by Sue Harrison
Yaa returned to her sewing and pushed the thoughts of death and killing from her mind. She was making Ghaden a pair of leggings and did not want to stitch sadness or bad luck into the seams. Instead she thought of hawks and lemmings. What better animals to give Ghaden skill and good luck in his hunting?
Aqamdax was careful. She never lifted heavy loads. She walked slowly and kept her thoughts to good things. She sang songs of patience to the son she carried in her belly, and she prayed that he would not be born early. Boy children were weaker than girls, the old women said, with less fat under their skin to keep them alive.
But the second day after Day Woman’s mourning had ended, Aqamdax awakened to pain.
She was sitting on her bedding furs, her hands over her belly, when Star woke up and began to scream. “Leave! Leave my lodge! If my baby comes early because of you, I will kill your child!”
Her yelling woke Chakliux. He pulled Star from her bed and walked her outside. Then Night Man also was awake. He rubbed his eyes and asked, “The pains have begun again?”
“They are not strong,” Aqamdax told him.
“It is best that you leave.”
She waited for him to promise prayers for her safety, for her life and the child’s, but he did not. Star had told her that Night Man was afraid the baby did not belong to him, and Aqamdax could see that fear in his eyes.
She had had a moon blood time before she became Night Man’s wife, and K’os had not given her to any man after that. The child had to be Night Man’s. She had told him that, but he ignored her, as though she had said nothing at all.
Aqamdax gathered her things, birth amulets and supplies for the baby. She had not made a cradle in the tradition of the First Men—a square frame of wood, hung from lodge rafters, that held a hammock where the baby slept—but instead, to please her husband, had fashioned a stiff cradleboard with a spruce wood back and a lacing of rawhide that would hold the baby’s head up, as though the child were standing in place.
During the two days after Day Woman’s mourning, Aqamdax had made herself a birth shelter of woven mats and willow poles. It was small, but Ligige’ had loaned her a scraped caribou skin to wrap around the peak, and Aqamdax had built it under a large white spruce in the hope that the tree would offer a shelter from rain and wind.
As she left Star’s lodge, Aqamdax called for Yaa to bring several water bladders and a pouch of dried fish. Yaa scrambled from her bed to follow Aqamdax from the lodge, turned to scold her brother Ghaden when he tried to hold her back.
Biter, Ghaden’s dog, followed Yaa, and Ghaden let out another protest, until Night Man glared at him and said, “Act like a man. You are not a baby like the one about to be born.”
Then Ghaden was quiet, and when he thought Night Man was not looking, he stuck his thumb in his mouth, drew his head down under a hare fur blanket and pretended to go back to sleep.
When Star and Chakliux returned to the lodge, Star was quiet, and Ghaden, peeking out from his blankets, could see that there was a calmness in her eyes. Even without Yaa in the lodge, it might be a good day.
He got up from his bed, went outside to the edge of the river and relieved himself. He took several fish from one of the drying racks and stuffed them up his parka sleeves. Like all the boys in the village, he would spend part of the day guarding the racks from foxes and ravens who tried to sneak in and steal meat.
At first the guarding had not been difficult. A raised stick, a yell, would drive them away, but with each successful theft, the foxes grew more bold, and now would growl at him when he came close. Squirrel had told Ghaden about a fox that had grabbed the end of his stick and tried to pull it from his hands. Finally, Squirrel’s older brother saw what was happening and chased the fox away by throwing stones.
After hearing Squirrel’s story, Ghaden had asked Yaa to make him a small pouch. Now he stooped at the riverbank and filled the pouch with stones, then he walked back to the lodge.
He had shared Chakliux’s mourning for Day Woman, remembered his own sorrow when his mother, Daes, had died, though that had been long ago. Now he could barely remember her face, mostly just her smile. Each day he repeated in his mind the Sea Hunter words she had taught him so he would not forget them as well. When they were gone, what would be left of her?
Sometimes he spoke to his sister, Aqamdax, about her, but when he did, Aqamdax always looked sad. Someday he would surprise her with his Sea Hunter words, then perhaps she would be happy. He was glad Aqamdax lived in their lodge and didn’t belong to K’os anymore. K’os had been mean to Aqamdax, had made her stay out in the entrance tunnel to sleep, even in the middle of winter.
It was better for Aqamdax now that she was wife to Night Man, even though Night Man was usually cross with her, often yelling, though it was Star who almost always caused any problems. What other woman in the village always ruined the clothing she was trying to make or allowed the cooking bag to catch fire? Who else burned the meat she was roasting?
Though Chakliux had given Star enough caribou hides to build a new lodge, and Chakliux, Ghaden and even Night Man had dug a circle into the ground for the lodge, had cut poles and carried stones, Star had yet to begin sewing the lodge cover.
It would be easier to have Star in a different lodge, though Ghaden was not sure if he and Yaa would stay with Night Man and Aqamdax or go with Star and Chakliux. Night Man did not like Chakliux, though Chakliux was a good husband to Star, always giving her small gifts like bird feathers and fox tails.
Ghaden slipped back into the lodge, was quiet as he skirted Long Eyes’s bed. The old woman was still asleep. Star was doing something to whatever was in the cooking bag, and soon she left the lodge, perhaps to bring back more food, Ghaden thought, but most likely to wander the village, doing nothing at all.
Ghaden got two bowls of meat, handed one to Night Man, the other to Chakliux. Chakliux raised his eyebrows at Ghaden, lifted the bowl as he did so, but Ghaden shook his head and pulled a fish from his sleeve. Chakliux grinned at him and began to eat.
Ghaden hunkered down in his bed. He wished Yaa would not have taken Biter. He liked to have his dog with him.
At least Red Leaf was gone from the village. Ghaden knew she was the one who had killed his mother. She had also stabbed him, and the places where the knife had cut still ached sometimes, especially when it was cold outside.
He tried not to think of the night it had happened, tried not to remember that it was his fault. He had seen Red Leaf, dressed like a man, like a hunter, and thought that she was his father, the trader Cen. He had run from the safety of their lodge entrance to Red Leaf, and his mother had followed him. If he had stayed with his mother, Red Leaf would have never known they were there, waiting until his mother’s sister-wife went to sleep and they could sneak back into the lodge. Why they had to do that each time they visited Cen in his trader’s lodge, Ghaden still did not understand, nor did he understand why they did not live with his father. But there were many things in the world he did not understand, things that even Yaa seemed puzzled about.
But now Red Leaf was gone. She would soon die, the people said, living away from the village with a baby to care for. That was too bad, Ghaden reflected. He had wanted her to live until he was a man so he could kill her himself.
Aqamdax squatted at the entrance of the birth lodge. She had built the lodge so the door faced east, to honor the light. Since she left Star’s lodge, dawn had spread up over the sky, chasing away the stars, pinching them out one by one. Pain gripped her, and she took long, deep breaths until it passed. The pains were not terrible, not nearly as hard as those that had taken her the first time she went into labor. She was not worried. Ligige’’s tea had stopped her pains before. It would again.
As a child, she had often seen women in the First Men Village walking out labor pains. She smiled as she remembered the whispers among the women and the stern faces of the men, each pretending he did not know a baby was about to be born.
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ong the River People most women in labor walked to speed their deliveries, but Aqamdax stayed still. It was best if the baby was not yet born, if he waited a few more days.
Soon Yaa brought Ligige’, and the old woman began fussing over Aqamdax, ordering Yaa to bring wood, start a fire, fetch water. Ligige’ had brought a tripod from her own hearth, and when the flames died down, she set it over the coals. She seemed worried about something, and finally Aqamdax said, “You are well?” Ligige’ nodded, and Aqamdax asked, “Is everyone in the village all right?”
“Everyone is all right, but there is some spirit of mischief at work. My dog chewed himself loose last night, and by the time I found him early this morning, my hearth coals had grown cold.”
She continued to mutter about dogs and hearth coals. Aqamdax, in her relief, tried to keep her mouth from showing any kind of smile. It was always an embarrassment when a woman’s hearth coals went out, especially for an old woman who had no children to watch, who had nothing to tend except her own lodge.
“I would have had this tea ready for you much sooner if all those things had not happened to me.”
Aqamdax, bracing herself against another pain, said nothing.
Ligige’ stopped to watch her. “The pains are not as bad?” she asked.
“No,” Aqamdax said, “and not so close together.”
“Good. Perhaps then it will not matter how late I am making this tea.”
With a wooden bowl, Ligige’ scooped water from the boiling bag, added a piece of balsam poplar root to steep, removed the root and handed the bowl to Aqamdax. “Drink it quickly, before another pain comes.”
Aqamdax took a sip. It was too hot, but she drank it anyway. It burned a path to her stomach, and she prayed it would stop her pains.
“You have been walking?” Ligige’ asked.
“I thought it was better if I did not.”
“Good, stay still. Yaa, go back to your lodge. Get Aqamdax something to keep her hands busy.”
“My basket,” Aqamdax told Yaa, and the girl ran off.
“It will keep your thoughts away from the baby. Maybe when he realizes no one is thinking about him, he will decide to wait and come out another day.”
Yaa ducked into the lodge. Biter had returned with her, and he leaped over Ghaden, making the boy laugh. Night Man and Chakliux were eating. She said nothing to them, waiting, as was polite, for Night Man to ask about his wife. Finally she fetched the basket, walking purposely close to him, but when he spoke he said, “Come back when you can. Long Eyes will soon be awake, and Star is not here.”
“Your wife…” she began, but Night Man turned his head away.
“How is Aqamdax?” Chakliux finally asked.
Night Man set his mouth into a frown, but Yaa answered, “Ligige’ has given her medicine again to stop the baby from coming.”
She stood for a moment to see if they had more questions, but neither man spoke, so Yaa told Ghaden to roll his bedding mats and gather firewood. He made a face at her, but she knew he would do what she asked.
“Do not forget Long Eyes,” Night Man said as she left the lodge.
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Chakliux sat with Night Man, waiting for him to begin prayers or chants. Some husbands even fasted when a wife was in labor, but Night Man did none of these things. Chakliux stayed, thinking Night Man might want someone to talk to. But Night Man acted as though he were alone in the lodge, and Chakliux wondered if he should leave. He wanted to make his own prayers, voice his own chants, a protection for Aqamdax and her child.
He decided to wait until Yaa returned. She could tell him one more time how Aqamdax was doing. Finally the doorflap opened, and Yaa stepped inside. At the same moment, Long Eyes awoke, the old woman peering around the lodge, screeching when she saw Chakliux, then calming again when she noticed Night Man beside him. Night Man helped Yaa get Long Eyes out of bed, told the girl to take her to the woman’s place, then bring her back and feed her. Yaa got Long Eyes into a summer parka, laced boots on her feet, then she and Night Man helped the woman outside.
Chakliux could hear Yaa and Night Man speaking but could not decipher their words. When Night Man came back, Chakliux asked him about Aqamdax, but Night Man shrugged.
“Really, I do not care,” he said. He dipped his bowl into the cooking bag. “You want more?” he asked, but Chakliux suddenly found himself unable to eat.
He watched as Night Man lifted the bowl to his lips, swallowed several mouthfuls of meat.
“You do not care,” Chakliux said.
Night Man lowered his bowl. “I did not choose her for myself. She is not of our people, but she is not a terrible wife, and so I will keep her. What other woman would have me?” He nodded at his useless arm. “I do not want her to die, but the baby means nothing.”
“Even if it is a son?”
“I’m sure it is not mine.”
Chakliux felt his face flush, first in disbelief, then in anger. “You think she has slept with another man?”
“Not since she became my wife. But she was a slave before that. K’os made her sleep with men, then took their gifts for herself. The child could belong to some warrior now dead, killed by the Near Rivers in the fighting.”
“It would still be yours—a daughter to care for you in your old age, a son to bring meat….”
“What if the true father’s spirit comes back to see this child, to watch him grow into a man, and finds that I have claimed him as my own? Do you think he would be glad to see his son raised by a man who laid in his bed and did nothing while the Near Rivers killed everyone and stole our women?”
“I think he would be glad that a man with a good heart is raising his son.”
But Night Man said, “If the baby comes early and is strong enough to live, I will know it is not mine.”
The tea did not stop the pains. Each one was a little harder, lasted a little longer. Finally Ligige’ told Aqamdax to go inside the birth lodge. She helped her lie down on the mats.
Ligige’ lifted the summer parka Aqamdax wore, pulled down Aqamdax’s short caribou hide pants, then during a pain slid a finger up into the birth canal.
“You might as well go outside and walk,” Ligige’ said, and helped Aqamdax to her feet. “You have opened at least halfway. I do not think my tea will help now. The baby has decided to come.”
THE NEAR RIVER VILLAGE
Gull Beak leaned near as K’os gutted and sliced the salmon, then handed them to Two Fist’s young daughter, who hung the split carcasses by the tails from the drying racks.
“The medicine worked,” Gull Beak whispered.
K’os’s woman’s knife, making quick horizontal slices through the thick pink flesh, paused for a moment, then continued as though Gull Beak had said nothing.
“I brought you birdbone beads.”
K’os stood, wiped a hand on her caribou hide pants and opened a pouch that hung at her waist. Gull Beak slipped the packet of beads into the pouch, and K’os pulled the drawstring tight.
“Come to me if you hear of others,” she told Gull Beak, then squatted again in front of the heap of gleaming fish.
Chapter Seven
THE COUSIN RIVER VILLAGE
AQAMDAX BRACED HERSELF WITH the babiche rope. She had tied it to a stout branch of the white spruce that stood over the birth lodge. The rope disappeared through the mat roofing of the lodge, and Aqamdax wished she could follow it outside, away from the pain and the dense air, sharp with the smell of sweat and birth fluids.
She heard Ligige’’s voice telling her to push, to push and to breathe, but the words were far away and difficult for her to understand. Each pain was a wave, and she tried to float above it, as though she were back in that small iqyax with Sok, riding the North Sea when she came as his bride to the River People.
Then suddenly the pain peaked, so hard, so rending that she thought she could not live through it, but then there was another voice, the sudden sound of a baby crying. Hard, angry cries.
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��A son,” Ligige’ called out. “A boy, a hunter.”
“Is he big enough? Is he all right?” Aqamdax asked.
“He is small but strong. Listen to him cry.” Then Ligige’ lifted the child and placed him in Aqamdax’s arms. Aqamdax tried to lay back, but Ligige’ stopped her. “Wait until the afterbirth has passed,” she said, and then called out for Yaa as if she could see through the mat walls and know that the girl was waiting outside.
Yaa crawled into the lodge. “How did you know I was here?” she asked, then, before Ligige’ could answer, said, “Boy or girl?”
“Boy,” Ligige’ told her. “I knew you were there, because if I were you, that’s where I would be.”
Yaa laughed, and Ligige’ lifted her chin toward Aqamdax. “Go sit behind her. Hold her up until the afterbirth comes.”
The cord, thick and blue, twisted down from the baby’s belly. When it no longer pulsed, Ligige’ tied it off at the navel, and then again a hand’s length away. She cut it between the ties with the obsidian blade of her birth knife. Then the placenta came in a rush of blood and water, and Ligige’ wrapped it in a mat, set it aside to burn later.
“Lay her down,” she told Yaa.
Yaa scooted from behind Aqamdax, gently settling her to the mat-covered floor. Ligige’ cleaned and covered Aqamdax, then took the baby from her arms and washed him. She wrapped him in the softened hare pelts Aqamdax had prepared for him and handed him back to his mother.
“He is so small that he may not know how to suck. Try him and see.”
She watched as Aqamdax rolled to her side, pulled up her shirt and offered the baby her nipple. He turned his head and clamped his mouth over it, began to nurse.
Ligige’ chuckled. “Yaa, stay here with her. I have other things to do.”
Ligige’ left, carrying the afterbirth. When the burning was done, Ligige’ returned to the lodge, ducked her head inside.
“They are both asleep,” Yaa whispered to her.