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by Brenda Joyce


  Her cri­es ec­ho­ed out­ra­ge­o­usly. Even when the pe­ak had pas­sed, Re­gi­na he­ard her­self and was hor­ri­fi­ed. She tri­ed to pull free of Sla­de but he had no in­ten­ti­on of let­ting her go. In­s­te­ad he was pro­pel­ling her for­ward, but hol­ding her so firmly that his body re­ma­ined pres­sed aga­inst hers. "No, swe­et, no," he pan­ted in her ear, his phal­lus so dis­ten­ded that it stab­bed her li­ke a ste­el ar­row. "Re­gi­na, don't say no, not now."

  Re­gi­na, don't say no, not now…

  His plea ec­ho­ed not on­ce but twi­ce, the ho­ar­se se­xu­al ne­ed am­p­li­fi­ed in the wa­ves of crus­hing, ero­tic so­und.

  Re­gi­na was pus­hed to­ward one of the ga­udy gil­ded cha­irs. As he mo­ved her for­ward he was al­so pul­ling up her skirts in the back, his hand sli­ding along the cur­ve of her ba­re but­tock and pus­hing down her filmy whi­te dra­wers. Be­ing in mo­ti­on, she step­ped right out of her knee-high pan­ta­lets.

  He ga­ve her no cho­ice. His ot­her hand gu­ided her qu­ickly, pus­hing her for­ward and down, and Re­gi­na fo­und her­self bre­at­h­les­sly bra­cing her palms on the hard wo­oden se­at of the cha­ir.

  He kis­sed her neck wildly, al­so bra­cing him­self on the cha­ir, pres­sing his erec­ti­on aga­inst her bac­k­si­de. Re­gi­na gro­aned, ar­c­hing stiffly and al­lo­wing his hand to slip down her but­tocks and be­ne­ath them. She cri­ed out aga­in when his palm slid bet­we­en her legs. This ti­me he pus­hed two fin­gers in­to her hard.

  She whim­pe­red un­con­t­rol­lably. Her gro­ans had yet to fa­de, and now her whim­pers ec­ho­ed dra­ma­ti­cal­ly, over­lap­ping them. She was ag­hast, dis­ma­yed with the ca­cop­hony she was cre­ating, yet her body was ex­pe­ri­en­cing an ur­gency that was be­yond any sem­b­lan­ce of con­t­rol. She pul­sed he­avily aro­und his hand. She was only an in­s­tant away from beg­ging him for even mo­re; for the he­avy, thick fe­el of his he­at and har­d­ness de­ep in­si­de her. He thrust his fin­gers de­ep in­to her aga­in and she co­uld not stop her­self. She wept amid anot­her mind-shat­te­ring spasm.

  Her sobs rang aro­und them. "Yes!" Sla­de sho­uted fran­ti­cal­ly. "Yes!" His words re­so­un­ded, blen­ding with the fa­ding stra­ins of her ec­ho­ing sobs. He slid the mas­si­ve length of his phal­lus in­to her.

  Re­gi­na cri­ed out exul­tantly. The ro­om re­ver­be­ra­ted as Sla­de held her hips and be­gan a de­ter­mi­ned ram­pa­ging. Re­gi­na he­ard her­self en­co­ura­ging him, not on­ce but three ti­mes, he­ard her­self beg­ging him, every plea she sob­bed re­pe­ated in a ne­ar-en­d­less cho­rus, as if the empty ro­om had a mi­mic­king vo­ice of its own and was de­ter­mi­ned to out­do her.

  Sla­de grip­ped her and sur­ged in­to her. Re­gi­na con­vul­sed aga­in, sob­bing his na­me, and Sla­de cri­ed out.

  The ro­om was spin­ning aro­und her. Sla­de… Sla­de… Sla­de… it chan­ted. She col­lap­sed but Sla­de held her up­right, his arms clam­ped aro­und her to pre­vent her from cras­hing to the flo­or. She lis­te­ned to the wild ec­ho­ing of the ro­om as her vo­ice fa­ded and fi­nal­ly di­ed. She lis­te­ned to her­self, aban­do­ned and in the thro­es of ec­s­tasy.

  She trem­b­led. She re­mem­be­red the mir­ror, one mo­re un­be­li­evab­le fact, and da­red to pe­ek to her si­de at it. She lo­oked every bit as wild and wan­ton as she had so­un­ded. Her ha­ir had spil­led free of its chig­non. As he sto­od be­hind her, Sla­de had his arms wrap­ped aro­und her rib ca­ge, pres­sing up­ward aga­inst her bre­asts, ma­king her ap­pe­ar dra­ma­ti­cal­ly vo­lup­tu­o­us. Her skirts we­re up aro­und her wa­ist in the back, her but­tocks starkly whi­te and lush, pres­sed aga­inst Sla­de's na­ked gro­in. He wo­re only his shirt; he must ha­ve kic­ked off his pants at the cru­ci­al mo­ment.

  She clo­sed her eyes. He­at flo­oded her. She sho­uld not ha­ve lo­oked. And de­ar God, the no­ise. She wo­uld ne­ver for­get tho­se so­unds. But just re­mem­be­ring, with the ima­ge of the two of them in the mir­ror, ma­de her pul­se he­avily aga­in.

  "It was as go­od as the last ti­me," Sla­de bre­at­hed aga­inst her neck. He kis­sed her the­re.

  "Aw­ful," Re­gi­na ma­na­ged to whis­per. "It was too aw­ful." Then she win­ced, be­ca­use the over­si­zed bal­lro­om was not thro­ugh yet, and it eagerly re­pe­ated her words.

  His arms tig­h­te­ned. "You we­re as ex­ci­ted as I was. Don't deny it."

  You we­re as ex­ci­ted as I was… Don't deny it…

  His to­ne stir­red her sen­ses. It was husky, low, and so ob­vi­o­usly car­nal when am­p­li­fi­ed by the empty ro­om. She didn't spe­ak. De­ni­al wo­uld be ri­di­cu­lo­us.

  Sla­de shif­ted his fa­ce and she knew he was re­gar­ding them in the mir­ror. "Sla­de," she pro­tes­ted thickly.

  He be­gan lif­ting up the front of her skirt.

  "No," she whis­pe­red, whi­le the ro­om whis­pe­red back, and des­pi­te her­self, she tur­ned her he­ad and wat­c­hed.

  The lu­xu­ri­o­us fab­ric crept up her an­k­les and then her shins, re­ve­aling slim, cur­ved legs clad only in pa­le ho­se. He ba­red her kne­es. She felt fa­int, yet was in­ca­pab­le of lo­oking away. The gar­ter she wo­re was frilly with la­ce and ed­ged in pur­p­le rib­bon. She ope­ned her mo­uth to tell him he must stop, he must, but in the end she sa­id not­hing.

  He lif­ted the skirt hig­her. Her na­ked thighs we­re ivory-whi­te and lushly cur­ved. Re­gi­na sho­ok. Be­hind her, Sla­de's mem­ber ro­se hotly, pres­sing aga­inst her but­tocks. He pul­led the skirt up past her na­vel.

  "No," Re­gi­na bre­at­hed, not me­aning it.

  No, the ro­om bre­at­hed, des­pe­ra­ti­on la­ced with de­si­re. No.

  Sla­de slid his free hand down the smo­oth whi­te skin of her belly and in­to the brown ha­ir at her gro­in. "You want me," he sa­id thickly. He ma­de no at­tempt to ke­ep his vo­ice down. As if he enj­oyed the moc­king walls.

  She sho­ok her he­ad whi­le his words we­re re­pe­ated in ho­ar­se ec­ho­ing to­nes.

  He la­ug­hed slightly, ro­ughly, se­xu­al­ly. His la­ug­h­ter ec­ho­ed and swel­led, re­ver­be­ra­ting aro­und them, whi­le his fin­gers spre­ad her. Re­gi­na sag­ged aga­inst him. "Ple­ase," she cri­ed wildly. Ple­ase. Ple­ase.

  "Ple­ase this?" he as­ked ro­ughly, del­ving de­eper in­to her depths.

  "Yes," she half-sob­bed. She da­red anot­her glan­ce at the mir­ror. She was no lon­ger shoc­ked and no lon­ger ap­pal­led. Her body was too in­tent for her to be ap­pal­led.

  He lif­ted her ab­ruptly and sat her down in the cha­ir. He did not pull her skirts down, but pus­hed them fur­t­her up. Be­fo­re Re­gi­na co­uld pro­test he grip­ped her chin hard, kis­sing her mo­uth sa­va­gely. She grip­ped his fa­ce and kis­sed him back, the­ir mo­uths fu­sing, the­ir ton­gu­es spar­ring rec­k­les­sly.

  Sla­de sud­denly slid to his kne­es on the flo­or. He pus­hed her thighs open wi­de. Re­gi­na cri­ed out at the on­s­la­ught of his ton­gue. He held her open with his thumbs, his ton­gue a re­len­t­less, si­lent in­va­der. Re­gi­na sho­ok wildly, and ac­ci­den­tal­ly glim­p­sed them in the mir­ror.

  Too la­te. It was too la­te to pro­test and too la­te to stop. She grip­ped his he­ad, flin­ging hers back, sob­bing ec­s­ta­ti­cal­ly, her wild cri­es fil­ling up the ro­om, am­p­li­fi­ed a hun­d­red ti­mes over. When she slum­ped back in ex­ha­us­ti­on, her cri­es con­ti­nu­ed to wash over them. He ro­se lit­hely to his fe­et, slid a hand un­der her to lift her, and thrust in­to her aga­in. An in­s­tant la­ter he yan­ked the cha­ir from be­hind her so that her back fo­und the wall. She ro­de up it, pus­hed the­re by his po­un­ding. Se­conds la­ter that dis­sa­tis­fi­ed him, too. He sank to the flo­or, ta­king her with him. He plun­ged wild
ly in­to her aga­in.

  Re­gi­na was no lon­ger ti­red. She grip­ped him sa­va­gely, crying out in en­co­ura­ge­ment, spur­red on by the fe­ver-pitch of his ex­ci­te­ment and the mad ec­ho­ing of the ro­om. His he­avy pan­ting re­so­un­ded. The slap­ping of the­ir bo­di­es re­ver­be­ra­ted. Her cri­es ec­ho­ed. The ro­om was fil­led with so­und af­ter so­und cras­hing over them. His bre­at­hing re­ac­hed a cres­cen­do. Am­p­li­fi­ed as it was, it sent her over the brink. He fol­lo­wed, this ti­me sho­uting his re­le­ase.

  Once aga­in, Re­gi­na co­uld not be­li­eve what they had do­ne. She lay on the ba­re, cold flo­or, na­ked to the wa­ist, Sla­de be­si­de her. His arms we­re aro­und her. One of his hands cup­ped her bre­ast pos­ses­si­vely.

  She did not reg­ret it. She was shoc­ked at what they had do­ne and at her own unin­hi­bi­ted par­ti­ci­pa­ti­on, but she did not reg­ret it. Not qu­ite calm, not qu­ite col­lec­ted, she pul­led her skirts down. She da­red to lo­ok at Sla­de, and saw that he was amu­sed. But it was not his amu­se­ment that star­t­led her, it was the ten­der­ness of his ex­p­res­si­on.

  "You don't ha­ve to hi­de from me," he sa­id softly. When his words ec­ho­ed, he smi­led.

  "I don't want to," she con­fes­sed in a small vo­ice. "But I think it's only pro­per."

  He la­ug­hed then. She grew still. The li­nes aro­und his eyes had de­epe­ned with his la­ug­h­ter. Then he grew se­ri­o­us, ga­zing back at her. "I'm glad you're pro­per, Re­gi­na. I want you to be pro­per. You are such a lady that I can­not re­al­ly be­li­eve you wo­uld want me. But I ne­ver want to see prop­ri­ety when we're ma­king lo­ve."

  Des­pi­te her­self, she blus­hed. "I don't think you ha­ve to worry abo­ut that." She was thril­led. He co­uld be­ra­te her for her pas­si­ona­te na­tu­re, he co­uld find it de­fec­ti­ve, as many hus­bands wo­uld, but he did not. How lucky she was.

  "No," he ag­re­ed, ple­ased, "I don't think so." He be­gan pluc­king at her nip­ple.

  Ama­zingly, her who­le body be­gan ye­ar­ning for his to­uch and in­va­si­on aga­in.

  "I will ne­ver be ab­le to get eno­ugh of you," he whis­pe­red. "You are so be­a­uti­ful-and so per­fect."

  She was an­y­t­hing but per­fect, as this mo­ment sho­wed, but she wo­uld not dis­pu­te him. Te­ars fil­led her eyes. "You are be­a­uti­ful, too."

  "But not per­fect."

  Her ga­ze, which had be­en on his le­an hands as they stro­ked her, flew to his. She bre­at­hed in re­li­ef when she saw he was smi­ling. "No, not per­fect. But it do­es not mat­ter to me."

  His eyes dar­ke­ned. He grip­ped the la­pels of her jac­ket and pul­led her be­ne­ath him. Re­gi­na lay ab­so­lu­tely still. He le­aned over her. "Am I for­gi­ven?"

  She did not ha­ve to ask to know he was re­fer­ring to his de­ser­ti­on of her. "Yes."

  He lo­oked at her, his eyes bla­zing, then he be­gan ope­ning the but­tons of her shirt, slowly and one by one. "I want you na­ked," he fi­nal­ly sa­id, ho­ar­sely. "I want to see you na­ked. This ti­me, I want you na­ked in my arms when I ta­ke you-with not­hing bet­we­en us."

  And his words re­bo­un­ded, ec­ho­ing lo­udly.

  Chapter 23

  ijla­de step­ped thro­ugh the do­or of his ho­use on Go­ugh Stre­et. The hal­lway was sha­do­wed even tho­ugh the sun had yet to set out­si­de. He flic­ked on a hall light but ma­de no mo­ve to go up the sta­irs.

  What in hell was he do­ing?

  He had just left Re­gi­na at her un­c­le's af­ter pro­mi­sing to call on her to­mor­row mor­ning. Af­ter they had left the He­nes­sy pla­ce, the af­ter­no­on had be­en spent in smi­les. He hadn't ever ex­pe­ri­en­ced such a glo­wing mo­od be­fo­re; he had cer­ta­inly ne­ver be­en so sa­ted. The rep­le­ti­on was not just physi­cal and he was as­tu­te eno­ugh to re­ali­ze it.

  But the glow had dis­si­pa­ted when he'd left her. In its pla­ce ca­me do­ubt.

  He had set them on a co­ur­se to­day, one le­ading to a re­con­ci­li­ati­on. It wo­uld not ta­ke much to bring that abo­ut now. And he wan­ted a re­con­ci­li­ati­on. He wan­ted her. The­re wasn't an­y­t­hing he'd ever wan­ted as badly as he wan­ted his wi­fe, and not just physi­cal­ly. But Jesus, she had al­re­ady be­en pre­pa­red to le­ave him on­ce. Now they we­re lo­vers aga­in, with all the in­ti­macy such a re­la­ti­on­s­hip en­ta­iled. He wan­ted to go far­t­her, he wan­ted to get in de­eper, but he was af­ra­id.

  For to­day had be­en cap­ped with anot­her mo­nu­men­tal

  de­ci­si­on. He co­uld not ta­ke her in­he­ri­tan­ce. He co­uld not use her. He wo­uld ha­ve to ta­ke the lo­an Char­les had of­fe­red. And so­on he wo­uld re­turn to Mi­ra­mar to be­gin the long, ar­du­o­us task of tran­s­for­ming the ran­c­ho in­to a pro­fit-ma­king en­ter­p­ri­se. If he re­con­ci­led with his wi­fe, she wo­uld go back to Mi­ra­mar with him.

  A li­fe of fru­ga­lity awa­ited them the­re. It wo­uld be many ye­ars be­fo­re he co­uld be­gin to ke­ep her in the man­ner she was ac­cus­to­med to. Co­uld she adapt to such a sim­p­le li­fe-st­y­le? Co­uld an ele­gant wo­man li­ke her ac­cept the du­ti­es of a ran­c­he­ro's wi­fe? Co­uld Re­gi­na be happy at Mi­ra­mar? He ho­ped so. He wan­ted to be­li­eve so. But he co­uld not be su­re.

  Frus­t­ra­ti­on swept thro­ugh him. Just when his li­fe had ne­ver be­en brig­h­ter, it had ne­ver be­en dar­ker. He was angry. It was li­ke sho­oting in the dark at a ghost. He wasn't exactly su­re what he was angry at, or who. It cer­ta­inly wasn't Re­gi­na. He sus­pec­ted it might be him­self, for not be­ing ab­le to gi­ve her all that he wan­ted to gi­ve her, all that he sho­uld be ab­le to gi­ve her.

  He sig­hed and mo­ved up the sta­irs, en­te­ring his bed­ro­om. The small do­ub­le bed was ma­de up, but mes­sily. He ig­no­red a pi­le of clot­hing on the flo­or and be­gan re­mo­ving his tie. Strip­ping, he re­tur­ned his jac­ket and tro­users to the ar­mo­ire, whi­le his socks, un­der­we­ar, and shirt fell by the way­si­de. He step­ped in­to the small bat­h­ro­om, run­ning the tub.

  Fo­ot­s­teps so­un­ded in the bed­ro­om. Sla­de shif­ted on the ed­ge of the por­ce­la­in tub so he co­uld see in­to his ro­om. A small Chi­ne­se boy skid­ded to a stop. "Mis­ta Sla­de! You ho­me!"

  Sla­de grin­ned. "What are you up to, brat?"

  "Work-work in kit­c­hen," Kim told him with a grin.

  Sla­de do­ub­ted it. Kim co­uldn't co­ok, not that the­re was an­y­t­hing to co­ok with dow­n­s­ta­irs, al­t­ho­ugh per­haps he was do­ing so­me cle­aning. "The­re's a sack on the bu­re­au with yo­ur din­ner in it."

  Kim's eyes wi­de­ned with ex­pec­ta­ti­on. "Joe's Rib­ho­use

  "Isn't that what you as­ked for?" Sla­de sto­od and goo in­to the tub.

  "You want me was­hee back?"

  "Get lost, kid," Sla­de grow­led. Kim was te­asing him tho­ugh, be­ca­use he knew Sla­de had ne­ver let him wash his back and ne­ver wo­uld. Kim ran out of the ro­om, un­do­ub­tedly to fe­ast on Joe's Rib­ho­use ribs.

  Sla­de dres­sed to go to the of­fi­ce, even tho­ugh it was la­te. He didn't re­al­ly think he wo­uld be ab­le to get any work do­ne, not gi­ven the cir­c­les his bra­in was run­ning in, but he felt com­pel­led to try. He was si­lently mo­ving down the sta­irs when his do­or­k­noc­ker so­un­ded.

  His he­art im­me­di­ately skip­ped. His first tho­ught was that it was Re­gi­na. Yet he had just left her, not even a half ho­ur ago. No, a lady li­ke his wi­fe wo­uld not co­me cal­ling, es­pe­ci­al­ly at this ho­ur.

  He ope­ned the do­or. His fat­her sto­od the­re, a small bag in his hand. "Glad you're ho­me, boy."

  Sla­de was stun­ned. Rick had ne­ver vi­si­ted him in the city, not on­ce. Then he shrewdly re­ali
­zed that in the past he hadn't be­en mar­ri­ed to a Bragg he­iress who­se funds Rick was un­do­ub­tedly it­c­hing to uti­li­ze. Sla­de step­ped asi­de, so­mew­hat re­luc­tantly, to let his fat­her in. "This is a hell of a sur­p­ri­se."

  "I'll bet. Ed­ward he­re?"

  "Ed­ward co­mes and go­es. What do you want?"

  "What do I want?" Rick set the bag down. "I spend all god­damn day on a hot tra­in and that's the gre­eting I get?"

  "That's the gre­eting you get. 'Ca­use I don't be­li­eve this is a fat­herly so­ci­al call."

  "Well, it is," Rick sa­id. "Do we ha­ve to stand in the hal­lway?"

  Sla­de shrug­ged, fol­lo­wing his fat­her in­to the par­lor which was just off the en­t­r­y­way. He ne­ver used this ro­om. Which was why it was in per­fect or­der.

  Rick spot­ted the si­de tab­le with its de­can­ters and: cros­sed to it, po­uring them both drinks.

  Sla­de hadn't felt li­ke drin­king all day, ex­cept for the sin­g­le glass of wi­ne he'd had with the la­te lunch he and Re­gi­na had sha­red, but now he ac­cep­ted the bo­ur­bon. "Let's not be­at aro­und the bush," he sa­id softly.

  "Okay," Rick ag­re­ed, set­tling down on the over­s­tuf­fed so­fa. He glan­ced aro­und. "This pla­ce is shit."

  Si­lently Sla­de ag­re­ed. Sin­ce he was only ren­ting it, he had hi­red so­me­one to fur­nish it for him. The de­cor was not to his tas­te. The so­fa was too lar­ge, the fab­ric too bright; the wal­lpa­per was too cu­te, the bric-a-brac un­ne­ces­sary. The tab­le on his left was clut­te­red with fra­med pho­tog­raphs, but he didn't know a sin­g­le per­son in them. He sig­hed. He just didn't fe­el li­ke a down-in-the-dirt bat­tle to­day, if the truth be known. "Ye­ah, well, I'm ra­rely he­re."

  "Whe­re's the wi­fe?"

  Sla­de ten­sed. "So now we get to the po­int."

 

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