by Jill Myles
My entourage moved through the heart of the city through to the palace. As we moved, people began to trail around the soldiers, excited. Cheering. For me. It was a heady feeling, and I waved at them and tossed coins into the streets, which made the crowd even larger. It seemed that I’d left Balinore a humiliation and returned as a hero. Strange. By the time we got to the palace gates and I emerged from the carriage, I was blushing from the cheers that arose at the sight of me. Surely a little money tossed in their direction wasn’t enough to make me such a beloved figure? It was puzzling. Cries of “Good Queen Rinda” went up in the crowd, which startled me. News traveled fast. I’d scarcely left Balinore a month ago and emerged as queen of Lioncourt only a few days after that, yet somehow they had heard the news.
Puzzled by this, I let the guards lead the way as I returned to the palace. This time, no one would stop me. Disgraced Princess Rinda married to a beggar had been kept out, but no one would dare prevent the Queen of Lioncourt from entering.
No one was there to greet me as I entered the wide double-doors of my family’s home. This did not surprise me, since my father was no doubt livid over my return. But Imogen’s lack of concern still hurt. I guessed that my family would be in the throne room, and I headed in that direction.
My sister was seated upon my father’s throne. Her expression was regal and serene, and she said nothing as my party approached the throne. I gave her a quick curtsy of introduction, and was pleased to see the smile spread across her face. “Sister,” Imogen greeted, her smile warming. “It is so good to see you again.”
“And you,” I said, glancing around the throne room. It was empty of the nobility that normally loitered at court, and I wondered if this was deliberate. Instead, only servants and guardsmen clung to the walls. Also missing? My father.
But that was forgotten as my sister moved off of the throne and swept forward in a flash of muted skirts, her hands extended out to me. “Come, let us talk, Rinda.” While her words were warm, the look in her eyes was concerned. “Father could not be here to greet you. He is vacationing at the shore with some of the nobility. When I heard that you were returning to us for a visit, I stayed behind so someone could greet you.”
“I don’t care if Father’s here,” I told her, and realized that it was the truth. I could care less what my father thought of me anymore. I no longer thought of him at all. So I tucked my hand in hers and let my sister sweep me forward toward the dais. “I’m sorry to keep you from your trip, Imogen.”
She waved a hand and gave me a wide eyed look of surprise. “Of course I will be here to greet you,” she said, emphasizing the words. “You are my sister who has been brought low–”
For some reason, it irritated me that she would bring that up. Imogen always meant well, but I hated that she automatically thought less of me. I was not a charity case. “Actually, I am queen of Lioncourt now.”
Her eyes widened in surprise, and then a smile spread across her face. “Of course! How silly of me to forget.” She glanced at the servants and waved them forward. “We shall celebrate my sister’s return! Wine for all!”
We chatted as refreshments were brought, and one of the servants pulled my sister’s smaller throne next to my father’s so I could sit at Imogen’s side. My sister talked of various things – of the crops she’d helped save, of the laws she was helping bring about, of her upcoming wedding. All of it was done while squeezing my hand and speaking animatedly. A servant handed her wine and she gave him a thankful look, though I saw her eyes narrow when the servant turned to me and offered me the same.
Realization splashed over me like a cold breeze. Of course. Imogen didn’t know what to think of my return. My sister loved me, but my sister also loved attention, and her affection for me was warring with her need for adoration. That was why her voice was a little too cheerful and happy, and why she had stayed behind. Imogen liked being the good daughter, the right daughter. The perfect daughter.
I supposed that it had been easy to love me when I was the one that was constantly getting in trouble – she had loved me because she wanted everyone to love her. And now my strange appearance and the excitement that the commoners had shown at my arrival was bizarre to her, and Imogen did not know how to act toward me. My heart clenched a little at that. My sister had always loved me, but she had loved Balinore more, and she wanted – no, needed – its love in return. My sister was the long suffering princess of the people because that was what she enjoyed.
For some reason, it made me sad for her. So I squeezed her hand and declined the wine offered. “Tell me more about how things have been at court,” I said to her, judging it a safe topic.
She sipped her wine and then put it aside, giving me a faint smile. “It has been strange. We have received odd reports from Lioncourt, and of course, everyone talks of nothing but you and your deeds.”
My mouth went dry. “My deeds?”
“Yes,” she said, clearly surprised that others viewed me in high esteem. “It seems that the jongleurs have all been quick to share tales of the magic princess who saved her husband from a cave full of rampaging spiders and brought down the monarchy of Lioncourt to give her husband the throne.”
I blushed to hear it. “That’s not exactly how it happened, or what happened at all.”
“No? I’m surprised. There are many tales of your bravery and your love for your husband, and your fierce, bold magic.” My sister looked openly puzzled. “Were those stories really about you?”
“Well, there was only one large spider and a lot of small ones. And my husband was already the king, but someone was trying to take his throne. And my magic’s the same as it’s always been. I’ve just found more uses for it.” Though my words were modest, I admit that I smiled with pride, thinking of it all. “It was quite a journey…unfortunately with a bad ending.”
I left it open, in case she wanted to talk, in case she truly cared what had happened to me. We could have a sisterly moment, snuggle up under the covers together like we did as children and confess our secrets. I could tell her about how I had loved – and left – Alek, who was the best, most decent man alive, but had lied to me and made me feel unwanted and stupid.
My sister only patted my hand and gave me a soft smile. “The stories did sound too fantastic to be about you.”
I laughed. Not because she was right, but because she might have been right a few weeks ago. Back when I’d fed pearls to fish and the scope and breadth of my day was determined by how much I could vex my father. I was still outspoken and unafraid, but I was no longer that girl, starved for any sort of attention. I felt centered and more at ease with myself now more than ever.
“Your stay in Lioncourt must have been torturous, then. I cannot imagine how horrible it must have been to be married to a poor man.”
“Actually, Lioncourt was lovely,” I said, thinking fondly of the sunlit city and of the kindnesses shown to me there. Alek's smiling face came to mind and my heart ached. I remembered his warm kisses and the way he’d held my hand when we walked.
I thought of him handing me flowers and blushing when I would reach out and crush the flower in my hand. He’d laughed and taken my sourness as a challenge. He’d never been angry, not like my father always was, or disappointed in me like my sister.
I thought of huddling close to Alek in the spider caves. Of him staying up all night for days on end so I could get some sleep. I thought of holding hands in the darkness.
I thought of him lying with his head in my lap, and me so worried that he was dead that tears streamed forth from my eyes. And the sheer relief and love I’d felt when he awoke and smiled at me. And I remembered the happy evenings we’d had in our small cottage together, when we’d smiled into each other’s eyes and went to bed early.
“It was not horrible being married to Alek,” I said in a husky voice. “Not ever.”
“Yet you are back here?” She said in a curious voice. “How long will you be staying?”
I bar
ely heard her. My mind was full of thoughts of Aleksandr. His warm, open smile. The way he’d held me against him, the way he’d stroked my hair. The look in his eyes when he told me he loved me. The shy look he’d given me when he’d told me that he had wanted to marry me because of my sharp tongue and forthright manner.
He’d never mentioned that it had to do with me being a princess. Only that he’d wanted me. There were princesses in the Southlands with purer bloodlines and richer dowries. He’d given my wealth away to strangers and handed me flowers to make me smile.
And all of that was for me, not any other princess.
“Rinda?”
“Not long,” I said, squeezing her hands as I came to a realization. I still loved my husband. I didn’t understand why he’d never told me the truth, but it didn’t matter. Spending every day without him would be miserable. He hadn’t trusted me, true. But every one of his actions and gestures had showed me just how much he loved me. Just how much he cared for me, and how he thought I was smart and clever all along.
I’d been too blinded with pride to see it before now.
I smiled at my sister and squeezed her hand. “Not long,” I repeated. “I just wanted to see you to let you know I was well, and then I’m going back to Lioncourt.” Back to Alek and his warm smiles. My pride could stay here in Balinore – I no longer needed its cold company.
“Well, that’s a shame,” My sister said in a voice that told me she clearly didn’t understand. “But if you think it’s for the best…”
“I do,” I said cheerfully, thinking of Lioncourt and the sunshine and my husband. I wanted to go home.
Imogen brightened. “At least when you return, the minstrels will have something new to sing about. They’re quite terrible.”
I gave her a half-smile, scarcely paying attention. Oh, I’d spent so much time away from Alek. I was such an idiot for leaving his side, simply because I’d been hurt. “The songs?”
“No, the minstrels,” she said, her pretty eyes widening. “One is quite terrible. I’ve never heard anything like it. He can’t carry a tune in the slightest.”
My heart thumped painfully in my chest, and my entire body froze. “He…can’t sing?”
“No,” she said dryly. “And to make matters worse, he is terribly enthusiastic about the whole deal. Sings all kinds of war songs and battle songs, all off key. He keeps trying to enter the castle, too. We’ve had to tell him that no entertainers are allowed while you are visiting.”
My heart was in my throat and I jumped to my feet. “Where do you think he is?”
Imogen’s eyes went wide. “Why…loitering outside the castle, I imagine.”
I tore from the throne room, ignoring the maids and guardsmen that moved out of my way. My sister called after me, but I ignored her, my heart pounding so hard in my chest that I could barely think. Hope pounded through me, and I crossed the bailey of the castle, shoving my way past the guards to the courtyard of Threshold, where the minstrels were forced to wait.
It was empty.
My hope crashed. No one was here. No Alek. I took a few steps forward, disbelieving, my fists clenched tight as I staggered through the doors, my rich skirts dragging through the churned-up mud. “Alek,” I whispered, my heart breaking anew. I scanned the empty courtyard one last time before turning to go back inside.
A bright flower appeared in the corner of my vision.
I turned.
Alek stood there, surrounded by Lioncourt soldiers. He must have been talking to them when I’d emerged, and I’d moved right past them. He moved toward me, an uncertain look on his face. He carried a bright orange flower, and a lute was strapped across his back. His clothing was worn and travel-tattered, his guise of a minstrel once more.
The words I’d hoped to say to him died in my throat as he dropped to his knee in front of me.
“Alek,” I began.
“Rinda, I was wrong,” he said, interrupting me. “I was wrong to not trust you and tell you exactly what was going on. That makes me a fool.”
“Alek,” I tried.
He shook his head and kept talking. “I should have told you what was going on, but I was worried that I’d lose you. You were so proud and beautiful and I was just a bastard soldier that happened to have a king for a father. I’m not noble. I don’t know courtly manners, and you were so elegant and pretty that I thought you’d never want to be with me. I thought I would lose you, and in losing you, my kingdom.”
The flower in his hand shook slightly.
“Alek–”
“And I thought losing my kingdom would be the worst thing possible. But I was wrong. Waking up every morning knowing that you hate me is the worst thing imaginable. Losing the woman I love is more painful than losing my throne a thousand times.”
“Alek,” I said softly.
“So here I am,” he said, holding out the flower and looking up at me with sad, dark eyes. “As a minstrel. The man you married. And if it keeps you in my life, I will give up Lioncourt and everything it means as long as I get to continue to be your husband. You are worth more to me than a thousand kingdoms, and I will happily follow you to the ends of the earth and live with you in a hovel if that is what it takes to win you back. Because when I am with you, I am happy. And when I am not with you, I am nothing.”
“Oh Alek,” I said, grabbing his flower and tossing it aside.
He looked shocked, but I wasn’t done. Now that his hands were free, I grasped them and pulled him to his feet.
“Alek, I love you. It took me journeying home to realize it, but being at home and being a princess wasn’t what made me feel happy, or valuable, or needed. Being with you is all I have ever needed. I want to be with you for the rest of my life.”
His hands went to my waist, his expression one of hope. “And we’ll live together in Balinore?”
“In Lioncourt,” I told him, showering his face with kisses. “And we’ll be king and queen and be ridiculously happy, no matter how rich or how poor we are.”
Epilogue
As the king and queen of Lioncourt, we returned to our kingdom amidst much fanfare and joy. The people were happy to see their young and handsome king return to the throne, and delighted that he’d married me, a princess with wondrous magic and a brave heart (or so the minstrels told it).
With my Birthright of luck, the kingdom knew a prosperity that it had never seen before – wars were ceased before they even began, the poor did not go hungry, and in time, even the kingdom of Balinore grew to admire Lioncourt. As queen, I took dear Annja to my side as my lady in waiting, and her family prospered out of her friendship to me. Alek and I had many friends at court, though none as true as Talis and Annja.
Together, we made the court of Lioncourt happy and prosperous. There was not a day that passed that Alek and I were not constantly together, and he became known for his good and noble heart, and I for my quick wit, occasionally sharp tongue, and forthright manner.
In time, we even had children – a boy and a girl. They were beautiful, as royal children always are, with dark hair and fine skin and even smaller amounts of Birthright magic than me.
And that was perfectly all right, too.
***The End***
Story Notes
If you’re not familiar with the King Thrushbeard fairy tale, it’s one of my favorites. It’s the story of a spoiled princess who’s forced to marry an uncouth man…who is a king in disguise. I love the romanticism of it. However, the original also has a very ‘teach the little woman a lesson’ vibe to it, which I am not a fan of. So I wrote this in an effort to replay the fairy tale in the way I thought it should be done. The princess has a mind of her own and King Thrushbeard may ‘teach her a lesson’, but he’s taught one in return.
Also, if you’ve read any of my other novels, you might be wondering why this one is a very sweet, closed-door romance. My other books? Not so much with the closed door. But I’m a firm believer in that the book calls for what it calls for, and this bo
ok didn’t want to be anything other than what it was – a genuine fairy tale. I hope you enjoy it that way! I know I enjoyed writing it.
And if this is your first experience with one of my books, the others are very much not closed-door in the romance department. If that’s your thing, great! If not, well, fair warning.
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About Jill Myles
Jill Myles is the pen name for USA Today Bestselling Author Jessica Clare. As Jill Myles, she writes a little bit of everything, from sexy, comedic urban fantasy to zombie fairy tales. As Jessica Clare, she writes erotic contemporary romance. She also has a third pen name (because why stop at two?) As Jessica Sims, she writes fun, sexy shifter paranormals.
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