by Lila Price
She climbed into bed and then pulled the covers up.
The only light on in the room came from the lamp on the nightstand beside her bed, and a stream of light from the nearby window. Outside, occasionally I could hear a car drive by or the wind rattling the window frame.
She was lying on her back, covers pulled up, staring at the ceiling. “This is weird.”
“Yeah.” I smiled, finding her confusion cute.
“Do you do this a lot?” she asked, finally turning and meeting my gaze.
“It’s better not to get into that right now.”
“Why, because you’re a man whore?”
“Because I’m not interested in hearing about how many men you’ve done this with, either.”
“A one night stand? Just you,” she answered, and I knew she was being truthful.
I slid closer, leaning on my elbow, reached out and caressed her hair. “Let’s just be here tonight and then tomorrow we can worry about the rest.”
“I bet you’ve used that line before.” She raised an eyebrow.
“Don’t worry about my lines and I won’t worry about the fact that you seem to think you know an awful lot about me already.”
“Fine,” she said, sighing. “We’ll just pretend this is normal, I guess.”
“Exactly.” I slid closer. “Now come here.”
She slid into my arms much more easily than I expected, and instantly, as I encircled her, feeling her warm, soft body against my hardness, it was like she melted me.
I smelled her hair, and I let her snuggle closer, and then I closed my eyes, and it was better than I even thought it could be.
Shit. I’m in real trouble this time.
Bad trouble.
I was hard as a rock and I wanted her again. But this time it was different.
My lips on her neck, and then her turning in to face me, so soft and vulnerable and those liquid eyes, almost begging me.
“I need you,” she whispered.
“I need you too,” I said.
Soon, we were shedding the few clothes either of us had on, and then I was on top of her, completely naked, the two of us, and we looked in each other’s eyes.
She opened her legs and her pussy was wet and open, my cock was throbbing, slick, and I knew that this time there would be no condom.
I didn’t want anything between us and neither did she.
“Make love to me,” she said softly.
I slid into her bare pussy, parting her slit, pushing through her folds, and damn if it wasn’t the best feeling I’d ever had in all my life. My life, which up until now hadn’t been much—but this was something else.
This girl, her eyes, the way she looked at me…what did she want?
Didn’t she know what I was?
I told myself again, it’s just for tonight. Forget about tomorrow.
Forget about what happened in Afghanistan.
And feeling her silky smooth body, I actually could do it. I could forget the past and the future, and I slid all the way into her, went as deep as I could, and she was wetter than I could have imagined.
Soon, I was pounding her slowly, fucking her perfectly.
Maybe this was making love. I didn’t know.
I’d never made love in my life—I just fucked.
Only now, I was fucking but it felt like something else, and she was arching those thick hips into me, and staring up at me, those pouting lips so sexy—and now I was swiveling my hips faster.
“Oh God, Zack, fuck me hard and I’m going to come on your cock,” she gasped.
“Shit, I’m coming too.”
“Come inside me,” she said, and then our hips crashed together and I was unloading everything I had inside her.
It was the best release ever, and my entire body turned to steel, and I was simultaneously melting into her, giving way, and we came together.
When it was over, I stayed inside her, and our lips met and we kissed for a long time, like nothing else—no other woman I’d kissed felt this right, this good, this soft…
I knew that I’d never forget her, even when I walked away from her in a few short hours, never to see her again.
But for now, I would remember each and every moment with her, record it so that someday years from now I could replay it again and again.
I tasted her, tasted her lips, breathed in the scent of her, knowing it was going to be the last time.
CAELI
It was difficult, if not impossible to sleep after what he’d done to me.
The feel of his muscular body, every fiber rock hard and slick with sweat, and the orgasm that had seemed like it had split between our two souls and forged us momentarily into one…was I dreaming or had that really happened?
But then he was holding me close, and I curled into him, feeling his arms wrap around me, and I could see the sinews of his forearm, the ink of his flag tattoo that edged from his shoulder and down onto his upper bicep.
God, he felt amazing. He even smelled amazing.
And those lips. I groaned happily, enjoying this feeling of being held in the night. Even as the wind whipped outside the apartment and rattled the windows of the house, I felt so totally safe and protected.
A hurricane could tear down the walls and I was certain that Zack would hold me and keep me completely safe from harm.
I thought about the way he’d taken care of my cousins earlier when one of them had merely insulted me, swore at me in the parking lot of the restaurant.
Zack had taken them out without so much as breaking a sweat.
And then he’d taken me in, fucked me, made love to me, stared into my eyes and swept me away into a sea of passion I’d never known existed.
But now I knew, and I wanted more of it. I wanted more of him.
It was difficult to fall asleep, even as the adrenaline rush faded and my eyes closed. I could hear his breathing finally slow, and then he was ever so lightly snoring, so faintly that it was difficult to detect.
He was sleeping, his arms still holding me.
I began to drift, too, and a smile touched my lips, a smile of contentment and warmth and safety that I hadn’t felt ever before in my life.
I drifted off, and my sleep was deep and undisturbed for the first time in a long time.
It wasn’t until the yelling that I woke up again.
My eyes snapped open and Zack was already leaping out of bed, pulling on his boxers as the yelling intensified.
Oh my God.
My father was in the apartment—not just in my apartment—but in the doorway of my bedroom. He stood there, looming larger than life, and he was a large man, even though he was in his sixties—he still had the vigor and intensity of a younger man.
Gray hair lay in thick waves across his head, and his bushy eyebrows waggled almost comically as his nose and cheeks flamed red. “What the hell is going on? Who the hell is this in my fucking apartment?” he screamed, his voice booming.
I grabbed my blanket and pulled it up over my bare breasts. “Dad, get out of my room!”
“This is my room,” my father said. “I own this house. Your mother and I own this house, remember.”
“Get out! I need to get dressed,” I said.
He gave Zack a long, crazed look. “You. Outside with me,” he said.
Zack folded his arms. His back muscles clenched. “I’ll do what Caeli wants me to do,” he said.
Zack turned and looked at me as if asking for my response.
I swallowed, mumbling. “You can go out there while I get dressed.”
He nodded, agreeing, but his jaw flinched. He grabbed his pants and shirt and quickly put them on, his movements efficient and fast. There was no sense of panic or embarrassment, merely annoyance.
He straightened, gave me one last look, and I mouthed ‘I’m sorry’ as he turned again and walked out of the bedroom.
My father held the doorknob, glaring at me. “I’ll be waiting out here with Prince Charming,” he said, his voice dripping with sarc
asm.
And then he slammed the door so hard that one corner of my poster flapped against the wall, as if in protest.
I felt my cheeks burning and tears stung my eyes. How humiliating.
And frustrating.
Why was my father letting himself into my apartment? Yes, he and my mother were technically my landlords, but I paid rent and was entitled to some basic privacy.
They’d done this kind of thing before, but never had it resulted in such an embarrassing and ridiculous scene.
But now I was stuck.
I could hear my father talking to Zack, questioning him, interrogating him as my father was known to do when he got upset.
Most of their conversation was muffled, I could just hear the tone of my dad’s voice—insistent, gruff, arrogant—and then Zack’s lower voice, answering in monosyllabic grunts, after which there would come a lengthy pause before my father’s voice resumed its questioning, pushy tone once more.
This wasn’t going to end well, and it made me increasingly nervous.
I got into jeans, shoes and a sweater, running my hands through my hair and putting it back into a quick ponytail with a hair tie, before finally walking out of the bedroom and facing the firing squad.
My father stood outside the bedroom, arms folded.
Zack had put on his coat and seemed all too ready to leave as quickly as possible, and I could hardly blame him.
“Your friend and I were just getting acquainted,” my father said, making it obvious he was less than impressed.
Zack sighed but didn’t speak.
“You have no right to just let yourself into my apartment, Dad.” I pushed a stray hair behind my ear, tried not to show how afraid I was.
My father snorted. “I tried to call you. Your mother texted you over and over again. We were worried. So finally I came over and let myself in—and look what I find.”
“I’m an adult.”
“Are you, now?” he said, sneering. “Good. So why don’t you be an adult and tell me all about what you did last night at the restaurant.” His eyes flicked to Zack and then back to me, and my heart began to race.
“I should go,” Zack said, his body tensing, as if he was readying to fight if necessary—a cornered wolf.
“Yeah, you should,” my father said, giving him a glance that could have killed.
But if my father wanted Zack to leave, then he obviously didn’t have a clue that Zack was the man who’d beaten up my cousins.
“Sorry about this,” I said to Zack, as he started towards the door of the apartment.
He turned and glanced at me. “Are you okay?” he asked.
My father laughed. “Just keep moving, pal. I don’t think she needs any help from the likes of you.”
Zack didn’t even glance at my father. His eyes stayed locked on mine. “Are you okay, Caeli? If you’re not, just say the word.”
I remembered his strong arms holding me, drawing me closer in the night—and the way he’d protected me from my bullying cousins. He was doing it again, right now, letting me know that I didn’t need to let my father do this to me.
“Actually, Dad, I think maybe you should leave,” I said, summoning all of my nerve. I’d never in my life had the courage to stand up to him before now.
He stared at me, incredulous. “What the hell’s gotten into you? Huh?”
“I don’t know.”
“Well figure it out. Because all I know is your uncle wants nothing to do with any of us and he says it’s your fault. Heck, I couldn’t get but two words out of him. He just texts me, “ask Caeli.” And nothing else. Won’t pick up the phone, won’t say anything to me.” My father’s temple had a vein throbbing in it, pulsing as his face reddened almost to a purplish hue. “So what do you have to say for yourself? Something must’ve happened last night for your uncle to basically disown us.”
I shrugged. “I don’t know exactly.”
“She doesn’t want to talk about it, so leave her alone,” Zack said from behind my father.
My Dad wasn’t exactly a shrinking violet, and now the veins bulged in his neck. “Caeli, you better tell your little friend to make a hasty exit or he’s going to wish he’d never laid eyes on the inside of this apartment.”
“Dad, calm down.”
“Caeli,” my father said, speaking more slowly, “this is my apartment. We’re renting it to you, and if you keep defying me, I’m going to kick you out and then you’ll be homeless.”
“No she won’t,” Zack said. “She’ll come with me.”
I stared at him, my mouth dropping open. I had no words, because I was truly stunned that he would say that.
I don’t even know you, I thought.
“Oh, right. Go with Prince Fucking Charming, over there,” my father said, cocking a thumb back and gesturing over his shoulder. “I’m sure he’ll treat you right as rain, Caeli. Seems like a real normal guy to me. I bet he’s a doctor, an attorney, right?”
“I’ll treat her better than you do,” Zack growled.
His entire posture had changed and now I could tell that he was close to exploding.
My father sensed it and seemed to freeze. “Fine,” he said through grit teeth. “You want her? Fucking take her.” He stared at me. “You get the hell out of my house, and don’t come back until you’re ready to treat me and your mother with some respect.”
I wanted to say I was sorry, to tell him to calm down, to apologize for getting everything screwed up and ruining it all.
But then I thought about the fact that I’d stopped my own plans of finishing school to work so that I could help pay off my parents’ debt to my uncle, and that I’d even lived in this apartment to pay them rent on top of working for my uncle.
I’d sacrificed so much to help them, and they just acted as if they were entitled to it all, as if it was them doing me a favor.
I wasn’t the one who got so deep in a hole that my uncle had to bail me out. I wasn’t the one who sacrificed someone else’s future so that I could maintain my old life.
It wasn’t me who got us into this, and it wasn’t my job to be on the hook for it now.
So I didn’t say anything to my father.
Instead, I did what he asked me to do.
I left.
There was nothing but silence as I walked past my father and followed Zack as he headed out the door. I grabbed my purse, which contained my money, credit cards and cell phone.
I knew I should have taken at least some clothes and toiletries, but any more time spent in the company of my father risked me losing my nerve and completely collapsing, begging him for forgiveness.
My parents had always made me feel like I somehow owed them something, just by the mere fact of my existence.
And if I stayed in the apartment for even another minute, I was going to fall apart and that would be just another chapter in the same old book. So I left, and Zach and I went out into the new morning together.
When we got outside and headed toward his truck, I stopped momentarily.
“It’s okay,” I said. “You don’t have to take me anywhere.” I smiled a little as he turned to face me, his beautiful green eyes squinting a little.
“I told you to come with me. I don’t just make empty promises,” he said calmly.
“I know, and it was so kind of you—more kind then you could even realize. But that doesn’t mean it’s fair for me to accept.”
His lip twitched up at the corner as if amused. “Does your old man always act like that?”
I thought about it. Shrugged. “Mostly, I guess.”
“So let him sweat it out for a change, then,” Zack said, grinning now. “Come on,” he said, nodding up to the window above. “See, he’s watching us right now. Imagine how much it’ll chap his ass when he sees you getting in the truck with me.”
I thought about it, glancing up and seeing my father’s shadow in the window.
“Maybe you can drive me to my friend’s house,” I said, smiling wide
r. “He’ll assume I went with you, and that’s bad enough.”
“Get in, then.” He walked to the front opened the door to the passenger side for me.
I inclined my head, blushing a little at his unintended chivalry. I got into the cab of the truck, noticing how it smelled of Zack, and also a little scent of pine.
It was a nice, cozy smell.
Zack got in the driver’s seat and started the engine. A cloud of smoke billowed out behind us and then we pulled away from the curb.
It was a strange feeling watching my apartment—my home—fade into the distance as I drove away from it with this strange man who’d done things to me last night that were previously unthinkable.
I was afraid to look over and see his expression, to truly acknowledge whatever was happening.
“So, my friend’s house is just a few minutes from here,” I said nervously, clearing my throat afterwards.
“Why do we need to go to your friend’s house?” Zack said, shifting gears.
“Well…you can’t be serious about me staying with you.”
“I have an apartment not too far from here.”
“Yes, but—“
“You’re welcome to stay with me as long as you need.” He sat there, his one hand dangling over the steering wheel, casual. His eyes were on the road.
I couldn’t help but once again admire his body, his handsomeness, but also his calm and cool demeanor that I couldn’t have pulled off in a million years.
Zack was one of those guys—the type that made you feel like he could handle absolutely anything, like he was literally unafraid of the world.
Meanwhile, I felt afraid of nearly everything most days.
“I don’t know,” I said, mulling over the idea for the first time. I dug my thumbnail into my teeth and then bit down on it. “This seems crazy. We don’t even know each other.”
“Isn’t that what makes it fun?” he said, finally glancing at me and flashing a grin.
“Well, tell me about yourself then,” I said. “Like, where are you from originally?”
Zack sighed. “No, I don’t think so. I don’t like talking about my past.”
“Are you in trouble or something?”
He didn’t respond for a moment. “Just not interested in going there. You needed a place to stay, you got one. But I can’t promise anything else.”