by Naomi Clark
I grunted, not surprised. It was a wonder my parents weren’t already hammering on the door demanding to check me over.
“I’m alright,” I said, poking my lip gingerly. It stung, but it had scabbed over. I’d have a lovely long scar when it healed. I should have shifted last night. “Just a bit sore.”
“I’ve just got off the phone with Greg,” he continued. “He’s not opening up today—Oscar got home last night blazing drunk and smashed the pub up before disappearing again.”
I remembered Moira’s portentous words. “Yeah, he wasn’t in good shape when I saw him.”
“I’ve been telling Greg for days it would come to this, but he wouldn’t listen,” Vince continued. “Anyway, since I’ve got the day off today, I’ll come over and cook you some lunch. Good food always works wonders when you’re feeling rough.”
Chicken soup for the werewolf soul. “Thanks that would be nice.” I glanced at my watch. Shannon and I had both overslept, unsurprisingly. It was nearly noon. “I need to call the police,” I realized, remembering the graffiti. “Alpha Humans tagged our house last night.”
“Shit.” Vince was silent for a second. “Are you and Shannon okay?”
I looked down at my sleeping girlfriend, brushed a lock of hair from her face. “I think so. It’s just paint.” I didn’t mention that it was the second lot of paint. “You haven’t heard about anyone else getting tagged, have you?”
“No, it’s all been fairly quiet since Adam.” I could picture Vince shrugging. “I think all the media attention after that sent them underground again.”
“Yeah.”. Alpha Humans had a bigger following elsewhere, in cities where wolves weren’t as welcome as they were here. Until Adam’s murder, I hadn’t heard any rumors of them being active here. Back where Shannon and I had lived before, there’d been the occasional attack or scuffle between Alpha Humans and wolves, but never anything really serious. There were other activist groups out there too; I guessed Kaye’s People Matter was one of the newer ones. There was a werewolf group called Brother Moon that was dedicated to improving wolf-human relations in third world countries. None of it really interested me. I liked my little corner of the world as it was.
Except for times like now, when it was falling apart around me.
I realized Vince had fallen silent, waiting for me to respond. I couldn’t remember what he’d said though, so I just said, “yeah. What time are you coming over?”
“Give me an hour. I need to stop and pick up some stuff and then I’ll be straight there.”
We hung up and I slid out of bed without waking Shannon. Three nights in a row of fighting, both physically and verbally, had left me tender and stiff and I yearned for a good run in wolf shape. Maybe Vince would be up for it later. I paused to examine myself in the mirror and was surprised to see I didn’t look as bad as I felt. My mouth was a mess, scabbed and bruised, but the rest of me looked pretty normal. It didn’t seem right somehow.
I called Inked to tell Cal I wouldn’t be in today. He bitched and fussed and then gave up, telling me I’d lost a day’s pay. Feeling even lower, I dressed and slunk down to the kitchen to retrieve the bucket and sponge Shannon had used to clean up yesterday’s graffiti. The street outside was empty as I began scrubbing the door clean; the kids at school and the parents at work. The silence grated on me.
An hour later, Vince showed up with a bag overflowing with meat, vegetables, herbs and oils, which he immediately dumped all over the pavement when he saw me.
“This is it then?” he asked unnecessarily, taking in the graffiti.
I stopped scrubbing and wiped my forehead, spilling warm, soapy water over myself in the process. “Yeah, this is it.” My arms ached from scrubbing and I wasn’t really making any headway. It would be quicker to paint the door blood-red and be done with it.
“Maybe Joel has a point about this neighborhood.” Vince retrieved his shopping. “Come on, leave it. I’m making you citrus beef salad.”
Shannon was pacing the kitchen when we went in, talking on her phone and gesturing wildly with her free hand. “Eddie, after what happened— No, no, it’s not—” She caught my eye and made a despairing motion. “It’s not okay, Eddie— Fine, come round. I won’t change my mind.” She slammed the phone down with a vicious curse. “You wolves and your bloody alphas.”
“What’s wrong with him?” Vince asked, spreading ingredients out across the sideboard.
She shrugged, running her hands through her tangled hair. “I told him I wasn’t prepared to help anymore after last night and he told me I had an obligation to see the case through. An obligation! After Ayla gets mutilated by some psycho wolf! He’s coming over here so we can talk sensibly.”
“Well I’m not cooking for him,” Vince said.
I moved to Shannon’s side and squeezed her hand. “He can’t make us do anything,” I said. “We’ve done more than enough—let the alphas take care of it from here.”
She nodded. “You do mean that, don’t you? You’re not going to roll over if Eddie shows his teeth or anything?”
“I mean it.” I touched my lip and smiled ruefully at her. “I’ll tell Eddie what we know about the feral and that’s that.”
Vince snorted as he rummaged through our cupboards. “You’ve been gone a long time, girlfriend.”
FOURTEEN
Vince was dishing up his hot beef salad when Eddie arrived and despite his words, he was obliged to give a share to the alpha. Not that Eddie asked for it, exactly. He didn’t have to. For a few awkward moments we all sat round the table in silence, eating and avoiding each other’s eyes.
“Good food,” Eddie said around a mouthful of noodles. “Really nice, Vince.”
Vince grunted his thanks.
“And how are you this morning, Ayla?” Eddie asked me. “Moira told me about Happy Jack’s. Nasty.”
“Yeah,” I said darkly, stabbing at a chunk of beef. “Nasty.”
“Which is why we’re not helping anymore,” Shannon cut in. “I assume Moira told you that Ayla met the dealer and Oscar confirmed he’s the only one dealing Silver Kiss. So now you know, you can go after him and we don’t need to be involved any further.”
“Or,” I chipped in, “you can report it to the police and let them deal with Sly.”
“The police aren’t going to do anything,” Eddie said. “Even the wolves on the force are reluctant to get involved, because Silver Kiss isn’t illegal.” He stressed the last few words carefully, as if we were small children who didn’t quite get it.
“I don’t get it,” Vince said. “Why’s a feral selling drugs anyway?”
I’d asked myself the same question last night and despite my resentment of Eddie right now, I looked to him for answers.
He pursed his lips and shook his head. “I don’t know. I can’t imagine money’s a factor—why would a feral need cash?” He waved his fork at Vince. “And it’s not just round here, is it? That young wolf in Yorkshire who went missing a few weeks ago was using Silver Kiss too, it turns out.”
“Any idea where he was getting it?” Shannon asked. I nudged her ankle with my foot, trying to remind her that we were backing out, not getting dragged further in.
“I have a theory,” Eddie replied. “That’s why we need to pin down this Sly, see what he knows, see where he’s getting his supplies.”
“Not we,” I said. “Shannon and I aren’t helping anymore.”
Eddie didn’t answer immediately, just toyed with his food and eyed me speculatively. I squirmed in my seat, waiting for the hammer to fall. “Saw the graffiti on the door,” he said finally. “Alpha Humans?”
“Obviously.”
“Wonder why they’re targeting you two now. You’ve been back a while and had no trouble, haven’t you?”
Shannon and I exchanged glances, a flush of worry creeping over me. “What are you getting at?” Shannon asked.
He winked at her. “You’re not the only one capable of detecting, Ms Ryan. I’ve d
one my own share of poking around since this whole mess started.” He tapped the edge of his plate with his knife. “My theory. That kid in Yorkshire was getting his drugs from an Alpha Humans member.”
“What? Why?” I asked, my worry mutating into anger. I would like to have known that before Shannon and I agreed to get involved in this crappy farce of an investigation.
He nodded. “Bad werewolf publicity, you see? The aconite makes the wolves crazy, they start acting up in public and Alpha Humans can say see? Animals. Dangerous. And it’s working—you’ve seen how these kids are acting when they’ve been taking this stuff. And your little punch-up at Jack’s will attract plenty of negative publicity for us, Ayla.”
Well excuse me. I bit my lip, winced and glowered at him. “Alright, I get that. It makes sense. It doesn’t explain Sly.”
“Unless he’s working on Alpha Humans’ behalf here,” Shannon said. “It must be easier for a wolf to sell to a wolf.”
“Possibly,” Eddie agreed. “The sooner we get hold of this feral, the sooner we’ll know.”
“So what does this have to do with our front door?” I demanded.
“If Alpha Humans are involved here like they are in Yorkshire, they might be trying to scare you off,” Eddie said, more to Shannon than me.
She smiled sweetly. “It’s working.”
“The Pack will protect you, Shannon,” he said. “You’re not in any danger.”
“No, because I’m the one taking all the beatings,” I snapped. “Is the Pack protecting me, or am I getting the shit kicked out of me in the line of duty?”
He leveled me with a steely gaze that shut me up as fast as a slap in the face. “If you work with the Pack, Ayla, then yes, you will be protected. If you insist on running off alone, then we can’t help you, can we?”
Was that a reprimand or a threat? Probably both. I sighed and shoved a forkful of cooling meat into my mouth to stop myself swearing at him.
“Anyway,” Eddie continued. “Myself and a couple of other alphas will be setting off to find the feral this evening, and I’d like you come, Ayla.”
“I don’t think so,” Shannon said before I could. “You obviously haven’t paid attention, Eddie. We’ve done our part and we’re not doing anymore. Ayla got really hurt last night—”
“Ayla knows where the feral’s den is,” Eddie interrupted. “And Ayla has an obligation to her Pack to help weed out this predator.”
“Take Glory,” Shannon said. “She was there too.”
Eddie curled his lip at the suggestion. “I don’t think Glenn is the best wolf for the job, do you?”
“What’s in it for Ayla?” Vince asked. I glanced at him in surprise; I’d almost forgotten he was there.
Eddie stared at him incredulously. “This is Pack business!” he boomed. “It’s not a matter for bargaining and dealing!”
“Yeah, but there’s got to be some benefit for Ayla, right?” Vince argued. “She’s already put herself on the line for the Pack against this feral, twice. And if the Pack gets drawn into any…I don’t know, dubious dealings, it’ll affect her chances of getting into the police, won’t it?”
“What are you suggesting, young man?” Eddie pushed his chair back slowly and paced around the table, hovering behind Vince in a display of dominance. Vince twisted in his seat to face Eddie calmly.
“You don’t want the police involved because you think they can’t do anything. So it’s Pack justice, right? Like with Hesketh and Kinsey. A quick, quiet resolution.”
I felt sick suddenly. I’d known, in abstract, what had happened to the two corrupt policemen. I’d tried not to think about it in any real detail. Hearing Vince talk about it now turned my stomach.
Eddie didn’t look any more comfortable. His eyes slid to Shannon. “Can we wolves have a moment of privacy, Ms Ryan?” he asked.
She looked at me and I nodded, heart sinking like a stone. If Alpha Humans really wanted to prove we were nothing but animals, all they had to do was uncover the truth behind Kinsey and Hesketh’s sudden extended career breaks. For all the Pack’s desire to live alongside humans, we’d never fully shaken off our wild side. Never would.
Shannon left the kitchen and Eddie pushed the door shut behind her. Then he slammed his palms down on the table and glared at me and Vince.
“We do not talk about Kinsey and Hesketh,” he said bluntly. “They were dealt with. They’re irrelevant.”
“But I am right, aren’t I?” Vince insisted. “You’re going to kill this feral when you find him.”
Eddie said nothing. He didn’t need to. I dropped my head in my hands, emotions helter-skeltering inside me.
When I’d first come home for Adam’s funeral, I’d wanted revenge for what had been done to him. And when I found out how two coppers were involved, I’d wanted justice meting out to them. Swift, brutal justice. I’d known, of course, what Pack justice was, but I’d never dwelt on it. Adam was a child. Hesketh and Kinsey might not have actually killed him, but they’d desecrated his body and for that, they’d got what they deserved. I believed that. I just didn’t think about it.
In asking me to take him to Sly, Eddie was asking me to participate in his death. Bile rose in my throat.
“Don’t be soft, Ayla,” Eddie said impatiently. “You’re a wolf, a hunter.”
“A hunter of rabbits and deer,” I snapped. “Not other wolves.”
“A hunter,” he repeated firmly. “A hunter protecting her Pack from its enemies.”
“No, no.” I thumped the table. “I’m not doing this. I won’t. Vince is right—I’d never make it onto the police force with this hanging over me.”
“Nobody would know. Who’s going to miss a feral?” Eddie asked.
“It’s not the answer. Sly may be the dealer but he’s not the main supplier, is he? If we get rid of him, whoever supplies him will find someone else to deal for them.” I shook my head. “And we can’t—you can’t take out every bloody Alpha Humans member on the basis that they might be involved.”
“Of course not,” Eddie agreed. “We’d be found out. But one feral…” He shrugged.
I felt dizzy. We could not be sitting in my kitchen discussing murder. I couldn’t believe Eddie was even thinking it. “I won’t do it,” I said again.
He bared his teeth at me, his wolf rising inside him. “Won’t?” he echoed, voice rough with the power of a dominant wolf. He didn’t speak loudly but he might as well have been shouting. Vince and I both flinched and stared at the table. “Alright, Ayla. Fine.”
I looked up, heart skipping. “Fine?”
“We can find the feral without you. He won’t be that hard to track and Glenn can give us a rough idea of where he is.” Eddie smiled at me, but the wolf still shone in his eyes. “I will remember that you refused to help the Pack though, Ayla.”
“That’s not fair!” Vince exploded, leaping up.
Eddie waved him away. “I’m not a cruel wolf, Ayla. I’m not unreasonable. You’ve got a lot to lose. And of course you don’t see things the same way an alpha does. I’ve got a duty to my Pack, a duty to protect them. Anything I see as a threat, I act against. I have to, you understand?”
I nodded numbly, grabbing Vince’s hand to pull him back into his seat.
“This feral hurts the Pack, so I’ll deal with him. I won’t force you to join in.” He drummed his fingers on the tabletop, an erratic rhythm that set me further on edge. “But I will remember what you chose, when your Pack needed you.”
I shrank away, sure I was about to puke. “You can’t make me outcast for this.”
“No, but I can make life difficult for you and Shannon.”
He didn’t need to elaborate. There was any number of ways he could make life difficult for a lesbian wolf-human couple. Hatred burned inside me, chasing away my nausea. “So you’re blackmailing me,” I said.
“Don’t be melodramatic. I’m not asking anything difficult or dangerous of you, Ayla! You take us to the feral. That’s it. T
hat’s all.”
A catalogue of broken laws scrolled through my mind, conspiracy to commit murder being foremost. “Shannon and I can leave,” I said, digging my fingers into the table until splinters spiked into the skin under my nails. “You can’t make us stay in town.”
He growled viciously at me. I growled back. Vince brushed my arm, cautioning me, but I ignored him. For a long, spine-prickling moment Eddie and I stared at each other, the air between us crackling with energy, the alpha’s eyes blazing as he tried to force me to back down through sheer will alone. He’d obviously forgotten that I’d spent several years alone, Packless and fighting my own corner. I wasn’t going to back down.
And then Shannon’s phone rang, buzzing across the sideboard, and the electric tension between me and Eddie snapped. We both reared back, our wolves retreating as the human world intervened. I shook my head, clearing away some of the anger and Eddie sat down abruptly, a frown carved into his face.
Vince laughed nervously and passed me the phone. I answered without thinking. “Hello?”
“Shannon?” A woman; familiar but not immediately recognizable to me.
“No, this is Ayla. Shannon is…” Probably on the other side of the door, listening to every word. “Who is this?” I asked.
“It’s Tina. I need to speak to Shannon.”
I muttered a curse. This was the last thing we needed with Eddie in the house. “Hang on.” I opened the kitchen door and saw Shannon sitting at the bottom of the stairs, a studied look of innocence on her face. “It’s for you,” I said, handing her the phone and glancing over my shoulder at Eddie and Vince who were watching with undisguised interest.
Shannon took the phone and retreated into the living room, shutting the door firmly behind her. It wouldn’t stop us hearing her end of the conversation, but it gave her a measure of privacy.
“Who’s that?” Vince asked.
“Client,” I said shortly, starting to collect the dishes and cutlery, needing some activity to take my mind off Eddie. The alpha went back to tapping his fingers on the table, looking relaxed and chirpy, like he hadn’t just tried to coerce me into murder. I shot him a filthy look. “You don’t have to stay, Eddie,” I said, taking his empty teacup from him.