Twelve Men

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by Theodore Dreiser


  In later years I came to know him better—this thoughtful, crusty, kindly soul, always so ready to come at all hours when his cases permitted, so anxious to see that his patients were not taxed beyond their financial resources.

  I remember once, one of my sisters being very ill, so ill that we were beginning to fear death, one and another of us had to take turn sitting up with her at night to help and to give her her medicine regularly. During one of the nights when I was sitting up, dozing, reading and listening to the wind in the pines outside, she seemed persistently to get worse. Her fever rose, and she complained of such aches and pains that finally I had to go and call my mother. A consultation with her finally resulted in my being sent for Dr. Gridley—no telephones in those days—to tell him, although she hesitated so to do, how sister was and ask him if he would not come.

  I was only fourteen. The street along which I had to go was quite dark, the town lights being put out at two a.m., for reasons of thrift perhaps. There was a high wind that cried in the trees. My shoes on the board walks, here and there, sounded like the thuds of a giant. I recall progressing in a shivery ghost-like sort of way, expecting at any step to encounter goblins of the most approved form, until finally the well-known outlines of the house of the doctor on the main street—yellow, many-roomed, a wide porch in front—came, because of a very small lamp in a very large glass case to one side of the door, into view.

  Here I knocked, and then knocked more. No reply. I then made a still more forceful effort. Finally, through one of the red glass panels which graced either side of the door I saw the lengthy figure of the doctor, arrayed in a long white nightshirt, and carrying a small glass hand-lamp, come into view at the head of the stairs. His feet were in gray flannel slippers, and his whiskers stuck out most grotesquely.

  “Wait! Wait!” I heard him call. “I’ll be there! I’m coming! Don’t make such a fuss! It seems as though I never get a real good night’s rest any more.”

  He came on, opened the door, and looked out.

  “Well,” he demanded, a little fussily for him, “what’s the matter now?”

  “Doctor,” I began, and proceeded to explain all my sister’s aches and pains, winding up by saying that my mother said “wouldn’t he please come at once?”

  “Your mother!” he grumbled. “What can I do if I do come down? Not a thing. Feel her pulse and tell her she’s all right! That’s every bit I can do. Your mother knows that as well as I do. That disease has to run its course.” He looked at me as though I were to blame, then added, “Calling me up this way at three in the morning!”

  “But she’s in such pain, Doctor,” I complained.

  “All right—everybody has to have a little pain! You can’t be sick without it.”

  “I know,” I replied disconsolately, believing sincerely that my sister might die, “but she’s in such awful pain, Doctor.”

  “Well, go on,” he replied, turning up the light. “I know it’s all foolishness, but I’ll come. You go back and tell your mother that I’ll be there in a little bit, but it’s all nonsense, nonsense. She isn’t a bit sicker than I am right this minute, not a bit—” and he closed the door and went upstairs.

  To me this seemed just the least bit harsh for the doctor, although, as I reasoned afterwards, he was probably half-asleep and tired—dragged out of his bed, possibly, once or twice before in the same night. As I returned home I felt even more fearful, for once, as I was passing a woodshed which I could not see, a rooster suddenly flapped his wings and crowed—a sound which caused me to leap all of nineteen feet Fahrenheit, sidewise. Then, as I walked along a fence which later by day I saw had a comfortable resting board on top, two lambent golden eyes surveyed me out of inky darkness! Great Hamlet’s father, how my heart sank! Once more I leaped to the cloddy roadway and seizing a cobblestone or hunk of mud hurled it with all my might, and quite involuntarily. Then I ran until I fell into a crossing ditch. It was an amazing—almost a tragic—experience, then.

  In due time the doctor came—and I never quite forgave him for not making me wait and go back with him. He was too sleepy, though, I am sure. The seizure was apparently nothing which could not have waited until morning. However, he left some new cure, possibly clear water in a bottle, and left again. But the night trials of doctors and their patients, especially in the country, was fixed in my mind then.

  One of the next interesting impressions I gained of the doctor was that of seeing him hobbling about our town on crutches, his medicine case held in one hand along with a crutch, visiting his patients, when he himself appeared to be so ill as to require medical attention. He was suffering from some severe form of rheumatism at the time, but this, apparently, was not sufficient to keep him from those who in his judgment probably needed his services more than he did his rest.

  One of the truly interesting things about Dr. Gridley, as I early began to note, was his profound indifference to what might be called his material welfare. Why, I have often asked myself, should a man of so much genuine ability choose to ignore the gauds and plaudits and pleasures of the gayer, smarter world outside, in which he might readily have shone, to thus devote himself and all his talents to a simple rural community? That he was an extremely able physician there was not the slightest doubt. Other physicians from other towns about, and even so far away as Chicago, were repeatedly calling him into consultation. That he knew life—much of it—as only a priest or a doctor of true wisdom can know it, was evident from many incidents, of which I subsequently learned, and yet here he was, hidden away in this simple rural world, surrounded probably by his Rabelais, his Burton, his Frazer, and his Montaigne, and dreaming what dreams—thinking what thoughts?

  “Say,” an old patient, friend and neighbor of his once remarked to me years later, when we had both moved to another city, “one of the sweetest recollections of my life is to picture old Dr. Gridley, Ed Boulder who used to run the hotel over at Sleichertown, Congressman Barr, and Judge Morgan, sitting out in front of Boulder’s hotel over there of a summer’s evening and haw-hawing over the funny stories which Boulder was always telling while they were waiting for the Pierceton bus. Dr. Gridley’s laugh, so soft to begin with, but growing in force and volume until it was a jolly shout. And the green fields all around. And Mrs. Calder’s drove of geese over the way honking, too, as geese will whenever people begin to talk or laugh. It was delicious.”

  One of the most significant traits of his character, as may be inferred, was his absolute indifference to actual money, the very cash, one would think, with which he needed to buy his own supplies. During his life, his wife, who was a thrifty, hard-working woman, used frequently, as I learned after, to comment on this, but to no result. He could not be made to charge where he did not need to, nor collect where he knew that the people were poor.

  “Once he became angry at my uncle,” his daughter once told me, “because he offered to collect for him for three per cent, dunning his patients for their debts, and another time he dissolved a partnership with a local physician who insisted that he ought to be more careful to charge and collect.”

  This generosity on his part frequently led to some very interesting results. On one occasion, for instance, when he was sitting out on his front lawn in Warsaw, smoking, his chair tilted back against a tree and his legs crossed in the fashion known as “jack-knife,” a poorly dressed farmer without a coat came up and after saluting the doctor began to explain that his wife was sick and that he had come to get the doctor’s advice. He seemed quite disturbed, and every now and then wiped his brow, while the doctor listened with an occasional question or gently accented “uh-huh, uh-huh,” until the story was all told and the advice ready to be received. When this was given in a low, reassuring tone, he took from his pocket his little book of blanks and wrote out a prescription, which he gave to the man and began talking again. The latter took out a silver dollar and handed it to the doctor, who turned it idly between his fingers for a few seconds, then searched in his pocket fo
r a mate to it, and playing with them a while as he talked, finally handed back the dollar to the farmer.

  “You take that,” he said pleasantly, “and go down to the drug-store and have the prescription filled. I think your wife will be all right.”

  When he had gone the doctor sat there a long time, meditatively puffing the smoke from his cob pipe, and turning his own dollar in his hand. After a time he looked up at his daughter, who was present, and said:

  “I was just thinking what a short time it took me to write that prescription, and what a long time it took him to earn that dollar. I guess he needs the dollar more than I do.”

  In the same spirit of this generosity he was once sitting in his yard of a summer day, sunning himself and smoking, a favorite pleasure of his, when two men rode up to his gate from opposite directions and simultaneously hailed him. He arose and went out to meet them. His wife, who was sewing just inside the hall as she usually was when her husband was outside, leaned forward in her chair to see through the door, and took note of who they were. Both were men in whose families the doctor had practiced for years. One was a prosperous farmer who always paid his “doctor’s bills,” and the other was a miller, a “ne’er-do-well,” with a delicate wife and a family of sickly children, who never asked for a statement and never had one sent him, and who only occasionally and at great intervals handed the doctor a dollar in payment for his many services. Both men talked to him a little while and then rode away, after which he returned to the house, calling to Enoch, his old negro servant, to bring his horse, and then went into his study to prepare his medicine case. Mrs. Gridley, who was naturally interested in his financial welfare, and who at times had to plead with him not to let his generosity stand wholly in the way of his judgment, inquired of him as he came out:

  “Now, Doctor, which of those two men are you going with?”

  “Why, Miss Susan,” he replied—a favorite manner of addressing his wife, of whom he was very fond—the note of apology in his voice showing that he knew very well what she was thinking about, “I’m going with W----.”

  “I don’t think that is right,” she replied with mild emphasis. “Mr. N---- is as good a friend of yours as W----, and he always pays you.”

  “Now, Miss Susan,” he returned coaxingly, “N---- can go to Pierceton and get Doctor Bodine, and W---- can’t get any one but me. You surely wouldn’t have him left without any one?”

  What the effect of such an attitude was may be judged when it is related that there was scarcely a man, woman or child in the entire county who had not at some time or other been directly or indirectly benefited by the kindly wisdom of this Samaritan. He was nearly everybody’s doctor, in the last extremity, either as consultant or otherwise. Everywhere he went, by every lane and hollow that he fared, he was constantly being called into service by some one—the well-to-do as well as by those who had nothing; and in both cases he was equally keen to give the same degree of painstaking skill, finding something in the very poor—a humanness possibly—which detained and fascinated him and made him a little more prone to linger at their bedsides than anywhere else.

  “He was always doing it,” said his daughter, “and my mother used to worry over it. She declared that of all things earthly, papa loved an unfortunate person; the greater the misfortune, the greater his care.”

  In illustration of his easy and practically controlling attitude toward the very well-to-do, who were his patients also, let me narrate this:

  In our town was an old and very distinguished colonel, comparatively rich and very crotchety, who had won considerable honors for himself during the Civil War. He was a figure, and very much looked up to by all. People were, in the main, overawed by and highly respectful of him. A remote, stern soul, yet to Dr. Gridley he was little more than a child or schoolboy—one to be bossed on occasion and made to behave. Plainly, the doctor had the conviction that all of us, great and small, were very much in need of sympathy and care, and that he, the doctor, was the one to provide it. At any rate, he had known the colonel long and well, and in a public place—at the principal street corner, for instance, or in the postoffice where we school children were wont to congregate—it was not at all surprising to hear him take the old colonel, who was quite frail now, to task for not taking better care of himself—coming out, for instance, without his rubbers, or his overcoat, in wet or chilly weather, and in other ways misbehaving himself.

  “There you go again!” I once heard him call to the colonel, as the latter was leaving the postoffice and he was entering (there was no rural free delivery in those days) “—walking around without your rubbers, and no overcoat! You want to get me up in the night again, do you?”

  “It didn’t seem so damp when I started out, Doctor.”

  “And of course it was too much trouble to go back! You wouldn’t feel that way if you couldn’t come out at all, perhaps!”

  “I’ll put ‘em on! I’ll put ‘em on! Only, please don’t fuss, Doctor. I’ll go back to the house and put ‘em on.”

  The doctor merely stared after him quizzically, like an old schoolmaster, as the rather stately colonel marched off to his home.

  Another of his patients was an old Mr. Pegram, a large, kind, big-hearted man, who was very fond of the doctor, but who had an exceedingly irascible temper. He was the victim of some obscure malady which medicine apparently failed at times to relieve. This seemed to increase his irritability a great deal, so much so that the doctor had at last discovered that if he could get Mr. Pegram angry enough the malady would occasionally disappear. This seemed at times as good a remedy as any, and in consequence he was occasionally inclined to try it.

  Among other things, this old gentleman was the possessor of a handsome buffalo robe, which, according to a story that long went the rounds locally, he once promised to leave to the doctor when he died. At the same time all reference to death both pained and irritated him greatly—a fact which the doctor knew. Finding the old gentleman in a most complaining and hopeless mood one night, not to be dealt with, indeed, in any reasoning way, the doctor returned to his home, and early the next day, without any other word, sent old Enoch, his negro servant, around to get, as he said, the buffalo robe—a request which would indicate, of course that the doctor had concluded that old Mr. Pegram had died, or was about to—a hopeless case. When ushered into the latter’s presence, Enoch began innocently enough:

  “De doctah say dat now dat Mr. Peg’am hab subspired, he was to hab dat ba—ba—buffalo robe.”

  “What!” shouted the old irascible, rising and clambering out of his bed. “What’s that? Buffalo robe! By God! You go back and tell old Doc Gridley that I ain’t dead yet by a damned sight! No, sir!” and forthwith he dressed himself and was out and around the same day.

  Persons who met the doctor, as I heard years later from his daughter and from others who had known him, were frequently asking him, just in a social way, what to do for certain ailments, and he would as often reply in a humorous and half-vagrom manner that if he were in their place he would do or take so-and-so, not meaning really that they should do so but merely to get rid of them, and indicating of course any one of a hundred harmless things—never one that could really have proved injurious to any one. Once, according to his daughter, as he was driving into town from somewhere, he met a man on a lumber wagon whom he scarcely knew but who knew him well enough, who stopped and showed him a sore on the upper tip of his ear, asking him what he would do for it.

  “Oh,” said the doctor, idly and jestingly, “I think I’d cut it off.”

  “Yes,” said the man, very much pleased with this free advice, “with what, Doctor?”

  “Oh, I think I’d use a pair of scissors,” he replied amusedly, scarcely assuming that his jesting would be taken seriously.

  The driver jogged on and the doctor did not see or hear of him again until some two months later when, meeting him in the street, the driver smilingly approached him and enthusiastically exclaimed:

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sp; “Well, Doc, you see I cut ‘er off, and she got well!”

  “Yes,” replied the doctor solemnly, not remembering anything about the case but willing to appear interested, “—what was it you cut off?”

  “Why, that sore on my ear up here, you know. You told me to cut it off, and I did.”

  “Yes,” said the doctor, becoming curious and a little amazed, “with what?”

  “Why, with a pair of scissors, Doc, just like you said.”

  The doctor stared at him, the whole thing coming gradually back to him.

  “But didn’t you have some trouble in cutting it off?” he inquired, in disturbed astonishment.

  “No, no,” said the driver, “I made ‘em sharp, all right. I spent two days whettin’ ‘em up, and Bob Hart cut ‘er off fer me. They cut, all right, but I tell you she hurt when she went through the gristle.”

  He smiled in pleased remembrance of his surgical operation, and the doctor smiled also, but, according to his daughter, he decided to give no more idle advice of that kind.

  In the school which I attended for a period were two of his sons, Fred and Walter. Both were very fond of birds, and kept a number of one kind or another about their home—not in cages, as some might, but inveigled and trained as pets, and living in the various open bird-houses fixed about the yard on poles. The doctor himself was intensely fond of these and all other birds, and, according to his daughter and his sons, always anticipated the spring return of many of diem—black-birds, blue jays, wrens and robins—with a hopeful, “Well, now, they’ll soon be here again.” During the summer, according to her, he was always an interested spectator of their gyrations in the air, and when evening would come was never so happy as when standing and staring at them gathering from all directions to their roosts in the trees or the birdhouses. Similarly, when the fall approached and they would begin their long flight Southward, he would sometimes stand and scan the sky and trees in vain for a final glimpse of his feathered friends, and when in the gathering darkness they were no longer to be seen would turn away toward the house, saying sadly to his daughter:

 

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