Slow down, he kept telling himself. He was torn with whether to take her virginity from her. He felt if she ever found some one worthy of her she should come to him a virgin. This was the hardest decision for him, at this moment. Daniel took hold of her hand and placed it around his fully engorged manhood.
Maura was a bit timid, as she had never touched a man, ever, in this way.
"Just stroke me, love." He whispered in her ear.
After a minute or two she was no longer afraid and felt satisfied she was giving him pleasure. His blood was boiling, now. He could not hold out much longer, but he wanted to give to her his special gift, so when she met the right person in her life, she'd know what to be awakened to. Daniel rolled Maura to her back and ravished her mouth with rough determination. Then he reached down between her legs and slipped his fingers back into her most coveted place. She was moist with desire. He kissed her deep and with passion, as he was pleasuring her.
Maura’s breathing was ragged. She grasped Daniel’s face with one hand and was crushing her mouth against his, while her fingers were caught in his thick black mane.
She buried her face up against Daniel’s thick muscular forearm and was moaning, as he scorched her neck with white hot kisses. "Don't stop, Daniel, don't stop!"
"I willna stop this time, love.” His voice was deep and husky and he was just as out of breath as she. He rained scorching kisses down the length of her neck and back up to behind her ear. He ran his tongue around one incredibly sensitive lobe and Maura wrinkled in her response.
Then when Daniel felt she was at the point she could take not another minute of his sweet torture, he began to speak softly in ear. “Oh Maura woman, dean tu meaigh te.” He breathed in deeper, still. “Come ta me, love. Come ta me."
Then she let out one last high pitched moan and Daniel could feel her muscles pulsating. She held to him tight. Her brow was a bead of moisture and she was unreservedly breathless, as she ran her nails down his back trying not to scream her delight. She felt a warm numbing sensation that reached to her toes, and then had the urge to fall off to sleep. She started to closed her eyes.
"Uh Uh, my sweet, ya are not done yet", he whispered in her ear, trailing his lips the length of her neck. She responded with a soft giggle then she pulled back from his playful gesture. He took her by the wrist and guided her hand back to his shaft. He was utterly sensitive to her velvet touch. He took in a deep breath the minute she touched him there. He was definitely on fire. "Stroke me, sweet." he coaxed her onward.
He was breathing so heavy, now, that Maura knew he was close to his breaking point. She leaned in and kissed him passionately on his mouth, while she was pleasuring him. He removed her hand from his hardened, sensitive mass and rolled her atop of him. He eased her legs apart with his and sat her upright. He forced himself up against her moist warm spot and could feel her heat. How he wanted to enter her. He continued to press himself up against her while wrapping his hands around her tiny waist. He reached up and caressed her breasts.
Then brought her down one last time to him, kissing her with a passion that even he had never experienced before. He rolled her onto her back and thrust himself up against her thigh. He let out a most deep and satisfied moan. Maura could feel her thigh was moist and warm and Daniel's once hardened manhood was pulsating and beginning to soften. She waited only a few seconds before she tried to reposition herself and he jolted, almost off the bunk.
"Maura, love, I'll have ta be teachin' ya after lovemakin' etiquette. Always give a man at least five minutes ta catch his breath before attemptin' ta move, lest ya be sending him from pleasure ta pain in the blink of an eye. Get my meanin?” Giving her a forgiving wink of his eye and a kiss atop her forehead. He rolled to the side of her and pulled the wool blanket over both of them and tucked in close to Maura.
Quite a while had passed, but Maura could not sleep. She was lying there listening to Daniel's heavy, relaxed breathing and was confused. She had thought, from what the more experienced girls at school gossiped about, there was supposed to be some sort of entering of the female and the first time it would cause pain. Daniel never entered me. This, she did not understand. I told him I was ready for him to be my first and that I was naught afraid. We will definitely be having a talk about this in the morning. She finally drifted off into a relaxed slumber, cuddling up against Daniel's back.
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The next morning when she awoke she was rolled up in the woolen blanket alone. She gave a yawn and a great stretch. That was possibly the best nights rest she'd had since boarding the ship. Maura turned onto her side, with the blanket tucked up under her chin. What woke her was the scratching of quill upon parchment. Maura could see Daniel, with his back to her, sitting at his desk pouring over his manifest sheets.
When he heard her stir, he turned to her and smiled. "Good mornin' love.”
He flashed that beautiful smile at her. “Ya were so peaceful I'd not the heart ta wake ya. Would ya like a cup o' tea or coffee to start ya off?"
He was far too cheerful for this early in the morning, she thought. Maura was used to being up much earlier and alone in the morning, not having to talk with anyone, save the cook when she'd go to retrieve Daniel's breakfast.
A sudden flurry of worry came upon as her she jumped from her bunk with the wool blanket wrapped about her, scurrying about the cabin looking for her boy's attire.
Daniel just sat in his chair watching her and waiting for her to notice he was watching her.
"Why did ya let me sleep in. I'll never get my chores done, today. I'm so late. Godsey must be wondered what has become o' me by now!"
She was even more breathtaking at this moment than any other. Her hair was a tousseled mess, clutching the blanket to her and chugging down warm coffee.
"I went and got our breakfast and let Godsey know ya had a rough night of it. That you'll be takin' the day off.” As he winked at her.
She just about screeched bloody hell upon him. "You did what! Oh please tell me that ya are jokin' Captain. Ya really didn't let on about our lovemakin' ta Godsey, I'll ne'er be able ta look him in the eye!"
Daniel sat staring at her clutching her blanket to her as she continued her tirade, wanting desperately to relieve her of it. "Are ya completely daft, woman! O’ course I didna tell him that. I meant that ya was feelin' poorly and needed ta stay in bed for the day." He stated with a smirk that she desperately wanted to slap off of his face.
"Oh my goodness! He knows what we did in here last eventide! That does it I canna work with the man ever again. Why, he's like my father, he is, and I would die first than have my father know that I succumbed to the ways of a wanton. I won't I tell ya I won't!" She slammed herself down into the dinning chair, clutching the wool blanket to herself, with a pout and tears welling up in her eyes. "Oh why did I give into ya. This is God's way o' punishin' me for my sins of the flesh."
Damn it if she wasn't the sweetest female that he'd ever laid his kiss upon. He leaned back into his chair, slapping his hands to his thighs. "What are ya all fired up about. Don't ya think that Godsey maybe has caught on ta what the rest o' the world is already onta. Passions between a man and a woman have been goin' on since the dawn o' time, love. I think he would o' figured it out in time, lass. Besides keepin' his Captain happy has saved his sorry hide from the lash, and your virginity is still intact, girl. I have left ya with your most prize possession." "So ya see, love, 'tis all good."
When Maura at last lifted her eyes to his they were that deep fiery emerald color that told Daniel she was furious with something he'd said, but couldn't figure out what it could be. I mean everyone was in a win win situation, to his mind. Godsey did not have to face the lash, he got to make love to a beautiful woman and she still has her virginity intact. What could possibly be wrong with that?
Through clenched teeth Maura spoke to Daniel in a contemptuous tone that he immediately could recognize as hurtful anger. "What do you mean, sir, that my virginity is still intact? Her
steely look was cutting him in half. "I gave myself ta ya freely. Ya may not have penetrated me with your manhood, sir, but ya casual accountin' of our lovemakin’ surely has pierced my heart all the same." The tears were there, but she fought them back.
"I am not a plaything for ya ta take out and use when the urge suits ya. I came upon this ship with the sole purpose of gettin' safe passage ta New England and I agreed ta work and work is what I'll be doin' sir. I'll not be lyin' about servicin' ya basic animal urges for my passage. Get my meanin'? She poked Daniel hard in his chest with her long slender index finger.
"Now if ya don't mind I'll be havin' ya turn ya back so that I might get dressed for my day’s work, Captain Hargendon." She turned her nose up at him and stiffened her back in an attempt to stand her ground.
While his back was turned to the great bay window over his bunk, he tried to plead with her to listen to him. "Maura, ya are not realizin’ it now, girl, but I've done ya a great favor. Sure I could o’ taken ya fully last night but then, one day, when ya meet the right man, lass, ya can truthfully say ya virginity is still intact. I didna want ta take from ya your most prize possession, darlin'…I just wanted ya ta feel the passions some women never get ta feel their whole life and still keep ya vanity, that's all, lass. I never meant ta hurt ya feelin's, girl."
"Oh your a fine one ya are. Doin' me a big favor, are ya? You used me for ya own pleasure and didna take my virginity because ya are ta be wed back in New England and don't want anyone's wee bairn ta havta claim as ya own. Isn't that the real way of it?" She fired back at him. “And one more thing I should like ta take ya ta task for. Today I am relegated back ta the rank o’ girl and lass, is it now? Whereas last eventide I was emulated ta woman status while ya were havin’ ya way with me. Well let me make this perfectly clear Captain I am not a girl but a full grown woman and ‘tis high time I started actin’ like one and not just when in the lustful throws of a man’s passionate embrace!”
"Look here, Maura, I never gave words of promise to ya, woman, and I won't be caught up in the trappin’s of any female, not even the one that I am betrothed to." He stormed past her and left the cabin, slamming the portal door behind him.
Maura threw herself onto the bunk that, just the night before, she had been in heavenly bliss. She sobbed heavily into her pillow. "When I meet the right man, indeed. I gave myself to him because I thought that he was the right man.” She sat up on the side of the bunk, wiped the tears from her eyes, donned her cap, rubbed some soot to her nose and cheeks and left the cabin for the upper deck to begin her day’s work.
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The next few days were tenuous, between Daniel and Maura. She made certain to keep as busy as possible so as not to have to talk with him at all, unless necessary. She worked hard, sun up to sun down. Then she fell into her bunk every night, exhausted. But before she drifted off to sleep, each night, she could not get him out of her thoughts, no matter how hard she tried.
It had been one week since they had made love, but Maura could still feel his warm mouth upon her neck and lips and his masculine hands over her body. She longed for his touch, again, and wanted to give in to him. To go to him and beg him to take her. She felt prideless, at this point, as she realized she was hopelessly in love with this man and could not help herself.
How she hated these feelings of weakness.
It was somewhere along the fifth morning, when she had awakened, and was greatly relieved Daniel had already left the cabin and was up on deck. She could collect her thoughts and get her cabin chores done in peace, without wondering what he might be thinking. She had been stripping the bed of its linens and was getting ready to take them to the wash barrel, when a knock came upon the cabin door. Without giving too much thought she opened the cabin door thinking it was Godsey, come to fetch her for the day’s work up on deck.
Shocked to see that it was Kilern standing on the other side, she stepped back and tried to slam the door in his face, but his foot held the door open. "What do you want! The Captain will be returnin' any minute, now!" Trying to sound brave and convincing.
Kilern forced his way into the cabin and shut the door behind him. "Now that's not too hospitable of ya lass. Didna ya pa teach ya no mannas?" He cackled in his most disgusting tone.
"I'm just checkin' on my pot O' gold, ‘tis all." Running his fingers across his dry, cracked and encrusted lips. "Cap'n's gonna be busy for a while. Might be this is my chance ta have a taste o' ya, girl.” Kilern moved a bit closer as Maura retreated. "You ain't told him that I'm knowin' ya to be a lass or I’d have known it by now. Tell me Maura why haven't ya told him? Why then ya would be protected from me, ‘cause for sure he'd have my hide for touchin' ya." He moved even closer to Maura. She continued to back away from him.
"Unlike you, Mr. Kilern, I have a heart and a conscience. I don't want anyone's blood on my hands." She leaned back against the table with one hand.
"Oh that be a shame, cause ya see Maura I couldna care less about havin' a conscience. I'm only thinkin' 'bout never havin' ta sail, again, these black cold waters and livin' an uncomfortable life, child, and you're gonna help me ta achieve that end." He leaned in closer and grabbed her face, with one hand, and forced a hard, wet kiss upon her mouth. He forced her mouth open wide to take in his tongue way into the back of her mouth, while his other hand had found it's way down into the front of her trouser’s, where he immediately found her warm, soft, private spot and slipped his fingers into her. "Oh Girl, ya are gonna taste so good ta me.
Don't fight me now, and it'll go easier on ya. I ain't gonna take ya fully, I just want a small taste of ya honey pot, darlin', ‘tis all.”
Maura knew there was no getting out of this fix. If she screamed it would surely bring upon, Kilern, the wrath of her Captain, which he deserved, but after the way she had behaved with Daniel, the week before, he'd never believe she did not bring this onto herself. She felt such shame for giving herself to Daniel so freely and with such wanton behavior.
She closed her eyes tightly so as to be able to endure Kilern's rape of her body. He groped and prodded with his hands and mouth, as he pushed her onto the table and had his way with her.
Finally and with brute force he turned her to face the table and pushed her down upon it, slamming the side of her face against the cold hard mahogany. Then he ripped her trousers from her waist.
It seemed like hours had passed in his sudden silence. He stopped his effrontery of her briefly to further torment her with his comments regarding her bare bottom that was now in full view of his prying eyes. “My God girl ya are truly beautiful. Ya body is like that of an angel, so pure, so chaste. Seems almost a shame ta sully ya like this. But my male urges willna let me stop."
Maura felt him run his rough palm over her bare buttocks, as he made a searing noise between his teeth, as if he'd been burnt with a hot iron for touching her skin.
Maura was terrified to move. Her breathing was rapid and shallow in its quality and she felt nauseated from the smell of him. She stayed perfectly still, though, for as long as he was talking he was not assaulting her. But that reprieve proved too short for he began his denigration of her body, once again. He had hold of her around her waist with one hand and was working loose the ties of his trousers with the other. Finally with both hands holding her firmly in place, he began to push up against the outside of her bare bottom with his hard bulbous mass. He wrapped his arm around her waist, placing his large rough hand on her slender, soft hip and with the other he fondled her breasts. She was praying it would soon be over. She kept her eyes shut tight and was thinking about being back home, where it was safe.
Kilern licked the back of her neck and moan with unashamed pleasure. At last, he let out a deep groan and she could feel her backside was wet from his release. He let go of her and leaned back away from her.
She could hear him fumbling with his trousers and then heard him speak.
“C’mon now girl, dress yaself. I mean I know ya are lookin’ for more but I'
ve not the time nor the energy, hehe," as he slapped her on her bare buttocks. He bent and pulled her trousers up to her waist instructing her to fasten them.
Maura did as she was told. She couldn't fight. She was numb. All the reasons her father wanted her to leave home for had happened to her, here, on this ship. God only knows what else was awaiting her in New England.
Kilern went on and on but she did not hear a word of it.
"I don't know what the Cap’n's been teachin' ya but it's obvious he ain't touched ya yet. Why ya were as pure as the drivin’ snow, lass. That's fine by me, love. I'll be more than willin' ta teach ya what a man will be lookin’ ta purchase ya wares for, hehe, no problem."
He was finally dressed and ready to leave the cabin. He grabbed her one last time, before departing, held her close to him and kissed her full on the mouth then ran his tongue down the length of her throat, to the swell of her breast. "Next time I'll teach ya how to take care of a man proper. There are many ways of satisfyin' a man, while preservin' ya virginity. I've sailed to the orient, many times and the things I've learned will be makin' me a rich man back in New England, once I've taught ya the ways." He grabbed her buttocks one last time and squeezed it gently. "Oh yes, I'm gonna have a grand time teachin' ya." He winked at her and then left the cabin.
Maura went immediately to the wash stand and began to scrub every inch of herself until her skin was beginning to peel and was actually bleeding in some areas. She scraped her tongue many times with the rough wash cloth, but nothing could take away the taste of his mouth or the smell of his breath. She was terrified Daniel would be able to smell him on her if he got too close to her. She planned to stay as far away from him as possible, for the rest of the voyage.
She had no feelings left at all. Kilern had stolen them all from her. If this is what women were put upon this earth for then she should learn how to survive it or she would surely die in this new world she was headed for.
Once dressed for the deck, she headed out the door. But took a moment and turned to look back inside, at what she once thought was a safe place, and realized there was no safe place for her...anymore. Her innocence had been robbed from her by two men. One she thought she loved, a few days earlier, and the other she hated. Now she felt she hated both, if not all men. She turned and closed the portal door, forever changed.
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