That night I sleep holding Heaven in my arms and I never want to let go. I will truly go through every end of Heaven or Hell for this girl and I have a feeling that Hell may not be too far away.
Skylar
I lay here in his arms until I know he is asleep. I don’t know what suddenly changed to allow all of this to just happen. I’m not sure just how I am supposed to feel right now, but it’s definitely not like this. I don’t expect this. I feel like I have betrayed Sebastian, even though we aren’t together anymore. How can I feel this way now when it felt so wonderful at the time? I stand and secure my robe around my body.
I glance back over my shoulder at the handsome man in my bed. Lucas looks beyond gorgeous lying there on his stomach with his dragon tattoo exposed. Thank heavens we hadn’t actually had sex. Even though I thought I could, I can’t do that right now. When he came to my door, my body had been still humming from my dream with Sebastian. Did I just imagine Lucas as Sebastian? I think I had actually. What is wrong with me?
I look over at the letter still lying on the desk and anger rushes over me. Damn you, Sebastian! Damn you for making me still love you! Damn you for ruining this for me! I don’t care what this fucking letter says anymore! I have to break free from this hold I allow him to still have over me. I crumble up the letter in my hands with the envelope and toss it in the trashcan nearby. It’s done. It’s over. I never needed to read that letter anyways. It changes nothing. I have everything I will ever need in Lucas. Maybe I’m not where I want to be, but I’ll get there. I will make myself get there. I slide open the balcony doors and quietly walk outside. As I watch the sun peek above the horizon, I wrap my arms around my body.
There’s a chill in the air. It is the same feeling I had in Austin and I try to shake it off. There is no way he’s here. It’s just my nerves from earlier. I look down below at the city as it tries to come to life and I walk back inside my suite. Making my way back to my bed, I snuggle back in against Lucas. He instantly wraps his arm around me and nuzzles my neck. I feel his hand slip into mine and we entwine fingers. Looking over at the garbage can, I see the crumpled letter peeking out the top. I close my eyes and shove back the tears that threaten to fall.
This is a new day. Starting today, I am free of Sebastian Thorne. He will never again have such hold over me. Now, if I can repeat that a million times, I might actually trick myself into believing it.
Sebastian
I secure the onyx mask to my face as the vehicle pulls up to the entrance of the building. My driver opens the door and I step out onto the long red carpet that leads to the old historical theater building. With guests arriving in decorative disguises, it is a complete guessing game for the media and I love it.
Large double doors open into a massive room of colors and lights. Even though I am sure that my mask conceals my identity, I can’t help but be paranoid as I make my way into the large crowd. I can feel her presence and for the first time in a long time, the pain lessens in my chest. Instantly, I begin looking across the room that is full of masks and feathers, in search for any indication of her. I close my eyes and I instantly feel our connection. It electrifies the air and I zone in on the beautiful vixen just across from me. A silver mask full of black feathers and sequins covers the top portion of her eyes. That dress gives me an instant hard on! Sweet Jesus!
Her long silver dress hugs her curvaceous body in every sinfully perfect way. The top of the dress crosses at the bodice, lays over one shoulder, and then scoops down low in the back. Black stilettos peek out the bottom front of her gown as the fabric flares loosely at her feet. Her long locks are now pinned loosely on top of her head. She looks exactly like she stepped out of 1920’s Hollywood. Even from across the crowded room, her beautiful turquoise eyes glowed through the eyeholes of the mask, revealing her hidden identity to me. I need no other confirmation; the magnetic pull mixed with the energy in the air is overwhelming.
As if she senses me, she slowly turns and faces my direction, but I turn away quickly and retreat further to the back of the room. She frantically begins scanning the room of masked faces and I realize she had indeed sensed my presence. It is undeniable what we both share and it cannot be fought. She can try to deny if she wants, but we complete each other in every way. Suddenly she jumps, as a hand wraps around her small waist and pulls her close while whispering into her ear. The whisper earns a large smile in return, as well as a tender kiss on the lips. Lucas. I feel like I am going to be sick, yet here I am completely frozen in my spot. She glances back once more across the room just before he grabs her hand and leads her through the crowd.
From the back of the room, my eyes never leave her as she makes her way around the room speaking to the other guests. Her newly found confidence is reflected in the way she moves about the place. Gone is the shy unsure girl that I fell in love with; however, I can’t be more proud to see this side of her. It is sexy as fuck. Several men begin announcing to the guests that they are to gather outside for the unveiling. I watch as Lucas places his hand on the small of her back and leads her to the glass patio doors. I remain far enough behind that I can still blend in without being detected.
Two short, heavyset men that I immediately recognize as Oliver Kingston and John Gilbert remove their masks as Lucas leads Skylar up the large platform. They begin their speech about the design project and I zone in as Skylar begins removing her mask.
Breathtaking… she is simply breathtaking.
Oliver announces the reveal and I observe John tugging on the long black fabric covering the design. Applause erupts as a beaming Oliver and John point to a now blushing Skylar. There’s my shy girl. Part of my sweet beautiful girl is still in there.
The logo is simply phenomenal. The tall new metal sculpture sits in the middle of a beautiful fountain of water. Blue lights glow up through the water and illuminate the twisting metal. The use of different metals allows for magnificent formation as the trademark GK works its way in the middle. I watch as many congratulate her while she poses with them for pictures.
Originally my plans were to just see her, but now I crave her touch on my skin. I know there is no way that I can walk away without feeling her. Lucas joins them for the final few shots and I realize I have to do something quickly. I can’t just sit back and wonder any longer if she read the letter or not. I need to tell her everything for myself. Without hesitating, I scribble a note that I slip into the server’s hand along with a hundred dollar bill and request it to be taken directly to her. I move up the stairs and quickly make my way to the roof. Taking a deep breath, I now place our love in fate’s hands and pray.
Skylar
Relief washes over me when I hear applause for my design. Lucas leans in and whispers, “Breathe, baby,” in my ear before walking over to shake hands with clients. This new trademark for Kingston Gilbert had been a hard design to complete, with so many specifics from both Oliver and John, but I seemed to have managed a perfect blend. I am securing my mask back on as a young waiter hands me a note. Thinking it must be from Lucas, I open it.
Meet me on the rooftop.
I smile as I make my way up the stairs, excusing myself to the other guests around me. I know it is rude to leave them, but I didn’t want to ruin Lucas’ romantic plan either. Braving a glance over my shoulder, I don’t spot him anywhere in the crowded room.
Thankfully my day had been busy preparing for tonight’s event so we haven’t discussed what happened between us last night. I do love him; really I know I do. It’s just that I can’t give him my whole heart, because as much as I fight it, a huge part of me still belongs to Sebastian.
Lucas is so incredible, and I find myself wanting nothing more than to give myself to him. Why couldn’t I have met him first? He loves me and would never hurt me. Forever with him would bring me such happiness and peace. I am determined to try so very hard, but Sebastian’s still there in my head and in my heart.
I turn the rooftop door and the cool wind catches my breath. I
rub my arms for warmth as I look around for Lucas, but I am all alone. Thinking I must have beaten him upstairs, I move to the rail and look up at the glorious stars above me. My mind drifts back to the night on the beach wrapped in a blanket with Sebastian as he held me against him. I think about how blissful our lovemaking had been under the diamond sky that night. Pain fills my chest and I try to shove the memory away before he gets up here. I must really be losing it because I have felt Sebastian all day, especially here tonight. I feel warmth behind me and the cool wind carries the electricity and his intoxicating flavor in the air.
“You look absolutely stunning tonight, Skylar,” his words touch me like silk caressing my soul. Sebastian. My breath hitches when I feel his hand on my now trembling shoulders. I feel his warmth increase behind me as he breathes in my hair like he had always loved to do. He rubs his hands up and down my arms to warm me and rests his forehead to the back of my neck. I am shaking so badly I don’t know what to do. I am supposed to hate him, but I need him more than I needed air at the moment.
“God, I’ve missed you! I’ve.So.Incredibly.Missed.You,” he says, kissing my neck slowly between each word. I close my eyes and an unprecedented desire fills my body. “I have dreamt of this for so long, Skylar. I love you so much, my beautiful girl. I just can’t stay away from you another second.” He turns me to look at him and my knees go weak at the sight of his handsome face and those warm amber eyes.
Seven months, seven agonizing long months, two hundred and fourteen days to be exact since these arms have held me. His gentle hands clasp my face and I whisper his name, “Sebastian.”
He closes his eyes, “Please say my name again, baby…God, I’ve missed that,” he says breathlessly as he traces his mouth across my bottom lip. One touch and I am lost in him. I’m falling so fast that I am weak in his arms, but I know despite everything, it is him who I want to catch me.
At this moment on the roof, it’s like nothing matters but the two of us. I don’t care about the past; right now I have part of myself back. I am complete again and I know it is because of him. I feel safe even in the arms of the man who had betrayed me. I feel safe because I know deep down he is the other half of my soul.
Sebastian
Treasures like her are sought by the richest of men, yet I would give everything up to be with her. I am completely drunk on her presence. Touching her after all this time apart ignites a craving I can never fill in a million lifetimes. Just tracing her lips with mine gives me the greatest erotic high I have ever had. I am afraid to move my hand from her face. If this is a mirage, I don’t want it to disappear. I will gladly take hallucinations rather than live one more day on this Earth without her in my arms. But as I blink, I realize that she is beautifully real and standing right here before me.
I see her struggling to control her breathing and I know exactly what that feels like. I reach and grasp the back of her neck and she instantly closes her eyes and leans away, exposing her neck to me. I waste no time trailing kisses down her jaw to her neck. I feel her shaking and I hear her whispering my name again. “Sebastian.”
Working my way feverishly back up to her I bite her skin and feel her grab tighter around me. I look back down to feel the power behind those incredible eyes of hers. In this moment, there is no hate or disgust in them; there is only love and desire.
“I love you. God, how I love you, my beautiful girl.”
I’m looking at such intense beauty. She can rival anyone. I’m not talking about her stunning outward features; I’m talking about what I see in those blazing eyes of hers. This is why I am so madly enslaved to her soul.
I crash my lips onto hers and our tongues violently swirl against one another as we hold on for dear life to each other. I’d gladly kiss her to my last breath. God could take me himself after tonight because I will happily drown in her bliss.
I feel my jacket be tugged off and then I feel her magical hands upon my skin. I don’t even realize my shirt is gone from my body because I am too busy reaching for her hidden zipper of this incredible dress she is about to not be wearing. I say about, because I am about to rip it off her fucking body.
My cock is begging to be coated with her warm essence and glide into her warm sweet tight folds. As much as I want that, I have to taste her first. I know it is a battle between my cock and my mouth and once my cock is in her I know there will never be a chance to drink up her sweet honey. I fall to my knees before her and shove her dress up above her waist.
I place my hands on the sides of her hips and pull her closer to me as I move my tongue down the front of her panties. I can smell her sweet flavor and I gently bite the silk and tug at it with my teeth. I’ve lost control now as I grasp the fabric with my hands and jerk. I hear the familiar rip and I waste no time diving into her glorious sex. Like a starved wild animal I suck and lick as she writhes above me in pleasure. Working my fingers inside her, she screams out and I feel the flow of her juices as they drain into my mouth.
“SEBASTIAN!” She screams and jerks my hair, as I continue drinking her pleasure down.
She is so fucking delicious!
I stand and she begins jerking my belt loose and frantically works me free from my pants. In one movement she yanks them below my ass and I waste no time as my starving cock springs free. I grab her waist and she jumps and wraps her legs around me. In one desperate motion I slam into her. After one glide into her wet entry, I am already ready to explode. FUCK! Over and over, I thrust up into her as she slams downwards onto my cock. Skin upon skin slaps against one another echoing a wild slapping noise into the air. Deeper and Deeper I shove into her. I don’t want to hurt her, but I can’t control my desperation to bury my cock as deeply as I can into her.
Her inner walls clench down around me so tightly that I swear she is going to strangle my cock. Energy spirals through us and we scream out for each other as I fill her up with my hot thick seed.
“I love you!” I scream as I continue to still pulsate my load into her.
“I love you, too!” She whispers and I feel my heart soar.
She still loves me! I slide her down my body and then lift her back into my arms. I am in no way done with her yet. My cock is still hard as fucking concrete and her desire still rages in her eyes.
I walk her over to the padded lounge sofa and place her feet back on the ground. She never drags her eyes away from mine as she reaches to unclasp the jewel on her shoulder. I watch as the silver fabric slips down her body and pools to her feet. My eyes drink every inch of her sinful body in. I walk closer to her and ease her back on the padded lounger. Tenderly I trail my finger from her lips down to her jeweled belly ring. There is no longer a chill in this late night air, the heat of our passion has us burning up. We don’t speak; we only feel this time. Our frantic motions before, are now replaced by slow and gentle ones. I lock my hands with hers as I ease my way in and out of her body. I can feel the tears in my eyes when I see our fingers connected.
This is the way it is meant to be. Her body reacts so beautifully to mine. There is no doubt we are made only for each other. Please GOD, tell me she sees this, too! I only pray Lucas has never experienced this with her. She is my life and I don’t want any part of her to belong to anyone else. I open my eyes and lock my stare with hers. Tears are in her eyes and I gently wipe them away with my thumb. Slow sensual movements arouse every nerve ending in my cock and trigger her over the edge. When she squeezes my hands I smile. As she opens her mouth to gasp for air, I feel myself falling even farther for her. I thought that is impossible. When we climax, it is again together and spellbinding. Even though I’ve said this before, nothing has ever been as magnificent as this night, with her.
She tries to steady her breathing as I collapse on top of her. I can feel her heart pounding and I can’t help but grin into her chest. We lay like this without speaking for a while longer before she suddenly pushes upwards on my body. Confused, I look down at her panicked face.
“Get off of me, Se
bastian! Now! Get off!” She screams and I roll over to allow her to stand.
“Baby, what is it? Skylar? What’s wrong?” I ask as I watch her grab for her dress. I yank on my pants and fasten my belt as she staggers back into her heels beside the lounge sofa.
“Everything is wrong! How can you say that? Oh my GOD! What is wrong with me? I can’t believe I…that we..!” She cries, trembling as she tries to zip her dress up.
“Stop it, baby! You know this meant something. I felt it and I know you did, too!” I say as I grab her shaking hands into mine. “Look at me!” I scream at her but she won’t look up at me. She is glancing at the ground looking defeated and ashamed. Why? How can she regret this?
Finally she looks up at me through her thick lashes and teary eyes and I have to swallow the pain I feel inside. She can’t regret this. She just can’t!
I hear the metal door slam against the wall. I don’t care who it is. I won’t let her go this time.
She yanks free and runs, but I am right behind her. There is no way I am letting her slip away again. I just want another chance. Just one more chance to show her every day how much I love her and need her. Just one more chance to show her how I suffer every day for the mistakes of my past. I need just one more chance for happiness. Please God! I’ve begged for everyone’s forgiveness. Just give me one more chance with her!
As she moves past Lucas, she stops.
“I’m so sorry,” she whispers loud enough for me to hear it and my heart sinks. He turns to face me, but I make a dash to run after her.
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