by Glen Robins
The small taco bar had an upbeat atmosphere. Young people, mostly American and European tourists, filled the place with noise, laughter, and activity. It felt good to relax and absorb the youthful energy, even though he kept to himself at a small table in the corner.
He enjoyed the atmosphere late into the evening, chatting via Facebook with Emily on his phone, cocooned by the crowd, lost in the online conversation. All day, thoughts of her popped into his head at random times, no matter how many other interesting things he tried to stuff in it. The pictures, the conversations, and the feelings they produced kept rolling through his head, churning up embers of a long forgotten fire. Why couldn’t he stop thinking about her?
A memory from his brief stay in the hospital percolated to the top of his stream of thoughts.
Collin’s eyes flitted left, then right, before they finally opened. The left one wouldn’t open all the way. It was swollen and painful. Everything was blurry at first, and nothing was familiar. Too much white and a strange antiseptic smell. Panic set in, but his body didn’t respond to his impulse to jump out of bed. Was he glued down? Breathing heavily, he fought to focus his vision and figure out where he was. He could just make out an image to his right, hovering attentively over him. It hurt to turn his head, like his brain was sloshing to the side and slamming into the wall of his skull. He closed his eyes again and tried to swallow, but there was nothing to swallow. His mouth was as dry as a desert, and his lips throbbed with a dull ache.
The figure next to him was holding his right hand and saying something softly. He could feel the squeezing and hear the sweet voice, but the words didn’t register. His arms felt as heavy as lead and disconnected. The voice grew more insistent, beckoning him onward. It was as if he was being urged to climb a ladder with a heavy pack on his back. Everything went dark momentarily.
Through the din he could hear the voice more clearly now, calling his name and pleading for him to look at her. Yes, he could tell now that it was female. It must be Amy. Thank Heaven she’s okay. Must’ve been a terrible dream. Gravity had a firm grip on his whole body, pushing his limbs and torso into the bed and holding his eyelids down, but he battled until his eyelids held their ground. The image of a woman gradually came into focus. High cheek bones, steel gray eyes, sandy hair pulled back in a pony tail. It wasn’t Amy after all. It was Emily. Confusion swarmed his mind as he blinked several times in disbelief.
“It’s okay, Collin. I’m right here. Talk to me.”
He couldn’t form words, but his mouth moved and emitted a guttural sound. His tongue licked his lips, which felt like sandpaper, in a vain attempt to moisten them. He felt another squeeze of his hand and fingers under his chin, stroking his cheek. It brought a nice sensation, making him realize he wasn’t dead.
“Your eyes are open. That’s good. Let me take a look,” Emily inspected his forehead, eyes, and jaw. “You’re going to be all right,” she said in measured words.
That was reassuring, but why was she here, and where was Amy? These thoughts floated by and he tried to grab them and make use of them, but his efforts fell short. He forced out the only word he could form: “What . . .”
Emily’s overly sweetened and excited voice showed Collin how awkward she felt as she rattled off a chain of non-stop thoughts. “What happened? Well, you know, that’s a bit difficult to say right now. I’m hoping you can tell me, since no one else will. I mean, I’ve been here—what?—four hours now, and no one will tell me anything. I’m more than frustrated. In fact, I’m getting angry because I feel like I don’t know what to do or what to say. Know what I mean? It kinda sucks. Anyway, I’m talking too much again, I know. Nervous habit. Now, do you remember what happened?”
Collin was dizzy from her barrage of words, but he could not let go of the one question on his mind. Another word, forced and dry, “Where . . .”
“Where are you? You’re in Petaluma Valley Hospital. It appears that you fell and hit your head. I guess the police found you in your living room. Of course, they won’t tell me anything more. In fact, I had to pry just to get that much out of them. But the doctors say you’re going to be fine. Just a concussion and some stitches. Thirteen to be exact. I got that much out of them.”
“Amy?”
Emily paused. Her eyes narrowed as she watched his face. When she spoke, her voice was gentle and soft and much slower. “I wish I knew, Collin. No one has told me anything.” She drew in a breath, then changed course. “You need to rest, Collin. I should go.”
“No. Stay.” He felt lost, but he knew she would figure things out and help him understand what was going on. Plus, he did not want to be alone in this foggy- headed condition. Everything felt so heavy, so thick. He closed his eyes, wanting to forget what he thought he already knew.
That was the last time he saw Emily.
He left the taqueria around nine o’clock and made his way through Puno’s open air market en route to his hotel. It was dark and cold and his sweatshirt did little to keep him warm, so he pulled the hood over his head and walked briskly through the rows of vendors huddled around small fires burning in metal buckets near their stands. As he approached the Qelqatani Hotel there was an unusual amount of commotion on the street. Loud noises, yelling, screaming, crying. People were running toward the sounds, others ran away. Despite the commotion, he continued walking toward the still unfolding scene on the lakefront avenue, directly toward the fray. His instincts told him to stay in the shadows, observe from a distance. His gait changed, becoming catlike. But the noise and confusion continued to draw him in as curiosity cast its magnetic spell.
From behind the line of people that pressed their way forward for a better look, Collin listened to the yelling. He picked up on some of the chatter between the young people nearest him and came to understand that the federal authorities were aggressively questioning several shopkeepers and workers from the hotel about an American. The police were accusing this American of something that he couldn’t understand, saying he had done something that sounded awful. He didn’t know those words. The federales wanted information. That much he understood. They used intimidation and threats in front of the gathered crowd to instill fear and inspire cooperation, thus underscoring the importance of their mission.
Tingles ran up and down Collin’s spine; the hair on his neck bristling. As the yelling of the authorities grew louder and more incessant, Collin heard words that made his blood run cold and his breath stop short. Words like “Americano” and “ladron” and “peligroso” hung thick in the air, causing the crowd to gasp and whisper among themselves. “Thief.” “Dangerous.” His guts began to twist and tighten as if being constricted in a vice. A nearby group of teens was all abuzz about this “international criminal” who had come to their town. From their fast-paced chirpings, Collin understood the federales were looking for an American who was wanted for something to do with banks and taking a lot of money. The teens wondered if he had the money hidden right here in Puno. Wouldn’t that be cool?
The twisting inside intensified.
The throng of people pressed in tightly when the chief inspector raised a color photo of the suspected terrorist high above his head, turning slowly so all could get a glimpse. Collin could only make out a white face and brown hair, so he moved in for a better view. Peering between shoulders and heads three layers back in the crowd, his horror was confirmed. His own face stared back at him. Taken three weeks prior in the Grand Keys Bank, the photo was clear as day. For the moment, he forgot that he had cut his hair and changed its color.
The street near the hotel was electrified. Groups of women huddled, hands over their mouths, shaking their heads. Merchants and workers craned their necks to get a closer look, nodding agreeably. The teens were amped up, some of the boys becoming animated and excited, some eager to find the treasure, others wondering out loud if there was a reward available. Many of the girls were terrified and crying. The crowd was anxious, fueled by fear, uncertainty, and morbid curiosity.
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He tried to run, but a paralyzing dread crashed down upon him, shackling Collin’s very soul and shattering the short-lived sense of security he had enjoyed since leaving Lima. The accusations made by these men in uniform stung like a thousand wasps. The blood ran out of his head, leaving him dizzy and faint, as his mind caught hold of the ramifications of what was happening. Fear made it difficult to breath. No wind, no strength, and no thoughts. He was incapacitated.
Collin staggered toward the shadows at the crowd’s fringe, struggling to stay upright, reeling under the weight of a changing reality. It was all caving in on him. Again, he tried to run. His legs would not cooperate.
He was falling. He could feel his body swaying, but he was powerless and began descending toward the sidewalk. As he fell, he grabbed hold of a chain link fence, causing a loud clattering and clanking. The teens standing atop a pile of rocks only fifteen feet away let out a cacophony of laughs, heckles, and shrieks of terror at what they thought was a drunk. They hadn’t noticed him until now, having been too caught up in the drama unfolding on the street. Their commotion was loud enough to draw the attention of the officers, who looked over and scrutinized the man who could hardly stand. The officer in charge nodded to the one closest to Collin and signaled with a toss of his head for him to go investigate. Collin wobbled, even as he clung to the fence, unaware of the approaching policeman.
* * * *
Huntington Beach, CA
May 27
As Henry and Sarah Cook prepared to eat dinner that night, Sarah was struck with a sudden sense of melancholy. No, it was more than that. There was an urgency behind it. Something tugged at her heart, but she had no idea why. Dark and foreboding, she could not shake the feeling. Instead, it grew stronger and more pressing. Her countenance showed the strain she was experiencing inside. When she dropped the paring knife against the granite countertop and braced herself with both hands, Henry moved quickly to her side and wrapped an arm around her waist for support.
“What’s the matter, dear? Are you all right? What’s going on?”
“I don’t know. Something’s wrong. Something’s horribly wrong.”
“What is it? Shall I call 911?”
“No, it’s nothing like that. It’s something else. One of the kids is in trouble,” she said in a faint voice.
Henry knew from years of experience that his wife had an uncanny knack for sensing when her children needed her. Thirty-eight years of marriage had taught him that. “Which one?” he asked without thinking. Of course he knew.
“Collin. It’s definitely Collin. Let’s pray for him. Right now, Henry. Let’s pray for our son,” she said. Her voice was much stronger now, determined, and full of faith.
Henry reached for Sarah’s hands, facing her, head bowed. She followed suit, clutching his large and gentle hands, feeling his warmth and strength. He started the prayer. “Dear Lord, we know that you know all things. We know you love your children. We know you have watched over us and our family continually. For all of these blessings, we thank you, Lord. Now we ask you to reach out and extend your hand of protection in the care of our son, Collin. We know not where he is or what he is doing, but we fear he is in real danger. Please deliver him. Send your angels to be with him and give him strength, comfort, and inspiration. Help him to know we love him and are praying for his safe return home. This we pray, dear Father, in the name of your Holy Son, Jesus. Amen.”
The Cooks stayed in that position, holding hands, heads bowed and eyes closed. Each silently repeated a similar prayer, sending love and strength. Their desire and their faith united and powerful.
* * * *
Puno, Peru
May 27
In the same instant, Collin felt a power rush through his body. His mind cleared enough for him to hear, or maybe sense, the footsteps coming toward him. He had to move. Now. Although his stomach remained tied up in knots, his mind scrambled and raced, the fog within lifting. Strength returned to his legs. They began moving unsteadily, taking him away from the crowd, down the block, and into the shadows of a darkened street, staggering like a drunk. The officer continued to follow for a few paces before giving up. Why bother? There was a much more important matter to attend to.
A courtyard wall across the street provided an unlit place for Collin to retreat. He followed the barrier to the next intersection at the end of the block. He turned right and picked up the pace. Even though the air was thin at twelve thousand feet, he broke into a fast jog and maintained the pace for nearly a mile. He didn’t think. He just ran and ran. Block after block, running. At the edge of town, only a few streets from the bus station, he stopped, realizing that he couldn’t leave. He had nothing with him but his phone and a couple hundred dollars. He studied the map on his phone and knew what he had to do. And it scared him.
Because Collin had allowed himself to slip into a comfort zone, he had left two important items in his hotel room: the computer and backpack. They were essential to his survival. The two bags contained about $70,000 cash, in a variety of South American currencies and US dollars. All of his fake IDs were in them as well. Plus, his laptop contained all of his important, personal information. There was no other option. He had to go back and get them. Without them, he was done for.
Two weeks in South America had made him much too lax. He had not followed Lukas’s strict protocol, the instructions that had kept him ahead of his pursuers for so many months. That realization ran through his veins, like coursing shards of glass, causing pain the entire length of his body from the inside out. At the same time, it brought instability, putting pressure on his fragile mind. He felt memories invading, their powerful tentacles embracing him, squeezing tightly, and he knew he had to switch gears internally if he wanted to survive another day without capture.
Stay in the moment or you die, he thought.
Exerting all of his mental energy, recalling the sudden burst of strength from minutes earlier, Collin focused his mind on the situation at hand, concluding that these federal agents were not the brightest set of detectives. There they were making a public scene with shopkeepers that would have had a limited amount of interaction with Collin instead of searching the hotel for clues. What were they doing and why? Despite their dominant presence, he knew he had to get his stuff and get out.
He sprinted back to the hotel, slowing as he approached to catch his breath.
When he returned, Collin found the scene still teeming with people. The yelling had stopped, and the authorities had disappeared somewhere. Collin moved cautiously closer to the crowd, listening to what they were saying. He was able to discern that the hotel staff were being interrogated inside by the federal police because of all of the tourists staying there. Many of the guests had been questioned as well. The crowd was anxious, expecting more action. Those staying in the hotel wanted to get out of the cold night air.
Amid the commotion outside, Collin moved warily, wanting to hear but not wanting to be seen. His hood covered most of his head and face. His hands were thrust deep in his pockets, and he moved as casually as he could. Seeing a fellow American tourist standing alone at the edge of the throng, Collin approached him guardedly.
The young man leaned against a wall, observing the crowd. He was younger than Collin, maybe in his mid to late twenties. He wore long cargo shorts and a long sleeve thermal shirt. His hair was long and straggly and stuck out in all directions under a beanie cap. He hadn’t shaved in a few days. He seemed as likely as anyone to be friendly. “Hey, man, do you know what’s going on here?” Collin asked.
As he turned toward Collin and took him in, his eyes grew wide with recognition. “Dude, they’ve got a picture of you. At least, I think it’s you. Your hair is different, but the eyes and face are the same. You’re the one they’re looking for!” The man didn’t raise his voice. On the contrary, he spoke just above a whisper as if in some sort of hushed conspiracy.
Collin knew this already, but it still made his stomach drop. He tried to conta
in the panic that gripped him. But the color drained from his face, and his knees felt weak. Collin braced himself against the wall and looked the man in the face imploringly. “Why? Why are they looking for me?”
The young man recoiled. “That I don’t know, man. My Spanish isn’t that good. All I know is that they seem to think you’re dangerous and—”
Collin cut him off. “I’m not. I can promise you that. I am not a dangerous person. But the people coming for me are. Look, for your own sake, you never saw me, OK? Keep yourself out of this, and you’ll be OK.”
As Collin turned toward the hotel, with its yellow and white façade, wood-trimmed windows, and rock accents, the young man began to yell and wave his hands. He was calling out to the federales and pointing at Collin. “Hey, look. Over here. This is the man you’re looking for.”
Collin shot the young man a dark look as he clinched his jaw and shook his head. The buzz from the crowded street drowned the man’s cries. A few local police seemed to take notice of the man waving his arms, but Collin was gone, weaving and ducking through the throng of people to the front entrance of the hotel. The lobby that had seemed quaint and cozy was now too small and cramped to maneuver through. Cops everywhere, talking to hotel staff in every corner. He’d never make it through. How could he get to his room? There had to be a way.
A side door that led to a hallway with phones, restrooms, and a staircase started to open. Collin made his way over to it for a closer look. Behind the door was one of the nice older ladies that worked there, peering out into the street. From what he could tell, she was the cleaning supervisor. Collin had been polite and friendly with her and the other staff members since his arrival. In return, she always smiled back. Short and stout with black hair and weathered skin, she had a serene demeanor.