by Violet Duke
Her eyes slammed shut, the same way his did whenever heâd remember those types of memories. âAnd one day, I was proven right. I was sleeping when Willow had a massive seizure. I didnât even wake up. Luckily, my dad had just come home from work and he was able to call the ambulance in time.â
âIt was after that incident that Willow mentioned the care home.â Gripping his hand in hers, she said softly, âI know it seems like our âabandoning themâ would be the worst thing they could feel. But when I looked at it from her perspective, from what she probably used to see every day in our exhausted faces, what she saw in my sobbing apologies when she woke up in the ICUâ¦â
Tessa squeezed his hand gently. âSo I guess Iâm saying that at the end of the day, your way with the home, or my way without it, there was no winning or losing either way. Donât beat yourself up over it too much.â
She chuckled lightly. âSays the pot to the kettle.â
And just like that, the ice heâd built around his heart all day simply cracked right down the middle. He stared at her for a long moment and then asked, âDo you want to do something today?â
âBUTâ¦ABBY SAID that this was the day you two actively did nothing. Isnât it like a tradition for you two?â
âUntil now, it has been. But really, it was her tradition that I adopted and applied to my own day of pain.â His eyes ran over her face slowly. âI donât know…when Iâm around you though, youâre filled with such life. Itâs kind of inspiring. Plus, you make me laugh. You make me want to do something today. Is that okay?â
Smiling over that character profile, she wagered, âIf I let you pick our activity, can I pick the meal?â
He chuckled. âSure.â
âOkay then, câmon.” She checked her watch. âThereâs this great food truck over in Tempe that serves the best Southern food Iâve ever tasted. The guy puts the exact location where heâs parked up on his twitter account every morning. Itâs kind of a thing. And I swear, no matter where heâs parked, thereâs always a huge line.â She hopped up off the couch. âIf we book it over, weâll catch him before heâs done for the day.â
They were out the door seconds later, but were brought to a halt when her skirt got caught on the edge of the porch rail and tore at the back seam.
âI think Abby left a sewing kit in the house if you want to try and sew it up. Or you can stay here and Iâll go get the food and come back.â
âNo, thatâs okay.â She flipped her skirt around and studied the tear. Then she picked up the hem of her skirt, hooked her key in the tear, and let it rip.
Meanwhile, Brian was standing there just watching in fascination as she extended the tear all the way to the bottom of the skirt.
âYou donât do anything normal, do you?â
âI make every effort not to.â She flipped her skirt back around. âThere, now itâs a skirt with a long slit. Itâs cute. Câmon, letâs go. Seriously, you have to taste this guyâs shrimp and gritsââ
He caught her by the elbow and spun her back into his arms. âYou are so wonderfully weird,â he murmured before leaning down to capture her mouth in a single unassuming, perfectly chaste kiss. That still managed to make her dizzy.
This time, it was Tessa who stopped them from heading out. âWhatâs a few more minutes going to hurt?â she asked as she wrapped her arms around his neck and went in for multiple very assuming, perfectly unchaste kisses. To try and get him dizzy.
It was a great âfew minutes.â
But after it came and went, Brian being Brian groaned and pulled back. âOkay, no more of that for a while. I want you to get the meal choice you want. And if we continue more of that, weâll both starve to death.â
He gave her a lopsided grinâlikely at the loopy expression she was undoubtedly wearingâand tugged her toward the car. She barely remembered buckling the seatbelt.
âSo, serious question,â he tossed out when they were out on the road. âAfter we eat, can I pick what we were just doing as one of our activities for the night?â His brows rose suggestively.
âI donât see why not,â she shrugged and replied without thinking, âBecause if you hadnât so rudely interrupted us back there, I was all set to just throw on some fruit-flavored chapstick and call it a meal.â
He laughed, shaking his head. âIâm really glad you came over today, sweetie.â
HOURS LATER, TESSA was walking hand in hand with Brian back to the car, merrily giving him consolation bites of her giant ice cream coneâher prize for beating him at bowling after their just-made-it-in-time food truck dinner, which heâd loved as much as sheâd hoped he would. The goofy smile on her face had less to do with the ice cream, and more to do with his perfectly scandalous, outrageous accusation that sheâd cheated all throughout the bowling game.
No one had ever accused her of using, letting alone having âfeminine wilesâ before.
She liked it.
When they finally got to the car, Brian, ever the gentleman, opened Tessaâs passenger door and helped her in. It wasnât until after she was buckled in and floating on a post-perfect date bubble, however, that he leaned in and said, âOkay, so tell me about your rules for flings.â
Startled, she blinked at him and felt her pulse triple at the transformation.
His usual guy-next-door eye twinkle? Gone. Now, it was wholly eclipsed by the slow-burning dare-you-to-guess-what-Iâm-thinking smolder sheâd been fantasizing about since sheâd seen it last. Eight days ago, if she wasnât mistaken.
âThe other week, you said you werenât looking for anything serious,â he continued as she sat there, searching for her long lost ability to speak. âConnor used to have a one-month parameter on his flings; I figured you must have some specifics as well. And Iâm curious to know what they are.â
Crap. She was simply not this good at improvising on the fly. Especially not when she had absolutely no frame of reference, and exactly one sexual experience in her past.
She should just tell him the truth.
âOkay,â he admitted, âIâm not just curious, Iâm interested. Like you said, we have a connection, and since Iâve recently been thinking of trying my brotherâs dating methodsâseemed to work great for himâI thought Iâd put it out there and ask you flat-out if youâre interested.â
Was she interested? Um. That was a no-brainer. âYes.â
He grinned. âGreat. Do you want to get together next Friday? The girls will be at Beckyâs for a sleepover until Sunday. I can meet you at your place and you can tell me all your fling parameters then.â
Next weekend. Fabulous.
That gave her one whole week to study up on flings.
*
TAKING A SEAT on the couch in Tessaâs apartment, Brian eyed a stack of chick flick DVDs on the side table that he was actually surprised to see in Tessaâs collection, along with a notebook filled with notes, and a neatly written, short, butâ¦interesting list.
RULES FOR FLING
1) No sleeping over (the guest flingee must depart before the resident flinger wakes up)
2) No making plans further than one week in advance
3) No two consecutive date nights in a row
4) No telling Skylar or Connor or Abby
5) No sex in each otherâs beds (the ground, sofa, countertops, hotel beds are fine)
Criminy, she just kept getting cuter every day.
âSo is there somewhere for me to sign on this contract?â he called out.
âWhat?â She returned from the kitchen with two beers and gasped in horror. âOhmigod, put that down. That wasâ¦just a draft.â
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br /> âUh huh.â Oh boy, this was just too much fun. âWhatâs the deal with number one? Thatâs a little harsh. What happens if the guy doesnât wake up as early as you? I know I myself like to sleep in late.â
âWellâ¦then Iâd kick you so youâd wake up, and then Iâd go back to sleep.â A victorious little âso thereâ glimmer lit her eyes.
So freakinâ adorable.
âGeez, I bet that was fun for all your past flings,â he editorialized casually, grinning when she balked. That was the exact reaction heâd been looking for. âBut one night stands sleep over all the time, donât they?â
âAnd thatâs my point,â she recovered quickly. âOne night stands are awkward the next day. Plus, theyâre singular eventsâyou never expect to see them again. Which is why a fling has to be handled differently.â
Not bad. Considering sheâd just pulled that one out of her ass on the fly. Clearly, heâd underestimated her.
Remembering Connorâs addendum on his one-monthers, he then threw more chips in the pile and raised with, âSo whatâs your policy on notes? You know, for the guest flingee who sneaks out before the resident flinger wakes up? Connor used to have a strict no notes, calls, texts, emails, or tokens of affection rule.â
âWhat?â Her riled scowl was on behalf of all womankind. âHow that man never got drilled in the nuts by a stiletto is beyond me. Of course leave a note. I mean, it doesnât have to be a sonnet or anything. Just short and casualâ¦rhyming optional.â
Brian hid his grin. For the umpteenth time since theyâd met, he thought about just how fantastically different Tessa was from Beth and Abby.
When heâd first met Beth back in high school, heâd been a nervous wreckâhis heart had started racing the second sheâd said hello, and absolute gibberish had spewed out of his mouth in response. Abby, on the other hand, had been an easy fit from the start; from that first day of college, heâd felt like heâd known her forever and had been completely relaxed around her.
Meeting Tessa, however, had been like getting whacked upside the head with a club. Heâd felt blindsided by her, unsettled around her almost at first sight, definitely at first speak. She made him feel off-balance. And borderline ornery. She got under his skin with frightening ease, and managed to find bizarre, hidden access points to his heart just as effortlessly. Around Tessa, he more often than not found himself doing things he normally wouldnât do.
Like agreeing to have a fling with a âfling expertâ whoâd clearly never been flung before.
Reaching over for a pen on the coffee table, he initialed next to the title of her list.
âOkay, Iâm in.â
While Tessa was busy gaping at his initials, Brian took the opportunity to unravel more of the enigma that was Tessa Daniels. Basically, he started snooping. He dropped a kiss on her parted lips and headed over to the bookshelf near the kitchen to look at the small handful of memorabilia and even smaller handful of photos. There was one photo with her sister and her dad, one of just her dad when he was older, one of Willow sitting at a piano, and another with Tessa and her sister in a hospital bed, each with matching pink streaks in their hair.
Another mystery solved.
He gently picked up the old three-ring binder propped next to the piano picture of Willow. âAre these her compositions?â There were a few dozen at least, all in plastic protectors.
As if his words had finally shaken her out of her stupor, Tessa came to join him by the bookshelf. âYes. In chronological order, each one like a special musical page of her life, from what I could remember. I used to love listening to her play.â
âDid you ever play?â
âNo. I, um, didnât get a chance to do any extracurriculars.â
Right, because their lives had always revolved around Willow.
Christ, her childhood had been a sad one.
When he heard his fierce little survivor clearing her throat to get his attention, he turned to see her gripping her list of rules in her hands, her face utterly serious, âBrian, about theseââ
Just then, that familiar musical ringtoneâseriously, where did he know that song fromârang out from her bag.
âDammit. Hang on.â She rushed off to go answer her phone.
Hearing her enter her bedroom to take the call, Brian took a long, sweeping look around Tessaâs apartment once again. Everything about it was stark, bare. Not at all the type of vibrant home heâd expect from her. Likewise for her bookshelf. He couldnât help but compare it to the bookshelf of memories at his own house that was bursting at the seams, and groaning over the weight of all the photo frames they kept cramming onto it.
âItâs not as filled as yours,â she commented softly from behind him, as if reading his mind. âI havenât added anything to it in years. There havenât really been any new memories to collect. Or anyone to share them with.â She took a deep breath, and once again, that determined, hope-filled, me-against-the-world smile was back on her face.
The woman was just too good at dealing with lifeâs unjust realities on her own.
He wished sheâd let him help her.
âBrian, I hate to cut our night short but that was work on the phone just now. Looks like Iâm going to have to pull an all-nighter. One of our freelancers bailed at the last minute and they donât have any articles in the bank to cover this specific topic for the summer edition.â With a frustrated huff, she scooped up her hair and tied it up into a tight bun. âSince the cover is already locked, that means I need to write the article. Easier said than done, of course, since I have absolutely no experience with the topic. But Iâll figure something out.â
âWhatâs the topic?â he asked, frowning, wanting to help somehow.
A slow, brightening sparkle entered her eyes as she turned to gaze at him in a whole new light. âCamping.â
He beamed. âWell then todayâs your lucky day. Because standing right before you is a bonafide camping connoisseur who has absolutely no marketable writing skills to speak of, and will very likely get completely distracted by the gorgeous editor in charge.â
She chuckled. âYouâre hired.â
NINE LONG, CRAZY-STRESSFUL hours later, Tessa was emailing the article in for submission, and Brian was half-dozing on the double-wide recliner. Damn, the thing was comfortableâheâd have to look into getting one for his house, he thought to himself muzzily.
Better yet, he could just move hers into his place, owner and all.
Huh.
There were those crazy, random thoughts again.
Tonight, he was blaming it on exhaustion.
âOkay, the issueâs locked.â When Tessa returned and shuffled by to plop down on the sofa opposite the recliner, he scooped her up by the waist, pulled her across his lap and tucked her right next to him.
Perfect fit.
She cuddled against his chest. âThank you so much, Brian. Thereâs no way I wouldâve been able to do that article without you.â
âMy pleasure. But you really didnât have to give me a byline.â
âOf course I did. You came up with most of it.â She cat-yawned. âAre you hungry? Do you want me to make you a sandwich or something?â
âIf I say yes will you actually be able to get up and do it?â he teased, eyes slipping closed with a groan as he pressed the side button to slide the recliner back fully.
âGood point,â she murmured, snuggling into him sleepily.
Yawning, he held her close and started drifting off.
âBrian?â
âHmmm?â
âAre you going to keep poking me with that thing all night?â
âAs long as you�
�re lying on top of me? Yes.â
She burrowed deeper and twined her legs with his. âOkay.â
And that was the last thing he remembered before sleep overtook him.
CHAPTER EIGHT
SHE WAS SO WARM.
With a murmur of pleasure, Tessa slowly rubbed her face against the source of the heat, feeling her skin come alive on contact.
âA man can only take so much torture, Tessa.â The low, rough voice pierced through the sleepy fog she was still floating in, but not enough to make the delicious feelings go away. She shifted her hips and felt something hard brush against her inner thigh.
âBrian,â she sighed.
The arms that had been cradling her as if she were a newborn kitten suddenly turned to steel.
âTessa, wake up,â he commanded, straight out of her most wicked fantasies.
Her alpha man was back.
Though sheâd dreamt of him for weeks now, for some reason, tonight felt different. More real. Sexier. Less out of reach.
She smiled against his hot skin and felt a groan rumbling up the column of his throat. Nuzzling against his jaw, she felt reckless enough tonight to test her dreamâs boundaries, to push past her own for once. Sliding her body fully atop his, she reveled at the feel of all those hot, hardened muscles.
Especially that one.
âGodammit, woman.â Strong, thick fingers speared through her hair and cradled her skull as the hottest lips sheâd ever felt started searing every nerve ending she hadnât even known she had all along her neck. âIf you donât wake up and stop smiling like the cat that caught the canary, I wonât be held accountable for my actions.â
The feel of his late-night beard grazing her collarbone jolted her awake finally. Dream and reality on tilt, she forced her eyes open.
And found herself drowning in the most intense sea-blue eyes sheâd ever seen.