Losing Pieces of Me

by Briner, Rose

  I expect anger when he reaches me. For him to scream at me or push me and tell me I’ve trapped him with a kid he’ll never want or love, but he surprises me by dropping to his knees before me and hugging my waist. He moves my shirt up and places his lips against my stomach causing me to squeeze my eyes shut. He then pulls me forward so he can wrap his arms around me and hold me close. There’s nothing I can do, but wrap my hands around his head and hold him close. I don’t know what this means, if this is his way of telling me he accepts the baby or that he wants the baby, or even his way of saying goodbye to his child.

  I let him go and lean back against the counter as he stands from the floor and stares down at me. His eyes search mine before he smiles brightly at me and hugs me against him. When he pulls back, he stands before me and brings his lips down to rest of my forehead. He stays like that holding me for several minutes before he finally pulls back from me.

  “Please tell me this means what I think it does,” he pleads with me.

  “I don’t follow,” he’s confusing me, I need to be clear with exactly what he’s trying to say right now.

  “That we’re having a baby.”

  “Oh, that,” I say slowly. “Yes, we are having a baby together. You can be involved as much or as little as you’d like to be. I’m not going to force you to be in his or her life, Jayden. If you decide you don’t want to be with me now that’s fine, I’m not going to keep the baby from you.”

  He snorts at me and looks down at me in disbelief, “Will you shut up already and kiss me? I don’t care what you did to get to me, all that matters, is that we are together now, Mireya. Meeting you was the best thing that ever happened to me and I don’t care how we ended up meeting. If anything, it makes an interesting story for us to tell our friends and family.”

  I stand there with my mouth hanging open and stare up at him in shock.

  He chuckles as he brings me into his arms and brings his face in close to mine. I try to move forward to kiss him, but he pulls back just enough so I can’t reach him.

  “What this means Mireya, is that right after this kiss you are coming home with me and never leaving again, that’s what this means and if you have a problem with that I really don’t care,” he says as he brings his lips down to mine.

  I pour everything I have into that kiss. All my hurt, all my pain, and all the love I feel in my heart for this man.

  When he pulls back and rests his forehead against mine, I whisper, “I love you,” up to him as he stares down at me.

  He smiles before he replies, “I love you too, Mireya. Forever and always.”

  Epilogue

  If someone had told me a year ago I would be married to a billionaire and having his baby, I would’ve asked them if they needed a ride to the loony bin. Katrina herself still can’t believe that not only are Jayden and myself back together but that we are also expecting a baby in a few months. Three more months to be exact until our daughter is born. She promised she’ll try to make it up to see the baby, but she’s off at college trying to make a new life for herself. The time has come for her to spread her wings and find her place in this world. I wish she had stayed with me, I love my sister to death, but if she needs the space to find herself, then who am I to stop her from doing just that?

  “Are you happy, baby?” asks Jayden as he sits himself down beside me by the pool. The day is nice outside so he convinced me to come and sit outside with him in the sun. I feel like a giant balloon and didn’t want to put on a bathing suit and outside, but he insisted that I do just that.

  “I am,” I turn and smile at him lovingly.

  “Come here,” he replies gruffly as he settles himself down further into his chair.

  I don’t hesitate as I stand from my chair and make my way around to him. Instead of allowing me to sit on the edge, he pulls me forward so I am forced to straddle his lap.

  “Show me how happy you are, Mireya,” his voice is laced with desire as he stares up at me. Even if I didn’t know him as well as I do, the erection poking my thigh is all the indication I need that he wants me. I place my hands on the side of the chair and lift myself up so he can pull down his shorts and push the bottom of my suit to the side.

  Normally I would wait for him to guide me slowly down his length, but not today, today I want him too much to play games. Instead, I sink all the way down and start riding him like I didn’t just fuck him an hour ago on the kitchen floor. Our sex life has gone into overdrive since we came home and believe me, I’m not going to complain, I’m horny all the time now. If I’m not eating, I’m begging Jayden to fuck me.

  “I’m going to cum,” I announce as he reaches his hands up to grab my tits through the top of my suit.

  “Already baby?”

  I nod, unable to speak. He takes over and holds me still as he rams himself up deep inside of me. He pushes me over the edge and continues to pump into me until he finds his own orgasm seconds later.

  “I love you darling,” he tells me sweetly as he kisses my forehead. I allow myself to lie on top of him and hug him close.

  “I love you too, baby,” I whisper in his ear as I snuggle against him as best I can. I know I won’t be able to for very much longer.

  I’m going to cherish every single moment I have with this man. The future isn’t ever completely guaranteed, but I had to lose so much of myself to find him and now that I have him, I’m never going to let him go. A love like ours doesn’t come along every single day and I’m not a fool, I’m going to make sure he knows every single second of every day how much I love and adore him.

  Our life together didn’t start off with love in the picture, in fact, I was never supposed to love him, but I do and that at the end of the day, is all that matters. So I’m going to love life and love Jayden because I’ve finally found someone to share my life with and now I am complete once more.

  The End

  Also by Rose Briner:

  Finding the Light

  Losing the Dark

  Lost Innoncence

  About the Author

  I don’t really like to talk about myself, I would rather hear about you. But I guess if I had to say something about myself it would be that I am a Bay Area native. I have lived in the Bay my entire life. I am originally from Belmont but now live in Hayward.

  By day I am a Child Nutrition Assistant, by night I am a reader and writer looking for my next great read. I had so many ideas in my head that eventually I had to get them down on paper before they drove me insane. I have three kids and one cat and when I’m not reading or writing, I enjoy cooking and listening to music.

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