by Laura Dave
It isn’t the first time I think I see him. I think I see him everywhere.
I’m so flustered that I drop the papers I’m holding, everything falling to the floor.
He bends over to help me. He doesn’t smile, which would give him away. He doesn’t so much as touch my hand. It would be too much, probably, for both of us.
He hands me the papers.
I try and thank him. Do I say it out loud? I don’t know.
Maybe. Because he nods.
Then he stands up and starts to head out, the way he came. And it’s then that he says the one thing that only he would say to me.
“The could-have-been boys still love you,” Owen says. He isn’t looking at me when he says it, his voice low.
The way you say hello.
The way you say goodbye.
My skin starts burning, my cheeks flaring red. But I don’t say anything. There’s no time to say anything. He shrugs and shifts his backpack higher on his shoulder. Then he disappears into the crowd. And that’s that. He is just another design junkie, on his way to another booth.
I don’t dare watch him go. I don’t dare look in his direction.
I keep my eyes down, pretending to organize the papers, but the heat coming off me is tangible—that fierce red lingering on my skin, on my face, if anyone is paying close enough attention in that moment. I pray they are not.
I make myself count to a hundred, then to a hundred and fifty.
When I finally allow myself to look up, it’s Bailey that I see. It cools me out, immediately, centers me. She is walking toward me from the same direction Owen has gone. She’s in her gray sweater dress and high-top Converse, her long, brown hair running halfway down her back. Did Owen pass her? Did he get to see for himself how beautiful she has become? How sure of herself? I hope so. I hope so at the same time I hope not. Which way, after all, spares him?
I take a deep breath and take her in. She walks hand in hand with Shep, the new boyfriend. He gives me a salute, which I’m sure he thinks is cute. It isn’t.
But I smile as they walk up. How can I not? Bailey is smiling too. She is smiling at me.
“Mom,” she says.
Acknowledgments
I started working on this book in 2012. There were many times I put it aside, but I couldn’t seem to let it go. I am so grateful to Suzanne Gluck, whose astute guidance on each iteration helped me to find the story that I was hoping to tell.
Marysue Rucci, your thoughtful edits and sage comments have elevated this novel in every way. Thank you for being the best partner a writer could hope for, my dream editor, and a dear friend.
My gratitude to the amazing team at Simon & Schuster: Dana Canedy, Jonathan Karp, Hana Park, Navorn Johnson, Richard Rhorer, Elizabeth Breeden, Zachary Knoll, Jackie Seow, Wendy Sheanin, Maggie Southard, and Julia Prosser; and to Andrea Blatt, Laura Bonner, Anna Dixon, and Gabby Fetters at WME.
Sylvie Rabineau, we’ve been in this thing together since book one, day one. Thank you for being my most trusted advisor, Jacob’s “Sylv,” and one of my favorite people on the planet. I love you.
I am indebted to Katherine Eskovitz and Greg Andres for their legal expertise, to Simone Puglia for being a great Austin guide, and to Niko Canner and Uyen Tieu for the gorgeous woodturned bowl that sits on my desk, and that inspired so much of Hannah.
For reading many drafts (over the last eight years!) and providing other invaluable help and insight, thank you: Allison Winn Scotch, Wendy Merry, Tom McCarthy, Emily Usher, Stephen Usher, Johanna Shargel, Jonathan Tropper, Stephanie Abram, Olivia Hamilton, Damien Chazelle, Shauna Seliy, Dusty Thomason, Heather Thomason, Amanda Brown, Erin Fitchie, Lynsey Rubin, Liz Squadron, Lawrence O’Donnell Jr., Kira Goldberg, Erica Tavera, Lexi Eskovitz, Sasha Forman, Kate Capshaw, James Feldman, Jude Hebert, Kristie Macosko Krieger, Marisa Yeres Gill, Dana Forman, and Allegra Caldera. And a special thank you to Lauren Levy Neustadter, Reese Witherspoon, Sarah Harden, and the incredible team at Hello Sunshine—your belief in this book is nothing short of a dream come true.
My heartfelt gratitude also to the Dave and Singer families and to my wonderful friends for their unwavering love and support. And to the readers, book groups, booksellers, and book lovers whose company I am so grateful to keep.
Finally, my guys.
Josh, I’m not quite sure what to thank you for first. It probably should be something about how this novel wouldn’t exist without you and your faith in me (it wouldn’t), or how I can’t quite believe I get to have a partner who, after thirteen years, I’m still so crazy about. But is it okay if I start with the coffee? I so love the coffee. And I love you beyond all measure.
Jacob, my inimitable, big-hearted, wise, hilarious little man. I was reborn when you entered this world. And now I walk through it grateful and humbled by everything you teach me. What can I say, kid, that I don’t tell you every day? The great blessing of my life is being your mama.
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© KATHERINE ESKOVITZ
Laura Dave is the national and international bestselling author of several critically acclaimed novels, including Eight Hundred Grapes and The First Husband. Her work has been published in eighteen countries, and five of her novels, including The Last Thing He Told Me, have been optioned for film and television. She resides in Santa Monica, California.
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Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Names: Dave, Laura, author.
Title: The last thing he told me : a novel / Laura Dave.
Description: First Simon & Shuster hardcover edition. | New York City : Simon & Schuster, 2021. | Summary: “When her husband of a year disappears, Hannah qui
ckly learns he is not who he said he was and is left to sort out the truth with just one ally- her husband’s teenage daughter, who hates her”-- Provided by publisher.
Identifiers: LCCN 2020021203 | ISBN 9781501171345 (hardcover) | ISBN 9781501171369 (ebook)
Classification: LCC PS3604.A938 L37 2021 | DDC 813/.6--dc23
LC record available at https://lccn.loc.gov/2020021203
ISBN 978-1-5011-7134-5
ISBN 978-1-5011-7136-9 (ebook)