Diana in Search of Herself

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by Sally Bedell Smith


  B-DK Royal Pursuit: The Palace, the Press and the People (1983), by Douglas Keay

  B-JK I Hate You—Don’t Leave Me: Understanding the Borderline Personality (1991), by Jerold J. Kreisman, M.D., and Hal Straus

  B-AM1 Diana: Her True Story—In Her Own Words (1997), by Andrew Morton

  B-AM2 Diana: Her New Life (paperback edition, 1995), by Andrew Morton

  B-AP Princess in Love (paperback edition, 1995), by Anna Pasternak

  B-MR The Diana I Knew (1998), by Mary Robertson

  B-TS Death of a Princess: An Investigation (1998), by Thomas Sancton and Scott MacLeod

  B-SS Diana: The Secret Years (1998), by Simone Simmons

  B-PT With Love from Diana (paperback edition, 1995), by Penny Thornton

  B-JW Charles vs. Diana: Royal Blood Feud (paperback edition, 1993), by James Whitaker

  Television Programs

  Pano Panorama, Martin Bashir interview with Diana, Princess of Wales, BBC, 11/20/95 (citations from BBC transcript)

  JD-Doc Prince Charles: The Private Man, the Public Role, written and presented by Jonathan Dimbleby, ITV, 6/29/94

  ITV-Doc Diana: Her Life, ITV, 12/28/97

  R&R-Doc Royals and Reptiles, Channel 4 (10/19/97, 10/26/97, 11/2/97)

  Miscellaneous

  I-FSK Hello! magazine two-part interview with Frances Shand Kydd, 5/24/97 and 5/31/97

  I-CS Hello! magazine interview with Charles Spencer, 10/10/92

  INTRODUCTION

  1 The Sun created a sensation: Sun, 5/21/91

  2 “misread her friendliness”: DM, 3/18/91

  3 “Set on separate”: ST, 5/12/91

  4 “She would tailor”: B-SS, p. 107

  5 after her death, friends: MOS, 9/20/98; Interview with Anthony Holden

  6 “Sometimes she appeared to”: Interview with Robert Spencer

  7 “she had decided to radically”: DM, 9/1/97

  8 “My feeling was at that time”: Interview with Richard Kay

  CHAPTER 1

  1 Diana was driving: McCall’s, 10/84

  2 “bizarre”: Tribute by Earl Spencer, 9/4/97, Westminster Abbey

  3 “She needed to be royal”: NYT, 9/3/97

  4 “They look so wondering”: ST, 12/30/84

  5 “She has a sympathetic”: WO, 4/9/88

  6 “People adore her”: SuTel, 12/30/84

  7 “I am much closer to”: Le Monde, quoted in DT, 8/27/97

  8 “I don’t go by”: Pano, p. 34

  9 “thick as a plank”: Ibid., p. 12

  10 “brain the size of a pea”: DM, 9/24/86

  11 “She was an entirely”: Interview with Paul Johnson

  12 “she could appear to be talking”: Interview with Nicholas Haslam

  13 “My friend Paolo”: Ibid.

  14 “The time spent alone reviewing”: Ibid.

  15 “If you have a mind that doesn’t”: Interview with David Puttnam

  16 “I always used to think”: MOS, 6/1/86

  17 “If she would say we will”: Interview with Roberto Devorik

  18 “levelheadedness and strength”: Tribute by Earl Spencer

  19 “honesty”: Ibid.

  20 “She had real difficulty”: B-AM1, p. 82

  21 “At least once … she lied”: TNY, 9/15/97

  22 “I would ask her whether”: ITV-Doc

  23 “The nice side of her”: Interview with Nicholas Haslam

  24 “Her dark side was that”: SuTel, 9/7/97

  25 a color tabloid modeled: Andrew Neil, Full Disclosure (1996), pp. 96–98

  26 “Slowly she is adjusting”: DM, 11/7/83

  27 new “maturity”: A sampling of articles includes DM, 4/18/83; DS, 6/30/83; DM, 11/7/83; DS, 7/1/85; DS, 2/24/87; Sun, 6/23/87; DM, 6/10/89

  28 “We would speak for”: B-SS, p. 34

  29 “ghosthopped”: B-SS, p. 23

  30 “You could see how she”: Interview with Dr. Michael Adler

  31 “There was a tremendous fight”: Interview with Elsa Bowker

  32 “If you look through the record”: Interview with Richard Ingrams

  33 “We felt we had a responsibility”: Interview with Max Hastings

  34 “It is an undisputed fact”: DM, 12/28/97

  35 “the paradigm unhappy woman”: WP, 9/5/97

  36 “publicly and bloodily fought out”: ES, 12/19/92

  37 “watched her parents publicly”: DM, 11/18/92

  38 “a fierce custody battle”: MTV: Biorhythms, 8/31/98

  39 only attracted discreet notices: DT, 4/16/69; ES, 4/15/69. A survey of newspaper archives for the periods from 12/13/68, when divorce proceedings were initiated, to 4/15/69, when divorce was granted, turned up no other coverage. There was a similar silence during the comparable period in the divorce of Peter and Janet Shand Kydd, and in July 1971, when Diana’s mother reopened custody proceedings.

  40 “It was clear to me he did not”: B-JW, p. 178

  41 “Prince Charles has finally fallen”: DS, 1/27/82

  42 “three of us in this marriage”: Pano, pp. 14–15

  43 “From the beginning, Diana”: Christopher Anderson, The Day Diana Died (1998), p. 41

  44 “She lived in an extreme”: Interview with Cosima Somerset

  45 “wolf pack”: B-DK, p. 243; Ti, 12/28/83

  46 “I didn’t like”: Ti, 9/6/97

  47 “She remained intact”: Tribute by Earl Spencer

  48 “Whenever things got too”: SuTel, 9/7/97

  49 “I think essentially that she”: Interview with Dr. Michael Adler

  50 “As she expressed it to friends”: B-JD, p. 478

  51 “She scoured the newspapers”: Ibid., pp. 477–78

  52 “Her whole life”: ITV-Doc

  53 “The haircut was a way”: Interview with Roberto Devorik

  54 “From now on, I am going”: B-AM2, p. 155

  55 “Whatever I do”: DM, 9/1/97

  CHAPTER 2

  1 “when Mummy decided to leg it”: B-AM1, p. 23

  2 “sat quietly at the bottom”: Ibid., p. 70

  3 “I will always remember [my mother]”: Sun, 1/12/98

  4 “cowering behind a curtain”: SuEx, 9/7/97

  5 “I remember her telling me”: Interview with Cosima Somerset

  6 “Her mother left at the moment”: Interview with Elsa Bowker

  7 The Spencers were one: The history of the Spencer family was drawn from various sources, including Ti, 3/30/92; DT, 9/1/97; DM, 4/3/92;SuTel, 9/5/93

  8 “most serious, exclusive and illustrious”: David Cannadine, The Decline and Fall of the British Aristocracy (1992), p. 503

  9 “Diana was brought up to believe”: Interview with Paul Johnson

  10 “tended to be populist”: Ibid.

  11 “Despite their calm”: Cannadine, p. 504

  12 “It was instinctive”: Interview with Paul Johnson

  13 “curator earl”: Charles Spencer, Althorp: The Story of an English House (1998), p. 3; DT, 3/30/92

  14 “intolerant of differences”: Interview with Fiona Fraser

  15 “Jolly Jack”: Spencer, p. 109

  16 “Grandfather found it hard”: Ibid., pp. 6–7

  17 a formidable memory: DM, 12/27/97

  18 surprising shrewdness: I-CS

  19 “I found him to be adorable”: Interview with Fiona Fraser

  20 Perhaps his most memorable: DEx, 4/28/81

  21 “He was in many ways”: Ti, 4/2/92

  22 “Frances was dominant”: Interview with Robert Spencer

  23 “rather fast romantic”: I-FSK

  24 “sweet, amusing”: DM, 6/15/93: Angela Levin, excerpt from Raine and Johnny (1993)

  25 proposed marriage to Frances during: I-FSK

  26 “It was a real love match”: Interview with Robert Spencer

  27 “for four generations”: I-FSK

  28 “mongrel”: Frances Shand Kydd interview with Cathy Macdonald, V.I.P. (Scottish) ITV, 10/20/95

  29 “It really upsets me when�
�: DM, 5/20/97

  30 The Fermoys came from: Various sources on Roche family, including I-FSK; Fiona Fraser; and B-PJ1, pp. 28–29

  31 “the most compassionate, sensitive”: DM 5/20/97

  32 “I don’t think I’ve ever”: I-FSK

  33 A streak of instability: Royalty Monthly, 8/88; NOTW, 6/19/88; DEx,12/6/97

  34 In 1984, at age forty-five: DM, 8/21/84

  35 “She has a very quick”: Interview with Fiona Fraser

  36 “good with people”: Ibid.

  37 “Frances has an inner strength”: Ibid.

  38 her mother took Johnnie’s: Ibid.

  39 “mirages of happiness”: I-FSK

  40 “immensely happy for a long time”: Ibid.

  41 “honeymoon baby”: Ibid.

  42 “enormous sadness”: Ibid.

  43 “She was very attractive”: Interview with Fiona Fraser

  44 Frances’s substantial inheritance: B-PJ1, p. 36

  45 “I was blissfully happy”: I-FSK

  46 “I never saw him, never held him”: MOS 3/9/97

  47 “Thwarted in his wish”: DM, 6/15/93

  48 “for intimate tests”: B-AM1, p. 71

  49 “It was a dreadful time”: Ibid.

  50 “instinctive understanding”: DM, 6/15/93

  51 “One had to keep a stiff”: MOS, 3/9/97

  52 “The death of John was a deep”: Interview with Fiona Fraser

  53 “She had been married six years”: Interview with Robert Spencer

  54 “a perfect physical specimen”: B-PJ, p. 37

  55 “the girl who was supposed”: B-RK, p. 42

  56 “nuisance to have around … try again”: B-AM1, p. 24

  57 “Diana was a different soul”: DM, 3/9/97

  58 “I don’t know what to say”: Interview with Robert Spencer

  59 “was feeling pressure”: Ibid.

  60 “violent and unhappy”: B-PJ2, p. 59

  61 “motherless years”: B-JW, p. 241

  62 “violent scenes which went”: Ibid.

  63 “a wife beater”: Ibid., p. 240

  64 “believed to have extended”: DM, 11/27/97

  65 “Over the last three”: I-FSK

  66 “We hadn’t fallen apart”: DEx, 11/30/81

  67 “It was never discussed”: Interview with Fiona Fraser

  68 “showed no evidence”: Interview with Robert Spencer

  69 “She was a wonderful mother”: Interview with Fiona Fraser

  70 she would find that Frances: B-JW, p. 137

  71 “He was a reasonably intelligent”: DM, 6/15/93

  72 “There is a thing called”: I-CS

  73 “I don’t touch [Raine]”: DEx, 11/30/81

  74 “It wasn’t love at first”: I-FSK

  75 Shand Kydd’s family: B-PJ1, pp. 44, 48

  76 “bohemian”: B-PJ, p. 44

  77 “bon viveur”: B-AM1, p. 77

  78 “That’s when we realized”: I-FSK

  79 “Peter wasn’t responsible”: Ibid.

  80 “She fell in love with Peter”: Interview with Robert Spencer

  81 “It was a terrible shock”: DEx, 11/30/81

  82 The day after her departure: DEx, 8/14/82

  83 “trial separation”: I-FSK

  84 “It was something I put a lot”: Ibid.

  85 “playing quietly on the floor”: B-AM1, p. 78

  86 “Of course there were tears”: I-FSK

  87 “He refused to let”: MOS, 3/9/97

  88 “I was devastated”: I-FSK

  89 “always felt especially bleak”: B-SS, p. 52

  90 “only through lawyers”: I-FSK

  91 just two newspapers: Ti, 4/11/68; DT, 4/11/68

  92 “adultery by Mr. Peter Shand Kydd”: DT, 4/11/68

  93 The following June: DEx, 8/14/82

  94 That December, Frances filed: Ti, 12/13/68

  95 “fearful the details”: B-JW, pp. 240–41

  96 “In those days, [an accusation of] mental cruelty”: Interview with Fiona Fraser

  97 He summoned a string: DM, 6/15/93; B-PJ1, p. 46

  98 It was not until 1982: DM, 8/16/82

  99 “Only now is the full story”: Ibid.

  100 “My grandmother tried to lacerate”: B-AM2, p. 65

  101 According to the Evening Standard: ES, 4/15/69

  102 “Adultery was alleged”: Ibid.

  103 “was granted custody”: DT, 4/16/69

  104 “The fact that the father was”: DEx, 8/14/82

  105 Two years later, in July 1971: Majesty, 4/95

  106 which “unbalanced” Frances: Interview with Robert Spencer

  107 “He was really miserable”: B-AM1, p. 81

  108 “body language was appalling”: DM, 6/15/93

  109 Diana recalled that not only: B-AM1, p. 24

  110 “asking where [my mother] was”: I-CS

  CHAPTER 3

  1 “The emotional drama”: Luise Eichenbaum and Susie Orbach, What Do Women Want? (1984), p. 38

  2 “It is hard to imagine”: DS, 7/1/81

  3 “never been able to become”: The Borderline Child: Approaches to Etiology, Diagnosis, and Treatment (1983), edited by Kenneth S. Robson,M.D., p. 5

  4 According to psychiatrist E. James Anthony: Ibid.

  5 “I always felt”: B-AM1, p. 24

  6 “I always had this thing”: Ibid., p. 25

  7 “I felt I was in the wrong shell”: Ibid., p. 68

  8 “Between their divorce”: I-CS

  9 “It was a very unhappy”: B-AM1, p. 24

  10 Diana recalled that she: Ibid., p. 23

  11 “Diana and I had a nanny”: I-CS

  12 “like a little bee”: Fox Files, Catherine Crier interview with Charles Spencer, 7/16/98

  13 “I’ve got what my mother’s got”: B-AM1, p. 61

  14 “Diana could not be called”: B-JW, p. 137

  15 “She was very modest”: Interview with Fiona Fraser

  16 “on the go all day long”: B-PJ1, p. 50

  17 “long list of questions”: Ibid., p. 7

  18 “became introverted”: DM, 9/30/93

  19 “In school I was taught to”: DM, 5/20/97

  20 “ever so talkative”: MOS, 5/25/86: Mary Clarke, excerpt from Little Girl Lost: The Troubled Childhood of Princess Diana by the Woman Who Raised Her (1986)

  21 “whether a psychologist would say”: B-AM1, p. 82

  22 She was so afraid of the dark: B-AM1, p. 24

  23 “wasn’t particularly happy”: I-CS

  24 “her early life had indeed been”: B-PT, p. 23

  25 “trailing after her father”: Birmingham Evening News, 9/1/97

  26 She kept twenty stuffed animals: B-AM1, p. 24

  27 a “green hippo”: Ibid., p. 25

  28 “lay in a line”: B-AP, p. 93

  29 “a self-contained unit”: I-CS

  30 an affinity for nicknames: B-AM1, p. 83; Sun, 7/1/98: “Duch” stood for Duchess, which, according to Charles Spencer, came from the Walt Disney film The Aristocats; “The Admiral” referred to the admiral’s hat Charles wore as a child; and “Ginge” was for Sarah’s red hair.

  31 “an introspective and shy”: Ti, 6/20/98

  32 While Diana claimed not to be jealous: B-AM1, p. 30

  33 Diana’s relationship with her sisters: Ibid., pp. 23, 30

  34 “Like me, he will always”: Ibid., p. 30

  35 Many of their friends thought: I-FSK

  36 “I didn’t like being a girl with”: DM, 2/18/78

  37 Diana prided herself on: B-AM1, p. 23

  38 “Jane and Diana had this thing”: Interview with Felicity Clark

  39 “confident about her gracefulness”: Fox Files interview with Charles Spencer, 7/16/98

  40 “She loved to show off”: ITV-Doc

  41 it has often been said: B-PJ1, p. 104; B-AM1, p. 79

  42 “Cheer up and grin and bear”: Birmingham Evening News, 9/1/97

  43 “was a wonderful father”: I
TV-Doc

  44 go into a “panic”: B-AM1, p. 26

  45 “every step she took”: DEx, 4/28/81

  46 “My father always said”: B-AM1, p. 25

  47 “one of [Johnnie’s] greatest achievements”: I-CS

  48 “He was of a generation”: ITV-Doc

  49 a “very kind, understanding man”: MOS, 5/25/86

  50 “There were long periods”: B-PJ1, p. 60

  51 “She did fret about Johnnie”: Ibid., p. 56

  52 “particularly fond of her father”: Interview with Robert Spencer

  53 “to be left in the custody”: B-JW, p. 241

  54 “distant and remote”: B-PT, p. 23

  55 “Poor Daddy, I feel so sad”: MOS, 6/1/86

  56 “there were no tears”: B-PJ1, p. 56

  57 “I can remember Mummy”…“devastating”: B-AM1, p. 25

  58 “make unfavorable remarks”: MOS, 6/1/86

  59 “After he made them welcome”: SuEx, 11/10/96

  60 “It was agonizing”: Interview with Fiona Fraser

  61 “Peter and I had no wish”: I-FSK

  62 “She never felt good enough”: Sun, 1/12/98

  63 “Diana said her mother”: Interview with Roberto Devorik

  64 “totally traumatized”: B-AM1, p. 25

  65 her “father’s favorite”: Ibid., p. 30

  66 “The problem was”: Interview with Robert Spencer

  CHAPTER 4

  1 “beginning to gain confidence”: DT, 8/29/98

  2 “bright and chatty”: B-PJ1, p. 58

  3 “quiet and shy”: B-AM1, p. 81

  4 “horribly different”: Ibid., p. 25

  5 The school staff waited: B-PJ1, p. 54

  6 “a stable family atmosphere”: Ibid., p. 60

  7 “I used to make threats”: B-AM1, p. 26

  8 “those downcast eyes”: MOS, 5/25/86

  9 “adored”: B-AM1, p.26

  10 “She was overtaken by the busyness”: B-PJ1, p. 68

  11 “a teacher’s dream”: Ibid., p. 64

  12 “I was very naughty”: B-AM1, p. 26

  13 “Diana has been outstandingly”: DM, 7/2/98

  14 “I wasn’t university material”: WO, 4/8/78

  15 “wary of adults, often prickly”: Ruth Rudge, West Heath Magazine, no.85, p. 26

  16 “She was wary of people”: Interview with Ruth Rudge

  17 “ghastly … calm and sorted out”: B-AM1, p. 27

 

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