“What’s that for?” I asked confused.
“We’re going camping,” he said and secured the tent on the back of the bike.
“Are we not going to stay here?” I asked nervously.
“No, it’s too risky,” he said flatly.
“But where are we going to…”
“I don’t know, we’ll find a spot, get on the bike.”
“Irish, why don’t we just call the cops, they don’t have anything against me, so maybe they can, I don’t know… help?” I said exasperatedly.
Irish leaned on the bike and dropped his head, “Alana, your dad is a part of the Irish mafia, and he’s a wanted man…”
“What?!” I asked in shock.
“There are things you don’t know about your dad, about his entire enterprise, I’m not just some white collar who sits behind a desk all day, I think you already know that,” he started.
This was too much; it felt as if my head was spinning. Bending over I put my hands on my knees and shook my head, “Why didn’t he ever tell me?” I muttered.
“Well hopefully you’ll get to ask him yourself soon.”
Irish placed his hand on the back of my neck, and crouched down beside me, “Alana, I’m a hitman and I know that you have no reason to trust me, but I made a promise to Fergus to keep you alive, and if that’s all I end up doing, then that’s enough. Now we cannot hang around here. By now I’m sure the FBI had started their man hunt, we cannot book into hotels.”
I was crying, not hysterically, just weeping. My entire life had been a complete lie. All this time, my dad was in the mafia and I didn’t even know that. Exasperated, I stood up and reached for the helmet. I had switched into autopilot mode, put the helmet on, get on the bike, run, trust Irish, and that was it. There was no time to reminisce about what could have or should have happened. I was on the run with a hitman. My dad’s most trusted, I don’t even know what to call him… friend, or colleague. By now I was sure that my poster was up on store windows right next to his, and I’ve most certainly been suspended from college. My life as I knew it was over.
We drove for another twenty minutes or so before he turned off onto to a dirt road, more like a hiking trail really, and I had no idea where we were. The ride was bumpy and my butt was hurting already. I was literally counting down the seconds hoping he would stop soon so that I could stretch my legs and clear the fog in my brain. I kept recalling memories of my dad, trying to see how I could have missed so much. Surely at some point in my life I should have realized that my father wasn’t just any dad. But he had kept me at arm’s length, shoving me into boarding schools. Not that I complained, the boarding schools were pretty awesome. Only the best for his little girl, if only I knew then that the money used was tainted. I had so many questions with so little answers.
Irish eventually pulled to a stop in the middle of nowhere, I had underestimated the darkness here in the woods, especially when Irish turned off the engine. He was the first to get off, taking the camping gear with him. He handed me a flashlight and dropped the gear at the base of a large tree.
“Stay put, I need to hide the bike,” he said as he started chopping at small branches hanging low over the ground.
I felt disorientated and scared, if we weren’t going to be caught by the Bronx Raiders, or the FBI, we sure as hell would probably be attacked by a wild animal.
Soon enough Irish had the camping gear up on his back and we were making our way through the dense undergrowth of the forest. With nothing but our flashlights to guide the way, it was tricky getting through the thicket of trees, but eventually Irish stopped and looked around.
“This will do for now,” he said and dropped the camping gear on the ground.
A cold shiver ran down my spine and I cursed under my breath.
“We’ll be back on the road by dawn, we need to cross the border into Mexico, then we should be reasonably safe, I have a few connections there.”
“Mexico, are you serious?” I asked disbelievingly.
“If you want to stay alive then yes, from there we’ll try to get to Brazil.”
Irish started to set up the two man tent, and I stood around feeling sorry for myself. I could already see myself living in one of those over populated towns, making ends meet by selling second hand clothes or even worse myself just to get by.
A little while later we were huddled around a small campfire, and other than the flames that looked so inviting and warm, the darkness that surrounded us was ominous and depressing. It’s been years since I went camping, I think I was about ten the last time. I liked it then, but this time around it wasn’t a recreational camping trip.
“So tell me about my dad,” I whispered as I stared blankly into the fire.
“What do you want to know?”
“Everything?”
Irish sighed and tossed a small stick into the fire, “I’ve known your dad for a long time, he’s a good man, don’t ever question that, he only wanted the best for you.”
I sighed, Irish wasn’t helping. I loved my dad, but now, not knowing who or what he was, left me scared and confused.
“There are ways to get the best for your child, without wheeling and dealing. Look where that’s gotten him, and me…” I drifted off and swallowed at the lump in my throat.
“I know, it’s not an ideal situation. Look, whatever your dad is being accused of is a setup. A few days ago there was a shipment that arrived at port. It was a big drug bust, and whoever was involved implicated your dad. And I’ve worked with your dad, if there is one thing he never got involved in, it was narcotics.”
I studied Irish and worried my lip, “So what was he involved in?”
“Money laundering, real estate and so on, he evaded tax but they couldn’t ever prove any of it. Shamrock’s been after your dad for years, and now that he’s devised the perfect plan to persecute him, he has your dad by the balls.”
“Who’s Shamrock?”
“Your dad’s nemesis. They weren’t always enemies, but after your mother died things went sour between them.”
What did my mom have to do with any of this? More secrets and more lies, I wasn’t sure if I could ever recover from all of this.
“What did he have to do with my mom?” I asked curiously.
Irish grew quiet and reached into one of the backpacks and pulled out a packet of crisps and offered me some, but I declined and hugged my arms tighter around me.
“Shamrock used to be your dad’s right-hand man, but with your dad away working so often, and your mother being lonely, the two of them had an affair. Your dad was heartbroken when he found out. He loved your mother more than anything. So, when he told her to choose between him or Shamrock, your mother wasn’t able to choose, one morning, she overdosed…”
“My dad said she died of a heart attack,” I blurted out.
“That’s true, but it was a drug induced heart attack,” Irish muttered, “She couldn’t choose, so she committed suicide.”
Bile pushed up in my throat and I tried to keep myself calm, everything, my whole life was one big lie. I always thought my mother died of natural causes, that was what my dad always told me. He never once mentioned an affair, or insinuated that she didn’t want to live. A strangled cry escaped my throat as I stood up. I was surprised that I still had any tears left to cry. One blow after the other, my world was crashing down. I fled into the small tent and fell on top one of the sleeping bags. I didn’t hear Irish enter either, only when he rested his hand on the small of my back where I lay with my head buried in my arms did I realize he was here with me.
I shot up and sat on my knees looking straight at him with tears streaming down my face, “Why did he hide all of this from me?” I cried out angrily.
“He wanted to protect you.”
I went through the motions, from sadness to anger to disappointment and back to being sad, and as I balled my fists and pounded them against Irish’s chest. He just took it in stride.
“Thi
s isn’t what I wanted out of life! I wanted a normal life, go to college, become an accountant, do something extraordinary, but now it’s all lost!”
“I know lass, I know,” he soothed.
He didn’t stop my assault, only turned his face out of the way as he let me blow off steam. Eventually I slumped against him, burying my face in the crook of his neck. From the first day, Irish had been open and honest with me. Now, he was the one who decided to tell me the truth. My dad couldn’t even bring himself to do that. I felt robbed and deceived by my own blood.
Irish embraced me and hugged me close against him. His skin was warm in comparison to my own, and it felt somewhat comforting, having someone who would simply just hold me. With tear streaked cheeks I nestled closer against him, I could feel his breath in my hair and his hand sliding up my back until it rested between my shoulder blades.
“Irish,” I whispered, and then he pulled back a little, lifting my chin.
“I won’t let anyone hurt you lass,” he said with such compassion that made my insides melt.
“Hold me,” I said and then his lips brushed mine.
My mind was a mess, and here I was literally throwing myself at him, a distraction. That’s all it was, I needed a distraction, I told myself, as I willingly parted my lips for him. His rough beard scraped against my smooth skin and I heard him groan. He wanted me, and I liked it. For once I just didn’t want to think about the fact that I was a fugitive, or that my dad lied to me all these years. For once I didn’t want to be the prude virgin. What good would that do anyways? I would never again have a normal life, marry the man of my dreams or have a beautiful home with a white picket fence. This was all I had, this moment in time. I tentatively slipped my tongue into his mouth, testing the waters, and again he groaned, fisting my hair in his hand, while his other hand was slowly sliding down my side. His thumb grazed the side of my breast and a shiver of anticipation shot through me.
“Irish…” I whispered.
“Alana, are you sure?” he asked as he pressed his forehead against mine.
“You only live once,” I mumbled and kissed him again.
This time he lowered me to the sleeping bag and covered me with his body, I could feel his erection pushing against the apex of my thighs, and my own sex throbbed with need. Between the exhilarating feeling of desire and confusion, I had to admit one thing. I’ve never had sex, and if he found out, he would probably not touch me.
“Have you ever had sex before?” he asked as if he was able to read my mind.
“Yes,” I lied, “Once.”
He edged himself on to his elbow and studied me, “Once?”
I nodded and bit my lip, “At the party,” I lied again.
“Are you sure about that?” he asked raising a brow.
“Are you going to have sex with me or not?”
I wanted something to remember if shit went pear in the next few days, I couldn’t die a virgin. Irish may be much older than me, but he didn’t look it. He was a strong man who could give a twenty-one-year old a run for his money. Handsome with a mop of blonde hair that made him look younger too.
Irish studied me and a wicked smile played on his lips, “So if I touch you like this, you wouldn’t lose your mind and cum straight away?” he whispered as he moved one hand to flick my stiff nipple though the thin cotton of my vest. A tendril of excitement shot through me like a cord that was linked to every erogenous zone in my body. He kept teasing my nipple until he finally slid his hand under my top to cup my right beast.
“Ooh, well, you know, first time sex experiences aren’t as great as everyone says,” I muttered as my lids dragged open and closed.
“So, what was it, shag, bang thank you ma’am?” he asked.
I nodded. I wasn’t born under a rock, I often heard the girls at college talk about their sexual encounters, some more exciting than others, but so often they complained about the fact that the guy had no clue what he was doing. It was a matter of diving in, hump a lot and wham, done and dusted. But somehow I didn’t think Irish would be the type to just leave me unfinished.
“Do you trust me?” he asked as he looked at me.
“Do I have any reason not to trust you?” I challenged.
He smirked and shook his head, “No,” he simply answered.
“Then I trust you,” I said.
Irish pushed himself up on to his knees and reached over his head to pull his shirt off, my heart was doing somersaults in my chest. This time in the dim glow of the light that hung above us in the tent, I could take the time to admire the work of art that covered his chest. There was something about tattoos that totally got my heart racing. And on Irish it was an explosive combination.
His eyes roamed over my body from my lips down over my chest to my legs, it felt as if he was touching me although he wasn’t. The way he looked at me with such desire caused my body to break out in goose bumps.
“Take off your clothes,” he said, and I obeyed.
I sat up and slowly pulled my vest off, the cool night air assaulted my skin and my nipples hardened even more, at first I kept my arms crossed over my chest, but he gently pried them away.
“Don’t be shy lass, we’re both adults,” he whispered.
I recalled the receipts I found in the glove compartment on the first day, and for a second I hesitated, “How many women have you had sex with?”
“Too many to remember and even fewer I want to remember,” he said and reached for the front clasp of my bra, “You’re having second thoughts?”
“No, I just want to know,” I said embarrassed.
His lips curled into a smile and he stood up in a crouched position to take off his boots and his jeans, he was completely naked underneath and a breath caught in my throat.
“Your turn,’” he coaxed.
I bit my lip and I could feel the heat rush to my cheeks. I’ve seen him naked in all his glory but I’m sure his penis wasn’t as big as it was tonight.
“C-can I touch you?” I asked and swallowed at the dryness in my throat.
“Sweetheart you can do whatever you want.”
There was something wild about him that made me tremble with excitement, with shaking fingers I reached out and ran the tips of my fingers down his abs to the slight strip of hair above his penis. I licked my lips and reached for his member, touching the mushroomed tip with my index finger, there was a drop of liquid on the tip, sticky and smooth. I held my breath, and he too inhaled sharply.
“Fuck,” he muttered under his breath as I wrapped my small hand around his very large stiff erection.
I was beside myself, it was like velvet steel and my brain could not string together a single thought.
“You’re killing me lass,” he muttered as he wrapped his hand around mine, “Stroke it, like this,” he said and moved my hand up and down his length.
“I’ve never touched a guy’s penis before,” I breathed.
He groaned and pushed me down onto my back, “It’s not a penis love, it’s a cock,”
I swallowed, “It sounds crude,” I said softly.
He smirked and then ran his hand down over my stomach to my sex, “Penis is a medical term, cock and pussy is downright sexual,” he said and slid one finger down between my folds, “And your pussy feels like butter, soft and slippery, Jesus you’re wet,” he muttered under his breath.
I moaned as he ran his finger down my pussy and into me. His finger was calloused and rough, and it felt too big to enter me. And just thinking of him having sex with me suddenly made me panic. He’ll most certainly shred me to bits if he had to make love to me now. No, no, this isn’t love making, this was pure unadulterated sex. My way to escape I told myself. Just because a man wants to fuck me, doesn’t mean he’s in love with me.
“Alana,” he whispered in my ear, and I felt a shiver run down my spine, “The things I want to do to you right now is driving me insane.”
What did that even mean? Take a leap; you only live once, the lit
tle devil on my shoulder whispered. No, he’ll ruin you for life, the angel said. You’ll be fine, I promise, the devil whispered again. I was having a full-on conversation with my alter egos and all I wanted was for the voices to shut up. I should tell him I haven’t had sex before, but before I could bring myself to speak; he flicked his thumb over my clitoris.
“Oh my god!” I cried out and bucked my hips.
“That’s it baby, just let it go,” he whispered, and he sounded very much like the little fiend who sat on my shoulder.
“I-I haven’t… oh my god!” I couldn’t even speak without gasping and moaning. It felt too good. The way he teased my flesh and caused my entire body to soar was impossible to ignore.
Then he did the most unexpected thing, he gripped my wrists and pinned them above me, using just one strong hand to keep them in place, I lay stretched out and exposed to him. I couldn’t quite see his face in the darkness, but I could see the smile that played on his lips. Behind him the flicker of the campfire danced against the tent.
“I don’t want to hurt you, so be honest with me, have you ever had sex before?” he asked. It was almost as if he wanted to give me a last chance to save my virginity.
I hesitated, and his gripped my wrists tighter. I could feel his cock press against the inside of my thigh. You only live once, that little voice sang in my head and I breathed, “I don’t want to die not knowing what it feels like,” I admitted in a shaky voice.
“You will not be dying yet sweetheart,” with that he covered my lips with his, the kiss was not endearing it was devouring. He reached for his backpack and pulled out an obvious square packet, ripped at it with his teeth and with one hand slipped the condom on. And when he moved into place, the tip of his cock pressed into me, slowly at first, forcing its way into me, he was larger than expected and I anticipated it to be painful but instead it was more euphoric than anything else I’ve ever experienced. He kicked his hips forward and thrusted deep into me. I cried out from a mixture of pain and pleasure as he entered me, again and again, his hips moving at a slow even pace. With his one hand around my wrists he levered himself up with the other. His muscles bulged as he carried his own weight, looking into my eyes with each stroke.
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