by Khloe Wren
Scout nodded. “Okay. Finally, what do you three want to happen at the end of this shit? Eagle?”
“I want to stay. I love being a Charon, love my life here. But I want my brothers by my side. It wouldn’t be the same without Mac or Taz with me. And I’m not giving up Silk. No fucking way. Only way I leave her is if I’m in the ground. However, I would prefer to stay breathing, to be here for the birth of our baby and to raise ‘em here in Bridgewater, in the safety of the club.”
Scout nodded again. “Mac?”
“Same as Eagle. I found where I belong here with the Charons, I don’t want to leave it. But I won’t leave my brothers either. Same as Eagle, I want to be above ground to see the birth of Zara’s and my child and to raise kids here in town with my Charon family.”
Another nod. “Taz?”
“Ditto to what they said. Didn’t think I’d find somewhere I fit after leaving USMC, but I did. Here with the Charons. I’m sorry we didn’t come to you before now about how we came to be here, but we didn’t want to risk what we had. I’d appreciate being able to keep Flick with me. Honestly didn’t expect to fall for anyone. Ever. But she’s a hell of a woman and I’m pretty sure she’s it for me. You take her out, I’m alone forever. Assuming you don’t put me in the same hole as she goes in.”
Fuck, I hated talking like this. This was my fucking family and here I was talking about them potentially putting me and my girl in the fucking ground. It was bullshit.
“Right. Well, we need to figure out what the fuck to do with you all. So, that means you three get locked down while we discuss it. Don’t need you running off on us, or trying to bust out your girl. You gonna be good and go down willingly?”
“If it means we’re more likely to be able to stay in the club, then yeah, we’ll go willingly.”
With an ache in my chest, I trailed behind Mac and Eagle as Nitro led us downstairs. What would we do if we all got kicked to the curb? I was sick of being told I wasn’t welcome. Sucks to be me, apparently.
After that fucking fire that took my mum and sister, and ripped my world apart, the only family I had left was my dad’s older sister here in the States. Child services shipped me over to her and left me there without so much as a second glance. Fairly certain, I would have done better with a foster home in Australia than with Aunt Pam.
She was ten years older than my dad had been, and was a bitter, nasty old woman. Having buried her brother and parents, she’d buried herself in her grief. Had let it eat at her. She’d never married and put all her time into running her ranch. Damn, but the fact she had all that land and cattle and horses had been a God-send to me. It had given me an escape from the house. Worked my ass off the entire time I lived there. When I hit eighteen, she made it clear she’d done her duty. I didn’t argue. It was hard to try and live somewhere you knew you weren’t wanted. Apparently the fact I looked just like my father was a major crime in Aunt Pam’s book.
I thought the USMC was going to be my new family for the rest of my life. But after that shit with Stone and those asshole Marines, things changed. I guess it made me take a good look at myself. At all the lives I’d taken and I didn’t really like the man I’d become anymore.
Leaving the Marines hadn’t been that hard to do really, not with Eagle and Mac with me. But being kicked to the curb by the Charons was gonna fucking hurt. Here with them, the three of us really had a chance at a life in a family that would always have our backs.
Fuck, we never should have agreed to go undercover. Should have said no way, then come down to that poker run to check the club out anyhow.
Too fucking late now, though. Because, like always, the past was what it was. Set in stone and unchangeable.
And wasn’t that a bitch?
CHAPTER 19
Taz
We were left in the cells for fucking hours. At least they put the three of us together, and when no one came to deliver a beat down we considered it a win. I remembered the shape Eagle had been in after the one he copped last year. Also remembered the fit Silk threw afterward. I was pretty sure if the club touched Eagle again, Silk would keep to her word and walk away from the club for good, taking her man with her. Hopefully Bulldog remembered that fact when they were discussing punishment.
The clank of the door being unlocked had all of us tensing. Nitro swung the door open.
“C’mon, you three. Time for church.”
“What about Flick?”
Nitro shook his head. “Not yet, brother. Soon, though.”
Knowing arguing was pointless, I turned and pounded my way up the stairs and followed the others into the meeting room. Hopefully, not for the last time.
Like earlier, it was just the club officers. The president, vice president, secretary, treasurer and sergeant in arms, all standing beside each other made one hell of an imposing sight.
“You three should have come forward with this shit earlier, you know that, right? The fact we had to stumble over it isn’t helping your cases.”
Mac spoke for us all, as per usual. “How? We discussed it several times but none of us could think of a way to say it that wouldn’t have ended with us dead or at least left bloody and booted out. Especially after what y’all did to Eagle.”
Scout huffed, adjusted his bandana then re-crossed his arms over his chest. “We like you boys. You’ve been a good addition to the club. Hate to see you y’all go. But you need to pay a price to the club to make this shit right.”
I groaned. I couldn’t help it. A beat down was coming our way and it was gonna suck.
Bulldog chuckled. “It ain’t what you’re thinking, Taz. Can’t risk giving you three beat downs for a couple reasons. There’s the fact that Silk will pack up Eagle here and leave us, but mainly, we’d have to tell the entire club what’s gone on here. And we don’t think that’ll help the club as a whole.”
I blew out a breath in relief as Scout took back control of the conversation.
“First up, you all need to cut all ties with the FBI. If they threaten you in an attempt to get you to stay with them, let me know and we’ll deal with whatever it is. We can’t have undercovers in the club. Next thing, you’re all on fucking probation. I’m not taking your top rockers, but it’ll feel like I have. You’ll get cage duty, and shitty jobs for the next year. The club will probably notice and start asking questions, but you’ll all just fucking shrug that shit off. I don’t want the truth getting out and killing the morale of our club. And we’ll be watching you three closely for anything that looks like you’re reporting anything to someone outside the club. Again, if the feds contact you at all for anything, you come straight to me with it. Understand?”
We all spoke at the same time. “Yes, prez.”
Fuck, we were getting off light, really. The next year would suck, but it would pass soon enough.
Scout then turned his full attention onto me. “We’re gonna cut Flick loose. She’s paid her dues at the hands of the Cowboys. You can keep fucking her, but so long as she’s FBI, she ain’t welcome in the clubhouse, or any other club property. Got me?”
“Yeah, I got you.”
Fuck. Flick wouldn’t be happy with that. She’d enjoyed her time here at the clubhouse, and she seemed to love working at Styxx. This was basically going to come down to Flick picking either me or her job with the FBI. I honestly wasn’t sure which she’d choose.
“Nitro, go get her up here. We need to deal with this shit before everyone comes in for church in a couple hours.”
“Can I take her upstairs for a bit before she gets shoved out the door?”
They all chuckled at me, but I didn’t care. “Yeah, you can go help her clean up and say what you need to. Then I need you to go with her to see Gus. Without her present for the conversation, I need you to get the keys to his property off him. Gonna need to find this fucking bunker Viper’s got a hard-on for.”
A few minutes later, I winced as she walked in. She was walking stiffly but held her chin up. My girl was made
of strong stuff. But she was fucking hurting, and the night in the cold basement wouldn’t have helped anything, I’m sure. I reached for her and pulled her in against me. Wrapping my arms around her, I kissed the top of her head.
“I said after, brother. Let her alone long enough for us to get this shit done.”
Turning her around in my arms so she faced everyone, I kept my hands on her hips. She folded her arms over her chest and leaned back against me. Despite, trying to appear casual, I could feel the wariness coming off her, along with a good dose of fear.
“As far as we’re concerned, Flick, so long as you vow to not report anything you’ve found out about us or the Cowboys to your superiors, you’ve been punished enough with what the Cowboys did to you. But we can’t knowingly allow a fed in the clubhouse. So, you have a choice—you’re either loyal to the Charons or the FBI. You can’t be both. If you pick the FBI, we’re not gonna stop you from seeing Taz, but you won’t be welcome at anything club related.”
Her shoulders rose and fell as she took a breath then exhaled it.
“How much time do I have to make my decision?”
“None. You’re out unless you leave the FBI. You get in contact with me if you choose to be loyal to the Charons, and we’ll discuss how we can let you in. You’ll be watched closely for the next year, regardless.”
She nodded. “Okay. I’ll let you know. Am I free to go?”
“Not just yet. Taz is gonna take you upstairs so you can get cleaned up, then I need you to take Taz with you to go see your uncle and let him see you’re safe.”
She gave Scout a nod, and in turn, he gave me one. “Get out of here, all of you. We got church in two hours. Taz, I doubt you’ll make it since you got shit to do this morning, but if you get back and we’re still in here, come and report, yeah?”
“Sure thing, prez.”
Taking her hand, I led her out, gathered our shit from the locker and headed upstairs. When I found my old room was vacant I guided her in there, booted the door shut and locked it. Then I was fucking on her. Moving her up against the wall, I pressed myself against her as I took her mouth. With a moan she melted for me, parting her lips and letting me in. Her palms slid under my cut and down my sides until she could slip them up under my shirt and against my bare skin.
I pulled back and stripped out of my cut and shirt, tossing them on the chair beside us. I toed off my boots and was going for my fly when she pulled her own shirt off. I hissed at the bruising she revealed.
“Fuck, babe. What’d they do to you?”
“Boot to the ribs. Pretty sure they’re bruised.” She shrugged, like it was no big deal she’d been hurt. “They’ll heal up soon enough.”
She unclipped her bra, and shoved down her pants, kicking them off, along with her shoes. Even with the dirt and bruising, she was fucking beautiful. And I was gonna fucking lose her, I knew it. It was how my life went. I was lucky that Scout and the others had decided I could keep my MC family, but it would come at the cost of my love. Sucks to be me, because fuck it all, I wanted to keep both.
Flick
Tears stung my eyes at the look Taz was giving me. He’d stalled out stripping with his pants half undone. The moment I was fully naked, he’d stopped and just stood there staring with all the longing in the world on his face. This was him saying goodbye. He was assuming I wouldn’t pick him. That he was too fucking broken or some shit for me to want him. That was the biggest load of shit, but I couldn’t tell him that. Not yet. First, I had to head north to Dallas and report in. I had no idea what the FBI was going to do with me. So, until that was handled, I couldn’t get Taz’s hopes up, just to break his heart even worse in the end.
With a swing of my hips, I swayed up to him, pressing a kiss over his heart as I slid my hands inside his pants to push them down.
“C’mon, babe. Let’s get cleaned up.”
He didn’t say a word, but allowed me to take his hand and pull him into the bathroom once he’d stepped out of his jeans. I turned my back to him as I sorted out the water. Apparently, the sight of my bare ass was enough to snap him out of his funk. I felt his heat a moment before his body pressed against mine. His dick was hard and nestled between my butt cheeks as he surrounded me. I shuddered against him as he wrapped his arms around me, stroking his palms over my skin. Fuck, I hoped I would be able to come back to this man. I knew full well I was leaving my damn heart with him, whether I made it back or not.
Once the water was warm, I moved under the spray, Taz following me, kissing my shoulder as he cupped my breasts once we were under the spray. Lifting my arm, I ran my palm over his face, over his stubble, then around so my fingers ran through the short hair on the back of his head. He kissed his way up my neck and along my jaw, before he cupped my cheek and turned my head so he could kiss me again. With each lick and nip, he undid me even more.
Tears formed and flowed, getting lost in the spray of the water as he began to gently clean me. I didn’t fight him, but let him move me as he wished, while he ran the soap over every inch of me. By the time I took the soap from him to return the favor, I was nearly panting with arousal. He stood still for me, following my every move with his hot, hard gaze as I ran the bar of soap over his every muscle. Fuck, I was going to miss him. Why couldn’t I be a normal girl who fell for a bad boy, instead of a complete failure of an undercover agent who fell for a bad boy? I washed him head to foot, leaving his dick and balls till last. Lathering up my hands, I slipped the soap back into the dish before I gripped him.
As I ran one hand over his balls, and the other around his hard length, he hissed and threw his head back. I sighed at the sight that was oh, so very masculine. Shifting to the side to let the spray wash the suds away, I lowered myself down to my knees, wrapping my lips over the head of his dick before he could say a word to stop me. I flicked my tongue over the metal he had pierced through him and he shuddered. One hand shot out to brace himself against the tiles while the other he wrapped in my hair, guiding my movements.
The water pouring over me began to cool and he pulled me away from his dick, before he leaned over to flip off the taps. I rose slowly, sliding against his wet skin on my way to stand.
“Fuck, kitty. You slay me.”
He lifted me up and pressed my back against the tile. I barely felt the hardness of them, as I wrapped my legs around his hips and his dick slid home inside me. My fingers dug into his slick shoulders as he rested his forehead against mine and began to slowly thrust in and out. On each stroke in, he ground his hips so he teased my clit. This slow and sweet thing was new for us. Every other time we’d come together, it had been fast and furious. I closed my eyes against the rising emotions. It was on the tip of my tongue to tell him I loved him, but I still had to go to Dallas, still had to leave. There was no point in telling him things that wouldn’t change anything, except hurt him more.
Taz nuzzled his face in against my throat, sucking on the skin there, branding me. Whispering his name, I allowed the sensations of him loving me gently to push me over the edge to an orgasm like I’d never experienced.
When I floated down, I found myself lying on the bed, Taz pressing kisses over my face and jaw. I ran my palms up his hard arms, following the lines of the muscles up to his shoulders. With a growl, he moved to kiss his way over my breasts and torso. My hands dropped from his skin as he shifted between my thighs and covered my core with his mouth.
Still sensitive from my climax, I arched up against him as he thrust his tongue deep inside me. Then he slid his palms under my ass, holding me to him so he could thoroughly devour me. And he did. Fuck, he had a talented mouth. One more thing I was going to miss.
Taz didn’t ease off until I’d come twice more for him. By the time he crawled up over my body, I could barely move. My mind pleasantly buzzed with all the endorphins, I grinned up at him as he covered me.
CHAPTER 20
Taz
Flick was fucking killing me. What looked suspiciously like love shone
bright in her gaze as she stared up at me, but she hadn’t said the words. And I knew she wouldn’t. I had to keep my own fucking mouth shut, so I wouldn’t start begging her to fucking choose me and stay here.
Only way to shut myself up was to keep my mouth busy, so I kissed her again. Absorbing as much of her taste and scent as I could, I slid my cock deep within her again. Her channel was tight from her orgasms and rippled around me. I loved that I could take her without a condom. Before her, I’d never gone bareback, but now that I’d had Flick with no barrier, I couldn’t imagine having to put one between us. Couldn’t imagine fucking anyone else, either.
I was in so much fucking trouble, but right now I didn’t want to think about it. I had her wet and willing beneath me and I intended to take full advantage. For as long as I could.
I kept my strokes slow and steady, enjoying every fucking second of the feel of her flesh against mine. I kissed her mouth, suckled on her perfect fucking tits. And shuddered when she arched up beneath me and dug her fingernails into my shoulders.
Making love to Flick had my arousal building slowly, and I didn’t expect my climax to hit when it did. It was a sudden explosion that had me jerking inside her, and sweat dripping down my spine.
“Fuck me.”
My arms gave out, and my weight dropped on her.
“Hmmm.”
Rolling to the side, I kept her with me, holding her close in against me. Her lips were soft against my chest as she feathered kisses over my skulls and web tattoos. Over my stupid fucking heart that she now owned.
“Flick, kitty—”
“Don’t say it. You know I don’t really have a choice here. Don’t make this harder than it already is.”
My stupid fucking eyes started stinging and I held her tighter so she wouldn’t see I was struggling. After a few minutes, I pressed a kiss to the top of her head, then rolled out of bed. Heading back to the bathroom, I quickly cleaned up before getting dressed. My clothes from yesterday weren’t too bad, thankfully. Flick, on the other hand, definitely needed to find a change of clothes before we visited her uncle.