“I know you want me to stay away and I promise that I have tried. I just can’t, Hailey. I am addicted to you and I don’t think that will ever change,” he whispered against my lips. “I don’t want it to.”
I didn’t say anything. I just pushed my chair back. I saw the disappointment in his gaze as I got up.
I went to the entrance of the lab but instead of leaving, I pulled the door closed. I turned the lock and turned off the light switch.
Only the small florescent lights above the lecturer’s desk provided dim illumination.
Wyatt was watching me when I turned back to him, a guarded look in his eyes.
I walked back to where he sat, stopping only when our knees touched. That guarded look turned heated as he watched me as I pulled my top over my head. I removed my bra and shimmied out of my skirt to leave me in only a pair of panties that didn’t shield much.
“What are you doing?” he asked after watching my little striptease.
“Seducing you,” I answered.
“Yeah?” he asked.
“Yeah,” I returned.
“And are you going to run away from me after this seduction is over?”
He watched my face as he asked this.
“I don’t know,” I told him honestly.
He nodded then said, “I hope you don’t.”
I took his hand and pulled him to his feet. I undressed him and he let me, watching me with the same heat that made my skin feel fevered.
When I was done, I pushed him back into his seat. I made space for myself between his knees then knelt there.
He was so hard it felt like I hard to force the length away from his skin.
He hissed when I gripped the jutting tool, eyes closing briefly before shining on me again. He was too thick to wrap my fingers around fully. His hips jerked, coming off the chair before settling back down.
He looked down at me with desire-laden eyes. He demanded nothing, only watching to see what I would do next.
I nuzzled him. He smelled warm, musky and clean. Then I licked a path from the root of him to the tip. I moaned softly at the hot, slightly salty taste of him. I licked my lips and made a sound of appreciation at the taste of him there. I went back to him eagerly and closed my lips around his head. I was looking up at him and saw his pupils dilate as his thighs tensed under my actions.
His fingers tangled in my hair and he bucked into my mouth, force feeding himself into my throat.
I gagged, an automatic reaction and he immediately subdued his motions.
“Fuck, I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to lose control like that.”
I pulled away and holding his gaze, I told him, “Take what you need, Wyatt. I can handle it.”
With my permission, he slid deep inside and together we built a rhythm that made him shudder. I remembered how he liked to be pleasured and pulled out all the stops. My muscles adjusted to the invasion after being so long unused and he slid neatly into my throat with every upward push of his hips.
He reacted to my every action, his control in pieces. Knowing I did this him gave me a heady feeling of power that shot straight to the center of me. Wetness made between my legs slippery and I could feel the lips guarding my center rub against each other as I squirmed with the sweet agony.
“Stop, baby, please. I don’t want to come this way. I want inside you. Please, Hailey.”
With the taste of him thick on my tongue, I got up and got into his lap. My thighs were on either side of his, feet on the floor. Cupping his face in mine, I got close until only a whisper of air separated our lips.
“Make love to me. Please,” I pleaded, my heart close to the surface and my lips sharing more than I meant to say.
All that was supposed to exist between us was sex. Nothing more. Nothing less.
This time though, I wanted the physical connection to be more than that. I needed him emotionally, I was finally ready to admit it out loud.
He let out a harsh breath and looking into his eyes was like watching walls drop. It was like looking into my own soul and I knew I had been so stupid I running away from him before.
“You have no idea how bad I want to love you,” he said.
He reached down between us and took his cock. He positioned it so that his cap was lined with my center. I let my weight settle on him and gravity took care of the rest.
“Ohhh,” I moaned as I slid down on him.
How could I have thought that I could live without this? Without him?
He conquered every part of me as we became joined as intimately as two people could be joined. Every nerve ending in my body became stimulated and burned for him. I was stuffed to bursting with him and it was the most delicious pain.
“Damn, you’re tight,” he groaned.
I bounced on him, my motions growing increasingly fast and hard in no time. He aided me with his hands on my ass and his hips meeting mine halfway. He leaned down to capture my nipple in his mouth.
One hand snaked between us and stroked my clit.
Breathy cries and pleading filled the air to mix with the slap, slap, slap rapid, wet sound of our lust.
“Fuck I’m going to come,” I whispered.
I was still coming when he stood. In the next moment, my back was on the desk and he drilled into my still spasming core.
His jerky, erratic movements signaled his imminent release and in the next second he pulled out of me. With a few strong tugs of his hand, he spurted his release onto my stomach.
He lifted me off the desk a few minutes later and sat me back in his lap. Sweaty and exhausted, I lingered in his arms.
He kissed my forehead and I allowed my heart to hope that maybe there could be more between us.
Then my brain reminded me that when he found out my secret, he would likely want nothing to do with me.
I would have to tell him soon though and deal with the consequences of my dangerous choice.
Still, I stayed in his arms, having no other place I would rather be in that moment.
FOURTEEN
Hailey
The next day I received another phone call from my father.
He was panicked and I barely understood what he was saying but when I did, I felt my face lose color and my heart began to beat with dismay.
Joe was missing… And he was wanted by the police for questioning in connection to drug case that was currently under investigation.
What. The. Fuck.
I had just arrived on the college campus when I got the call. I had been sitting in my car, prepared to walk Noah across to daycare and head to biology lab where I would see Wyatt.
I had been on cloud nine too. Wyatt and I had separated on a high note yesterday and even though I knew the news I would reveal to him would be hard to swallow, I had convinced myself I was blowing the fallout out of proportion in my head while I laid in bed last night.
I knew he had feelings for me. It was there in his touch. In the way he looked at me. In the way he said my name.
How deep those feelings were I didn’t know yet, but I had hope that we could bury the mistakes of the past and build better, happier future.
I was nervous but I was also hopeful. It was a weird jumbled up feeling.
I had made up my mind to tell him today and have faith that it would turn out for the best.
My little bubble of sunshine burst with that call from my dad. Telling Wyatt the secret I kept from him was now the last thing on my mind.
I listened Dad as he explained that he and mom were currently at Joe’s school helping the police in locating him.
“I’ll be right there,” I promised him and hung up the phone, throwing it onto the passenger seat.
“What’s wrong, Mommy?” came Noah’s voice from the backseat.
I turned to him, trying to clear the anxiety from my expression.
“Nothing, honey. Let’s get you to daycare,” I answered him with a false bright smile and overly cheerful tone.
He gave me a skeptical
look and looked like he was going to question me further but I distracted him by mentioning the new students that would be welcomed into his class today.
His attention was immediately diverted and he started chatting about how he would be really nice to the new girl. He was a very social little person and loved meeting new people.
I couldn’t bring Noah with me into the drama that centered around my brother so I hurried from the parking lot to the daycare in a half run with him in my arms. He thought the mad dash was fun and giggled in a way that would have brought a smile to my face any other day.
Not today. My mind was a mess of worry for Joe.
A few minutes later, I was driving like a bat out of hell to get to Joes’ high school. Horns blew and curses followed me as I cut off other drivers. I even almost ran over a pedestrian, only just hitting the brakes. The old woman threw me the bird then took her cool time crossing the road, sending me a spiteful look almost the entire way.
I tried to be more careful after that but still reached the school in record time. Even though I was trying to suppress them, thoughts of all the worse possible consequences of today’s events on Joe’s life played in my mind.
I couldn’t imagine my sweet little brother doing drugs but then I hardly recognized the person he was these days.
“Dammit Joe, why didn’t you call me?”
My angry whisper bounced off the walls of the otherwise empty car. The two of us had been so close. When had we drifted so far apart that he wouldn’t feel safe in confiding in me?
I felt like I had failed him.
When I reached the school, I double parked but was unconcerned about that fact. The police were already at the school. There were two police cruisers, one with lights flashing.
I ran out of my car, leaving everything behind.
I found my parents a few minutes later, being interviewed by the cops.
They updated me on what was going on. Joe had skipped class early that morning and no one had seen him since. A small bag containing a suspicious substance had been located in his locker shortly after. The school was obliged to report this to the police and so they did.
I listened to all of this in shock and disbelief.
What the hell was my brother into?
I could only hope that he hadn’t just thrown his life down the drain.
“Where are you, little brother?” I whispered to myself.
FIFTEEN
Wyatt
The seat next to me in biology lab was empty.
I felt Hailey’s absence as if a piece of me was quite literally missing.
At first I thought she might just be late but we were already thirty minutes into the class and she was still a no show.
I pulled my phone out of my bag and sent her quick text covertly.
Hey, where are you?
Even though I didn’t expect her to answer - at least not right away – I placed the phone face down next to my text book.
Yesterday had been great between Hailey and I. A turning point in the dynamic between us I thought.
I had been scared that she would disappear on me – or worse give me the “we can’t be anything more than classmates” speech - like the first two times we had been intimate. After I came, I had actually tried to mentally prepare myself to handle it.
Hailey surprised me though. She had stayed in my arms afterwards. She stayed until we could no longer linger at the very real risk that we might get caught butt naked in the college classroom.
I had walked her to her car afterward. She had even let me to hold her hand and we had shared a lingering kiss before each driving away.
Her eyes had been soft and welcoming with no regret in them and I allowed myself to hope that the romp in the lab had been a changing tide in our relationship.
I meant what I had said to her. I did try to respect her wish for me to keep my distance from her. As much as I wanted her, always watching her turn away from me was killing me and I didn’t know how many more times I could witness it without going totally insane.
However, when she had taken comfort in my arms, I hadn’t been able to curb the urge to feel her lips on mine again. I expected to get slapped and told off. Now I was glad I took the risk in kissing her.
Even after we had left each other’s company in the lab, she had called me late in the night.
I had just stepped out of the shower when I heard my cell phone ring.
I adjusted the towel around my hips – the only thing I wore – as I crossed from the bathroom to the bedroom. I picked up the device from where in had been thrown carelessly on the bed. My heart picked up when I noticed Hailey’s number on the screen.
I swiped to answer and sat on the edge of the mattress.
“Hi, sweetheart,” I greeted.
“Hey.” She sounded breathy and sexy. “I hope I am not calling too late.”
I glanced at the digital clock next to my bed. It read eleven twenty-three PM.
“Not at all,” I told Hailey. “You can call me any time. What’s up?”
A pause, then…
“There’s something I need to tell you but I think I should wait until we’re face to face.”
That made me pause before I answered.
“That doesn’t sound good. Are you going to give me the boot again?”
I made it sound teasing but my heart leapt into my throat at the thought.
She hesitated and the choked feeling only intensified. Shit.
“Hailey?” I asked, so many questions in that one word.
“I’m not giving you the boot. In fact, I think it is something you might like to hear. I’m hoping so anyway. Can we talk after lab?”
Her voice was soft and uncertain and every instinct I possessed wanted to reassure her.
So I said, “Of course we can. I’m sure we can work whatever it is out.”
My mind was turning over the possible scenarios of what she wanted to tell me but there was no use speculating. I would find out soon enough.
Again, she said, “I hope so.”
We just listened to each other breathe for a little while before she asked, “So, Mr. Murphy, what are you wearing?”
I let out a relived breath that things didn’t stay tense between us and let myself fall back in the bed.
“Why Ms. Clarke are you trying to lure me into having phone sex with you because I have to tell you, I really be into that.”
She laughed a low sexy sound. “Of course you would be. Is there anything you’re not into?”
“With you, nothing is off the table,” I told her and meant it.
“Ohhh, I like the sound of that. Now about that phone sex, how long do you think it will take you to make me come with your dirty talk?”
“Is that a challenge?” I had asked, my cock hardening in anticipation. “Because I am more than up for it.”
It had taken ten minutes before she moaned long and low from across the line.
My hand had been beating at my meat and the sound of her gratification sent me over the cliff.
I felt the feeling engulf me and knew I was about to blow when…
“Mr. Murphy?”
I was suddenly thrust out of the memory when I realized that my name was being called.
The professor along with the rest of the class was watching me. Some of the other students were even snickering and I wondered how long I had been out of it.
“Are you with us?” the professor said.
“Yes, Sir. Sorry about that.”
I was sure my cheeks were as red as they felt. It didn’t help my embarrassment that my cock was a steel pipe in my pants just then.
“I would to remind you to pay attention in this class, Mr. Murphy.”
He repeated his question to me and luckily, I knew the answer.
The rest of the class went on without incident and I wasn’t caught daydreaming again.
An hour later, everyone else filed out of the room and I immediately picked up my phone and called
Hailey.
There was no answer.
I got the same result the next three times that I tried.
Worry began to settle in my gut. I knew how important passing was to Hailey. She wouldn’t miss class unless something was wrong.
I was about to dial Hailey’s number again when the phone rang in my hand.
The number is not recognized by the device and it is not familiar to me.
“Hello?” I answered.
“Good afternoon Mr. Murphy. I am calling from the campus daycare. I’m so sorry but Noah is sick. Can you come pick him up? We have tried to contact Hailey several times but haven’t been able to reach her, is everything ok?”
“Excuse me?” I was confused and told the other person on the line, “I think you have the wrong number.”
“This is Wyatt Murphy, isn’t it?”
“Yes.”
“Ms. Clarke has you as the emergency contact on Noah’s form.”
“Hailey?”
“Yes,” the woman on the line answered as if talking to a slow child. She gave me directions without asking anything else.
After she hung up I just looked at the phone, my confusion turning to suspicion.
I headed to the campus daycare, a feeling of foreboding making my stomach cramp.
SIXTEEN
Wyatt
This child was a spitting image of me.
I instantly knew he was mine.
He had the same sandy blond hair and light eyes. His chin jutted out in a stubborn tilt I remembered from pictures of me when I was his age. He even had the small dimple in the center.
Oh God, I have a son.
The words were repeatedly bouncing off the walls of my head, leaving no room for anything else. My mind was reeling and I froze. My limbs felt heavy and it was like I had lost all internal knowledge of how to control them.
I felt light headed and my vision dimmed. There was as loud roar in my ears and it became hard to breathe.
Holy shit. I was a father and all these years I had no idea.
I had missed so much.
Along with my shock and amazement, anger began to simmer in my mind.
“Hello Mr. Murphy, we spoke on the phone. I am Veronica March, the supervisor. Thank you for coming in so quickly. As you can see Noah is not very happy to be sick.”
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