‘The next evening, I turned the radio back on. I couldn’t deprive myself of it for more than one day, but I did move it closer to this red couch right here and I put my ear nearly up against it so I could hear it without letting the sound travel to any other person. It was a very dark night, no moon and no light. I remember I was listening to the Mohammed Abd al-Wahhab song ‘Love and Youth’ when the electricity went out. My mother shouted out, saying that was the last thing we needed on that disastrous day. It was dead silent in the neighbourhood and all through the town, after two days of misery and a long, sleepless night. The time for bodies to go limp had come. The whole town was like a team of runners who’d just finished a gruelling race and were so exhausted they fell to the ground trying to catch their breath. We were the least affected. Though we knew many of the dead, none of them were our relatives. There was Farid Badwi al-Semaani, the tailor, who was a handsome young man my father was always teasing and never responded except with a sly smile. And we knew Yusef al-Kfoury, your poor father. He loved life and loved evening gatherings . . . and women, too, which Kamileh knew about though she never complained.
‘And so here I was, sitting here, when the electricity went out and the radio stopped singing. What could I do? I sat in the dark, smoking and waiting. It was a rare silence that was only interrupted by the sound of frogs croaking near the river, and total darkness pierced only by the flash of fireflies. I remember listening closely to the silence that night after the day’s noise and heartbreak and weeping. I stayed there that way for more than two hours wishing the calm would last a long time. But suddenly the electricity came back on and in a matter of seconds something occurred that I can never forget. I’ve never told anyone about it, actually, except my mother. And now that my mother is dead, no one but me knows what I saw and I want to tell you about it. I don’t know who sent you to me. I didn’t move from here, from this velvet sofa, the whole time the electricity was out. The only movement I made was to light a match every half hour to light a cigarette. But when the electricity suddenly came back on, I saw a very strange thing, which I will tell you about because it’s been forty years since then.
‘The lights came back on in our house and here in the sitting room, and with the surge of electricity the radio came blaring on, too. It came on very loud despite my having lowered the volume so no one else could hear it but me before the electricity went out. The electricity and the loud blare of Um Kulthum’s voice into the night surprised me. My first reaction was to look towards your house to determine if your mother or anyone there had heard the song. In fact, I did that even before reaching over to turn the volume down. In any case, it all happened in a matter of seconds. The image was stamped in my mind but I didn’t think much of it the moment I saw it because I was so concerned with the radio and the high volume and the shame of it all and what my father might say about my negligence and the scandal of my listening to the radio despite all our fallen neighbours and friends. Once I was able to turn the radio completely off and make sure no one was going to pounce on me and complain because they’d all finally fallen into a deep sleep after two nights of sleeplessness, I went back to my spot here on the red sofa. I noticed in that moment what I had glimpsed happening in your house and was still unfolding before my eyes. I saw Fuad and Butros al-Rami on the balcony, like in the old days. I thought I must be mistaken about the timeframe, that I was witnessing a scene from a long time ago that was still stamped in my memory. You know who Fuad and Butros al-Rami are, right? True they were your father’s closest friends, but how could they be here? They were from the Rami family!
‘We knew Fuad and his brother Butros. They used to have drinks sometimes on the balcony with your father, and Kamileh would bring them mezze. We could smell the grilled meat and hear their laughter from here. Some evenings Fuad al-Rami would persuade Kamileh to sing. Your father would encourage her and she would send out her ataaba and mijana tunes into the night, followed by a shy laugh and a long round of approval.
‘We were told later on that they had come to offer their condolences to Kamileh and that someone had brought them to her under cover of darkness. We weren’t able to hear what they were saying there on the balcony. They were whispering . . . When the electricity came back on, the light bulb on Kamileh’s balcony lit up. The two men were sitting with your mother and her friend Muntaha. I stayed in my spot on the sofa until morning, until my mother woke up and tugged my shoulder telling me to go sleep in my bed. All the time I sat there, in between nodding off, I would lift my head and look in the direction of your house, and actually I’m no longer certain exactly what time I looked and didn’t see anyone on the balcony anymore.’
Chapter 19
Everyone reached wits’ end as the fighting dragged on.
Yusuf Saeed al-Rami reached his wits’ end, too.
He had been forced to stop ploughing his olive groves and pruning his trees with his rough hands and spraying them with the sprayer he carried on his shoulder. His grove in the lower village of Al-Hariq was exposed to the enemy. Yusuf had received a warning from one of his old friends, a childhood friend, though childhood was a very long time ago now that Yusuf was almost seventy. His friend sent him the news secretly with Father Boulos, which was to tell Yusuf that the last time he went to look after his olive trees his enemies spotted him from behind the barricade set up on the roof of the monastery, and next time he wouldn’t be able to escape their bullets.
‘They’ll kill you, Yusuf,’ Father Boulos told him. ‘Stop going up to Al-Hariq. You all have suffered enough.’
His enemies were waiting for a new German rifle with a telescope to arrive any day.
Yusuf didn’t have anything left in the world except that olive grove.
He was at odds with his neighbours and his relatives. They didn’t like him and he didn’t like them. He started throwing stones at them one day because of how much they mocked him. He’d pass by them without greeting any of them. And he was at odds with his wife Salimeh and with his five sons – four of whom he still had and one who’d been hit. They never asked for his opinion and he never offered one. They ate without inviting him for lunch. They died and didn’t ask him anything. Their mother was in charge of them.
He had planned to build a room for himself in the olive orchard where he could sleep and get away from Salimeh. He hadn’t had any friends for a long time. His old friend in the Lower Quarter, who sent him the warning about the German rifle with the telescope, was connected to Yusuf more by the memory of their friendship than by the friendship itself.
He used to go to Al-Hariq in order to flee the house and the neighbourhood. He’d stay there until nightfall, battling the thorns and building a stone border he had no need for, by himself, with his own hands – just to avoid going home too early.
And now here he was stuck at home. He was too old to fight and didn’t want to fight, either. He counted the days until he could go back to the olive orchard.
Salimeh al-Hamati, his wife, had also reached her wits’ end.
She showed disdain for anyone who weakened, gathered and collected information about them, and publicised it in a loud voice wherever she went. She wasn’t afraid of anyone. ‘So-and-so’s wife took him to her family’s town so he could hide there under her skirt. What a pity of a man! So-and-so sold two boxes of ammunition instead of using them in battle so he could put the money in his pocket. So-and-so claims he’s sick every time they ask him to join the fight.’
She lashed at everyone with that tongue of hers, starting with her own ‘strong-armed’ relatives and her husband’s relatives. She blasted them with the harshest words, right to their faces if she saw them, whenever she found they were preparing to flee with their children to safer places.
‘Their children are in school,’ she’d say, ‘and they don’t want them to lose a single year of their life while our children are here in the barricades defending their honour.’
Her children’s job was to fill the sandbags wit
h sand. They piled them up on the rooftops and watered them so they would be impenetrable to the bullets. Then they poured all the gunfire and curses they had over those sandbags.
For others, those were carefree and comfortable days, but for them, they were days of war.
People called them ‘Salimeh’s boys’.
There were five brothers: Hashim, Saeed who they called ‘Abu Ali’, Francis, Shakir (‘Abu Layla’) and DeGaulle. One of them – Saeed – had been killed in the early battles. He might have been the first casualty of the war of the barricades. A grenade he was holding and inspecting before throwing it at the enemy exploded in his hands. Another one of her sons was wounded, too – DeGaulle, the youngest. He was shot in the back and the injury left him crippled. Every day around noon he would leave his barricade to get lunch from the house and take it to his brothers. No doubt they had been lying in wait for him when they spotted him. They shot one bullet at him, from a longbarrel rifle; the shot came from Muhsin al-Semaani’s barricade, which was directly across from theirs. Muhsin al-Semaani was Husneh’s brother. Her day would come. Salimeh watched her son DeGaulle as he tried to get to the bathroom, tripping on his way. She called out to one of his brothers to help him. They had promised to get a wheelchair for him, but wheelchairs were very expensive. In the meantime, DeGaulle just lay there in front of her, flat on his back.
She pounded her chest and called for evil to befall whoever had shot him, prayed for whoever it had been to be paralysed by a stroke and live a long, long time.
They reached their wits’ end as the fighting went on and on . . . and they still wanted more . . . Until one day at the end of September, when a man stood in the doorway of the cobbler shop and asked, ‘Where’s Husneh?’
The man was one of those men who fought alongside Salimeh’s boys. He posed the question to all of us, all four of us sitting in chairs there in the store. Two of us were working – Abboud, the store owner, and myself, and the other two were regulars who were used to spending some of their time there in the mornings. Like us, they were no good at fighting or barricades. My father had wanted me to learn the trade young, and the fact of my young age also allowed him to say I wasn’t qualified for battle. Abboud used to look after me. He would let me do the gluing and the pounding of nails in the beginning, but he wanted me beside him at all times for another reason, too, which was to relate to him what the others were saying. I was his ears. We were in the middle of exchanging bits of conversation and the previous night’s news when the man appeared. Because the battles usually flared up at night and quietened down in the morning, the fighters slept during the day.
The others didn’t know the man who asked us the question, and I didn’t know him either. But it wouldn’t have been appropriate to ask who he was. As usual, I repeated the question in a loud voice into Abboud’s ear. ‘Where is Husneh?’
Husneh was his wife. I had just seen her a few minutes earlier carrying a bag of vegetables on her way into the house in the back of the store, but I decided to let her husband answer in whatever way he wanted to.
‘She’s inside.’ He was answering without raising his head from the piece of leather he was working with, believing I was the one asking about Husneh. When he noticed the man standing in the doorway holding a rifle, he stopped cutting and sewing the pieces of leather.
Everyone knew Husneh, to the point that people used to call Abboud ‘Abboud Husneh’ after his wife. They called him that when he wasn’t around and sometimes in front of him, too, since they thought he couldn’t hear. Husneh made all the decisions about everything – the house, the children, and she even categorised the customers according to who could be trusted to pay later and who couldn’t. All she lacked was to give advice about how to make shoes, too.
‘What’s Husneh doing?’ the armed man asked. The two guests of the cobbler shop exchanged glances with each other. I shouted into the ear of Abboud who was looking perplexedly at the source of that question. Abboud was going to be the first man ever to be asked by a stranger, ‘What’s your wife doing?’
Those were difficult times. Little kids carried weapons as did some strangers, too. Abboud felt he had to answer, so he faced me and said, ‘I don’t know, maybe she’s nursing the baby.’
He said it somewhat sharply, surrendering to the strangeness of the question. Abboud had said it loud enough that I didn’t have to repeat it for the man holding the rifle. Actually, the man with the rifle strapped to his shoulder looked like he was going quail hunting up on Amiriyya hill at sunset. He seemed to have stopped in at the cobbler shop on his way, the way lots of people stopped in every day, to order some shoes or just to join the open forum. He seemed to be asking just to ask. The deaf Abboud answered him, so he didn’t make a move and didn’t ask the next question.
Abboud stopped what he was doing, waiting for the next question. He might have thought the man added something that he hadn’t been able to hear, so he looked at me inquisitively but I gave him a blank look. The man didn’t look like he’d asked anything and was waiting for a reply. He was waiting for something else. He turned his back to the shop and looked towards the deserted main street. Perhaps he was unsure what his next step should be.
In his hand was a list of names. Women’s names. He looked at it as if he detested the mission he had been given. Husneh’s name was at the top of the list. The rifleman smiled and bared his teeth when he read it and showed it to us: Husneh, wife of Abboud Husneh.
I don’t think she was nursing the baby at that time, but rather was planning lunch. Seven people plus me. They fed me with them sometimes, especially during those days of fighting so I wouldn’t move around too much by going home at noon and then coming back to the cobbler shop. That would have been an unnecessary risk. She made good food, Husneh, and I’d guess in the end she would choose the easiest solution: lentils, chickpea kibbeh and fried onions and potatoes. It was Friday. Before the fighting started she used to buy fish on Fridays, but the fish sellers stopped bringing baskets of fresh fish up from Al-Mina in Tripoli.
Whenever Abboud was asked about Husneh he said she was nursing the baby, as if the baby never stopped nursing, or maybe that was what he hoped so that the baby would grow quickly. The baby wasn’t yet four months old, but Abboud was bent on forbidding his wife from weaning him until he could walk, so he could walk over and nurse on his mother’s breast, go run off and play with his friends and come back again to his mother’s breast. His mother told him he had done the same thing when he was a child.
He named his son Raouf.
He was Abboud’s first son . . . and last, too, most likely, after four daughters. The day they rushed to bring him the news, Abboud knocked at his neighbour’s door and asked if he could borrow his rifle. He fired seven shots and then returned it.
Abboud couldn’t hear the child if he cried, but he certainly was able to dole out orders incessantly to his two oldest daughters and their mother.
‘Pick him up!’
‘Take him outside a little, let him get some sunshine.’
‘Change his nappies . . .’
Abboud was a boring pest, a parasite. He could never look at his only son without finding something that needed to be done for him. He behaved like a tough guy around the house, but now in his shop he just sat there on his cobbler’s chair not moving an inch. He didn’t do anything about the armed man standing there in his doorway asking about his wife.
He hid behind his deafness. Abboud was completely deaf or nearly so and possibly the most famous deaf man in town. He was persuaded to use a hearing aid only after I stopped working at his shop and opened my own. Just a few years before he died he had finally agreed to using a hearing aid, but it irritated him quite a bit with all the sudden buzzing and whistling sounds it made, so he would only put up with it for a few minutes, preferring instead the quietness and isolation of deafness he’d grown accustomed to.
In spite of all that, people accused him of only hearing what he wanted to hear. That was
his reputation at least, and I thought they were right. They used to test him, too. They’d curse at him in a very soft voice and he’d retaliate with a harsher curse. Even though he couldn’t hear them when they spoke, he could always tell when they were cursing him. From merely noticing the semblance of a smile on my face he knew whoever was standing there talking to him was mocking him and so he’d respond however he saw fit in order to defend himself.
All of a sudden, the man holding the rifle turned back around toward the door of the shop and said, ‘We need her!’ He said it while pointing to an unspecified place off to the east. In other words, he wasn’t the one who needed her, they did, them over there.
This time Abboud heard even though the man hadn’t raised his voice any higher than before. I didn’t have to shout in his ear.
The armed man didn’t get animated. It was more like he was confused by his own actions.
It was more than likely he’d been told that the women on his list were sending messages to their relatives in the Lower Quarter and were leading the enemy to us, that the women were spies in our midst that we must get rid of.
A lot of time passed while he stood there with his back to the shop absent-mindedly looking off into the horizon, his view blocked by a dilapidated house and some fallow land. We resumed our conversation.
Abboud’s shop was the place where the townspeople assembled for the final word on the talk of the town. Whenever anyone heard anything, he would come to the shop to have it confirmed. And anyone who had an opinion to express came to the shop to make it known. We often ran out of chairs, leaving some people to remain standing.
The situation was going to last a long time, they were saying. The headline of the newspaper tossed onto one of the chairs said that the search for solutions was getting closer.
The Americans were participating in the solution. Ever since that point in history the Americans have been behind much of what goes on in this country. Camille Chamoun wasn’t going to succeed in his bid for a term extension. They commander of the army was mentioned as a possible successor.
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