Something shifted inside, stirred even. I don’t know what but I wanted to find out exactly what was going on between us, even if he walks out the door afterwards, I had to know.
I look up into his eyes with a reckless abandon. "What happened to taking things slow? You know, starting off as friends?" I asked. He had a glint in his eye that told me slow and friendly were the last things on his mind.
I can hear the smile in his voice. "You want friendly baby? How about I promise to be really fucking friendly with what's between your legs, then maybe that'll erase that thought."
“Zac…” I whisper, as my feet finally begin to function as I walk towards the door, regretting each and every step I take because I know if I place my hand on him, it’ll be over because when I touch him, it sends shockwaves throughout my entire body, making me shiver from excitement. He’s standing there, with his back to me, scared to turn around because he knows and I know that once he does and sees the look of hunger in my eyes, he won’t be able to stop. Maybe that’s what I want. Is for him to take control of my body.
“Answer me Jayde…what do you want?” He growls. I can hear the lust in his voice. He’s fighting himself, which is a major turn on.
“You’re fighting this, aren’t you Zac? You don’t know if you’ll be able to control yourself when I say…how much I want you.”
Almost like an alarm went off in his head, he turned around when I said those words and he had the most intense hungry look in his eyes which made my smile falter. Oh, shit.
“You’re right. I won’t be able to control myself. Which is why I’ve been fighting myself every time I see you. Every time those beautiful green eyes met mine, I’ve wanted to watch them close while I thrust in and out of you. God baby, I want you so much right now. Please give yourself to me.” Grabbing me by the waist, he hauls me to his rock hard body, sending those same shockwaves throughout my entire body from the top of my head to the tip of my toes.
Reality struck and I found myself pulling away. “Wait, I just remembered the charity ball is tomorrow. What about that?” I ask, which didn’t seem to make him stop since he leaned in to inhale my scent, “That’s tomorrow. I want you now. And I’m not going to wait another second before I have you.” His cockiness makes my stomach leap with excitement, but the nerves suddenly take over. The idea he actually wants me hits me hard, and if now was ever a good time to pull away, it would be now. But the strong grip he has on me is keeping me close to his side. God, why does he have to be so strong? The overpowering scent of him makes my insides turn to butter. He smirks as I turn away. “I bet you’re wet for me, aren’t you baby?” He asks and I shake my head, averting my eyes.
“Liar.” He whispers. He’s so incredibly close to my face that his warm breath tickles my cheeks. God, he smells heavenly. “No, I’m not lying. Because I’m not wet for you. You have no effect on me whatsoever.” I say, putting on a brave face, which only seems to make my resolve weaken more. I am so fucking doomed right now. The devilish smile that crosses his face tells me he isn’t buying it. “Oh yes, I know you are. The way your eyes are dilated, your breathing labored and the way you’re looking at me tells me how turned on you are.” He smirks and I shake my head. “You’re wrong.” I say, standing my ground.
“Am I?” He quirks an eyebrow at me. Is he wrong? Or am I too scared? Either way, he’s not winning this round. Hooking his hands around my skirt, he lifts it up so it’s bunched around my waist. Damn, why did I decide to go commando? Today of all days. This was not me at all.
“Holy shit. No panties?” He asks looking up in amazement. The boyish smile still plastered on his face makes my insides quiver. Leaning into my core, he inhales. “Last chance Jayde.” He growls. “Tell me you don’t want me, or else.”
I whimper. “Or else…what?”
“This.” He pokes his tongue out and licks once up my slit, making me shake. “Oh god, Zac.” I whisper. His five o’clock shadow tickles my inner thighs which only adds to my pleasure.
“Fuck it. You taste amazing.” Using his large hands to push my thighs apart, he gropes them as his head buries between my legs, licking and sucking until his lips find the little bundle of nerves and bites down gently. My hips instinctively begin to ride his face as my hands find his hair and pull and tug, trying to dull the building ache.
“Oh god…oh god…yes…like that…please don’t stop.” I call out over and over again, as the growing pleasure spreads from the tip of my toes and goes to the top of my head, sending me into another world. Oh god, this was more amazing than what romance novels described it to be. So much fucking better. The little bundle of nerves throbs and pulsates with the growing orgasm and I cry out, feeling the first wave hit me.
“That’s right baby. Scream my name. Let me hear you scream it.” Zac muffles from between my legs. I look down and he’s still buried there. One last nibble on my clit and I pull his hair hard as I come with a loud ear piercing scream. Holy shit, that was intense. I’ve never come before. Since I’ve never masturbated before, that was my first one.
“Oh god, Zac…that was…” I whisper, barely able to speak. My body is still humming from the aftershocks of my orgasm. He pulls back and licks his lips, my essence still apparent on his lips.
“Fucking amazing baby girl.” He adjusts my skirt back down around my waist and stands up, and I notice the hard on he’s sporting. I should return the favor. I wonder how good I’ll be at sucking his dick?
“You don’t have to. I’ll manage.” He says, his voice a little huskily. Was he reading my mind?
“But I don’t want you to go unsatisfied.” Zac chuckles and pushes a strand of hair behind my ear. “Trust me sweet pea, I won’t. You’ll be completely on my mind when I jerk off later on.”
A thought hits me. If I wasn’t still reeling from post-orgasmic bliss, I wouldn’t be brave enough to do it. Without leaving his eyes, I bring my hands down to unhook the button on the top of his jeans. He must sense what I’m doing because his expression changes. “Jayde…” He breathes out. I ignore his plea as I make quick work to get the zipper undone. I push his jeans down along with his boxers and out springs his cock, all hard and ready for me. I make a mental note to lock that image away. He is huge! I’ve never seen a cock so huge. And…and…oh dear. He’s pierced. One huge hoop going through the head of his penis, and the thought of him inside me with a piercing makes me excited all over again.
I wrap my hand around the shaft but my hand isn’t big enough to wrap completely around it. Damn, how is he going to fit inside me? “Fuck Jayde.” He grunts out as I start to move my hand up and down, making quick work of getting a rhythm going. My next move shocks even me. I lean forward and lick the head of his cock which is dripping in pre-come. Oh god, he tastes heavenly. Salty, musky, and him. It’s a taste I could definitely get used to. Zac jerks in my hand when my mouth covers the whole head of his cock and I smile up at him when he looks down. His eyes are hooded and I feel pleased with myself knowing I can do this for him.
“Oh god, baby. Your mouth is…fuck so good.” Zac grunts but he’s losing control. I take this opportunity to run my hands up the inside of his thighs and slip them around his balls, playing with each one individually while he starts to spasm. “Fuck, I’m gonna come. Let me pull out.” At his request, I bite down gently as my mouth encompasses his whole cock taking extra care to his piercing. I swirl my tongue around it which makes him quiver more. I want him to come inside my mouth. I need to taste him completely. My thighs quiver with my impending orgasm. This turns me on and I’d be damned if I wasn’t pleased with myself. I reach between my legs and begin rubbing my clit with my index finger. Spurts of warm white liquid shoot down my throat just as I get a rhythm going on my clit. Zac leans an elbow on the wall to balance himself as the next wave of semen shoots down my throat.
“Oh god, Jayde. Fuck your mouth is heaven.” He pants out. I look up with my hand still between my legs with a sad smile. He chuckles as he lifts me back up. Grabbing my finger
s, he licks them clean. “Did you get off again baby?”
I shake my head. I couldn’t do it. Why couldn’t I get myself off? “Maybe you should do that.”
Something crosses his face, and I smile. “Maybe I will. Lay down on the floor baby.” This was how I wanted my first time to be. With somebody who cared about me and my needs. “Zac…I’m nervous.”
His body shakes with laughter. This was not a laughing matter. He pulls my skirt off of me when I lay down on the floor of my apartment. This was how I was going to lose my virginity. On the floor of my new apartment. “Don’t be nervous Jayde. I’ll be gentle. But I’m giving you one last chance to say no. But god please don’t say no.” Once my skirt was off, he looks into my eyes pleading. Begging me not to say no.
“Don’t stop Zac. Please?” I wrap my arms around his neck pulling him closer to me. I feel the heat radiating off his body as it hovers over mine. I wanted this more than anything.
He leans down and kisses me softly, it’s not rough or angry, just soft kisses on my lips, my cheek and down my neck before bringing his lips back to mine once more. “I want you baby. I can’t wait any longer.” As my body anticipates his intrusion, he pulls back then meets my gaze. I can read his mind. A condom. He didn’t bring a condom.
“It’s okay, I’m clean and on the pill.”
He looks surprised. “You sure about this?”
I nod. “Yes Zac. Please don’t make me wait any longer. I’m begging you.”
He smirks. “Your wish is my command baby. I can’t wait to ride you bareback. That’s a first for me too sweetheart.” Easing slowly down, the head of his cock slips inside me, making me clench. It doesn’t burn like I anticipated but it’s only just starting. “More.” I beg. A single thrust and he slips further inside me. It’s starting to burn, so he rubs my clit with his middle finger, to loosen me up a little. Another small thrust and he sinks deeper. The slight pain surprises me when he thrusts one final time, breaking past the wall that housed my virginity. I cry out feeling the fullness engulf me. Pulling out slightly, he looks down at me but I’m sad because he retreated. “No, no don’t pull out. Please I want it. I need it.” I’m clawing at his chest and I don’t care how pathetic I sound, I need him.
“God you’re so tight baby.” With another thrust, this one a little rougher than the last, he pushes back inside me but the pain is vacant as the pleasure takes over. This feels so much better than I imagined. I shouldn’t have waited so long for this.
“Oh god Zac.” I look up into his eyes and they’ve started misting. A single tear drops down and lands on my breast. He leans down to lick it away as I bring my hand up to caress his cheek.
“Why are you crying Zac? Am I hurting you?” I ask, wiggling a bit to get some friction. He groans at my motion. Grabbing both of my wrists, he pins them above my head trapping me.
“No you’re not baby doll. It’s just…nobody has ever given me what you’ve given me. I’m so honored to be able to have this gift.” Now it was my turn to cry as the tears cascade down my cheeks. God, what was wrong with us? We were both a couple of emotional wrecks.
I wiggle my hips to gain his attention. He smiles down at me. “I’ve given this to you, now use it. Please move.” He complies as the motions of his hips combined with mine, give me a feeling of euphoria as he picks up speed. I lift my hips up to match his rhythm and his sounds become rougher, and more animalistic as he thrusts in harder.
Soft whimpers fill the room and I can feel the buildup once again starting at the tip of my toes and shooting to the top of my head. “Oh, Zac.”
“That’s right baby. Come for me. Let me hear you scream my name. Let me feel this pussy…my pussy clench around my cock. You feel so fucking good. All mine.” His sentences become less coherent as my ears begin to ring. Zac roams his hand down and plays with my clit and that’s when the first explosion hits. I buck up off the floor with a loud cry as my orgasm takes over, sending me into oblivion.
“Fuck!!” He cries out behind me and I feel his release inside me. It’s unlike anything I’ve ever felt before. This was definitely something worth waiting for. His face buries in the crook of my neck and I feel his warm breath and it sends tingles over my skin.
Relaxing on the floor, I look up into his eyes and smile. I’ve never been so happy than I am right now. If this is what the endorphins do, then I want to feel this way more often. Zac smiles down as he slowly pulls out and lays beside me on the floor, still trying to get his breathing under control.
“That was amazing. You are wonderful Jayde. Even more beautiful when you’re coming.” He says causing me to blush.
Zac grabs my hand and places it over his heart, the steady beat of his heart beneath my hand. “Do you feel that, baby girl? My heart is beating just for you.” I look over with tears in my eyes then try to pull my hand away but he only tightens his grip around my wrist and around my neck. “Please don’t Zac. I can’t…”
“Can’t what, baby? Admit you have feelings for me? Admit that you do. Say you have such a burning attraction for me you can’t possibly take it until my body is hovering over yours once again.” Admitting that very thing would be bad. It would open up a can of worms I really don’t want to open right now. I’m not ready. Sure, we just had sex and he took my virginity but admitting I had feelings for him was too soon. I wasn’t even sure myself how I felt. Which brought on the tears. The swift swoop of his hand on my waist has me catching my breath and I’m lost for words.
Zac leans up on his elbows until he is inches from my face. “Tell me you feel something for me.” He whispers which doesn’t help the tears situation. I barely knew him. Hell, I don’t even know what love is. How could I possibly tell him I had feelings for him when I didn’t even know myself? I look up into his heated gaze and it’s not only heated, it’s on fire. The scent of his cologne hits my nostrils, making me feel lightheaded. But in a very good way. The good way that makes you lose all sense of reality good. I’m doomed. Really, really doomed.
Chapter 24
Jayde
Zac towers over me and I can’t stop the jitters that are building. Inhaling deeply, I begin to speak, “Zac, I…” A loud, almost annoying beeping sound cuts me off as I straighten up, gaining some of my composure back with me. Leaning over, he lets out a loud groan and goes to pull out the 1980’s style device out of his pants pocket and looks at the screen. “Not now.” He mutters. After punching a couple buttons, he slips it back into his pocket, but not before silencing the device. “What is it?” I ask, still under his scrutinizing gaze. He ignores me question as he stands up and starts to get dressed. I’m confused. Was this something of a cover up? Or was he ignoring me?
“Its work and it seemed important so I gotta run.” He takes two steps back after he gets dressed but I ask what’s on my mind before he leaves. “You have to be back at the bar right now?” I ask as I look for my clothes and attempt to cover myself up. I looked down and noticed he had to adjust a pretty obvious painful erection before he looked up and caught me staring.
“Yeah babe, they need me. Can’t conjure up their special house drink without the master.” His face scrunches up at the word “master” as if he is in pain from saying it. “Don’t worry too much about it babe. I’ll be back because I’m not finished with you yet. When you see me again, I’ll take you to heaven and back again in so many different ways you’re going to need saving from the great creator himself.” I blush at his dirty talk but it’s hot.
Nobody has ever spoken to me in such a crude way, but it really wasn’t. It was respectful in a way. Please tell me this isn’t a dream? I can only nod as he chuckles and makes his way back towards me, reaching an arm out to pull me up from the floor and holds me close to him. “If our little previous adventure wasn’t enough of a preview, here’s one to keep me in that pretty little mind of yours.” Before I can protest, his lips come crashing down onto mine in a heart stopping, toe curling, rom-com movie kiss that had me gasping when his tongu
e found mine and began their dance of delight as my whole body filled with warmth and heat pooled in my lower belly and core. Fuck, this wasn’t just any kiss. This was a ‘don’t tell your momma’ kiss. Damn, this kiss was the kiss to end all kisses and I leaned into him a little more to get as close to his body as I can. I never wanted it to end.
“Oh god, Zac.” I rasp out when he finally breaks the kiss and we come up for air. He smirks and gives my lips one final peck before letting go. “You’re going to be saying that over and over again baby the next time I get a hold of you. Call me later, sweet cheeks.” We’ve only been out of each other’s embrace for a few minutes and I’m already craving more. He looks towards the door and then back to me, looking undoubtedly confused.
“What?” I ask. His nervousness makes me nervous and I in return give him the same confused look. “If I give you something, do you promise you won’t think it’s too forward?” I took a step back, a little shocked.
“S…sure, I promise.” Zac grins then runs over to his jacket and pulls something out of his pocket. It’s small and looks really much like a ring box. Shit, is he going to propose? “Umm Zac?” I ask. He must have read my face because he looked positively sick himself.
“Oh no no god no, it’s not a ring. I promise. Sorry, I didn’t mean to give you a mini heart attack right now. Just…here, open it. I hope you like it.” I hesitantly took the small box from his hand. I take it slowly and open the lid to reveal a small heart necklace with a tiny gap in the corner. I recognize this necklace. It’s an open heart necklace and I’ve always wanted one. “Oh my god Zac! It’s beautiful, thank you!” I say excitedly through tears. His smile is contagious as I mimic his. I don’t know how he knew how much I wanted this necklace but he got the one thing I could never get because it was too expensive. This would match my dress perfectly. “It’s beautiful, Zac. I…I’ve always wanted this necklace. I couldn’t afford it.” Maybe this could turn into something more, I thought. Before it was just me, myself and I. But maybe it didn’t have to be that way. He looks away when I smile at him, almost like he’s embarrassed. “You’re welcome, Jayde. I had hoped you would like it because I picked it out with you in mind. I just…”
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