“She overthinks everything. She bitches all the time. For example, if I’m home late from work, her brain immediately jumps to ‘he’s been screwing around.’” Hunter pauses irritably. “I guess for the sake of full disclosure, I should mention I cheated on her once or twice, and yes, she is aware of this.”
Wow, this is like a soap opera. I’m already invested.
“All right…this cheating you mention.” I make some more notes. “How long ago did it take place? And was it once, or was it twice?”
“The first affair was years ago, the most recent one this year. I was under a lot of stress at work.”
I note that he ignored my question about how many times he’d actually cheated.
“Why do you think you cheated? Is there a particular reason that stands out?”
“It’s hard to feel connected to somebody when they’re constantly complaining and making demands. She fucking drove me to cheat. I mean, what else did she expect would happen if she kept acting like that?”
Ugh, what a prick. He holds his wife responsible for his cheating—
I stop the train of thought, reminding myself that I’m not supposed to be judge. I’m supposed to understand.
If I’m going to be a clinical psychologist, I’m sure I’ll hear thousands of sordid tales of infidelity. I might even need to counsel someone who physically or emotionally abuses their partner. It’s highly likely I’ll encounter patients I despise, or who I might not be able to help.
My job isn’t to condemn them; it’s to hopefully help them reach self-awareness.
“So when you came clean about the affairs, did you and your wife agree to start over? Start fresh?”
Hunter nods. “She accepted responsibility for her part in what happened and agreed to forgive me. That means it’s done, in the past. Her being suspicious of me all the time doesn’t make me want to spend time with her. Trust me, she’s not making it easy to be around her.”
“I imagine so. But can you recognize why she might be behaving this way? Let’s try to put yourself in her position. How do you think you’d react if your wife was unfaithful?”
“She’d never cheat on me,” he says smugly. “I’m the catch in this relationship. She’s definitely punching above her weight class.”
You’re the fucking worst, I want to say.
“I see,” is what I say instead. And now I understand why therapists seem to cling to those two words. It’s code for whatever expletives are ringing in your head.
Hunter and I talk for another twenty minutes about his fictional wife, her nagging, and his infidelity, and I begin to notice a trend in his responses. A complete inability to put himself in her shoes.
Lack of empathy, I write down, and draw a little star around it.
As he finishes another long-winded anecdote that paints his wife as the villain and himself as the innocent victim, I can’t help but be impressed by how he just threw himself headfirst into this assignment. And he’s doing such a solid job, which is…ugh, it’s sexy as hell, if I’m being honest.
I’m about to ask another question when Hunter sits up. “Let’s stop now. I’ve officially tapped out my knowledge about…my condition,” he says vaguely. “Got to do some more research before we keep talking.”
“This was fun,” I admit. “Don’t you think?”
“Yeah, it kinda was.” He slides off the loveseat and raises his muscular arms above his head to stretch them out. His T-shirt slides up as he does this, revealing abs of steel.
My jaw drops. “Oh my God. That is so unfair.”
“What?” Hunter’s dark eyebrows furrow.
“Have you seen your abs? Who the fuck has abs like that?”
His confusion gives way to a smug smile. “I play hockey. Every inch of me looks like that.”
Once again, my cheeks feel a bit warm. I’m trying hard not to picture what the rest of him looks like beneath his clothes, but I have a feeling he’s not exaggerating. His physique is bonkers.
I notice my phone light up on the nightstand and go over to check it. It’s been on silent, and Nico texted twice during the past hour. One message thirty minutes ago, and another just now.
NICO: Hey bb I’m gonna have to bail on sleepover 2nite. Car died after work. Battery probs. Gonna get it towed to the garage in Hastings and pick it up in the a.m. b4 class.
NICO: R u mad
I type a quick reply.
ME: Not mad, babe. Disappointed, tho.
“Everything okay?” Hunter asks as he zips up his hoodie.
I shrug. “My boyfriend canceled on me. He was supposed to stay over tonight but his car battery died. I guess he needs a new one or something.”
“Bummer. I’d invite you to play pool with me and the boys tonight, but I need a break from chicks.”
“Yes, I imagine all the female attention must be excruciating.” I think about the cute girl from yesterday, the one who went out of her way to make him lunch and he totally spurned her. “Come on, I’ll walk you downstairs.”
But before I can reach the door, Nico calls. “Oh, I need to answer this,” I say as we leave the bedroom.
I have no choice, because whenever I miss a call or text from Nico, he has a tendency not to answer when I call or text back, even if it’s half a second later. I don’t get it. Way too many people do that. How are they not available five seconds after contacting me? I swear, it’s like they send a text and then hurl their phones into the river.
“Hey,” I say hastily. “What’s up?”
“Just wanted to check in,” Nico says. “I’m gonna shower soon and then I’ll probably crash early.”
“Why—oh, right, you need to pick up your car.”
“Pick it up?”
“Because you got it towed to the shop…?” I remind him. From the corner of my eye, I notice Hunter curiously listening in. I urge him to walk faster as we descend the stairs.
“Oh no, actually, I got a jump from Steve. He had cables in his truck.”
“Wait, so you got the car started?” Then why can’t you drive here? I want to ask, but force myself not to.
“Yeah, I did. But I don’t want to drive it again tonight in case the battery dies again,” Nico says as if reading my mind. “I’m gonna get it checked out in the morning. But I’ll see you tomorrow night, okay?”
“Sure.”
“Love you, mami.”
“Love you too.”
I’m frowning as Hunter and I reach the front door. “The boyfriend?” he prompts.
I nod slowly. “I guess he got his car going with jumper cables, but the battery is still messed up? I’m not sure. I don’t know much about cars.”
“Sounds a bit shady,” remarks Hunter. “Using the ol’ car broke down excuse to avoid seeing someone.”
“Really?” I challenge. “Do you often lie about your car breaking down to get out of a date?”
“Often? No. Have I done it? Yes.”
I glare at him. “Well, not everybody is a liar like you.”
He doesn’t take offense. Just grins. “Gee. I didn’t mean to hit a nerve.”
“You didn’t.”
“Uh-huh. Anyway. My boys are waiting. Later, Semi.”
I practically shove him out the front door. Maybe if I get rid of him fast enough, that little seed of doubt he created won’t take root.
5
Hunter
I’m the first one to arrive for Thursday afternoon’s team meeting. I never used to be early for these things, but now that I’m team captain I’m trying to lead by example, so here I am, alone in the media room.
The Briar hockey facility is top-of-the-line, so we have a sweet A/V set-up. The large auditorium-style room offers three rows of tables with huge padded chairs, and a massive screen to watch game tape on. We’ve been studying film on Eastwood College all week. They’re our conference rivals, and we’re matched up against them for tomorrow’s first official game of the season.
I’m not too worried. Ea
stwood’s roster is not particularly strong this year—ours is. Even with Fitzy, Hollis and Nate Rhodes gone, the team still has a solid lineup. Me, Matty, an excellent goalie, and some of the hottest high school players Coach Jensen recruited for the freshman class.
After the team voted me to take over for Nate, our former captain, I called him up asking for tips on how to keep morale up, how to motivate the boys, how to actually lead, but he didn’t have much advice. He said the dynamics change every year with the ebb and flow of new faces, and that I’d learn as I go along. It’s simply a matter of navigating your way through thirty-odd egos, and keeping everybody pumped up and focused on the task at hand: winning.
Speaking of new faces, there are quite a lot of them this season. At the end of August we held open tryouts, an event that serves to showcase players who weren’t recruited out of high school or those who try out for the hell of it. One of my new favorite teammates is the result of those tryouts—Conor Edwards, who saunters into the room as I’m settling in a chair in the front row.
Con’s a self-proclaimed fuckboy, but he’s not as douchey as you’d expect. He’s actually quite decent, with a dry sense of humor that I appreciate.
“S’up, captain,” he says before yawning hugely. He rakes a lazy hand through his sun-streaked blond hair, drawing my attention to the purple hickey on his neck.
He reminds me of Dean, the older brother of my roommate Summer, and a good friend (and former mentor) of mine. Dean was unapologetically sexual when he attended Briar. He didn’t care if everyone knew he was constantly hooking up. And his manwhore ways didn’t hurt his reputation either, because every chick who met him wanted to get naked with him. But his girlfriend Allie is the only one to ever steal his heart. They’ve been living together in NYC for the past couple of years.
Conor sits beside me. A few seniors stride in and settle in the top row. “Yo,” they greet us, nodding hello.
We nod back.
Matt Anderson enters next. With Fitz and Hollis gone, I guess Matty’s my best friend on the team now. He’s the only black player on the roster, drafted by LA last year. I hope he officially signs with them, because it’s a great franchise to play for.
“Hey,” Matt says.
The room begins to fill up. We’ve got about two dozen starters, and then the rest of the roster is made up of benchwarmers and guys who still need a lot of development. And although Mike Hollis graduated, there is always, without fail, a Hollis type on every team. The lovable idiot, as Brenna calls him. The honor this year goes to a sophomore named Aaron, except everyone calls him Bucky because he looks like that character from the Marvel movies.
Bucky hates it, but the thing about nicknames is, they stick—whether you want them to or not. Just ask our senior left-winger Treeface, sometimes shortened to Tree or T, who one time four years ago got drunk and lamented how sad it is that trees don’t have faces and can’t see the birds who make nests on them. I’m pretty sure John Logan is responsible for that nickname.
Munching on a bran muffin he probably grabbed from the team kitchen, Bucky approaches the front row. “Did you talk to Coach about it?” he demands while chewing with his mouth open.
I play dumb. “About what?”
“The pig, dude.”
“The pig,” echoes Jesse Wilkes, a fellow junior. He was on his phone, but now he’s focused on our conversation.
Fuck. I was hoping the subject would quietly be forgotten.
“No, not yet.” And I don’t plan on it, I want to add, but I haven’t found a way to finagle out of this one yet.
The guys are insisting we need a team mascot, while I personally don’t see the point. I mean, if we were somehow able to strap a pair of skates on a polar bear and have him perform double axels on the ice between periods, then, sure, great. Bring it on.
Short of that, who the fuck cares.
Coach’s arrival spares me from humoring my teammates. He strides in and claps his hands sharply. “Let’s not waste time,” he barks. “Eyes on the screen.”
Chad Jensen is a total hard-ass—he doesn’t mince words or indulge us. When we’re in this arena, we’re required to be all business or else GTFO.
“Pay attention to Kriska on this first play,” Coach orders as a hi-def video pops up on the projection screen. He’s at his desk, using his tablet pen to circle Eastwood’s goalie, Johan Kriska.
The freshman is rumored to be one of the best college goalies on the east coast. I’ve been studying the handful of his high school games that were televised, as well as all of Eastwood’s preseason games. I need to be prepared when I face this kid. Not to sound cocky, but I’m the best forward on the team. And the top scorer, for sure, judging by last season’s stats lines. Nate and I were tied for goals, but my former captain had me on assists. I guess that’s another captainly requirement—Don’t hog the glory.
I’m slowly compiling a list of captain dos and don’ts.
Despite his stellar rep, I’m not overly concerned about Kriska. I’ve already found a weakness. “His glove is slow,” I pipe up. “Kid has trouble with the high shots. Maybe a thirty percent save rate, if that.”
“Yes,” Coach confirms. “That’s why we’ve been running those concentrated shooting drills this week. But I’m sure they’re prepping just as hard, and Kriska knows his own weaknesses. I want to see a shit ton of low shots on goal tomorrow. He’ll already be overcompensating for the weak glove, and he may be so focused on stopping those shots that we’ll catch him off guard and push one through the five hole.”
“Good point.”
We watch more of the tape. Someone whistles when Kriska makes one of the most gorgeous stick saves I’ve ever seen.
“Look at that,” Coach says, pausing the game. “No desperation on his face at all. He’s diving back into position to try to deflect the puck after getting completely hammered by those shots, and he’s cool as a cucumber.”
It is kind of impressive. Goaltenders don’t use their sticks to make a save if they can help it. Pads, gloves, even their own bodies, are preferable. A stick save tends to be the result of pure luck, with the goalie scrambling like mad. But with Kriska, it appears effortless.
“We just need to find a way to rattle him,” Matt speaks up.
I nod in agreement. I’m feeling confident, though. Last season we were killing it. It wasn’t lack of skill that cost us. It was a fluke injury, along with Nate’s ejection while defending my honor.
Another rule for the captain’s handbook: defend your boys.
This year we lost a few good guys to graduation, but we gained a lot more. There’s no reason why we shouldn’t make it to the Frozen Four, not unless we’re waylaid by massive team-wide injuries or do something to royally fuck up our chances.
The meeting wraps up when Coach claps his hands signaling that we can leave. Bucky instantly raises an arm and clears his throat. Loudly. He glances over to shoot me a meaningful look.
Shit.
Coach’s head lifts from his laptop. “What’s going on?”
“The captain has something to say,” Bucky announces.
Jensen’s shrewd dark eyes shift toward me. Those eyes are uncannily like Brenna’s, complete with the perpetual glint of mocking. Then again, he’s her father, so…
“Davenport?” he prompts.
“Uh…” Fuck fuck fuck. I’m about to sound like total moron. But I force myself to stand up and say, “Some of the guys want a pig.”
Coach’s eyebrows rise to his hairline. It’s rare to catch the man off guard, but right now he looks flabbergasted. “A fucking what?”
I swallow a sigh. “A pig.”
“A teacup pig,” Jesse Wilkes chimes in.
“A fucking what?” Coach repeats.
“Here’s the thing,” I explain stupidly. “Bucky’s sister and brother-in-law just got a pig from a breeder up in Vermont. Not a huge one, but a mini version. Apparently they make great pets? They’re like dogs, except they eat and shit more.”
“What is happening right now?” Coach shakes his head. “What are you saying to me?”
I take another stab at an explanation. “You know how some teams have mascots? The Darby College Rams have that billy goat that lives in the clubhouse behind their arena. Or the Coyotes down in Providence—they have a dog that’s half-wolf and everyone takes turns housing him?”
“Tabasco,” exclaims a senior D-man.
“I love that dog,” Tree says happily.
“Did you know Tabasco can hump on command?” Bucky says, sounding impressed.
“Big fucking deal,” Conor drawls. “I can do that too.”
Loud laughter rings out.
Coach holds up his hand to silence everybody. “Are you idiots asking me if you can have a pet?”
“Pretty much.” I give him a pleading look. “As the new captain, I’ve been asked to formally put forth the request.”
“A room full of grown men are requesting a pet.”
I nod.
“It’ll be great for morale,” Bucky insists. “Think about it, Coach. We could bring the pig out before games and he’ll get the crowd all hyped up. Dude, it’ll build so much excitement.”
“How does a pig hype up a crowd? Is he going to sing the national anthem?” Coach asks politely.
“Come on, Coach, don’t be silly,” Con mocks. “Everyone knows pigs can’t sing.”
“You on board with this, Edwards?” Coach is skeptical. “You’re Team Pig?”
Conor flashes a cheerful smile. “I literally could not care less.”
“We’re all on board,” Bucky argues.
Coach’s sharp gaze conducts a sweep of the room. “Jesus Christ. You dumbasses are serious? You honestly think that between the thirty of you, you can actually keep an animal alive?”
“Hey,” Matt protests. “I’ve got two dogs at home.”
“And where is your home?”
“Minneapolis.”
“And where are you right now?”
Matt shuts up.
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