and their war band included only soldiers and Wise Ones. And when more than just spears were required for an extended campaign, all workers and craftspeople knew how to prepare themselves for departure with speed and efficiency. There was honor in that. Honor which demanded that each person be able to care for themselves and their own, not slowing the clan down.
She shook her head, turning back to her task. The only ones who truly lacked honor on a day like this were those who did not work. She dipped a finger into the pail of water on the ground in front of her, then raised her hand and let it hover over a second pail. A drop of water dripped free. She moved her hand and did it again.
It was the type of punishment in which no wetlander could have seen significance. They would have thought it easy work, sitting on the ground, leaning with her back against the wooden logs of the manor house. Moving her hand back and forth, emptying one pail and filling the other, one drop at a time. To them it would have been barely a punishment at all.
That was because wetlanders were often lazy. They would rather drip water into pails than carry rocks. Carrying rocks, however, involved activity—and activity was good for the mind and the body. Moving water was meaningless. Useless. It didnt allow her to stretch her legs or work her muscles. And she did it while the rest of the camp gathered tents for the march. That made the punishment ten times as shameful! She earned toh for every moment she did not help, and there was not a thing she could do about it.
Except move water. Drip, by drip, by drip.
It made her angry. Then that anger made her ashamed. The Wise Ones never let their emotions dominate them in such a way. She had to remain patient and try to understand why she was being punished.
Even trying to approach the problem made her want to scream. How many times could she go over the same conclusions in her mind? Perhaps she was too dense to sort it out. Perhaps she didnt deserve to be a Wise One.
She stuck her hand back in the bucket, then moved another drop of water. She didnt like what these punishments were doing to her. She was a warrior, even if she no longer carried the spear. She did not fear punishment, nor did she fear pain. But, more and more, she did fear that she would lose heart and become as useless as one who sandstared.
She wanted to become a Wise One, wanted it desperately. She was surprised to find that, for shed never thought that she could desire anything with as much passion as shed long ago wanted the spears. Yet as she had studied the Wise Ones during these last months, and her respect for them had grown, she had accepted herself as their equal, to help shepherd the Aiel in this most dangerous of days.
The Last Battle would be a test unlike any her people had ever known. Amys and the others were working to protect the Aiel, and Aviendha sat and moved drops of water!
"Are you all right?" a voice asked.
Aviendha started, looking up, reaching for her knife so abruptly that she nearly spilled the pails of water. A woman with short, dark hair stood in the shade of the building a short distance away. Min Farshaws arms were folded and she wore a coat the color of cobalt with silver embroidery. She wore a scarf at her neck.
Aviendha settled back down, releasing her knife. Now she was letting wetlanders sneak up on her? "I am well," she said, struggling to keep from blushing.
Her tone and actions should have indicated that she didnt wish to be shamed by conversation, but Min didnt seem to notice that. The woman turned and looked out over the camp.
"Dont . . . you have anything to be doing?"
Aviendha could not suppress the blush this time. "I am doing what I should. "
Min nodded, and Aviendha forced herself to still her breathing. She could not afford to grow angry at this woman. Her first-sister had asked her to be kind to Min. She decided not to take offense. Min didnt know what she was saying.
"I thought that I could talk to you," Min said, still looking out at the camp. "Im not sure who else I could approach. I dont trust the Aes Sedai, and neither does he. Im not sure he trusts anyone, now. Maybe not even me. "
Aviendha glanced to the side, and saw that Min was watching Rand alThor as he moved through the camp, wearing a coat of black, gold-red hair ablaze in the afternoon light. He seemed to tower over the Saldaeans who attended him.
Aviendha had heard about the events the night before, when he had been attacked by Semirhage. One of the Shadowsouled themselves; Aviendha wished she had seen the creature before she was killed. She shuddered.
Rand alThor had fought and won. Though he acted the fool much of the time, he was a skilled—and lucky—warrior. Who else alive could claim to have personally defeated as many of the Shadowsouled as he had? There was much honor in him.
His fight had left him scarred in ways she did not yet understand. She could feel his pain. Shed felt it during Semirhages attack, too, though at first shed mistakenly thought it to be a nightmare. Shed quickly realized that she was wrong. No nightmare could be that terrible. She could still feel echoes of that incredible pain, those waves of agony, the frenzy inside of him.
Aviendha had raised the alarm, but not quickly enough. She had toh to him for her mistake; she would deal with that once she was finished with her punishments. If she ever did finish,
"Rand alThor will deal with his problems," she said, dripping more water.
"How can you say that?" Min asked, glancing at her. "Cant you feel his pain?"
"I feel each and every moment of it," Aviendha said through gritted teeth. "But he must face his own trials, just as I face mine. Perhaps there will be a day when he and I can face ours together, but that time is not now. "
/ must be his equal, first, she added in her head. / will not stand beside him as his inferior.
Min studied her, and Aviendha felt a chill, wondering what visions the woman saw. Her predictions of the future were said always to come true.
"You are not what I expected," Min finally said.
"I have deceived you?" Aviendha said, frowning.
"No, not that," Min said with a small laugh. "I mean, I was wrong about you, I guess. I wasnt certain what to think, after that night in Caem-lyn when . . . well, that night when we bonded Rand together. I feel close to you, yet distant from you at the same time. " She shrugged. "I guess I expected you to come looking for me the moment you got into camp. We had things to discuss. When you didnt, I worried. I thought perhaps I had offended you. "
"You have no toh to me," Aviendha said.
"Good," Min said. "I still worry sometimes that well . . . come to a confrontation. "
"And what good would a confrontation serve?"
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