Unaware of how close he’d come to limiting his potential for producing future heirs, he caught the attention of the hostess and inveigled her into seating them at a fireside table ahead of two other couples who’d been eyeing it. Molly supposed she should be grateful he hadn’t wanted the booth by the window to which she’d been assigned when she worked there.
“Club sandwiches and coffee for two,” he told the middle-aged waitress who waddled over to take their order.
“Make mine a spinach salad,” Molly said, determined to assert her independence before her entire life spun so far beyond her control she’d never be able to rein it in again, “with tea.”
“Sugar and cream?” the waitress inquired, scribbling on her pad.
“Just lemon, please.”
“The works for me, Charlene,” Dan said. “I need all the sweetening I can get.”
Charlene, who had to be all of fifty if she was a day, giggled like a schoolgirl and slapped his arm playfully. “Oh, Doctor!”
“How do you do it?” Molly asked him, when they were alone again.
He glanced up from contemplating his short, immaculately clean nails. “Do what?” he said, all blue-eyed innocence.
Innocent as a wolf on the prowl!
“As if you don’t know,” she scoffed. “That woman’s well past the age where she’s taken in by a smooth-talker, but one look from you and she just about fell out of her uniform!”
“Did she?” he said, reaching across the table to toy briefly with her fingers. “I can’t say I noticed. I’m too caught up remembering how you looked wearing yours, way back when.”
“Slightly indecent, probably,” she said, snatching her hand away. “As I recall, the tunic skirt was very short.”
“I recall your long, gorgeous legs. And how you came close to smacking me in the mouth for commenting on them.”
She only remembered his mouth and how it had driven her wild when he’d made love to her. “Never mind all that,” she said, sounding as starched as the lace curtains hanging at the café windows. “We’re here to talk about my mother. Right now, she’s spending all day in bed because she can’t manage the stairs. If I were to eliminate that problem, what kind of options would she have for getting around?”
“When she’s ready for it, primarily by using a wheelchair. I’ve already mentioned the possibility, but there’s so little space to maneuver in her bedroom and, as you say, the stairs make it difficult for her to be brought down to the main floor, so there hasn’t been much point in pursuing the idea. Frankly she’d have been better off recuperating in a nursing home but she flat-out refused to entertain the idea.”
“If I were to make different living arrangements—something that would permit her more mobility—would she still require daily visits from the nurse?”
“No,” he said. “In fact, freeing her from that bed would do more to speed her progress than just about anything we can offer in the way of medical care. Of course, she’ll need ongoing drug therapy to combat her asthma and osteoporosis, and probably something for pain management for at least another few weeks, but it’s my guess her present living conditions are the main reason she’s making such a slow recovery. Shut-aways don’t have a whole lot to motivate them to get well, Molly.”
“Especially not when they’re abandoned by their only living relative, right?”
“It surely doesn’t help.” He shot her a level look across the table. “Sorry if that hurts, but it’s the truth.”
She sat back as their meal arrived, but as soon as they were alone again, said, “Not that I feel I owe you or anyone else an explanation, but if I’d heard about the accident when it happened, instead of over a month after the fact, I’d have been here a lot sooner.”
“Hilda wouldn’t hear of it.”
“I’m her next of kin. You had an obligation to let me know.”
“My first obligation was to my patient. As it is, I went against her wishes in allowing social services to contact you.” He fixed her in another glance. “For what it’s worth, I’m glad I did.”
Uncertain how to interpret his last remark, she poked at the limp spinach salad in front of her and wished she’d ordered the club sandwich instead. “Will she still need to see you?”
“Occasionally, once she’s past the present stage of recovery. But don’t try to initiate too many changes too soon. Let’s see how she does over the next while, first. If she makes significant progress, the visits can be cut to once a week, then less often as she continues to improve.”
“If I were to drive her there, could she come to the clinic, instead of you having to come to the house?”
“Sure, if you can manage to get her there in one piece.”
“I’m not planning to trundle her down the hill in a wheelchair and risk tipping her into the gutter, if that’s what you’re implying! I’ll trade in my rental car for a minivan. I’m no doctor, but getting her out of that house, even if it’s only to come for a checkup, has to be a benefit.”
“I agree. But give her a few more days in bed first.”
“I heard you the first time, Dan. And even if I hadn’t, I’m not so blind that I can’t see she’s got a long recovery ahead of her.”
He shrugged. “Fine. Any more questions?”
“Not at the moment.”
“Then perhaps you’ll answer a couple for me.”
“Of course.” She dabbed at her mouth with her napkin and stared him squarely in the eye. “Fire away.”
“You haven’t said a word about your father. Why not?”
“Because I don’t care about him. I’d even go so far as to say I’m glad he’s dead. I’d have held my nose and attended his funeral if I’d known about it, but only because it would have made it easier for my mother to have me there.”
He blew out a breath. “You don’t believe in pulling your punches, do you?”
“I don’t believe in lying to save face.”
“In that case, you won’t mind telling me this: Why, if you’re married, do you still go by the name Paget, and why aren’t you wearing a wedding ring, Molly?”
CHAPTER THREE
“THAT’S two questions,” Molly said, amazed that she managed to sound perfectly sane when she was near to suffocating with panic. “Which one should I answer?”
“Both,” he said inexorably.
“It’s easier to get rid of a husband than it is to face the world without one,” had been her mother’s rationale the night before. “If people ask, you can always say he died or something. At least you won’t be condemned for being a widow.”
“In this town, I just might be!” Molly had said ruefully. “They’re likely to think I murdered him for his supposed fortune.”
“Well, if you’re going to have an imaginary husband, he might as well have money. Dream big, I always say. If folks are determined to gossip—and let’s face it, it’s what makes the world go round in these parts—give them something they can really sink their teeth into. And Molly Paget coming back to town respectable and rich is about as juicy a tidbit as they’ve chewed on in years.”
She’d laughed at that. They both had, the shared conspiracy forging another long overdue bonding between mother and daughter. But it didn’t seem so funny or clever now, with Dan scrutinizing her, feature by feature.
Mind racing, Molly tried to decide between presenting herself as a widow or a divorcée. Widowhood might promote a more sympathetic response, but it was also likely to invite further questions, especially from a doctor. Divorce, on the other hand, was common enough that it rarely aroused much interest.
She gave a tiny shrug, as much to disguise the fact that she was shaking like a leaf, as for theatrical effect, and settled for a lie of omission over outright deceit. “I’d have thought it was obvious. I don’t wear a ring and I go by my maiden name because marriage didn’t work out for me. I’ve been a single parent for years.”
“I see.”
She was afraid he did—far more
than she ever intended he should. Subterfuge had never been her strong point and the flimsy evasions she’d handed out wouldn’t fool a half-wit, let alone a man of his intelligence.
“You have sole custody of your daughter, then?”
“Yes. Why do you sound so surprised?”
“Because it’s unusual in this day and age. Most courts award joint guardianship of minor children.”
“Only if it’s something both parents want.”
And you didn’t, Dan Cordell!
“Let’s face it, sweet Molly,” he’d said, that hot August evening he ended their affair by trying to make it sound like a mutual decision, “it’s as well we’re calling it quits now because we wouldn’t have lasted much longer anyway. Next month I’m off to Europe for a year, maybe two. Even if I weren’t, I’m not ready to settle down and you…” He’d sighed and tried to look properly pained, as though to say, This is hurting me more than it’s hurting you, which was a laugh and a half! “You’re only seventeen. Much too young to be thinking about anything long-term, especially with a guy who still hasn’t figured out what he wants to do with his life.”
The new and reformed Daniel Cordell, M.D., swung his head in bewilderment. “I don’t understand how any man could turn away from his child. I’ve probably delivered close to a hundred babies over the last few years, and each one’s as big a thrill as the first. I don’t mind telling you, being there to watch my firstborn come into the world is something I look forward to with the utmost pleasure.”
“You talk as if it’s a fait accompli that you’ll father a child.”
He laughed. “It’s not a done deal, if that’s what you mean. I’m conventional enough to believe marriage comes before children.”
These days, maybe! But where were your fine scruples when you seduced me and forgot to use a condom?
“Are you planning to get married soon?” It shouldn’t hurt so much to ask, but it did. Pain shot through her like a live wire, leaving her winded from the shock of it.
“We’re in no hurry. We’re both busy with our careers. It’ll happen when the time’s right. What about you? Ever think of remarrying?”
“No,” she said. “I’m too busy raising a daughter and running a business—and now, looking after my mother. I don’t need the complication of a husband.”
He dropped two lumps of sugar in his coffee, added a dollop of cream and stirred thoughtfully. “But you must have been glad of one when you were pregnant, and especially when you gave birth?”
Straightforward enough, at least on the surface, the question slipped between the cracks in her defenses, and laid open a wound too grievous to endure a second time.
In the blink of an eye, it all came back. The fear, even though there’d been three nurses and two doctors in attendance—kind, competent professionals every one. The pain which nothing could assuage. The terrible, aching loneliness, even though Rob had been there the whole time, cheering her on.
But Molly had wanted Dan. Wanted him to wipe the sweat from her forehead. Wanted his hand to clutch when the contractions grew too strong to bear, and his encouragement when exhaustion wore her down to tears. And most of all wanted him to hold her in his arms and kiss her and tell her she was brave and wonderful and that he loved her, when at last it was all over and Ariel lay, bathed and sweetly sleeping, in her bassinet.
“Why so downcast? Don’t tell me you went through that time alone, Molly!”
She blinked and wrenched herself back to the present, taking comfort in the tangible warmth of the log fire smoldering in the hearth, and the pots of silk ivy trailing from brass planters hanging on the wall. “No,” she said softly, the break in her voice caused by another, more recent sorrow. “Rob was by my side the entire time, and he was wonderful.”
“At least you have some good memories then.”
More than he could begin to know but almost certainly not the kind he imagined. She doubted Dan could appreciate or understand the relationship she’d shared with Rob. Most men wouldn’t.
“I really have to go,” she said, pushing away from the table not just because the afternoon was slipping away but because it was safer to put an end to a conversation which had trespassed into territory altogether too personal. “Ariel and my mother have been alone long enough.”
He was out of his chair in a flash and helping her with her coat despite her protests that she could manage on her own. She didn’t want the scent of his cologne drifting out to touch her, or his fingers brushing warmly over the nape of her neck, or his breath ruffling her hair. She wanted him at least six feet away, in a starched white medical jacket and smelling of antiseptic.
“I’ll walk you out,” he said.
“No need. I know the way.”
“I’m sure!” He pulled a credit card from an inside pocket and made for the cashier’s desk. “I’ll walk you out anyway, as soon as I’ve settled up what we owe.”
Not about to waste opportunity when it stared her in the face, she headed for the door and almost made it out of the square and onto the main street before he caught up with her. “If I didn’t know better, I’d think you’re afraid to be seen with me, Molly,” he chided genially.
“I’d think you’d have better things to do than idle away the afternoon with someone who isn’t even a patient.”
If she hadn’t been so occupied trying to dislodge the hand he persisted in clamping around her elbow, she might have noticed sooner the woman headed toward them, and had the presence of mind to cross the road before the almighty Mrs. Daniel Cordell Senior descended like a crow about to feast on a hapless quarry.
Frozen-faced, she brought her glance to rest on Molly. “What a surprise, Daniel,” she remarked, her cultured tones ringing with disdain. “I expected you to be spending the afternoon gainfully employed in caring for the sick and down-at-heel.”
“Nice to run into you, too, Yvonne,” he said. “You remember Molly Paget, don’t you?”
“I don’t believe we’ve ever met, though the name’s vaguely familiar.” The hint of a frown ruffled the smooth perfection of her brow. “Wasn’t it a Paget who drove his car directly into the path of a train, thereby managing to kill himself and leave his widow crippled for life?”
“More or less,” Dan said with undisguised annoyance. “But leave it you to paraphrase the incident so succinctly. Pity your memory’s not quite as acute in this instance. You met Molly long before her parents suffered such a tragedy. Over ten years ago, in fact.”
“Did I? I can’t imagine how or why.”
“I brought her to the house for dinner once.”
“Ah yes, now that you mention it, I do seem to recall some such incident.” She might as well have said, Wasn’t she the girl who didn’t know the difference between a wineglass and a demitasse? Dear heaven, Daniel, have you lost your mind? “And you’re still friends?”
“Hardly!” Bristling, Molly at last succeeded in prying her elbow free. “Dr. Cordell was merely bringing me up to speed on my mother’s prognosis.”
“Very commendable of him I’m sure, darling, but wouldn’t that dreadful clinic he’s so attached to have been a more appropriate place to request a consultation?”
Funny how a tone of voice sometimes said more than the words themselves. Coming out of Yvonne Cordell’s mouth, “darling” was almost a profanity.
Dan didn’t come right out and say he was of the same opinion, but if anyone had ever looked at Molly the way he looked at his mother then, she’d have withered on the spot. “Keep me posted on your plans, Molly,” he said, tilting his shoulder in such a way that Mrs. Cordell was totally excluded from the exchange. “And please call me before you decide on any drastic changes. I want to be sure your mom can handle whatever it is you’ve got in mind.”
“Of course. Thank you for lunch.”
“My pleasure.” He caught her gloved hand and gave it a lingering squeeze. “Maybe we can do it again at a more leisurely pace.”
A lovely idea even
if it was quite out of the question! But telling herself so didn’t stop her heart from leaping into overdrive and running amok. Glad he couldn’t see the upheaval he’d caused, she said, “I doubt I’ll be able to spare the time—or you, either, come to that, busy doctor that you are.”
His smile flowed over her, warm and disgracefully beguiling. “Sure we will. Even I take a day off once in a while and we’ve got a lot of catching up to do.”
Behind him, Yvonne Cordell let a sigh gust forth. It hung in the air, a visible cloud of exasperation and disbelief, as cold as the woman who’d ejected it. She might just as well have come right out and snorted, Lunch again? With this little vixen? Over my dead body!
Mind whirling, Dan watched as she took off down the street, her long legs eating up the distance with ease despite her high-heeled boots. Graceful, elegant and reeking of success, she’d have been an intimidating presence if it weren’t for her eyes. They told another story, one fraught with a wariness which bordered on fear. And therein lay the mystery, because the one thing the old Molly Paget had never shown was a speck of fear, no matter how harshly life treated her.
Her father could have beaten her black and blue, the neighbors spat on her and the town forefathers tried to burn her at the stake for her supposed sins, and she’d have defied the lot of them rather than cave in and beg for leniency. She’d have stood tall and proud, looking for all the world like some pagan princess, with her hair flying around her shoulders in black disarray and her eyes flashing, and told the lot of them that if heaven was filled with types like them, she’d prefer to roast in hell! And at their collective gasp of outrage, she’d have laughed.
So what had brought about the change in her?
A number of possible reasons came to mind, all of them disturbing. In a professional capacity, he’d seen his share of victimized women—creatures so timid and downtrodden that they’d come to believe they deserved the abuse directed at them.
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