The sun had begun its turn's journey as Sle'nel’ and San'lr'in’ finally held each other tightly in their single moment of release. After a few moments of resting, as Sle'nel’ yet lay slightly winded from their exertion, The High Queen kissed her softly on her cheek.
Sle'nel’ looked at her lover, seeing that her eyes were moist. Ever prior, Sle'nel’ had been able to make any moment more light for her lover, but this moment was more difficult than either knew what to do with. Sle'nel’ breathed in deeply, trying to restore calmness to her. She touched San'lr'in's cheek, then smiled, “You ever amaze me, Lover."
In an effort to regain her self-control San'lr'in’ closed her eyes for a moment. She reopened them, then also smiled, “Then I am pleased."
They held the moment quietly between them, unmoving, studying each other, when finally Sle'nel’ said, “Amaze me once more, Highness?"
"Surely you cannot mean that you need more touc—"
Sle'nel’ shook her head, “No. Not this. Amaze me by returning to me."
"Ever remember, Sle'nel', I love you, and most strongly so. If there be but a thread of possibility, I will do your bidding."
As they prepared for the morn's meeting, then departure, San'lr'in’ sat down next to Sle'nel’ on the edge of their bed, holding her hand, “My Desire. I have something that I must share with you.” Sle'nel’ listened to her lover's tale, in full saddened disbelief of what she was hearing.
* * * *
The High Queen had called all her close council together for the morn meal. Ann'wn, Meera, Caitha, Erthrn, Fon'elnn', The Healer, Mil'der'in, Sume', An'ther'on and Sele’ were all in attendance, waiting for their High Queen.
When San'lr'in’ had finished telling Sle'nel’ mostly of what was to occur, they went to the morn's meeting. As they ate their morn meal, all eyes were fully upon their Queen, wondering as to her plans. Even Sle'nel’ hadn't guessed as to her lover's full intent until she had been told of such.
During the meal, San'lr'in’ told them her battle plan, “Queen Erthrn. You will need to hold the left flank, ensuring that..."
The morn extended into the late after mid-morn, San'lr'in’ giving each one their roles and responsibilities for the battle.
"And where will you be, Highness?"
San'lr'in’ turned to Ann'wn, taking a deep breath, then sighing, “In the Keep, Force Leader."
They all gasped at her words, fully surprised. Erthrn gained her voice first, “In the Keep? How can this be as so, Highness?"
"How do you plan to enter the Keep, my Queen?"
"You cannot do this alone, Highness."
She ignored their comments and questions, “We must all tend to our own roles in this battle, My Most Treasured Council, as it will take our strongest efforts to defeat this Wizard. I called you together this morn as you are The Realm's strongest powers and leaders. But none of you can do as usual, which is to worry over your High Queen. This cannot be as so. You must tend to your own duties."
"But my Queen, it is my duty to watch over yo—"
"No, Force Leader. In this battle, this is not so. I command your full attentions to the battle. I will be elsewhere, far from your oversight. Not one of you can risk your moments on Me, or on each other."
They began to argue with The High Queen, when suddenly, surprising all those now about her, San'lr'in’ knelt before Sume'.
Sume’ looked down on her, fully shocked, “What are you doing? Kneel not before me."
The High Queen held her great red stone out to Sume', “I request a great favor of you, High Wizard Sorcerer."
Sume’ wondered what San'lr'in’ was doing, when suddenly it came to her. Her eyes widened, “You cannot do this! Your heart is not healed enough for such as this."
San'lr'in’ looked up, “Only you can do this for Me, and it must be done. I must have this power."
"It will cause severe, irreversible harm."
The Healer suddenly pieced together the conversation, “No! You cannot do this. I cannot allow this to occur, High One. She is correct. You cannot recover from such as this. Even with a strong heart, this is overly dangerous."
Sele’ nodded, “You are all correct. She needs this power, but it will cause great harm."
Sume’ shook her head to her sister, “Why do you think you must give yourself to The Realm in this fashion? By the turn, all our powers grow. Surely, this will be enough."
Sle'nel’ came to her, “Do you care so little for the feelings of those that love you, Lover?"
San'lr'in’ sighed, then rose, “I am in full awareness that not one of you can know why I now request this favor, but you must try to understand. The Realm needs Me to have this power. There is no other choice. I wish not for this, but it must be so. We must not lose this battle or all will be lost, forever. All that we have gained will be lost, in but one short moment. I do this not for glory, My most favored in all The Realm. I do this as it is My vow. And My vow includes you. And there is no other way in which to win this battle."
Sume’ looked at her, “I cannot allow this to be so, San'lr'in'. We cannot have come this far to have it end this quickly. I have great powers now. Together, we will defeat this Wizard."
Sle'nel’ touched her lover's cheek, “You know fully that we cannot allow harm to come to you, Lover. We cannot willingly do as such. You taught me that we always have alternatives."
San'lr'in’ looked sadly at all of them, sensing their desperation. She sighed deeply, holding her patience firmly to her. She spoke softly and slowly, ensuring that every word was made clear, “All that you say is truth, yet it is not the whole. I ... am ... High ... Queen. Above all else, I must stand firm."
She turned her eyes to Sle'nel', staring fully at her, “I cannot allow My desirings to command Me at this moment, Elfin Queen."
She turned to her Healer, “I am vowed, Healer, to tend to The Realm. And this you, more than most, know fully."
She then turned to Ann'wn, “I am High Queen, Force Leader. These are My vows. As are you, I am vowed to The Realm."
She then went to Erthrn, looking deeply into her eyes, “My most favored Queen of The Realm, you know like no other of what has been entrusted to My care."
Moving to her High Counselor, she touched her shoulder, “High Counselor. You know of what I must now do. Beyond all in this room, you know the burdens of My vows."
Then she turned her gaze back to Sume', “I am High Queen, High Wizard Sorcerer. Hear My plea. Help Me to fulfill My vows.” She pleaded, “Help Me to defeat this Wizard. I cannot do so without this power placed deeply within Me.” She hesitated, then added, “Please do this for Me, so that I may save My Realm."
The Healer knew that they were going to give in to her Queen's request, “Is there a way that this may occur while we can also protect your heart, High One?"
San'lr'in’ went to her and placed her hand on her cheek, “This is it, Healer, or I would do as such Myself. The High Wizard Sorcerer will allow for as much caution as available, while I cannot."
"Are your powers not enough?"
She turned to her Healer, touched her lightly on her cheek, then returned to Sume', “Do this for Me, High Wizard Sorcerer. I beg of you. I must have these powers placed within Me. The Realm needs as such. I cannot survive against her without them. I will have but one moment to win against this Wizard. It cannot be as it was against the Dark Sorcerer. I cannot go one-to-one against her powers, or I will lose. I must catch her completely unaware. This is that power. She will not be able to sense it, as she knows not of it."
Sele’ looked at her Aunt, “She will be the most powerful High Queen The Realm has ever prior known, Aunt High Wizard Sorcerer. And she will need to be as such against this Wizard."
Sume’ looked down at Sele', “You think I should agree to her request, young Future Supreme Sovereign? Are you not concerned for her life, Young One?"
Sele’ looked around at all of them, slowly moving from one to another, weighing her words carefully, “Our Hi
gh Queen will most certainly die in this battle without these powers, Aunt High Priestess."
The Healer was angered at the moment, “And she will most certainly die with these powers, as well. Is that not also correct, Young One?"
Sele’ bowed her head for a moment, then looked at The Healer, “The High Queen is unable to know if this is as certain, Healer. But she knows fully that if she is to place these powers within herself, by her own hands, she will most certainly die by battle's end."
"And you? Are you able to know if the High Wizard Sorcerer places these powers within her, if she will die?"
Sele’ laid her head down on the table, wishing she also had more powers so she could answer the question, “No. It is but a guess only."
The High Queen knelt back down in front of Sume', “I have no more moments, High Wizard Sorcerer. Already many moments are lost to us. You either must decide for this, Sister, or I will place these powers within Me, alone. Either way, it will be done. I must have these powers."
Sume’ had never prior felt at such a loss, “You ask overly of me."
San'lr'in’ smiled slightly, her eyes beginning to twinkle, “Trust Me, Sister?"
Sume’ laughed quietly for a brief moment, “Surely you jest."
"Trust Me, Sume'n'tinel'ti'non. Trust that I know what I ask of you."
Sume’ placed her hand lightly on her sister's head, desiring anything that would remove this moment from her, “Left to me, I would not do this. I do this only for you, San'lr'in'thel'ineln', only because of who you are. But I will do so only on two conditions."
The High Queen waited.
"Live."
"You also ask much of Me, High Priestess."
"Live, and return to us. Agree to this, and I will grant your request."
San'lr'in’ thought on her sister's words, then nodded, “I vow that I will give My every effort to your condition. What is your second condition?"
"Take this power in well, San'lr'in'. Prevent it from injuring your heart."
She hesitated, “It will become My heart, so I know not how to do th—"
"I can displace the transfer, Highness."
She looked to the voice, “Are you certain, Young One, that you wish to do as such?"
Sele’ bowed her head, “For you, Highness."
Sume’ began the spells and chants needed to transfer the great red stone of power into The High Queen. The transfer, as they had now learned, would be a most amazing one—the Great Red Stone of Power would now become The High Queen's heart. None thought it possible, but thought that if their High Queen asked for such, it must be so. San'lr'in’ moved into her meditations so that she could distance from the pain that was about to occur, and Sele’ stood close by, waiting to help her Queen.
Sume’ felt herself move away from The Realm, calling to forces she never thought possible. She focused fully, knowing the enormity of the moment if she allowed her sister to be harmed. The spell came to her as it unfolded, and as if she had known it her entire lifespan.
After many moments of chanting the spell, she bent down, holding the Great Red Stone of Power near her sister's heart. She saw that San'lr'in's eyes were watching her, but sensed that she was as far from the moment as possible. As Sume’ nodded her head to Sele', Sele’ placed her hand over San'lr'in's heart, then placed her other hand on the stone. For a brief moment, Sume’ chanted yet another spell, helping Sele’ to displace San'lr'in's heart as they moved the red stone within her. Slowly, Sume’ motioned the stone into The High Queen's chest. Sle'nel’ watched with great concern, now seeing that Sele’ was in great pain, Sume’ also was struggling, and her lover's face showed the extent of the unendurable agony.
San'lr'in’ had placed herself into her meditations, but knowing that she would have to be fully in the moment if she were to remain alive. As Sume’ moved the red stone within her sister's heart, San'lr'in’ brought herself back into The Realm. She gasped as the stone moved through her skin, permitting herself to only clinch her hands tightly while all else remained firm and unmoving. As the stone moved further into her, groans of enormous pain escaped, making all those present shudder.
Finally, as the stone neared its destination, Sume’ halted her chanting, and Sele’ moved her hand away. But all watched in horror as The High Queen's eyes opened widely as if in shock and disbelief, while her mouth opened wide as if to scream. Yet, no sound came.
To The High Queen, the pain was as if her heart were being ripped excruciatingly slowly from its center, and as if her insides were on fire. Her lungs could no longer breathe, and she had no ability to make them do as such. She could feel the great power now within her, but couldn't yet attach her other powers to it, the ones that would help save her.
Suddenly, just as she thought she might die, she felt her lungs begin to breathe, and felt strength enter into her heart. She took in a deep breath, finally moving the fire away from her lungs. With no strength left in her muscles, she fell to a sitting position, leaning fully on one arm, the other clasping tightly onto her chest.
Take my strength, Highness.
San'lr'in’ heard Sele’ send the message, but hadn't yet the strength to respond. She focused on her breathing.
Breathe, High One. Hear my voice.
My strength is in your breathing, Highness. Find it.
Breathe.
Find my strength. Feel it.
After she felt she could maintain her breathing, she focused on Sele's words, trying to find the gift of strength that had been placed in her breathing. She felt for it, then found it. Breathing in now more deeply, she moved Sele's strength into her own.
Sle'nel’ stood close by, watching her lover struggle for her life. After what seemed overly long without a breath, Sle'nel’ saw San'lr'in’ finally breathe, taking in a breath as if she hadn't done so in many moons. Slowly, Sle'nel’ began to relax as she saw her lover's color begin to return.
She bent down next to her and placed her hand on her cheek, “Return to me, Lover."
San'lr'in’ was yet struggling, but was finally able to return to The Realm. She opened her eyes, feeling their weight. Sle'nel’ saw that her Queen looked as if the process had removed the last of her strength.
She smiled at her as she watched San'lr'in’ begin to focus on her, “Have you had enough of this yet, Lover?"
San'lr'in’ focused, seeing and hearing Sle'nel'. She gave the weakest of smiles, “I am fully here, My Desire."
"I am here for you, Lover."
She looked at Sle'nel', “Forget not My words to you, My Desire. The moment comes."
Sle'nel’ touched her hand to San'lr'in's arm, and whispered, “I will remember.” They shared a knowing look between themselves, saying nothing.
"Can you feel the powers, San'lr'in'? Did the spells do as needed?"
She nodded to Sume', and weakly replied, “Thank you."
She concentrated on her powers for a moment, quickly moving back into her meditations. For what seemed only a moment to all those waiting, seemed like an eternity to San'lr'in’ as she brought her new powers to her, infusing them solidly within all her other powers. When she was done, she breathed in deeply once more, opened her eyes, then stood.
"Careful, Highness."
Ann'wn gasped when she looked at her Queen, “My Queen. Your eyes."
She looked at Sle'nel', “My eyes?"
Sle'nel’ also looked shocked, “They are red."
"Like yours, when you call the Sorrows?"
Sele’ answered, “No. Birth-Mother's eyes are all red when that occurs. Your whites remain the same, but your eye center is red, like the stone."
San'lr'in’ felt slightly amused at the moment, but concentrated on her eyes for a moment, slightly removing the power from them.
Sle'nel’ nodded, yet surprised, “They are no longer red, but how did you do as such?"
San'lr'in’ began feeling her powers, testing them slightly. She felt stronger than ever prior, yet weaker, at the same moment. She knew sh
e now had the ability to equal the Wizard of the Ravens, yet also knew that these powers could also kill her. She flexed them carefully for a moment, then jerked, shocked, as the Wizard of the Ravens called to her.
You are stronger than I had first felt. Yet weak, as well. But I can help this, should you allow me to do as such. Come to me, High Queen. Join me, and I will make you stronger than you ever believed possible. I could use one such as you. Join me. I need you. Be as one with me.
San'lr'in’ listened to the message, allowing the Wizard of the Ravens to know that she was intrigued.
Join me, High Queen. Feel how good my powers can feel within you.
San'lr'in’ was startled to learn that the Wizard of the Ravens could send the feeling of her immense powers. And she was surprised to learn the truth in the Wizard's statement—the feeling of the Wizard's powers felt wonderful. The feeling made her to desire more, but she held her thoughts firmly away from the Wizard.
Listen not to her, Highness.
She ignored Sele', desiring, needing more contact with the Wizard, but yet held her senses away from the Wizard.
And you are intelligent. I sense this deeply within you. My Ravens have informed me of your great beauty. Come to me, High Queen. Allow me to give you far greater powers than you have ever prior imagined. Even all the ones you now hold are nothing compared to my gifts that await you.
Allow not the Dark Powers to call to you, High Queen.
She ignored Sele's thoughts, yet desiring more from the Wizard.
Feel me, High Queen. Feel how good my powers feel.
She closed her eyes, enjoying the deep pleasure the Wizard was sending to her. Her heart no longer hurt, and she felt as if she were floating. She knew she had allowed the Wizard of the Ravens to feel her interest, and she knew that the Wizard of the Ravens would try again.
Suddenly, someone slapped her, “Enough, San'lr'in'. Remove your thoughts away from this Wizard. You allow yourself to be called to the Dark Powers."
San'lr'in’ touched her cheek where Sume’ had slapped her, feeling the stinging that now occurred. Ignoring it, she risked a slight glance at Sle'nel', and nodded almost imperceptibly.
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