by Tamsin Baker
“Yeah, life’s shit now, isn’t it?” Clayton shook his head with a grimace.
I smiled and reached out for him, patting him on the shoulder. I was the happiest I’d been in years. “Not so shitty for me at the moment.”
Someone bumped into me as they moved past, shoving me into Clayton.
“Hey…”
Silky shot me a narrowed, angry look over her shoulder as she hurried past.
“What the?”
Damn, she looks pissed off.
“What’s with her?” Clayton asked. “Isn’t she the one you used to fuck?”
I choked on my laugh. “Pardon?”
How did he know such a thing?
“Oh, well, I’ve always noticed everything about you. Even if I wasn’t supposed to. I… Well…”
I held up my hand to interrupt, stopping his flow of nervousness. Like I had blushed earlier, his cheeks were glowingly pink now too.
“I like that.” And I did. I loved the fact that Clayton had been watching me, probably for as long as I’d been watching him.
“Do you think that means that we’re mates, Angus?” he asked suddenly.
I put my arm around his shoulders and headed towards the main eating area for whatever they’d made for us today. My beautiful lover against me and my heart light and carefree.
“Maybe, Clayton… Maybe.”
Chapter 4.
Clayton.
Dinner tasted better than it had in years. With Angus by my side, they fed me a proper serving of the strange stew the women made. It was hot, and salty, and filled my stomach so well I could practically feel my muscles bulging with the protein.
Gratitude for Angus’s presence in my life flowed over me like a cleansing rain. Yesterday I had been treated worse than any dog I’d ever met, and today I was actually happy. Full of food, covered in the dirt of a good day’s work.
Not the dirt from our front lawn where Sam had kicked me.
I couldn’t believe how much had changed in so short a space of time, and it was all due to the beautiful man before me. I watched him as he spoke to members of his pack. The attraction that had built between us all day sat low in my belly like a heavy stone.
I loved watching him, no matter what he was doing. His huge muscles had flexed and bulged today as he worked at the power plant. I’d been hard up trying to concentrate on my job while he worked in front of me.
I wanted him.
And that wasn’t a feeling I’d had in a long time.
Sam had been a selfish, and sometimes violent lover. I couldn’t remember the last time I’d cum with him. But as I stared at Angus, I knew it would be different. That this huge man who looked after his pack so well, would also perhaps look after me.
When I’d finished my food, I sidled up next to him and took his hand in mine. His fingers were roughly callused and I clung to them.
He turned immediately to me, his eyebrows drawn low in concern. “Are you alright?”
I nodded, nervous energy making my heart pound faster and my throat tighten. “Could we go back to your apartment soon?” I gave him the best suggestive look I could manage, hoping he’d understand what I wanted from him. I even licked my lips.
Angus looked confused more than anything. When he didn’t respond except to cock his head to the side, I lay a hand on his chest and rubbed my fingers over his shirt. Right over his tight little nipple.
His eyes opened wide and his nostrils flared. “Right. Yes. Okay.”
The woman from before came up, flicking her long hair and sticking her nose in the air. She looked like a horse in heat, and it wasn’t attractive.
What’s her problem?
“Are we going back to your apartment tonight, Alpha? You asked me to join you in your bed yesterday and we decided tonight would be best.” She slid a nasty look my way, her eyes practically reduced to slits. Then she flicked her gaze back up to Angus and had the gall to bat her eyelashes.
The Alpha glanced between us, his worry obvious in the downward pull of his lips.
This wasn’t my place to interfere. Especially if they’d already arranged something.
I took a step away. “I’ll come back later, if that’s okay? How long do you need? An hour?”
More? I had no idea. If it had been Sam I would have been right to interrupt after about five minutes.
“No.” Angus’s arm snaked out, grabbing me around the waist and pulling me into his hard form.
His gaze was on me, intense and lustful. I didn’t want to look away. I only wanted to drown in how much he wanted me, and how much I returned that need.
I peeked over at the bitch in front of us who’d tried to take Angus off me. She’d transformed into an even more hideous beast. Her mouth was twisted up like a cat’s ass and her hands sat on her hips in a striking pose of anger.
“What the fuck is this, Angus? You think I’m going to share you with some little gay boy? Not a chance.”
Angus laughed, but it wasn’t because he thought she was funny. The sound was dark and dangerous. It made me shiver against him and cling to the muscled torso that rumbled with disdain.
“No, Silky, you won’t be sharing me with Clayton. He’ll be in my bed every night from now on, so I suggest you find someone else to service you.”
Ohhhh… Burn.
“Why you…” She hissed, her eyes narrowing and her nostrils flaring as she took a step forward. Then she stopped abruptly and I hid against the Alpha.
I didn’t see the look Angus gave her in answer to her outburst. I didn’t want to see how angry he was. I could feel it in the vibration of his skin. So, I buried my head into his shoulder instead, inhaling the salty scent of his testosterone.
I could imagine how scary he’d be when he grew angry and I was sure it would top anything I’d ever seen from any other shifter.
“You’ll regret this,” she threw at us as she stalked away.
I clung tighter and closed my eyes.
“You ready to go?” Angus asked gently, tugging at me to disengage me from his side. I let him push me away and I lifted my chin, aching for his lips on mine.
“Yes.”
He grabbed my hand tightly and pulled me down the street, away from the bustle of people eating and into his pack’s apartments. A place I had been staring at for five years and envying all the people who lived here. Now I was one of them.
I knew I should leave the female out of our conversations, it wasn’t really my business. But then again, was she someone I had to worry about now that I had the man she wanted? “She’s pretty angry.” I couldn’t help but say as Angus opened the door to his apartment and led me inside.
He shrugged as he locked the door behind us and put his arms around me, big and firm. “She’ll get over it. She knew she wasn’t my mate.”
“And I am?” I managed to ask, though my throat tightened and my voice shook as I got the question out.
The big beautiful Alpha stared at me for along moment. My belly quivered with fear and need all at the same time. I wanted to be his mate, so badly.
“I don’t know, but I think we should find out.”
I liked the sound of that. “How do we do that?”
Angus chuckled, his blue eyes dancing with light. “We fuck.”
My heart leapt in my chest and then began to pound against my ribs like a bongo drum. “Oh. Well…that sounds good.”
Angus stared down at me, his eyebrows knitted together with apparent worry. “Are you able to? I mean, how are you feeling? Is there anything I should know about Sam, or anyone else? I don’t want to set off some sort of PTSD reaction.”
I stepped back and pulled off the oversized dirty tank top I still wore. I wanted out of these clothes and I needed to feel good.
“PTSD? What were you, a shrink back in the day?”
Angus mimicked my movements, stripping himself of his top, and then reaching for the zipper on his jeans as I pushed my own pants down to my ankles. When I stood back up, I knew m
y arousal was obvious. Angus couldn’t stop staring at my cock.
“Ah… No. A fire fighter.”
I laughed, unable to stop the reaction as happy hormones flooded my brain, making it impossible for me to concentrate.
I could see Angus in yellow overalls… A fireman’s hat. Back in the day, I would have wanted my house to catch on fire just so he could throw me over his shoulder and save me.
“Oh fireman… Please… Rescue me,” I cried playfully and Angus growled, the throaty rolling sound making the hairs on my back stand up.
“Definitely.” He pushed his own jeans to the ground and walked forward, his heavy balls swinging against his thighs.
My knees weakened and thankfully Angus scooped me up, throwing me over his shoulder like in my fantasy. He didn’t stop there. Angus kept moving like an unstoppable juggernaut, his hard body hot beneath my belly as we moved into the bedroom and he threw me down onto the bed. I laughed as the softness cushioned me, the elation I was feeling intoxicating.
Angus’s face grew serious. “I want to begin this by saying I’ve never had a male lover before, so I may need a little guidance here and there.”
Oh, now that’s perfect.
“I would love to,” I said as I slipped off the bed, fell to my knees, and took his heavenly cock into my mouth.
Angus’s groan filled the room as his flesh filled my mouth. The slightly salty flavor and the heat of his skin had me begging for more.
“Oh God, you’re good at that.” He moaned as his hand slipped into my hair, holding me gently against him.
His tenderness tugged at my heart and I tried not to remember all the bad memories of the last few years. I forced myself to focus on the present and slid my hands over his thighs and around to his rock-hard ass. I gripped tight and moved my mouth up and down on him.
Yum…
I pulled one arm back and wrapped a hand around the base of his cock, my fingers encircling his massive girth barely. I sucked on the large bulbous head and risked a glance up at his face.
His eyes were closed and sweet ecstasy contorted his face. Inside my mouth and within my grasp his cock was getting bigger, and thicker by the moment.
I shifted focus again, deciding to explore more of his body. I fondled his heavy balls, enjoying the crinkly hair and the soft skin. Then I reached under him to tap a finger lightly against his asshole.
He flinched back, panting hard. “Go slow, yeah?”
I nodded, surprised to find myself, although ten years the junior, having more experience in this field than him. “Okay.”
I moved to my feet and wrapped my arms around Angus’s neck, going up onto my tiptoes to kiss him once again. He groaned and wrapped me up in his big arms. His tongue spearing my lips and devouring me. Angus thrust his pelvis against my belly in an impatient way, and his cock poked into me like a hot rod of steel.
I was more than ready for him. My body thrummed with arousal and need. I wanted to feel Angus’s cock thrusting into my body. Feel him consume me and challenge that being inside of me that Sam said was toxic and dangerous.
I knew I wasn’t really a bad person. I just needed an Alpha strong enough to take me.
I pushed against his chest so that he’d let me go, and he did with a confused look on his face.
“You gonna fuck me, Angus?” I asked, stepping back, turning around, and presenting to him by going down on my hands and knees on the bed.
He stepped closer and ran his roughened hands over my hips, making me quiver and shake. “How do we do this so I don’t hurt you?”
No one else had ever asked me such a thing.
“Ah…we need some moisture. Lube is a thing of the past.”
Or so I’d been taught by the men who I’d been with over the past few years.
“I have oil!” Angus exclaimed with excitement.
I turned around and looked over my shoulder at him. What sort of oil?
“Perfect.” Or so I hoped.
He raced out of the room and I waited for him to come back. Also, something I never did. Generally, I was grabbed and used quickly. I never had time to think about what was happening. Sam had been hard and aggressive once we begun, and fast. It was over before I knew it, most of the time.
I pushed any thoughts of Sam away as Angus re-entered the room. “Here, hold out your hand.”
I did as he asked, balancing my weight on my other three appendages. He poured some yellow oil into my hand. I didn’t know what sort. Canola? Sunflower? Olive? I didn’t care. If it was edible, then it was good to go.
“Stroke yourself, I want to feel you cum too,” he said and my balls tightened with arousal.
Now that was hot.
I reached for my cock and he ran a hand down my back. I shivered at his light touch and wrapped my hand around the shaft, gasping as hot pleasure shot through me. Angus slipped his fingers between my ass cheeks and began touching me there.
Yes. There. Please…there.
I pushed my pelvis back, gasping as my own hand stroked faster. Forcing me closer to completion. The thick head of Angus’s cock pressed against my ass and I bucked, needing him inside me. I rocked harder and he didn’t move.
I wanted to know if we were mates. I needed to know if this could be different with him. Heat spread down my thighs and my balls were so tight I was afraid I’d spill on the sheets before he was even inside me.
I flexed my hips back against his cock, wanting the feeling of stretch and fulfilment he could surely give me. Hot pain spread through my lower body as he thrust into me. I rocked on his cock, moaning as my flesh burned. I couldn’t stop.
“Ah…”
I met his thrust as he forged forward, holding my breath as the pain intensified.
When he was finally fully seated inside of me I began to sweat.
“Just…pause. Please.” I panted, the pain now blinding inside my head. My cock had softened and I needed to breathe through it. If I could just have a moment to wait for it to go away, I was sure this would work fine.
And amazingly, when Angus did as I ask, it did. Slowly, but surely, the pain receded. The relief was massive. I worked my hand on my flesh once again. Faster and harder, needing the pleasure to overcome the pain.
“Fuck me, Alpha. Please.” I was begging now and I didn’t care.
Angus gripped my hips hard with his huge hands and began thrusting in and out of me. The pressure was intense. I could feel him so deep inside of me I didn’t know how he fit there.
Angus groaned above me. “Damn…. Fuck, Clayton, you feel, like, heaven.”
I closed my eyes and pumped my horny cock faster, ripples of pleasure flooding my nervous system. Wave upon wave of heat flowed over my skin as Angus moved harder.
His hands gripped my hips, and his moans filled my ears. My balls began to tighten and I thrust my hips back to meet his. Angus’s gasps grew louder and I worked my length with furious strokes.
“I’m…” Angus gave me a moment’s warning, and I grabbed his hand on my hip and held him to me.
He thrust to the hilt inside of me so deep I could have burst. Then he began to orgasm.
I wasn’t ready to cum myself, but I loved being the one to bring Angus to his peak. I squeezed his hand tight and enjoyed the satisfaction flowing over me. Pulses of seed squirted inside me, and all of a sudden, my body began to shake. My balls tightened up against my body and my own orgasm ripped through me like a brush fire. I screamed out as my eyes slammed shut and my cock pulsed with a pleasure I’d never known. Liquid fire filled my belly as my cum spread on the sheets beneath me and I collapsed forward, my muscles turned to jelly.
We fell down to the bed together, Angus’s cock sliding out of me as we nestled into the covers, his arm wrapped around me.
“What was that?” I asked, panting hard as I struggled to open my eyes. I was nowhere near ready to orgasm when Angus had finished, so how had I come so easily? So quickly?
That had never happened for me, not during sex
. Maybe when I was fifteen and had just started to touch myself, but that was a long time ago now.
“What do you mean?” Angus asked, groaning and rolling onto his back with a strong air of satisfaction about him. He stretched like a cat on a rug after a bowl of cream.
I twisted around to face him and dragged my eyelids up out of the soup of bliss that they swam in.
Focus!
“Didn’t you feel that?” I asked, mystified that he hadn’t experienced the same thing I had. Or was that what sex was like for a true Alpha?
Angus’s eyelids were dropped to half-mast and his smile spoke of major satisfaction. “You’re going to have to be more specific than that, because I can hardly hear you above the ringing in my ears.”
I pushed up onto my elbow and stared down on him. “That’s exactly what I mean. Sex has never been like that for me.” I swallowed hard as doubt rose, clamping down on my throat. Was he being serious in that he didn’t consider this a special event?
“That good you mean, I hope?” Angus asked, his grin spreading wide as he blinked so slowly I wasn’t sure his eyes would re-open. But they did. Barely.
“Yeah, of course. But…” I was beginning to feel stupid now. How could I explain this to him if he didn’t share it also?
Maybe Angus was used to sex being this good and I was just making up an importance that shouldn’t be attached to it? That had to be it. What did I know about functional, healthy sexual relationships?
Anger and jealousy threaded through my veins, hot and poisonous. Was this what he’d experienced with Silky too? Did all Alpha’s make their partners come like that?
My jaw tightened and my mouth twisted hard.
I bloody hope not.
“Lie down, Clayton, I can barely keep my eyes open.” Angus’s soft voice and searching hands made my doubts slide to the background of my mind. Asleep, but not forgotten.
“All right.” I gave up the fight to make him see this as more. I slid down next to him, in his soft clean bed and he dragged me close, letting the heat of his body warm mine.
“I’m so glad you’re with me, Clayton. Here. Now. I know this world is totally fucked up, but this is the first time I’ve been happy in a really long time.”