“Mila?” Lukas was rapping on the bathroom door now. “Unlock this, will you? Mila!”
Regina, as predicted, began to howl. Jane looked at the man, and he finally gave a nod. She gathered the baby into her arms, but her embrace seemed to hold no comfort for Regina. She can feel my heart pounding. She can feel my fear.
There was banging in the hallway, then a crash as Lukas broke through the door. Seconds later he came running back into the living room, his face flushed. “She’s gone.”
“What?”
“The bathroom window’s open. She must have crawled out.”
The blond man reacted with a mere shrug. “Then we’ll find her another day. The video is what he really wants.”
“We have it.”
“You’re sure it’s the last copy?”
“It’s the last.”
Jane stared at Lukas. “You already knew about the videotape.”
“Do you have any idea how much unsolicited junk a reporter gets in the mail?” said Lukas. “How many conspiracy theorists and paranoid nuts there are out there, desperate for the public to believe them? I wrote that one column about Ballentree, and suddenly I’m the new best friend for all the Joseph Rokes in this country. All the weirdos. They think if they tell me about their little delusions, I’ll take the story from there. I’ll be their Woodward and Bernstein.”
“That’s how it should work. That’s what journalists are supposed to do.”
“You know any rich reporters? Once you get past the rare superstars, how many names do you remember? The reality is, the public doesn’t give a shit about the truth. Oh, maybe there’d be a flutter of interest for a few weeks. A few front-page stories above the fold. Director of National Intelligence charged with murder. The White House would express the appropriate amount of horror, Carleton Wynne would plead guilty, and then this would go the way of every other scandal in Washington. In a few months, the public would forget about it. And I’d go back to writing my column, paying my mortgage, and driving the same beat-up Toyota.” He shook his head. “As soon as I saw the videotape Olena left me, I knew it was worth a lot more than just a Pulitzer. I knew who’d pay me for it.”
“That video Joe sent you. You did receive it.”
“Almost threw it away, too. Then I thought, what the hell, let’s see what’s on it. I recognized Carleton Wynne right away. Until I picked up the phone and called him, he didn’t even know the tape existed. He thought he was just chasing down a couple of whores. Suddenly this got much, much more serious. And more expensive.”
“He was actually willing to deal with you?”
“Wouldn’t you be? Knowing what this tape could do to you? Knowing there are other copies floating around out there?”
“Do you really think Wynne is going to let you live? Now that you’ve given him Joe and Olena? There’s nothing else he needs from you.”
The blond man cut in: “I’ll need a shovel.”
But Lukas was still looking at Jane. “I’m not stupid,” he said. “And Wynne knows that.”
“The shovel?” the blond man repeated.
“There’s one in the garage,” said Lukas.
“Get it for me.”
As Lukas walked toward the garage, Jane called out: “You’re a moron if you think you’re going to live long enough to enjoy any payoff.” Regina had fallen silent in her arms, stilled by her mother’s rage. “You’ve seen how these people play the game. You know how Charles Desmond died. They’re going to find you in your bathtub with your wrists slit. Or they’ll force a bottle of phenobarb tablets down your throat and dump you in the bay, like they did to Olena. Or maybe this guy will just put a bullet in your head, nice and simple.”
Lukas came back into the house, carrying a spade. He handed it to the blond man.
“How deep do those woods go, in back of the house?” the man asked.
“It’s part of Blue Hills Reservation. They go back at least a mile.”
“We’ll need to walk her in far enough.”
“Look, I don’t want anything to do with that. That’s what he pays you for.”
“Then you’ll have to take care of her car.”
“Wait.” Lukas reached behind the couch and came up holding the diaper bag. He handed it to the other man. “I don’t want any trace of her in my house.”
Give it to me, thought Jane. Give me my goddamn bag.
Instead, the blond man slung it over his shoulder and said: “Let’s take a walk in the woods, Detective.”
Jane turned to give Lukas her parting shot. “You’ll get yours. You’re a dead man.”
Outside, a half-moon glowed in a starry sky. Holding Regina, Jane stumbled through underbrush and saplings, her path faintly lit by the beam of the gunman’s flashlight. He was careful to follow at a distance, giving her no chance to strike out at him. She could not have, in any event, not with Regina in her arms. Regina, who had known only a few short weeks of life.
“My baby can’t hurt you,” Jane said. “She’s not even a month old.”
The man said nothing. The only sound was their footfalls in the woods. The snap of twigs, the rustle of leaves. So much noise, but no one was around to listen. If a woman falls in the forest, but no one hears her …
“You could just take her,” said Jane. “Leave her where someone will find her.”
“She’s not my problem.”
“She’s just a baby!” Jane’s voice suddenly broke. She paused there among the trees, clutching her daughter to her chest as tears flooded her throat. Regina gave a soft coo, as though to comfort her, and Jane pressed her face to her daughter’s head and inhaled the sweetness of her hair, felt the heat of her velvety cheeks. How could I bring you into this? she thought. There is no worse mistake a mother can make. And now you’ll die with me.
“Keep walking,” he said.
I’ve fought back before and survived, she thought. I can do it again. I have to do it again, for you.
“Or do you just want me to finish it here?” he said.
She took a deep breath, inhaling the scent of trees and damp leaves. She thought of the human remains she had examined in Stony Brook Reservation a summer ago. How vines had snaked through the orbital fossae, hugging the skull in greedy tendrils. How the hands and feet were missing, gnawed off and carried away by scavengers. She felt her own pulse, bounding in her fingers, and thought of how small and fragile were the bones in a human hand. How easily they are scattered across a forest floor.
She began to walk again, deeper into the woods. Keep your head, she thought. Panic, and you lose all chance to surprise him. All chance to save Regina. Her senses sharpened. She could feel the blood pumping through her calves, could almost feel every molecule of air that brushed against her face. You only come alive, she thought, just as you’re about to die.
“I think this is far enough,” the man said.
They were standing in a small clearing. Trees encircled them, a dark ring of silent witnesses. The stars were cold glitters. None of this will change when I’m gone, she thought. The stars don’t care. The trees don’t care.
He threw the shovel at her feet. “Start digging.”
“What about my baby?”
“Put her down and start digging.”
“The ground’s so hard.”
“Like that matters now?” He tossed the diaper bag at her feet. “Let her lie down on that.”
Jane knelt, her heart now thumping so wildly she thought it would slam through her ribs. I have one chance, she thought. Reach in the bag, grab the weapon. Turn and squeeze off the round before he knows what’s happening. No mercy, just blow out his brains.
“Poor baby,” she murmured as she crouched over the bag. As she quietly slipped her hand inside. “Mommy has to put you down now …” Her hand brushed across her wallet, a baby bottle, diapers. My gun. Where is my goddamn gun?
“Just set the baby down.”
It’s not here. Her breath whooshed out of her in a sob. Of
course he took it. He’s not stupid. I’m a cop; he knew I’d be carrying.
“Dig.”
She bent down to give Regina a kiss, a caress, then laid her on the ground with the diaper bag as a cushion. She picked up the shovel and slowly rose to her feet. Her legs felt drained of all energy, all hope. He was standing too far away for her to swing at him with the shovel. Even if she threw it, it would stun him only for a few seconds. Not enough time to pick up Regina and run.
She looked down at the ground. Under the light of the half-moon, she saw a scattering of leaves on moss. Her bed for eternity. Gabriel will never find us here. He will never know.
She planted the spade in the soil, and felt the first tears trickle down her cheek as she began to dig.
THIRTY-SIX
The door to his apartment was ajar.
Gabriel paused in the hallway, instincts prickling with alarm. He heard voices talking inside, and the sound of footsteps pacing across the floor. He gave the door a push and stepped in. “What are you doing here?”
John Barsanti turned from the window to face him. His first question took Gabriel aback. “Do you know where your wife is, Agent Dean?”
“Isn’t she here?” His gaze swung to the second visitor, who’d just emerged from the baby’s room. It was Helen Glasser from the Justice Department, her silver hair pulled back in a tight ponytail, starkly emphasizing the worried lines of her face.
“The bedroom window’s wide open,” she said.
“How did you two get in here?”
“Your building super let us in,” said Glasser. “We couldn’t wait any longer.”
“Where’s Jane?”
“That’s what we’d like to know.”
“She should be here.”
“How long have you been gone? When did you last see your wife?”
He stared at Glasser, unnerved by the urgency in her voice. “I’ve been gone about an hour. I drove her mother home.”
“Has Jane called you since you left?”
“No.” He started toward the telephone.
“She doesn’t answer her cell, Agent Dean,” said Glasser. “We’ve already tried reaching her. We need to reach her.”
He turned to look at them. “What the hell is going on?”
Glasser asked, quietly: “Is she with Mila right now?”
“The girl never showed up at the …” He paused. “You already knew that. You were watching the park, too.”
“That girl is our last witness,” said Glasser. “If she’s with your wife, we need to know.”
“Jane and the baby were alone here when I left.”
“Then where are they now?”
“I don’t know.”
“You understand, Agent Dean, that if Mila is with her, Jane is in a very dangerous situation.”
“My wife knows how to take care of herself. She wouldn’t walk into anything without making damn sure she’s prepared.” He crossed to the drawer where Jane usually stored her weapon and found the drawer unlocked. He yanked it open and stared at the empty holster.
She took her gun.
“Agent Dean?”
Gabriel slammed the drawer shut and went into the bedroom. As Glasser had reported, the window was wide open. Now he was scared. He walked back into the living room and felt Glasser’s gaze searching his face, reading his fear.
“Where would she go?” Glasser said.
“She’d call me, that’s what she’d do.”
“Not if she thought her phone was tapped.”
“Then she’d go to the police. She’d drive straight to Schroeder Plaza.”
“We’ve already called Boston PD. She’s not there.”
“We need to find that girl,” said Barsanti. “We need her alive.”
“Let me try her cell phone one more time. Maybe this is nothing at all. Maybe she just ran out to the store to buy milk.” Right. And she took her gun with her. He picked up the receiver and was about to punch in the first number when he suddenly frowned, his gaze on the keypad. A long shot, he thought. But just maybe …
He pressed redial.
After three rings, a man answered. “Hello?”
Gabriel paused, trying to place the voice. Knowing he had heard it before. Then he remembered. “Is this … Peter Lukas?”
“Yes.”
“It’s Gabriel Dean. Would Jane happen to be there?”
There was a long silence. A strange silence. “No. Why?”
“Your number’s on our redial. She must have called you.”
“Oh, that.” Lukas gave a laugh. “She wanted all my notes on the Ballentree story. I told her I’d dig them up.”
“When was that?”
“Let me think. It was about an hour ago.”
“And that was it? She didn’t say anything else?”
“No. Why?”
“I’ll keep calling around, then. Thanks.” He hung up and stood staring down at the phone. Thinking about that silence when Lukas had not immediately answered his question. Something is very wrong.
“Agent Dean?” said Glasser.
He turned and looked at her. “What do you know about Peter Lukas?”
The hole was now knee-deep.
Jane scooped up another spadeful of dirt and heaved it onto the growing mound of soil. Her tears had stopped, to be replaced by sweat. She worked in silence. The only sounds were the scraping of the shovel and the clatter of pebbles. Regina was quiet, too, as though she understood that there was no longer any point of making a fuss. That her fate, like that of her mother’s, had already been decided.
No it hasn’t. Goddammit, nothing has been decided.
Jane rammed the spade into stony soil, and though her back ached and her arms were quivering, she felt the heat of rage flood her muscles like the most potent of fuel. You won’t hurt my baby, she thought. I will rip off your head first. She heaved the soil onto the mound, her aches and fatigue unimportant now, her mind focused on what she had to do next. The killer was only a silhouette standing at the edge of the trees. Though she could not see his face, she knew he must be watching her. But she’d been digging for nearly an hour, her efforts stymied by the rocky soil, and his attention would be flagging. What resistance, after all, could an exhausted woman mount against an armed man? She had nothing working in her favor.
Only surprise. And a mother’s rage.
His first shot would be rushed. He’d go for the torso first, not the head. No matter what, just keep moving, she thought, keep charging. A bullet takes time to kill, and even a falling body has momentum.
She bent to scrape up another load of dirt, her spade deep in the hole’s shadow, hidden from the beam of his flashlight. He could not see her muscles tense, or her foot brace itself against the edge of the hole. He did not hear her intake of breath as her hands clamped around the shovel handle. She crouched, limbs coiled tight.
This is for you, my darling baby. All for you.
Lifting the spade into the air, she flung the soil at the man’s face. He stumbled backward, grunting in surprise, as she sprang out of the hole. As she charged headfirst, straight at his abdomen.
They both went down, branches snapping under the weight of their bodies. She lunged for his weapon, her hands closing around his wrist, and suddenly realized he was no longer holding it, that it had been knocked from his grasp when they’d fallen.
The gun. Find the gun!
She twisted away and clawed through underbrush, scrabbling for the weapon.
The blow knocked her sideways. She landed on her back, breathless from the impact. At first she felt no pain, only the numb shock that the battle was so quickly over. Her face began to sting, and then the real pain shrieked its way into her skull. She saw that he was standing above her, his head blotting out the stars. She heard Regina screaming, the final wails of her short life. Poor baby. You’ll never know how much I loved you.
“Get in the hole,” he said. “It’s deep enough now.”
“Not my baby,�
�� she whispered. “She’s so small—”
“Get in, bitch.”
His kick thudded into her ribs and she rolled onto her side, unable to scream because it hurt so much just to breathe.
“Move,” he commanded.
Slowly she struggled to her knees and crawled to Regina. Felt something warm and wet trickling from her nose. Gathering the baby into her arms, she pressed her lips to soft wisps of hair and rocked back and forth, her blood dripping onto her baby’s head. Mommy has you. Mommy will never let you go.
“It’s time,” he said.
THIRTY-SEVEN
Gabriel stared into Jane’s parked Subaru, and his heart gave a sickening lurch. Her cell phone was on the dashboard, and the baby seat was buckled into the back. He turned, aiming his flashlight directly at Peter Lukas’s face.
“Where is she?”
Lukas’s gaze flitted to Barsanti and Glasser, who were standing a few feet away, watching the confrontation in silence.
“This is her car,” said Gabriel. “Where is she?”
Lukas raised his hand to shield his eyes against the glare of the flashlight. “She must have knocked on my door while I was in the shower. I didn’t even notice that her car was parked out here.”
“First she calls you, then she comes to your house. Why?”
“I don’t know—”
“Why?” Gabriel repeated.
“She’s your wife. Don’t you know?”
Gabriel went for the man’s throat so quickly that Lukas didn’t have time to react. He stumbled backward against Barsanti’s car, his head slamming onto the hood. Gasping for air, he clawed at Gabriel’s hands but could not free himself, could only flail helplessly, his back pinned against the car.
“Dean,” said Barsanti. “Dean!”
Gabriel released Lukas and backed away, breathing hard, trying not to give in to panic. But it was already there, gripping his throat as surely as he had gripped Lukas, who was now down on his knees, coughing and wheezing. Gabriel turned to the house. Ran up the steps and banged through the front door. Moving at a blur now, he ran from room to room, opening doors, checking closets. Only when he came back into the living room did he spot what he had missed on the first pass: Jane’s car keys, lying on the carpet behind the couch. He stared down at them, panic freezing into dread. You were in this house, he thought. You and Regina …
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