A reply came back before sunset, saying he would come the following morning. I notified Tom of this, so that he might be in attendance for the meeting—I did not use the word “chaperon”—and failed almost entirely to sleep that night.
The next morning I rose and dressed with more care than usual, as compensation for my poor rest. I made my rounds of the site while Tom made his and, having finished before him, went to the office to await the day’s next task.
It was not long at all before Lieutenant Marton tapped on the door and opened it, saying, “Dame Isabella, Hajj Suhail ibn Ramiz is here to see you.”
The distracted thought went through my mind that I ought to tell the poor lieutenant he need not be so formal with me anymore. I did not follow through on this, however, because the rest of me was occupied with a more pressing matter. “Where is Tom? He was supposed to be here.”
“I’m sorry, Dame Isabella.” Marton shifted uncomfortably from one foot to the other. “I think he’s been caught by some business outside.”
(“Caught by some business,” indeed. Had I known at the time what was transpiring … in truth, I do not know what I would have done. Perhaps it is better that I did not.)
I wavered. Should I ask Suhail to wait? It would be the proper thing to do, and yet—“Show him in,” I said. As I had told myself before: there was nothing to be ashamed of here. We were conducting official business. If any prying eyes or ears spied on our interactions, they would see nothing worthy of gossip.
The formality of the entire thing had Suhail’s eyebrows up as he came in. He gave me a very correct greeting, though, not even touching his heart, which might have signaled inappropriate warmth. When that was done, he said, “I understand from Haidar that you are going back out into the desert.”
“Yes, in late Messis—earlier if we can manage it. And that is why I’ve asked you here today.” I tucked my hands beneath the edge of the desk, where no one could see if I fidgeted. “You have traveled extensively in that area, have you not? The Jefi in general, and the Labyrinth of Drakes specifically. In the summertime, no less, so as to avoid the risk of flood.”
Suhail nodded. “I would be glad to offer any advice I can.”
“I intend that you should have every opportunity to give us that advice. I would like—” I caught myself, cursing inwardly. “That is, Tom and I have discussed it, and we would like you to accompany us.”
He had guessed it before he even came there. He must have, because his head began to shake even before I finished my statement. “Umm Yaqub … that will not be possible.”
“Why not?” I pressed my lips together, not continuing until I was certain I could do so without my tone growing too sharp. “We shall have Andrew with us. Is that not enough to make everything proper?”
“Propriety is not the problem.” Suhail bent his head, looking as if he wanted to press his fingertips to his temples, banishing a headache. “Rumour is.”
I gritted my teeth. “We have done nothing to encourage that.”
“Nothing?” He laughed, and it carried a rueful edge. “Had I gone home immediately after you arrived in camp, that might have been true. But I did not want to flee the moment you appeared, so I stayed a few days. Then the Banu Safr stole our camels. So I went to get the camels back. While I was gone, the Banu Safr stole you. So I went to get you back. And now every last member of the Aritat in the desert and the city alike is reciting that damned poem, about how I crept into the enemy camp in the dead of night to rescue a lady in distress. You have been admirably disciplined, but I…” He stopped, shaking his head.
Although he no doubt intended “admirably disciplined” as a compliment, I found myself regretting what I had done to deserve it. I could not keep from sounding plaintive as I said, “Must that get in the way? As near as I can tell, your actions against the Banu Safr have won you acclaim, not censure. I understand that your brother is concerned for your family’s image—but surely it does you more good to assist in this work, upon which he has staked the Aritat reputation, than to sit idle just to avoid me.”
He did not answer immediately. The silence weighed upon me, until I voiced a bitter addendum. “Or is that the precise issue? Not propriety, nor even the general weight of rumour. Me, myself. I am a scandal at home; I carry that scandal with me here. Were I another woman—one whose reputation was not in doubt—then perhaps other factors could prevail. But I am not, and so a decent man may not associate with me.”
The fury and shame of it burned within me. I was so very tired of being judged in such fashion; and yet, being tired of it achieved nothing. Whatever my feelings on the matter, I must endure. The only way to escape would be to surrender, to retreat into obscurity and never show my face again … and that, I would not do. The path I followed had brought me to Jacob, Tom, Lord Hilford, Suhail himself. I would not surrender the hope of this man’s companionship, not if there were any possible way to keep it.
“It is not you,” Suhail said. He spoke with conviction—as if his conviction could convince the world. “Isa—Umm Yaqub. I have nothing but the greatest respect and admiration for you, and will defend that against any man who says otherwise. But it is on behalf of your good reputation that I must not go with you. To travel like that, with a woman who is neither my kin nor my wife…”
“Then what if we were married?”
I sometimes imagine there is a clerk behind a desk situated between the brain and the mouth. It is his job to examine utterances on their way out, and stamp them with approval or send them back for reconsideration. If such a clerk exists, mine must be very harried and overworked; and on occasion he puts his head down on the desk in despair, letting things pass without so much as a second glance.
Suhail stared at me. Then he looked at the floor. Then out the window. Then, in an uneven voice, he said, “A limited-term marriage? As you did with Liluakame, in Keonga. It … could work. The Sheqari school of jurisprudence holds that such things are permitted; the Taribbi says they are not. My brother is an adherent of the Uwani school, which has not rendered an opinion either way. But it might be possible.”
Until he mentioned them, I had not known that limited-term marriages existed in Amaneen legal thought. It was an elegant solution: as he said, I had done something of the kind in Keonga, when I married and then divorced Liluakame so as to satisfy the demands of my status as ke’anaka’i. I might do the same here, silencing the gossips by making an honest woman of myself, so to speak. Of course it would cause even greater scandal back home when the marriage ended—we certainly did not have such arrangements in Scirling law—but for now it might suffice.
The clerk was still derelict in his duty. I said, “It was not a limited-term arrangement that I had in mind.”
Suhail went utterly still. Then, very carefully, he spoke. “Did you just ask for my hand in marriage?”
My face could not have been hotter had a drake breathed on it. But I had advanced too far to retreat; the only way out was through. “I suppose I did. Dear heaven.”
We sat in silence. I could not look away from Suhail, nor him, apparently, from me. I could have drawn his portrait with my eyes closed; I had sketched him once during our voyage, and had looked at the image more times than I should admit in the years since. I thought of trying to find him long before I knew I was coming to Akhia. I never had the courage to follow through.
As a young woman, I had naively thought that I wanted Jacob Camherst to be my friend, because I could not conceive of a man being both friend and husband. But so he had been: husband first, then friend, as we inched our way toward something like a working partnership. Ill chance, however, had taken him from me before we could progress very far. Suhail had begun as a friend, and so I had thought of him, with great and focused determination … but that was not the entirety of what I wanted.
He said, a little breathlessly, “Everyone says you have no intention of marrying again.”
I would have asked who everyone was and why they
thought this was any of their business—but the matter at hand took precedence. “I had none. Until this very moment. Intentions change.”
“Why?”
It was the same question I had asked Jacob, the day he came to propose marriage to me. I felt belated empathy for him, being put on the spot in such a fashion. “Because … because I do not want to go into the Labyrinth of Drakes without you. Never mind the practicalities of it; that is what we have al-Jelidah and Haidar for. I do not want to see that place without you at my side. I want you to show me the ruins that inspired you, and I want you present for any discoveries I might make. Now, and always.”
I paused to swallow. My mouth had gone very dry. “I—I said a thousand times that I had no interest in marrying again because marriage would almost certainly place restrictions on my life. A widow has freedoms a wife does not. But when I look at you, I do not see obstacles for my career, I see—” My face burned even more. “I see wings. A way to fly higher and farther than I can on my own.”
Far, far too late, it occurred to me that Lieutenant Marton could almost certainly hear us, as could anyone passing by the window.
Suhail eased forward in his chair. His eyes flickered as he searched my face: for what, I could not tell you. Evidence of insincerity? Of love? Of incipient lunacy? He would not find the first; the second, most definitely; the third, quite possibly.
The clerk had woken up at his desk and was frantically sorting through his records of what had transpired during his delinquency. Stammering, I said, “But you were considering only a limited arrangement. I presume too much, suggesting—”
“You presume nothing that is not true.”
I fell silent, save for the beating of my heart, which felt as loud as a drum.
“I would marry you,” Suhail said, “even if it meant my brother disavowing me on the spot. Which, I should warn you, he may do.”
What would my mother say? I lost one husband in Vystrana, and found another in Akhia. Suhail’s was not the only family that might have pronounced opinions on this matter. “We shall simply have to support ourselves with archaeology and dragons.”
Suhail laughed, and it was the light, joyous sound I had first heard during the voyage of the Basilisk. “I honestly cannot tell whether you are the most practical woman I have ever met, or the most deranged.”
“Why can it not be both?” I said. Inside I was soaring, as I had in the caeliger, on the glider I had called Furcula—only this time, I would not crash. “Now, before I commit an act that truly will start a scandal, tell me: how does one get married in Akhia?”
* * *
When I went in search of Andrew, I found him talking to Tom, with a demeanour I instantly recognized as suspicious.
Putting my hands on my hips, I glared in mock outrage at my brother and said, “Have you been delaying Tom on purpose?”
“Oh, good God,” Tom said, taking out his pocket watch. “Have I been keeping Suhail waiting?”
“Not in the slightest.” I advanced on Andrew, who retreated with a sheepish and hunted look. “I do not know what you intended, dearest brother, but you shall pay the price for your interference. Have you no care for your sister’s reputation?”
“I—”
“This shall be your penance. You must come with us to the judge and stand as witness to our marriage.”
There are certain moments in my life that I treasure. Most of them in one way or another have to do with dragons … but not all. The look on my brother’s face in that instant is one of the latter.
* * *
It was not quite so simple as that, of course. We needed a marriage contract, though it was considered sufficient under Amaneen law for the two of us to sort it out verbally in front of the astonished judge. Suhail had to give me a bridal gift; he offered the best camels and horses and all the supplies I might need for my second excursion to the desert, and I agreed that he need not present those things to me before the marriage itself was formalized. We rushed through these matters, for after so long spent pretending we were nothing more than respectful colleagues, we were eager to have the thing done.
I feel obligated to say I do not actually recommend such behaviour to young people (or even those not so young). There were a hundred questions Suhail and I did not answer before we wed. Our heady excitement carried us over them at the time … but sooner or later we must come down to the ground, and crashing, to return to my previous metaphor, was a distinct risk. I was from Scirland, he from Akhia: where would we live? His people do not have family names in the same manner as Scirlings: would I become Dame Isabella ibn Ramiz, or he Mr. Camherst, or some third alternative entirely? Amaneen custom says that the children of an Amaneen man must be raised in his faith, while Segulist custom says that the children of a Segulist woman belong to her faith: how would we resolve this dilemma? These are but three of the issues that would have been settled in any properly thought-out marriage contract, as opposed to the hasty verbal arrangement we made that day. There are any number of men and women who have rushed into such matters, expecting their love to overcome all complications, only to find later that it is not so simple.
And yet, any warning I issue must come with the inevitable footnote: it turned out splendidly for me. I regret nothing of what I did that day (though I tease Suhail that I should have held out for more camels). Take my cautions, then, for what you will.
Tom made no objection whatsoever; I suspect he was not very surprised. Andrew seemed astonished that his interference had borne such fruit—I believe he expected something to blossom, but not this quickly—and kept laughing immoderately throughout the entire affair. The judge was a friend of Suhail’s, educated with him in boyhood, and while he took Suhail aside for a quiet conversation when we first appeared, whatever objections he raised then were settled without fuss.
Thus was I married, scarcely two hours after I impulsively offered for my husband … and then Suhail and I went to share the news.
My new brother-in-law, I think, knew what had happened the moment we walked through his door. Perhaps it was only that neither of us was maintaining a pretense of aloofness any longer: we engaged in no improper displays of affection, of course, such as young people are prone to nowadays, but I could smile at my husband without fear of overstepping some bound. The sheikh’s wives were there, both of them women I had met only in passing: quiet, thin-faced Yusra, and stocky Iman one step behind her. Three of their children were present as well, including the youth Jafar, who would be fostered in the desert beginning next winter. Mahira finished out the set.
I watched their reactions closely as Suhail told them of our marriage. Yusra made little effort to hide her surprise; Iman, I think, was equally startled, but did a better job of concealing it. Jafar seemed more confused than anything else, while his two younger siblings showed no sign of caring about such tedious matters. Mahira appeared troubled, which did not surprise me, but did dishearten me a little. She had encouraged our friendship; of all of Suhail’s family, I had the best hope of approval and support from her. But of course she was also the most pious of them all, and I suspected—rightly, as it turned out—that her mind had immediately gone to matters religious. It is permitted for an Amaneen man to wed a Segulist woman, but that does not mean the road is an easy one.
You may imagine for yourself how Husam reacted. He did not rage; in a way it might have been better if he had. Instead he maintained a stony composure, suitable for the presence of an outsider—which is to say, myself. This composure, however, did not prevent him from making his disapproval plain.
I did what I could to mollify him. “I have greatly esteemed your brother since I first met him,” I said, omitting a reminder of where and how that had occurred so as to spare Husam’s sensibilities. He certainly would not want to know that my very first sight of Suhail had been when he was shirtless and diving off a cliff. “He is one of the cleverest men I know, and both brave and kind. Your tribe has given tremendous support to our work
at Dar al-Tannaneen; it is fitting, I think, that the friendship of our nations be sealed in this fashion.”
That last may have been laying it on with a trowel. Husam’s brows drew together so swiftly I almost felt the breeze. I was happy to let Suhail take over then, telling the tale of how we reached this point and answering their concerns—for after all, he knew his kin far better than I.
The tension was made worse by my still-imperfect command of Akhian, which meant that much of the swift-moving conversation passed me by. I sat quietly, hands knotted together, trying to read expressions without being obvious about it. When Suhail suggested I should return to handle matters at Dar al-Tannaneen, I accepted with relief, even though I had a suspicion my departure was intended to give them a chance to shout at one another in privacy.
But I reassured myself as I left. What could Husam do? He had no power to mandate his brother’s divorce—and even if he did, doing so would have created even more scandal than we already had.
Oh yes, there was scandal. The initial stages of it are difficult to recall now; they have been thoroughly overwritten by the romantic version that followed. Any time a man and a woman wed in haste, people’s minds inevitably leap to the assumption that he has assaulted (or she surrendered) her virtue, and that the natural result of this will be arriving within the year. Such was not the case with me, of course: I assure you that while I do sometimes elide details of my activities in this tale, I have not left out that. But it would be months before anyone would believe I was not so burdened—months in which rumour, already quite energetic, could get the bit between its teeth and race off for the hills. One particularly nasty bit of gossip said it was not Suhail who had dishonoured me, but someone among the Banu Safr; and he was showing pity on me by taking me under his wing. Had I known who began that tale, I would have chased them down and given them a very sharp piece of my mind.
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