by Morin, Clara
It was after when I lost him; I realized how much I was in love with him.
I didn’t realize how nights turned into days and days into months. It was already a month since I lost Xavier – 30 days to be precise, but not even 30 seconds could have passed when I didn’t think of him. He was in every thought of mine. It was only him that I wanted to see whenever I opened my eyes. It was only his image that would appear in front of me whenever I would close my eyes.
My mother knew that something was definitely off and wanted to figure out that mystery. I, on the other hand, couldn’t even face her. I knew Xavier’s secret and somehow my mother was also a part of it. That was not my fight. I had no rights to let my mother experience her heartbreak all over again, because after losing Xavier, I realized how painful it could be.
“Is everything alright, Emily? You have not been yourself lately,” my mother asked me one day as she came and sat with me when I was browsing something on the web.
“Nothing mom. I am absolutely fine!” I said, almost automatically.
“I am not stupid, kid. I know that something is wrong with you and I am pretty sure that it is related to Xavier. It has been a month since I have seen him. You two were inseparable and now I don’t even see him around. Is it related to him? You can talk to me, Emily. I know I can’t give you a solution to your problem, but I promise you that I will listen to you carefully and sometimes that is all that you need. I am sure you will feel better after sharing it with me,” my mother said and made me realize how right she was.
“I think you would be able to understand, mom. Every one of us has been through our share of heartbreaks, right? I loved Xavier mom, I still do, but I pushed him away and now he is gone. I don’t know what I was thinking. I told him to leave me and he did. He is gone now, forever and he is not coming back. I don’t know how to make sense of anything around me without him. It was like he has such an integral part of me, mom and I don't know how to exist without him. I can’t. I can’t do this,” I said as I hugged her and let my tears fall on her shoulders.
“Ah! I know what you are going through, Emily. True love comes once in a lifetime. Sometimes, people waste their entire life looking for love, but they are just not able to find you. If you really think that he was your one true love, then you should make an effort to reach out to him. Tell him that you love him and that you want him back. It won’t hurt at all, trust me. It will be worth it!” she said as she brushed my hair and made me believe that there was still some hope for me.
“But how, mom? He is gone to some other place. I don’t have any other medium of contacting him. I can’t tell him how much I love him,” I said as I couldn’t tell her the truth. I couldn’t tell her that Xavier was an alien and has gone to some other planet.
“When you love someone, you are always connected to them. You don’t need any cell phone or these social networking sites to reach out to him, darling. You are connected with your hearts and all you need to do is simply call his name out loud,” she said as she pointed to my heart that was barely breathing without him.
Maybe, she was right. I needed to give it a try as I was not losing anything at all. I knew that I was not able to express my feelings towards him very well in the past, but I was ready to make amends. I wanted to have one more chance of a life with him and I was not ready to give it away. Not that easily.
“Thank you, mom! You are the best!” I said as I hugest her and thanked her for the piece of advice. I knew that I had to tell her the truth but I was just waiting for the right moment. Maybe, a couple of years down the lane or even after a few days, I would let her know about Xavier and his identity, but I knew that it was certainly not the right time. One day, she will know about him and how much my first love meant to me. But till that day, I needed to make sure that I have Xavier by my side so that I could tell that news to my mother with him.
I went straight to my room and closed my door as I needed some time alone. I closed my eyes and kept looking at our picture that was set as the wallpaper of my phone. I knew that I couldn’t exist without him. I needed him to survive – to breathe. I needed him to exist.
“Where are you, Xavier? Come back to me,” I said as a tear dropped out of my eyes while my eyes were still fixed at his perfect smile.
“I love you, Xavier. I am sorry for letting you go or for lashing out that day. I am not angry at you. I can never be angry at you. Love comes in different shades and maybe ours was a bitter one, but now I know that the world can’t exist in black and white. You are my red and my blue. You are all the shades that I need to complete my world.
I was immature. I was foolish. I didn’t know your worth when you were here with me. Now, when you are gone, I know how much you meant to me. They say that lovers don’t need any other way to communicate. Their hearts are always connected to each other. So if you could listen to me right now. If you could really hear me saying this, then give me a sign. Come back to me, Xavier. Come back and make me whole again, because I can’t go on and live my life like this. I can’t be incomplete my whole life,” I said as I closed my eyes.
I was not determined to open them. Not before getting Xavier back to my life. Tears were flowing like rainfall from my eyes as I was inconsolable.
“I love you too, Emily!” I finally heard his voice and I didn’t need to open my eyes to know if it was him or not. He came back to me. He was the guy that I fell in love with. Xavier was back.
Chapter 8:
“Oh God! Is this a dream?” I said the moment I opened my eyes and ran towards him. I wrapped him in my arms with no intentions to let him go. He finally came back to me and for a moment, I couldn’t believe it was happening. It was too good to be true.
“This is not a dream, Emily. I am here. I was able to listen to your voice in my sleep. I knew that you needed me here and I still had a few energy left in the teleportation unit to take me back to earth. Your mother is right. When two lovers are connected to each other, they don’t even need to say anything. They would sense each other’s heartbeat and feel every emotion.
I was able to feel your agony and your regret. I was able to hear each and every word that you said and coming back to you seemed to like the best thing. I was terrible without you too, Emily. I was not able to go on and live without you. You have no idea how amazing you are!” he said as he hugged me and made me believe that it was not too late for me. I could still get my happy ending now when I had him by my side.
“I am sorry, Xavier. I really am. I don’t know what I was thinking that day. You are the love of my life and I should have never pushed you like that. I promise that I will never make you feel anything like that again!” I said as I hugged him and let my tears escape on his shirt.
“I am sorry too, Emily. I should have listened to you. I know I just imposed myself to you and was including science in something as sacred as love. I am sorry. I will never do that again. We don’t have to. When it comes to love, everything needs to be effortless!” he said and made me believe that he had certainly changed.
I could certainly feel that Xavier had changed and for the good. There was nothing else that I needed. I have found everything that I was looking for in him and I just didn’t want to let him go.
I leaned toward him and locked our lips. The moment our tongues met, I realized how much I missed his touch and his warmth. He was indeed irreplaceable and I wanted to celebrate our union in the most memorable way. We kept kissing each other and I loved how I was able to get his eternal taste on the tip of my tongue. We parted our lips, but his taste was left to linger inside me for a very long time.
“I have missed you so much!” he said as he kept kissing me and turned me on with the warmth of his tongue. He lay me down on my bed as he took off my blouse and unhooked my bra in order to welcome my breasts with his tongue.
“Oh God! Yes!” I started to moan as he took my bosom in his hands and started to squeeze them. He bit my nipples a few times and made them erect with his awesome mov
es. I was certainly getting excited with every passing moment and wanted to cherish our union.
“You are so sexy, Emily!” he said as he took my skirt off and accompanied my panties with it. I wanted to see him naked too and unbuttoned his shirt to admire his well-sculptured chest.
“So are you, Xavier!” I said as I started to rub his chest. I took his pants and underwear off in order to make him completely naked. He had an amazing physique and I couldn’t stop admiring it. It was as if each and every inch of it was flawless and he wasn’t looking less than any Greek God.
I took a firm grip on his dick and started to massage it. He had a huge cock and with every stroke that I was making, his dick was getting a little more erect and hard. I could feel a thick stream of blood pumping in his dick and he got excited.
Xavier was certainly getting aroused as he started to suck my breasts and took them in his mouth. I loved how he was able to savor every inch of my skin. There was an amazing warmth in his mouth and I was finding it hard to resist. I knew that I could simply melt in his mouth anytime as he was so hot.
We went down from my bosom to my stomach as she kept savoring every inch of my body.
“I have waited for his moment for so long, Emily. I have crossed an entire galaxy to be with you!” Xavier said as he kept circling his tongue around my navel and made me shiver. I was simply a feeble flame, but he was able to set me on fire and made me burn with desire.
I was hungry for his dick as well but he wanted to have a taste of me on his tongue before I could commence any move. He went all the way to my vagina and started to circle his tongue all around it. I could feel his presence around my labia as gradually inside of me as he pushed his tongue into my hole.
He was able to touch just the correct points in order to elevate my pleasure and made me scream his name loudly. He lubricated my hole in just the right way and made realize the kind of amazing things that one could do with their tongue. As he made me scream out loud and let me surpass my limits, I kept stroking his dick furiously. I could feel his dick beating profoundly in my hands and I knew that he was getting hornier with every passing moment.
“Oh God! Fuck me, Xavier! Make me yours!” I started to scream as I sensed his tongue circling all around my vagina and made me moan out loud.
He smiled as he looked at me and realized how much I was craving for his massive cock. He kissed my lips as he started to push his long and thick dick inside me. My vagina was waiting for his for so long and the moment he touched my insides, I felt like the missing piece of me was found.
“Yes! That’s it, baby. Take it in!” he said as he started to penetrate my hole and with one final push, he touched the tip of my insides. That was more than enough for me to realize that I was floating in an utter state of bliss.
“Yes! That’s it! Yes!” I said as he hit just the right spot. His hands were still on my breasts as he kept playing with them. He would pinch my nipples and make them erect while squeezing my breasts. Inch by inch, he was making me feel every move that his dick was making in my vagina.
He didn’t take a break or halted in between. He kept pressing his dick inside and made me reach the tip of my pleasure. I was really close to my climax and knew that it was only Xavier, who could satisfy my needs. In a perfect rhythm, he kept fucking me and made me ask for more.
After a long and satisfying session, we both realized that we have reached the peak of our orgasm and won’t be able to control anymore. He made one strong push as he touched my G-spot and made me climax at the same time. He ejaculated inside me and filled me with everything that he had got. As the walls of my vagina surrendered to his masculinity, he made me reach a sexual peak that was not known to me before.
We both reached our threshold at the same time and came while looking at each other.
“This was just perfect!” I said as I opened my mouth and filled it with his tongue. We both were breathing heavily as we were trying to catch our breaths and fill our lungs with some oxygen. It was indeed an intense session of love-making, the kind of pleasure that would certainly stay with me for a long time.
“Will you go back to Anerasa?” I asked him as I had no idea about the duration of his stay.
“No. I have no intentions to leave this planet, Emily. Not anytime soon. I have come here for you and though it took me very long to convince my father, but at the end of the day, he understood it. I knew that he was the only person who could understand me and once, he felt the same thing for your mother. After a heated debate, he let me go. He let me go, Emily!” he smiled as he said those words. I couldn’t believe that he was able to sacrifice his home and his family for me.
“Do you miss them?” I asked him.
“I do. But when I was there away from you – I was missing you more. Loving you was hard, Emily, but losing you was harder. I have no regrets. I know this is where I belong – with you!” the moment he said those words, I realized how much I meant to him and felt blessed to have him by my side.
“Tell me that you will never leave me. Tell me that you will stay by my side no matter what and will make this kind of passionate love to me every night,” I said as I kept looking at his hypnotizing brown eyes. We both have gone through a lot of things in the past and now when I got him, I was certainly scared of losing him. I knew that I won’t be able to survive the second heartbreak as losing Xavier was the last thing that I could think of.
“I promise that I will never leave you, Emily. We are going to stay together till eternity. No matter what – I will always love you. I will love you even when you are upset or angry. I will love you even when you will gain ten pounds or will lose your memory. I will love till the end of time, Emily. That’s my promise,” as he said those words, a tear rolled out of my eyes. I realized that he meant each and every word of it.
It is not very rare when you find someone to love who is as good and honest as Xavier. He was the love of my life and our story was written in the stars. As we both stayed in my bed, completely naked, I knew that my story had just begun.
We had the rest of eternity to explore each other and the best chapter was yet to come. It was just the beginning of our journey and I couldn’t wait for the rest of it.
THE END