“I want to do it.” He swirls a firm tongue around my little bud. I groan loudly in my throat, tossing my head against the pillow. “I love the way you taste. I’ve wondered how good it might taste since I’ve been smelling you for so long. Your scent is like a drug.” He sucks onto my clit. I buck off the bed. Fuckkkk.
“James…” I clear my throat. “If you… oh damn. If you keep that… Oh God… Up… I’m going to…” I moan.
“I want you to come, Mama Bear. Come for me,” he says innocently, his hot breath stimulating my sex. He flicks my clit. “I want to do so many things to make you feel good. I hope that’s okay.” He kisses my core and circles his tongue around my tight hole. I’m sopping wet for him. My body wants him so bad. Oh James. Yes. Tongue my core. Give her what she wants. That greedy bitch loves him. She’s pounding for a release.
“I’m close baby. I’m going to come for you,” I moan and fist the sheets. Fuck. He sucks onto my clit and nibbles it hard. “Oh yes baby, suck my clit,” I scream between clenched teeth. Oh yes… I’m so close...Damn…. “Oh fuck!” I scream and arch my back and come into his mouth, spurting my hot nectar at him. I can hear him lapping me up. Sucking in my juices, drinking me down. I convulse, my body rocking on the bed. Breathing heavy into the air hot with short breaths. Holy shit that was awesome! I can’t believe I squirted again.
He comes up from between my legs, his whole mouth is wet but he has the biggest and sweetest smile imaginable.
“I’m sorry. I’ve only ever done that one other time.” I pant and lick my dry lips.
“God, you taste so good.” He licks his lips clean.
“I thought you smelling me so often would make you nauseated. I know I smell sweet all the time when I’m horny.”
He shakes his head and wipes his mouth with the back of his hand. “No way. If anything it turned me on. I love the smell. It is sweet, but it’s you and I love that.” He smiles.
“You like it that much?” This is all new to me. Wow. I think I’m swimming in steamy hot uncharted territory.
He wipes between my pussy lips with his finger and brings it to his nose. “This is a perfect smell.” He sticks his finger in his mouth and sucks it clean.
My eyes widen. Holy fuck, I’ve never seen anyone do that. Smell me and lick it off. That’s so hot. Damn, he might be kinkier than I thought.
I giggle. “I can’t believe you just did that.” I put my arms behind my head and enjoy the view of him sitting between my legs. His shirt’s off and he’s so beautiful, with his thick broad chest, tattoos, soft warm skin. He’s perfect.
“I’m very male, Emily. I’ve told you that before. You just gave me free reign to do things I’ve been dreaming about for months. I know it’s wrong to lust after a woman I am employed to protect but it’s very hard not to when that woman is you.”
“I’ve liked you too,” I blush.
“Well I can’t tell you how much I love to hear that, Mama Bear. Now let papa do his job again.” He says and lies between my legs once more.
“What are you doing?” I croak out. I can feel his hot breath on my slick core.
“I’m going to taste you Mama Bear and I’m going to make you come in my mouth again until you beg me to stop. You need to be sated and I’m dying to taste you again.” He moans and kisses my cunt. Shit, I don’t think I’ll ever get used to this.
He laps me hard and sucks my juices. I come for him six more times. His tongue loving me the whole time. Never penetrating me with anything but his sultry mouth. I lay like a limp noodle now that he’s done. Damn, he’s good. He crawls up the bed and lays next to me.
I turn onto my side and wipe the wetness from around his swollen red lips.
“Awe Papa Bear you didn’t have to give me that much loving. Your poor lips.” I lean over and kiss him softly. I can taste my sweetness on him.
“Anything for you my pregnant lady,” he smiles and kisses me again. Making my heart bloom. Why is he so damn perfect?
“So you care to tell me why you were so distant last night?”
“Not really. But I will anyhow.” He drops onto his back. I climb to his side and slide my leg over his torso. He’s hard as a rock and his shorts are soaked in pre-cum. I rest my head on his peck and kiss it. My favorite place in the entire world is right here, inhaling his warm perfection. My Teddy Bear. I lay my left hand on his other peck and he sweetly rubs my calf, with his big hand.
“Do you want me to take care of him?” I tap his erection quickly and return my hand to his peck.
“No honey, I don’t. I like the throbbing. I know that sounds strange but it makes me realize he’s awake and happy again. It’s been a lot of years for him to feel like he does. I want to savor it. Anytime with you I have to savor. I know it won’t last forever.” He sounds happy and sad at the same time.
“Why can’t it last forever?” I kiss his chest.
“Emily, when this is all said and done I will go back to being yours and the babies’ bodyguard and Johnathan will win you.” He states decisively.
“But what if I don’t end up wanting Johnathan?” I mutter shyly.
“You will. It’s the sad reality of it all but Claire and I both know it’s true. That’s why we are both okay with getting what we can as long as you let us.” He shrugs and holds me closer.
“I don’t want to let any of you go. I know that’s selfish. I shouldn’t be allowing any of this to go on. I’m sorry. I can’t help myself.”
I feel awful now. Even more so than I have been, about this stringing along. I love them all in my own way. I can’t figure out who I care for more than the other. It’s so damn complicated and confusing. I always thought I’d end with Johnathan too but what if I don’t? What if I don’t want to be with him? Then what happens? Where do I raise the babies? They can’t grow up in James’s condo. It’s too small for long term. Plus, he never signed on to be a father. He’s my bodyguard and friend. We flirt past that line too far, but it’s true.
He caresses my back. “I know you don’t want to let us go. But eventually you will come to terms with a choice and two of us will be sad. I’m a grown man, I realize that sometimes things you’ve wanted for so long don’t always work out the way you planned. I never thought working for Johnathan would bring me a woman that I care for so much. You’re my family, Emily. My only family.” He kisses my head.
“Your only?” I don’t understand.
“My mom died when I was two, from cancer. I’m an only child and my dad passed a while ago. The band’s been my only real family. I have no aunts, uncles or cousins. I have nobody. I joined the Military when I was young to get that sense of family that I needed and never had growing up. My dad worked a lot, so I was left fending for myself at such a young age. That’s why being a loner has fit for me. That’s why being a bachelor works.”
“Didn’t you ever want to have a family yourself?” I kiss his chest.
I can’t believe James has no family. How sad! I know Johnathan doesn’t have anyone else either, but now James too. What is with these poor men and screwed up childhoods?
“Of course I did. But when the tragedy happened to my male parts and my self-confidence over the years with failed dating attempts. I’ve sort of decided that would probably never happen. I’m not one to seek out a woman. It’s feels like I am asking her to judge me and see if I’m worthy.” His tone is level but I can sense an uneasiness in his words.
My poor James. Not worthy? If anything, no woman is worthy of him. Truth be known, if I ever set him up with a woman like I’ve wanted to, I can tell I’d probably not like her even if she was perfect. I’m that overprotective of him and our life together. I can’t tell anyone about what we are sharing or have been sharing for months. It’s personal and looking back now it’s more of a relationship than I’ve ever experienced. Sure we’ve not had sex. But we’ve cuddled, talked, supported each other, he’s protected me and I’ve tried to help take care of him. We’ve both grown a lot. Including this f
at stomach of mine with twins swimming inside.
“I think you are perfect, James. I don’t think any woman would be worthy of you. And I am your family and you are mine, for as long as you want to be. You’re not going to get rid of us three for a very long time. Even if Johnathan decides he doesn’t want to keep you as a bodyguard anymore,” I reassure him.
He rubs my calf and kisses my forehead, allowing his big supple lips to linger on my skin a bit longer. “Mama Bear, if Johnathan fired me I wouldn’t need to get another job. I would still protect and help you.”
“What?”
“I’ve told you that I’m not poor. You know I have a stock portfolio. I could easily afford a house, a car, and live comfortably for about ten years with the amount of money I’ve accumulated. I get disability from the Military for my injury that I roll into the rest. I have health insurance for life and I only keep this job so I have something to do. It’s not that I need it.”
“What?”
Okay, so James has enough money that he doesn’t have to put up with rocker antics and a fat pregnant lady? Then why does he do it? I know for a fact I wouldn’t stick around with Johnathan as a bodyguard for this many years. That would seriously put me into an early grave with how much work his bodyguards have to endure because of his shenanigans. He’s naughty. Sure, in the past few months since I’ve come into his life, he’s dropped the crazy partying level down. But I can’t imagine how bad it’s been for James over the past four years, doting on his spoiled rock star ass. No matter how much better Johnathan gets, one thing is for sure. He doesn’t take no for an answer. And even when you think he’s being a good boy, he does the polar opposite, for instance, playing with two women on an airplane. Johnathan is just one big kid with a lot of money and one hell of a voice. He still has a lot of maturing to do. Not that I have much room to talk. I may not be at the level he’s at with immaturity but I too have years of maturing to conquer.
“What? As in…. I don’t know what you want me to answer, mama.”
“Why do you keep this job if you have the means to live without all the Stricken drama?”
“Oh, well, I don’t know.” He shrugs. “I guess I like protecting people. Especially pretty, nearly naked pregnant ladies, who love to cuddle and taste like honey.” He chuckles and squeezes me into a tighter hug.
I pull my hand from his peck and grasp his hard cock in my hand through his blue boxer briefs. “Well I like that you protect a nymphomaniac pregnant lady.” I lick his peck and he groans deeply in his chest. Lightly squeezing the head of his member I massage it through the fabric.
“Mama Bear doesn’t need to be playing with my manhood. He’s perfectly happy staying hard and aching.”
“What is he aching for?” I whisper seductively, peering up this face, awaiting a reply.
He turns crimson. “I don’t know.”
Shy James is back. He’s strong and competent and sometimes confident. But when it comes to sex and talking about it, he’s rather backwards. I know it has to do with his experiences but I’m determined to convince him he’s beautiful and wonderful. Which he is. I know it and now all he needs to do is start believing it.
Removing my leg from across his stomach I climb up onto my knees next to him. Never letting go of his cock.
“James, you’re sexy, handsome, wonderful, loving, caring and perfect. You can talk to me about this. I promise I won’t make fun of you or treat you badly or make you do anything you don’t want to,” I state lovingly, staring straight into his green brown eyes, caressing the side of his face with my hand for reassurance.
“Hey Emily! Hey are you guys up? I thought I heard you.” Stacy yells.
“Yeah we’re up Stace. Be down in a minute,” I call back.
Damn-it. Sometimes that man has the worst timing. Here I could have started to mend poor James’s obviously terrorized heart and now I have to go hang with my other bestie and his boyfriend Kyle.
“I’m not done with him.” I squeeze his cock head. His boxers are even more soaked with pre-come. James’s breathing has already accelerated and by the feral look in his eyes I can tell he’s raring to go. “Can I kiss him a few times before breakfast?” I bite my lips, innocently asking permission.
He nods, eyes wide.
Slowly peeling the top of his boxers down, his cock springs free and I bend over and kiss it. My tongue ravishes the salty dampness of his smooth bulbous head. Yum. I purr in my throat as I begin to lap it over and over, French kissing it, swirling my tongue around its thickness, pecking the slit at the top and collecting the drops of pre-come oozing out. “You taste so good,” I whisper, greedily swallowing down the warm liquid.
“I’m going to make sure I get the rest of what he has to offer tonight,” I murmur rubbing my lips covered in silky juices all over his throbbing head. I’m so hot for him I’d love to ride him right now. But Mr. Cock Block downstairs will know. This is a secret between James and I, and one only we must know.
“Can I have him tonight Papa Bear?”
He nods. “Anything for my pregnant lady.” A naughty turned-on smile curls up from the corners of his lovely mouth.
Chapter Eleven
“So how was your first night in the cabin treating you two love birds?” I wink at Stacy.
“Oh… you know… It was alright.” He states all nonchalantly with a wink and a sly smile.
Yeah, yeah, yeah. I know you two got down. I can’t complain, me and my bodyguard just had ourselves a little orgasmic session in the spare room. Okay, correction, I had the orgasms and he gave them to me. Damn, just thinking about that thick yummy tongue of his makes me tingle in my belly and between my legs. Apparently, not only the whore that lives between the folds of my vagina loves James’s mouth, my emotional body craves him as well. Sure I’ve always needed his cuddling and closeness. We’ve been doing that for months and a day without it and I feel like I might go insane. I blame it on the hormones. But now, I’m not so sure it’s the hormones and insatiable slut in my pants. My fear is that it’s my heart. I am supposed to love Johnathan and be with Johnathan. Sure we’ve had a really rough go at it thus far and his immaturity has made me literally want to pull my hair out. But I’m carrying his twins, for Christ’s sake. Not to forget the fact that he swears he’s going to marry me when this is all said and done. Whenever that may be. I’ve got ten days to get my head on straight and decide what this is or this isn’t with James. I can’t play the wishy-washy shit any longer. It’s exhausting for me and I’m sure it’s giving whiplash to the rest of the important individuals in my life.
James is cooking us all breakfast in the kitchen. I begged to do it, but after we had our little bedroom moment I think he needed some time to concentrate on other things, like a hot frying pan full of bacon. I know the feeling. If my core is screaming to release I can’t think of much else.
“How’s it coming Papa Bear?” I call from the best couch in the world. I swear, before we leave I need to have James tip this puppy upside down and find out who made his couch. I don’t care how much it cost, I need one for the condo back home. It’s huge and comfy and two people can easily lay next to the other and cuddle on it. James’s couch is nice but with him being so thick and sexy and me being a cow carrying twins, we can’t fit on his couch. Which I hate. And in turn it makes us spend more time in our bed. Not that I mind that part. I read a lot and so does he, so it suits both of our needs.
“It’s almost finished. Do you guys want waffles or pancakes?”
“Waffles.” I answer. “Pancakes.” Stacy and Kyle collectively chime in.
I give Stacy the stink-eye. He knows how much I love waffles. Okay, we all know they taste almost the same. They come from the same batter but there is something about waffles and the deep groves that allow syrup and melted butter to pool in them, which makes them all the tastier.
I get off the couch and pad my way into the kitchen.
“Don’t you dare sweet talk him, pregnant woman,” Stacy sco
lds playfully from the living room in the middle of some conversation with Kyle, about Kyle’s job.
“Oh shut it. I would never do such a thing.” I wag my finger at Stacy and he giggles, rolling his eyes. He knows me all too well.
“Hey need a hand?” I offer to James, who’s mixing a bowl full of Bisquick batter by hand.
“No. This is my job, my pregnant lady.” He smiles at me sweetly. Oh he’s so wonderful. Making me and my best friend breakfast. Who does that? Him… That’s who.
I peer over my shoulder and see that Kyle and Stace are so engrossed in their conversation they aren’t paying any attention to me. Amen to that.
“So are those going to be pancakes or waffles?” I perk up a brow and inch closer to him. I’m going to flirt and I’m going to win this battle. The babies want waffles and so does their mommy. Ok, I don’t know what they want, but who cares. I’m pregnant, fat and craving sugary mouthwatering maple smothered waffles. Delicious!
“I don’t know.” He smirks darkly.
Oh, somebody might be playing along with this. I peer over my shoulder again just to be sure, and yep, same as before.
I get close to James, so close my belly is touching his hip and I sneakily reach my hand under his bowl that’s in his arms and cup his cock in my hand, fondling the package that is surprisingly rather hard. It’s easy to feel over his black pj pants.
“So, Papa Bear, can I have some waffles…pppllleeeaaaaseeee.” I lay the sweetness on thick and gooey and rub my thumb over his succulent, fleshy head. My core is already dampening from the excitement. I love this flirtatiousness.
“Well…I don’t know…,” he cracks a big ear to ear grin. Which I absolutely love.
“Purdy peas,” I pout with my lip turned out, batting my eye lashes.
Damn, I’m laying it on thick. But who thought flirting over pancakes versus waffles could be so arousing or fun? Not I.
He chuckles. “You’re adorable.”
My heart thuds in my cheat. Oh wow. That was unexpected. I’m adorable? That’s what I think of when I think of James. And how he finds me adorable? How strange. It makes me feel special he feels that way. It’s better than being called sexy or hot. I know that sounds strange but adorable makes my heart sing his name. I’ve got something bad. I don’t know what it is. But I know it’s something and it’s strong and it’s all for him. Shit.
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