by Levine, Nina
One flick of his tongue and I’m his. Hell, I was already his, but now I’m ready to hand over the keys to the driver’s seat whenever he wants to take a spin.
I grip his hair harder. “Please don’t ever stop what you’re doing,” I beg as I bite my lip and squeeze my eyes shut.
The pleasure builds to an intensity I’m not sure I can ever recall experiencing as he expertly works his tongue and lips to give me an orgasm I will never forget.
As I come, I scream, “Oh, God… Luke, fuck…”
Brilliant light shatters through my mind, and I lose all sense of knowing as my orgasm moves through me. All I am sure of in this moment is how good Luke is making me feel.
His voice filters through my consciousness, and I realise he’s moved up the bed and positioned his cock at my entrance. “Fuck, Callie, I need to be inside you,” he rasps as he slides through my wetness.
I wrap my legs and arms around him, digging my fingers into his back.
I need you inside me, too.
Over and over, and over.
Turning my face, I find his neck and suck it, letting my teeth gently nip him.
“Fuck me, Luke.”
Oh, for the love of everything good, fuck me hard.
He doesn’t wait to be told again, and growls as he thrusts inside. There’s no slow and gentle to this, which is exactly how I want it.
He thrusts in and out, again and again, and I hold on tight as our bodies move together. He’s lost to it as he works harder and faster to achieve his release.
And then he comes. He thrusts deep one last time before his body shudders and stills. I cling to him, needing my own release. It’s so close. Teasing me in that way where you want to scream out—‘For fuck’s sake, just let me have it’.
“Oh, God… Oh, God…” When it finally hits, all I can do is chant my way through it. The orgasm rushes through me, wiping out all my bad memories of the last three months of nothing but bad dates and vibrators.
I let Luke go, and fling my arms out to the side and close my eyes. I have no more energy left to even hold onto him anymore. That orgasm exhausted me completely.
He pulls out and chuckles. Brushing a kiss on my lips, he says, “You look beautiful when you’ve just been fucked.”
I summon enough energy to open my eyes and pout. “Only when I’ve just been fucked?”
He grins and drops another kiss on my lips. As he moves off the bed, he alters his previous statement. “Let me clarify—you are beautiful to me all the time, but when I’ve just fucked you, you’re off-the-charts sexy.”
I watch him walk to the bathroom as happiness whooshes through me.
Not only have I broken my dry spell, but I broke it with Luke.
The man I’ve been dreaming of for almost a year.
The man who wants me just as much as I want him.
The married man.
Oh, dear Lord, what was I thinking?
Chapter 4
Callie
I watch from my bed as Luke shrugs his shirt over his head. I’ve been watching him for the past five minutes at least, as he took a phone call, all the while with a scowl on his face. He didn’t speak much during the call, but rather he listened to whatever was being said. To say I am disappointed that he’s covering his gorgeous body with clothes and leaving is an understatement. After craving this man for the last year, the previous hour with him is far from enough.
His eyes find mine as he shoves his phone in the pocket of his jeans. I see regret there, which is unusual. Luke usually masks his emotions. Unless he’s angry or frustrated, I can’t generally tell what he’s feeling. “I have to go.”
When he doesn’t say anything further, I nod. His words hurt more than I want to admit. An hour ago, he told me I’d stolen his attention, but now it feels like he can’t get out of here fast enough. My brain knows he didn’t come here just for sex, but my heart is crushed.
His forehead creases in a frown, and he opens his mouth to say something, but a text message captures his attention. When he pulls his phone out and reads it, the lines etching his forehead deepen. Looking back at me, he says, “Sorry, Callie, I really need to go. I’ll call you in the morning.”
“It’s okay, Luke, go. I’ll talk to you tomorrow.” As much as I wanted him to stay a moment ago, I now want him to leave. If I’m going to drown in my own unhappiness, I’d rather do it by myself.
With one last glance at me, he turns and exits my bedroom. The sound of the front door clicking shut signals that I’m alone and I allow the confusion and hurt to take over.
* * *
“I haven’t had time to start searching for info on Luke yet,” Avery says the next day when she calls me on my lunch break.
I relax back into my seat in the back corner of the café and rest my feet on the chair across from me. I’ve got an hour for my break today, and I’m a little concerned I might fall asleep. After Luke left last night, I hardly slept as thoughts of him ran through my mind. I’d been upset that he left so quickly, but the more I thought about it, the more it felt out of character with the way he arrived and with what he told me. After tossing and turning for hours, I finally fell asleep after making the decision to go see him tonight if I don’t hear from him today. I’m not the kind of girl who feels it necessary to wait for a man to come to her. I’d much rather take matters into my own hands.
“You don’t need to look for info on him. He came over last night and told me about himself.” I don’t elaborate because I’ve decided to keep what I know of Luke’s personal life to myself. It doesn’t feel right to share what he told me in confidence. As much as Avery is my girl and I tell her everything, I always keep things to myself if they’ve been shared in this manner.
“Well, spill!”
“I can’t tell you everything because he told me this stuff in confidence and you know what I’m like. But I will tell you that he’s married.”
“Holy. Shit. No.”
“Yes, he is.”
“What the actual fuck? Why did he kiss you the other night if he’s married? And how did we not know this about him?”
“Before you get carried away, he’s getting a divorce… Well, at least I think he is. They’re not together, so there is that.”
“You need to give me more here, Callie. None of this is making much sense.”
“I can’t. I need to talk to Luke first and make sure he’s okay for me to share more.”
“Ugh. You drive me crazy with your refusal to share stuff,” she mutters.
“Yeah, well you like it when it’s your private stuff I don’t share.”
“You are a pain in my ass, chick. Why did I have to find the one best friend who has the morals you do? Why couldn’t I have found a loose-lips bestie?”
“Stop your grumbling. You adore me.” I pick at the sandwich sitting in front of me. I only ordered it because I felt I should eat. I’m not really that hungry.
“So if Luke’s getting a divorce, did he kiss you again?”
I sigh. “We had sex, but—”
Before I can go on, she cuts me off. “Oh, my God, you finally broke that drought! And with Luke-fucking-Hardy.”
“Well, I may have broken the drought, but he left pretty damn fast afterwards. And I really think that the personal shit he’s got going on could get in the way of any more action between us.”
Personal shit?
More like a personal mess of epic proportions, Callie. Don’t go getting your hopes up that this is going to end in an easy happy-fucking-ever-after.
“I’m really going to have to find a computer and google the shit out of him.”
“Please don’t do that.” I’m almost begging. “It really is private stuff, and I’m pretty sure if Luke wanted everyone to know, he would have told us by now.”
She’s quiet for a moment. “You really like him, don’t you? Like, this isn’t just a casual shot at something here, is it? You want more with Luke.”
My tummy flutter
s as I think about what she said. “Yes, I really like him.”
“Okay, I won’t google him, but I want you to know this is going to be hard for me. I have to work with him tonight, and it’s going to take all my willpower not to say anything about all this. You better be ready to shower gifts or some shit on me for being a good best friend.”
A smile spreads across my face. Meeting Avery the first week after I moved to Brisbane three years ago was destined. She took me under her wing and made me feel like I hadn’t just made a bad decision by packing up and leaving my home in Melbourne. And she hasn’t let me down since. She’s always got my back. “I’ll be sure to stock up on Chupa Chups. They’ll fit in my budget.” They’re also her favourite lollipops.
“Has the café cut more hours from you?”
“It’s so up and down at the moment. I’ve worked heaps of hours the last couple of days, but I have hardly any scheduled now for the next week. More might come up at the last minute, but I’m having to dip into my savings and I hate doing that.”
“You could ask Luke if he’s got any hours. We had a girl quit the other day.”
“God no. I don’t want to work for the guy I just slept with. That’s the worst idea you’ve ever had.”
“It really is.” She sighs. “Just ignore me today, I’m not with it.”
“What’s going on? Do I need to be worried about you?”
“No, I’m okay, just really tired. My eBay shop has been really busy the last week, so I’ve been working heaps to get the orders out. And on top of that, Helena is having a bad week, so I’ve been trying to talk her off the ledge. I just need a week of sleep and a good lay to get me back to normal.”
Although she’s doing her best to put my mind at ease, I’m not convinced. Avery’s sister, Helena, suffers from depression and Avery is the one who always makes sure she’s okay. She also helps pay for Helena’s study. I don’t know anyone who works as much as my best friend. Between her family, her full-time job with Luke and the eBay store she runs part-time, I’m not sure where she’ll find the time to sleep, let alone get laid.
“Can I help with the eBay orders, babe?”
She’s silent for a beat. Avery hates accepting help. After a lifetime of always being the one who has looked after everyone else, she’s wired this way, and I’m trying to snap her out of it. The answer she gives me tells me just how much she needs me. “I would love your help. Thank you.” Her voice is soft, unlike the usual take-charge Avery she usually channels.
“Consider it done. When?”
“Tomorrow morning. Eight sharp and bring me coffee.” I smile at her return to bossy Avery. I love both sides of her, but this side reassures me that she’s still doing okay. That she’s still fighting the good fight and winning. If the day ever comes where she’s not winning, I’ll be screwed, because Avery is my lifeline to air most days.
“I’ll be there,” I promise. “With coffee.” She has an addiction to Starbucks that I will happily feed if it helps put that smile on her face that I love.
“I wanna know the minute you hear from Luke, okay? Text me.”
I agree and finish the call.
I then check my messages.
Still nothing from Luke.
* * *
Nine hours later, I’m staring at Avery as she makes cocktails at Elixir. I’ve come to the bar to see Luke, but he’s nowhere in sight. Avery glances up for a moment and sees me.
I mouth, “Is Luke here?”
She shakes her head and motions for me to give her a minute. Dumping my bag on the counter, I look around, taking in the amount of people here tonight. For nine on a Tuesday night, it’s busy. Luke’s bar is pretty much always busy, but not usually like this at the beginning of the week.
“Luke’s not coming in tonight, Callie,” Avery says when she finishes with her customers. Clearing empty glasses off the counter, she adds, “He called a couple of hours ago to say he had stuff at home to deal with and that he’d organised extra staff to help me.”
Luke never takes time off.
“Did he sound okay?”
She cocks her head to the side. “He hasn’t called you yet?”
“No,” I admit, feeling defeated. It’s silly that I allow myself to feel this way because he made it clear last night he was interested but as much as I try to tell myself that there must be a perfectly reasonable explanation for this, I’m disappointed.
“Call him, babe.”
“You know how much I hate having important conversations on the phone. I want to go see him, but I don’t want to force myself on him when he might be dealing with family stuff.”
When he might be dealing with a murdering wife.
Remember her?
You should just walk away now before you get more attached to a man you can’t have.
But I really want him.
But he’s really married.
Shut up.
“Well, text him then,” she says in her bossy voice.
I poke my tongue at her and ignore the grin she unleashes on me before turning away to serve more customers. However, I pull out my phone and send Luke a text.
Me: I know you’re busy with family stuff, but I feel like we need to talk after last night. When will you have some time?
Ten minutes pass with no reply and my stomach knots with apprehension. Jesus, this whole sleeping-together-and-then-wondering-where-the-hell-it-will-lead-next thing sucks. Maybe I should just be happy with bad internet dates and the occasional crappy lay. At least I feel like a sane person dating those guys. This thing with Luke is giving me whiplash from the constant back-and-forth my mind has been doing all day. One minute, I’m trusting in the universe and in Luke, and then the next I’m spiralling down into an abyss of why-the-fuck-hasn’t-he-called-me-yet? I’ve driven myself crazy today. I’ve turned into one of those women who count every second of every hour while desperately waiting for a man to call. And, shit, that’s not me. I don’t do that.
Argh.
Enough.
Avery comes back to me once she’s finished with her customers. “Anything?”
I shake my head. “I think I might go ho—”
The sound of my phone ringing causes us both to still.
I check the caller-ID.
“It’s Luke.”
“Answer it,” she says, madly gesturing with her hands.
“Luke,” I say into the phone, my eyes still pinned to Avery. My heart beats faster as I wait to hear what he has to say.
Please don’t let him tell me this was all a mistake.
Dude, he’s fucking married. This can’t be anything but a mistake.
“I’m sorry I haven’t had a chance to call,” he says, and I cross my fingers in the way I used to do all the time as a kid when I was hoping for something to go my way.
Callie…
Why can’t you just fuck right off and let me dream for once?
Because you know this is wrong.
“Avery said you had family stuff going on. Is everything okay?” I feel shy with him, which is the weirdest thing. I’m never like this with men. But with Luke, I suddenly feel all jittery—as if I’m full of dread at the same time as hope bursts through me.
“What are you doing at the moment?”
“I’m sitting in your bar trying to figure out if last night was a one-off.” My honesty kills me sometimes, and I cringe as it comes pouring out of my mouth. But I’m not wired any other way.
He’s silent for a moment. “Because you didn’t hear from me today?” His question almost does kill me. If there’s one thing I respect the most in this world, it’s direct communication. I can’t stand doing the dance of hedging bets and not laying it all on the line from the get-go.
“Yeah… But that’s my issue, not yours. You’re obviously dealing with some stuff and if this is too much—”
He cuts me off. “Can you come over to my place?”
“What? Now?”
“Yes. We need to talk.�
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No, we don’t.
We could just kiss.
And then you could do that thing where you take your clothes off and—
“Callie,” he says. “Stop thinking and come over.”
Oh, man. His voice has that deep, bossy tone he likes to use on me sometimes. Hell, who am I kidding? He uses that bossy tone on me all the time.
“Okay, text me your address. But honestly, if there are more revelations like there were last night, Luke, I’m not sure I want to know.”
Silence.
Dead silence.
Oh. My. God.
“What else? Tell me right now,” I demand as my heart speeds up again.
He sighs. “Just come over. I don’t want to do this over the phone.”
I do what he says.
And on the drive to his house, I tell myself that I need to put a stop to this now. I am not the kind of woman who sleeps with a married man. I don’t care that he’s practically divorced. Until he has that piece of paper, I need to keep him out of my pants.
* * *
Luke answers the door, and I have to work hard not to swoon all over the damn place. It’s not his muscles or his lips or the way his gaze takes in every inch of me that does it. It’s his green eyes and how they lock onto mine before he murmurs my name in a way that no man should ever be allowed to murmur it.
You will not let him in your pants.
You will not let him in your pants
You will not—
He places his hand on my arm, and I almost jolt out of my skin at his touch. I’m pretty sure the talk I gave myself on the way over here has been long forgotten. I’m more than sure that if Luke Hardy told me to jump off a damn cliff, I’d do it. Jerking his chin, he says, “Come in.”
Our eyes don’t let each other go as I step inside. I’m under his spell, and nothing can break it.
And then I hear a woman’s voice, and I freeze.
“Sean, no!”
My head spins.