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by E. L. James


  “I have to run. I can still make my shift at Clayton’s.”

  “Ana, you’ll be exhausted.”

  “I’ll be fine. I’ll see you later.”

  I’VE WORKED AT CLAYTON’S since I started at WSU. It’s the largest independent hardware store in the Portland area, and over the four years I’ve worked here, I’ve come to know a little bit about most everything we sell—although ironically, I’m crap at any DIY. I leave all that to my dad.

  I’M GLAD I CAN make my shift as it gives me something to focus on that isn’t Christian Grey. We’re busy—it’s the start of the summer season, and folks are redecorating their homes. Mrs. Clayton looks relieved to see me.

  “Ana! I thought you weren’t going to make it today.”

  “My appointment didn’t take as long as I thought. I can do a couple of hours.”

  “I’m real pleased to see you.”

  She sends me to the storeroom to start restocking shelves, and I’m soon absorbed in the task.

  WHEN I ARRIVE HOME later, Katherine is wearing headphones and working on her laptop. Her nose is still pink, but she has her teeth into a story, so she’s concentrating and typing furiously. I’m thoroughly drained, exhausted by the long drive, by the grueling interview, and by being swamped at Clayton’s. I slump on to the couch, thinking about the essay I have to finish and all the studying I haven’t done today because I was holed up with … him.

  “You’ve got some good stuff here, Ana. Well done. I can’t believe you didn’t take him up on his offer to show you around. He obviously wanted to spend more time with you.” She gives me a fleeting quizzical look.

  I flush, and my heart rate inexplicably increases. That wasn’t the reason, surely. He just wanted to show me around so I could see that he was lord of all he surveyed. I realize I’m biting my lip, and I hope Kate doesn’t notice. But she seems absorbed in her transcription.

  “I hear what you mean about formal. Did you take any notes?” she asks.

  “Um … no, I didn’t.”

  “That’s fine. I can still make a fine article with this. Shame we don’t have some original stills. Good-looking son of a bitch, isn’t he?”

  “I suppose so.” I try hard to sound disinterested, and I think I succeed.

  “Oh, come on, Ana—even you can’t be immune to his looks.” She arches a perfect eyebrow at me.

  Crap! I feel my cheeks heating so I distract her with flattery, always a good ploy.

  “You probably would have got a lot more out of him.”

  “I doubt that, Ana. Come on—he practically offered you a job. Given that I foisted this on you at the last minute, you did very well.” She glances up at me speculatively. I make a hasty retreat into the kitchen.

  “So what did you really think of him?” Damn, she’s inquisitive. Why can’t she just let this go? Think of something—quick.

  “He’s very driven, controlling, arrogant—scary, but very charismatic. I can understand the fascination,” I add truthfully, hoping this will shut her up once and for all.

  “You, fascinated by a man? That’s a first,” she snorts.

  I start gathering the makings of a sandwich so she can’t see my face.

  “Why did you want to know if he was gay? Incidentally, that was the most embarrassing question. I was mortified, and he was pissed to be asked, too.” I scowl at the memory.

  “Whenever he’s in the society pages, he never has a date.”

  “It was embarrassing. The whole thing was embarrassing. I’m glad I’ll never have to lay eyes on him again.”

  “Oh, Ana, it can’t have been that bad. I think he sounds quite taken with you.”

  Taken with me? Now Kate’s being ridiculous.

  “Would you like a sandwich?”

  “Please.”

  WE TALK NO MORE of Christian Grey that evening, much to my relief. Once we’ve eaten, I’m able to sit at the dining table with Kate and, while she works on her article, I work on my essay on Tess of the d’Urbervilles. Damn, that woman was in the wrong place at the wrong time in the wrong century. By the time I finish, it’s midnight, and Kate has long since gone to bed. I make my way to my room, exhausted, but pleased that I’ve accomplished so much for a Monday.

  I curl up in my white iron bed, wrap my mother’s quilt around me, close my eyes, and I’m instantly asleep. That night I dream of dark places, bleak, cold white floors, and gray eyes.

  FOR THE REST OF the week, I throw myself into my studies and my job at Clayton’s. Kate is busy, too, compiling her last edition of the student newspaper before she has to relinquish it to the new editor while also cramming for her finals. By Wednesday, she’s much better, and I no longer have to endure the sight of her pink-flannel-with-too-many-rabbits PJs. I call my mom in Georgia to check on her, but also so she can wish me luck on my final exams. She proceeds to tell me about her latest venture into candlemaking—my mother is all about new business ventures. Fundamentally, she’s bored and wants something to occupy her time, but she has the attention span of a goldfish. It’ll be something new next week. She worries me. I hope she hasn’t mortgaged the house to finance this latest scheme. And I hope Bob—her relatively new but much older husband—is keeping an eye on her now that I’m no longer there. He does seem a lot more grounded than Husband Number Three.

  “How are things with you, Ana?”

  For a moment, I hesitate, and I have Mom’s full attention. “I’m fine.”

  “Ana? Have you met someone?” Wow … how does she do that? The excitement in her voice is palpable.

  “No, Mom, it’s nothing. You’ll be the first to know if I do.”

  “Ana, you really need to get out more, honey. You worry me.”

  “Mom, I’m fine. How’s Bob?” As ever, distraction is the best policy.

  Later that evening, I call Ray, my stepdad, Mom’s Husband Number Two, the man I consider my father and the man whose name I bear. It’s a brief conversation. In fact, it’s not so much a conversation as a one-sided series of grunts in response to my gentle coaxing. Ray is not a talker. But he’s still alive, he’s still watching soccer on TV (and going bowling or fly-fishing, or making furniture, when he’s not). Ray is a skilled carpenter and the reason I know the difference between a hawk and a handsaw. All seems well with him.

  FRIDAY NIGHT, KATE AND I are debating what to do with our evening—we want some time off from our studies, from our work, and from student newspapers—when the doorbell rings. Standing on our doorstep is my good friend José clutching a bottle of champagne.

  “José! Great to see you!” I give him a quick hug. “Come in.”

  José is the first person I met when I arrived at WSU, looking as lost and lonely as I did. We recognized a kindred spirit in each other that day, and we’ve been friends ever since. Not only do we share a sense of humor, but we also discovered that Ray and José Senior were in the same army unit together. As a result, our fathers have become good friends, too.

  José is studying engineering and is the first in his family to make it to college. He’s pretty damn bright, but his real passion is photography. José has a great eye for a good picture.

  “I have news.” He grins, his dark eyes twinkling.

  “Don’t tell me—you’ve managed not to get kicked out for another week,” I tease, and he scowls playfully at me.

  “The Portland Place Gallery is going to exhibit my photos next month.”

  “That’s amazing—congratulations!” Delighted for him, I hug him again. Kate beams at him, too.

  “Way to go, José! I should put this in the paper. Nothing like last-minute editorial changes on a Friday evening.” She feigns annoyance.

  “Let’s celebrate. I want you to come to the opening.” José looks intently at me and I flush. “Both of you, of course,” he adds, glancing nervously at Kate.

  José and I are good friends, but I know deep down inside he’d like to be more. He’s cute and funny, but he’s just not for me. He’s more like the br
other I never had. Katherine often teases me that I’m missing the need-a-boyfriend gene, but the truth is I just haven’t met anyone who … well, whom I’m attracted to, even though part of me longs for the fabled trembling knees, heart-in-my-mouth, butterflies-in-my-belly moments.

  Sometimes I wonder if there’s something wrong with me. Perhaps I’ve spent too long in the company of my literary romantic heroes, and consequently my ideals and expectations are far too high. But in reality, nobody’s ever made me feel like that.

  Until very recently, the unwelcome, still-small voice of my subconscious whispers. NO! I banish the thought immediately. I am not going there, not after that painful interview. Are you gay, Mr. Grey? I wince at the memory. I know I’ve dreamed about him most nights since then, but that’s just to purge the awful experience from my system, surely.

  I watch José open the bottle of champagne. He’s tall, and in his jeans and T-shirt, he’s all shoulders and muscles, tanned skin, dark hair, and burning dark eyes. Yes, José’s pretty hot, but I think he’s finally getting the message: we’re just friends. The cork makes its loud pop, and José looks up and smiles.

  SATURDAY AT THE STORE is a nightmare. We are besieged by do-it-yourselfers wanting to spruce up their homes. Mr. and Mrs. Clayton and John and Patrick—the two other part-timers—and I are besieged by customers. But there’s a lull around lunchtime, and Mrs. Clayton asks me to check on some orders while I’m sitting behind the counter at the register discreetly eating my bagel. I’m engrossed in the task, checking catalog numbers against the items we need and the items we’ve ordered, eyes flicking from the order book to the computer screen and back as I make sure the entries match. Then, for some reason, I glance up … and find myself locked in the bold gray gaze of Christian Grey, who’s standing at the counter, staring at me.

  Heart failure.

  “Miss Steele. What a pleasant surprise.” His gaze is unwavering and intense.

  Holy crap. What the hell is he doing here, looking all outdoorsy with his tousled hair and in his cream chunky-knit sweater, jeans, and walking boots? I think my mouth has popped open, and I can’t locate my brain or my voice.

  “Mr. Grey,” I whisper, because that’s all I can manage. There’s a ghost of a smile on his lips and his eyes are alight with humor, as if he’s enjoying some private joke.

  “I was in the area,” he says by way of explanation. “I need to stock up on a few things. It’s a pleasure to see you again, Miss Steele.” His voice is warm and husky like dark melted chocolate fudge caramel … or something.

  I shake my head to gather my wits. My heart is pounding at a frantic tempo, and for some reason I’m blushing furiously under his steady scrutiny. I am utterly thrown by the sight of him standing before me. My memories of him did not do him justice. He’s not merely good-looking—he’s the epitome of male beauty, breathtaking, and he’s here. Here in Clayton’s Hardware Store. Go figure. Finally my cognitive functions are restored and reconnected with the rest of my body.

  “Ana. My name’s Ana,” I mutter. “What can I help you with, Mr. Grey?”

  He smiles, and again it’s like he’s privy to some big secret. It is so disconcerting. Taking a deep breath, I put on my professional I’ve-worked-in-this-shop-for-years façade. I can do this.

  “There are a few items I need. To start with, I’d like some cable ties,” he murmurs, his expression both cool and amused.

  Cable ties?

  “We stock various lengths. Shall I show you?” I mutter, my voice soft and wavering. Get a grip, Steele.

  A slight frown mars Grey’s rather lovely brow. “Please. Lead the way, Miss Steele,” he says. I try for nonchalance as I come out from behind the counter, but really I’m concentrating hard on not falling over my own feet—my legs are suddenly the consistency of Jell-O. I’m so glad I decided to wear my best jeans this morning.

  “They’re with the electrical goods, aisle eight.” My voice is a little too bright. I glance up at him and regret it almost immediately. Damn, he’s handsome.

  “After you,” he murmurs, gesturing with his long-fingered, beautifully manicured hand.

  With my heart almost strangling me—because it’s in my throat trying to escape from my mouth—I head down one of the aisles to the electrical section. Why is he in Portland? Why is he here at Clayton’s? And from a very tiny, underused part of my brain—probably located at the base of my medulla oblongata near where my subconscious dwells—comes the thought: He’s here to see you. No way! I dismiss it immediately. Why would this beautiful, powerful, urbane man want to see me? The idea is preposterous, and I kick it out of my head.

  “Are you in Portland on business?” I ask, and my voice is too high, like I’ve got my finger trapped in a door or something. Damn! Try to be cool, Ana!

  “I was visiting the WSU farming division. It’s based in Vancouver. I’m currently funding some research there in crop rotation and soil science,” he says matter-of-factly. See? Not here to find you at all, my subconscious sneers at me, loud, proud, and pouty. I flush at my foolish, wayward thoughts.

  “All part of your feed-the-world plan?” I tease.

  “Something like that,” he acknowledges, and his lips quirk up in a half smile.

  He gazes at the selection of cable ties we stock at Clayton’s. What on Earth is he going to do with those? I cannot picture him as a do-it-yourselfer at all. His fingers trail across the various packages displayed, and for some inexplicable reason, I have to look away. He bends and selects a packet.

  “These will do,” he says with his oh-so-secret smile.

  “Is there anything else?”

  “I’d like some masking tape.”

  Masking tape?

  “Are you redecorating?” The words are out before I can stop them. Surely he hires laborers or has staff to help him decorate?

  “No, not redecorating,” he says quickly, then smirks, and I have the uncanny feeling that he’s laughing at me.

  Am I that funny? Funny looking?

  “This way,” I murmur, embarrassed. “Masking tape is in the decorating aisle.”

  I glance behind me as he follows.

  “Have you worked here long?” His voice is low, and he’s gazing at me, concentrating hard. I blush brightly. Why the hell does he have this effect on me? I feel like I’m fourteen years old—gauche, as always, and out of place. Eyes front, Steele!

  “Four years,” I mutter as we reach our goal. To distract myself, I reach down and select the two widths of masking tape that we stock.

  “I’ll take that one,” Grey says softly, pointing to the wider tape, which I pass to him. Our fingers brush very briefly, and the current is there again, zapping through me like I’ve touched an exposed wire. I gasp involuntarily as I feel it all the way down to somewhere dark and unexplored, deep in my belly. Desperately, I scrabble around for my equilibrium.

  “Anything else?” My voice is husky and breathy. His eyes widen slightly.

  “Some rope, I think.” His voice mirrors mine, husky.

  “This way.” I duck my head down to hide my recurring blush and move toward the aisle.

  “What sort were you after? We have synthetic and natural filament rope … twine … cable cord …” I halt at his expression, his eyes darkening. Holy cow.

  “I’ll take five yards of the natural filament rope, please.”

  Quickly, with trembling fingers, I measure out five yards against the fixed ruler, aware that his hot gray gaze is on me. I dare not look at him. Jeez, could I feel any more self-conscious? Taking my Stanley knife from the back pocket of my jeans, I cut it then coil it neatly before tying it in a slipknot. By some miracle, I manage not to remove a finger with my knife.

  “Were you a Girl Scout?” he asks, sculptured, sensual lips curled in amusement. Don’t look at his mouth!

  “Organized group activities aren’t really my thing, Mr. Grey.”

  He arches a brow.

  “What is your thing, Anastasia?” he asks, his v
oice soft, and his secret smile is back. I gaze at him, unable to express myself. I’m on shifting tectonic plates. Try to be cool, Ana, my tortured subconscious begs on bended knee.

  “Books,” I whisper, but inside, my subconscious is screaming: You! You are my thing! I slap it down instantly, mortified that my psyche is having ideas way out of its league.

  “What kind of books?” He cocks his head to one side. Why is he so interested?

  “Oh, you know. The usual. The classics. British literature, mainly.”

  He rubs his chin with his long index finger and thumb as he contemplates my answer. Or perhaps he’s just very bored and trying to hide it.

  “Anything else you need?” I have to get off this subject—those fingers on that face are beguiling.

  “I don’t know. What else would you recommend?”

  What would I recommend? I don’t even know what you’re doing.

  “For a do-it-yourselfer?”

  He nods, his eyes alive with wicked humor. I flush, and my gaze strays to his snug jeans.

  “Coveralls,” I reply, and I know I’m no longer screening what’s coming out of my mouth.

  He raises an eyebrow, amused yet again.

  “You wouldn’t want to ruin your clothing.” I gesture vaguely in the direction of his jeans.

  “I could always take them off.” He smirks.

  “Um.” I feel the color in my cheeks rising again. I must be the color of The Communist Manifesto. Stop talking. Stop talking NOW.

  “I’ll take some coveralls. Heaven forbid I should ruin any clothing,” he says dryly.

  I try to dismiss the unwelcome image of him without jeans.

  “Do you need anything else?” I squeak as I hand him the blue coveralls.

  He ignores my inquiry.

  “How’s the article coming along?”

  He’s finally asked me an easy question, away from all the innuendo and the confusing double-talk … a question I can answer. I grasp it tightly with two hands as if it were a life raft, and I go for honesty.

  “I’m not writing it, Katherine is. Miss Kavanagh. My roommate, she’s the writer. She’s very happy with it. She’s the editor of the newspaper, and she was devastated that she couldn’t do the interview in person.” I feel like I’ve come up for air—at last, a normal topic of conversation. “Her only concern is that she doesn’t have any original photographs of you.”

 

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